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The Dark Side of Cupid – Hyperdimensional Interferences in Love Relationships

In my article Spiritual Bypassing, Relationships and the Shadow I looked at basic relationships dynamics and what usually comes up for couples in terms of shadow projection. I shared my own experience and wrote about the necessity of psychological education and healing, as well as the danger of “spiritual bypassing,” when we use spiritual and esoteric concepts to bypass basic psychological work and avoid doing deeper work within ourselves. In that article I also mentioned this:

Readers of my blog know that there are forces affecting our planet, the hyperdimensional realm. There is the issue of genetic Psychopathy, the question of the soul and that we are not all the same inside and not all of us have the ability to activate the higher centers. As mentioned before, these are very complex topics that need careful study and consideration. Then there are spirit attachments, which can alter personalities from subtle to very severe. There is also the possibility of higher density souls that have incarnated in this time and age with a certain mission profile, who have a very hard time adapting to this physical experience.

Modern psychotherapy doesn’t acknowledge the possibility of psychic attack and hyperdimensional forces working through us. Most people still have a very anthropocentric worldview. Anyone who tries to awaken from the hypnosis humanity is under will be met with resistance and attack, which can come through our own minds or working through people close to us, draining us, distracting us and sabotaging any attempt to “escape the matrix”.

“There are a thousand things which prevent a man from awakening, which keep him in the power of his dreams. In order to act consciously with the intention of awakening, it is necessary to know the nature of the forces which keep man in a state of sleep. First of all it must be realized that the sleep in which man exists is not normal but hypnotic sleep. Man is hypnotized and this hypnotic state is continually maintained and strengthened in him. One would think that there are forces for whom it is useful and profitable to keep man in a hypnotic state and prevent him from seeing the truth and understanding his position.”

– G. I. Gurdjieff

This blog will address these topics in more depth, especially hyperdimensional interference in love relationships, orchestrated relationships through alien entities, as well as psychic attacks and spirit attachments. It’s a topic that has been on my mind for some years and I’ve wanted to write about it for a while. Having had these kind of experiences in my own life, and having done more research into it, I realize more and more how many people may actually be dealing with these kind of attacks, set-ups, and interferences. This topic is way outside the mainstream and not fully acknowledged or understood in the alternative media nor in many popular conscious movements. Most often it is ridiculed, misunderstood, or denied, like the topic of UFOs and alien abductions by people who haven’t researched these topics in depth. I will refer to past blogs and films that have previously explored these fringe topics. If you are not yet familiar with them, I recommend reading/watching them as well, including the resources and citations within them. There are also many hyperlinks to books and resources for further study.

UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact

Organic Portals – Soulless Humans

Wanderers, Purpose, and Esoteric Work during this Time of Transition

Hyperdimensional Realities

There is more to our reality than our five senses can perceive. We are not God’s ultimate creation, nor are we at the peak on the evolutionary ladder. Our reality is embedded in a complex system of unseen worlds and controlled by denizens of a higher reality. The forces at work are not all good, and we’re not on top of the food chain. “Food” doesn’t have to be physical, and certain beings feed off of our emotions and energy; predominantly, chaos, wars, distorted sexual energy, emotional turmoil and fear, which they initiate and create, by working through us.

Various ancient esoteric teachings talk about a “Hyperdimensional Matrix Control System” (HMCS), each in their own way, that has influenced and controlled humanity for millennia. Don Juan, in Carlos Castaneda’s “The Active Side of Infinity”, called it “the topic of all topics“, speaking of a cosmic predator that uses man as food:

“Man has a glowing coat of awareness which the predator eats, leaving just the bare minimum of “consciousness stuff” for man to remain physically alive. The predator “milks” man through arranging for constant trouble and crisis and senseless preoccupation, so as to generate flashes of awareness that it then proceeds to eat.”

Gurdjeff refers to the “predator” in the tale of “The Evil Magician” and the concept of “Food for the Moon”. The Gnostics maintained that the earth and material creation in general were the product of an evil demiurge, chief of the “archons of darkness“. The Shaitans of the Sufis and the Jinn in Arabian mythology are supernatural creatures who inhabit an unseen world in dimensions beyond the visible universe and interfere with humanity. Boris Mouravieff writes about the “General Law” in his trilogy “Gnosis” which influences humanity and keeps it in its place. It takes tremendous effort, awareness, and sincere self-work to “escape” the General Law and influences of the HMCS.

The UFO phenomenon relates to it in more ways than usually acknowledged by many contemporary UFO researchers who have a very “nuts and bolts” approach to the idea of UFOs, aliens, and extraterrestrials. There is a paranormal characteristic that accompanies UFO sightings, alien abductions, and other high strangeness occurrences, that should encourage us to look at this phenomena in a different way instead of the popular assumptions that UFOs are physical alien space ships coming from other planets. When researching the topic of hyperdimensional realities, it also puts into question the various Disclosure and Exopolitics proposals promoted by some UFO researchers. There is a lot of disinformation surrounding that topic and it is interesting to note that attempts to reveal the hyperdimensional aspect of our reality are often ignored, attacked, and ridiculed, even more so than the “nuts and bolts” scenario.

However, in light of the ancient esoteric teachings, it all makes sense, since the HMCS is trying to conceal exactly that: the existence of Hyperdimensional realities and the beings inhabiting them, who have influenced and controlled humanity for eons.

“If we look at the world from an informational point of view, and if we consider the many complex ways in which time and space my be structured, the old idea of space travel and interplanetary craft to which most technologists are still clinging appears not only obsolete, but ludicrous. Indeed, modern physics has already bypassed it, offering a very different interpretation of what an “extraterrestrial” system might look like. I believe there is a system around us that transcends time as it transcends space. The system may well be able to locate itself in outer space, but its manifestations are not spacecraft in the ordinary ‘nuts and bolts’ sense. The UFOs are physical manifestations that cannot be understood apart from their psychic and symbolic reality. What we see in effect here is a control system which acts on humans and uses humans.

– Dr. Jacques Vallee

“The scope, frequency, and distribution of the sightings make the popular extraterrestrial (interplanetary) hypothesis completely untenable… Many flying saucers seem to be nothing more than a disguise for some hidden phenomenon. They are like Trojan horses descending into our forests and farm fields, promising salvation and offering us the splendor of some great super-civilization in the sky. Do the ultraterrestrials really care about us? There is much disturbing evidence that they don’t. They care only to the extent that we can fulfill our enigmatic use to them.

The real UFO story must encompass all of the many manifestations being observed. It is a story of ghosts and phantoms and strange mental aberrations; of an invisible world which surrounds us and occasionally engulfs us; of prophets and prophecies, and gods and demons. It is a world of illusion and hallucination where the unreal seems very real, and where reality itself is distorted by strange forces which can seemingly manipulate space, time, and physical matter—forces which are almost entirely beyond our powers of comprehension.

Our skies have been filled with “Trojan horses” throughout history, and like the original Trojan Horse, they seem to conceal hostile intent. … This hostility theory is further supported by the fact that the objects choose, most often, to appear in forms which we can readily accept and explain to our own satisfaction—ranging from dirigibles to meteors and conventional-appearing airplanes. … In other words, flying saucers are not at all what we have hoped they were. They are a part of something else. I call that something else Operation Trojan Horse. The real truth is that the UFO cultists have been played for suckers for years, not by the government, but by the phenomenon.

– John Keel, Operation Trojan Horse

“In the case of the idea of man being “food” for hyperdimensional beings, there is an enormous amount of both vertical and lateral corroboration of all kinds. So much so that, in fact, it is almost impossible to understand why it is not generally known. Clearly, there have been deliberate efforts to “hide this fact”. And, the fact that it is hidden may itself tell us something.

The point is, when Don Juan and Gurdjieff and the Cassiopaeans (and others) tell us that our religions, our social structure, our values, our beliefs about our spiritual nature and condition have been deliberately created to perpetuate the illusion that we are free; that we are (or can be) “special and adored children of a loving God”; that we are or can be “co-creators” with God, that we can do anything at all of a positive and powerful nature, we need to carefully examine this issue!

But it is work to examine it objectively. It is hard work because it consists of long and difficult self-examination in order to be able to overcome the emotions that prevent us from discovering what illusions we are hanging onto, what illusions are preventing us from seeing and acting in such a way as to become free.
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As we continue to think in these terms, it becomes more and more apparent that this Great Work of the alchemists was essentially the process of becoming “free of the Matrix”, described in alchemical and allegorical terms.
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This hyperdimensional world is all around us, yet we are unable to see it because it is beyond the range of our senses. All the objects of our world are very likely just our limited perceptions of what is happening in this total reality.

Since those forces that create and maintain the Matrix have so much to lose, they exert a great deal of energy to keep the Matrix of lies and false beliefs in place. And doing it from a state of hyperdimensional reality enables them to work from a state of timelessness, so as to be able to produce all the perceived effects that support their agenda; the Evil Magician of Gurdjieff; the “Flyer“ of Castaneda; the Shaitans of the Sufis. And the reality has been manipulated for so long that it seems natural. It has become a comfortable prison in which Stockholm Syndrome reigns supreme, and the inmates love their captors.
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Thus it is that we may find that our religious myths and rites are remnants of narratives – a message in a bottle – designed to explain these phenomena, and that the monotheistic versions, declaring a Final End, or a Judgment Day of a final end, are merely distortions of the myth designed to establish a Control System on our planet. These distortions are beneficial to those who seek power and wealth, who are under the control of archetypal forces of another realm of which our own reality is but a shadow or a reflection. Let me reiterate: I do not mean, here, to suggest that this other realm is “astral” or ephemeral or non-material. I am suggesting that it is an intermediate realm of para-physical, hyper-dimensional beings whose existence and nature has been carefully concealed from us for millennia – for a reason that is not to our benefit.
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And as we have learned from Jesus, Gurdjieff and the Gnostic Sufis, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans, the rules of this World in which we live were set up and are controlled by this STS (Service to Self) hierarchy and have been for a very long time. Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation….It is in “seeing the unseen” that we become aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we experience the “battles” between the forces of STS (Service to Self) and STO (Service to Others)! And it is most definitely this factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to conceal!… In other words, we are not just talking about a “petty dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk, The Secret History of the World

The Alien Love Bite

Eve Lorgen, MA, is a UFO/abduction researcher who started her work in the alien abduction field while earning her Masters Degree in Counseling Psychology in 1992. She specifies in Anomalous Trauma which is defined as traumatic events that are out of the normal range of human experience. These experiences may include alien abductions, near death experiences, shamanic initiations, military abductions (MILABS), mind control, spiritual warfare, demonic and psychic attacks, cult involvement and narcissistic abuse.

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Lorgen has been expanding on the work of the late Dr. Karla Turner, who was a pioneer in alien abduction research. An abductee herself, Turner published three books: “Into the Fringe” (1992), “Taken” (1994), and “Masquerade of Angels” (1994). Dr. Turner was the first person in the UFO community to point out the many anomalous experiences of abductees which many other researchers ignored or denied, only focusing on a “nuts and bolts” approach of the abduction phenomenon. For many years, it was assumed that these aliens just abduct people to examine them or to create a hybrid race, with claims that abductions are positive and the aliens help us evolve that way. Dr. Turner found out that there are very disturbing aspects of the abduction phenomena, with aliens implanting false memories into abductees in order to hide the truth of what actually had happened. The evidence in her meticulous research shows that aliens harvest from us in a number of ways: emotionally and energetically, as well as physically. Dr. Turner’s work is featured in our film UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact and you can also read a review of her work here. Dr. Karla Turner died of cancer on January 10, 1996, after being threatened for her work. She was just 48. Since then, several other people involved in UFO investigation have also experienced threats followed by highly unusual cancers.

 “Humans have a deep need to believe in the power of good. We need for the aliens to be a good force, since we feel so helpless in their presence. And we need for some superior force to offer us a hope of salvation, both personally and globally, when we consider the sorry state of the world. I think the aliens know this about us–they know that we want and hope for them to be benevolent creatures–and they use our desire for goodness to manipulate us. What better way to gain our cooperation than to tell us that the things they are doing are for our own good?
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And it becomes clear from these details that the beings who are doing such things can’t be seen as spiritually enlightened, with the best interest of the human race in mind. Something else is going on, something far more painful and frightening, in many, many abduction encounters. As to researchers who claim that the ET’s are here to help us evolve some higher consciousness or that they are here for some other positive purpose–saving our plant, promoting world peace, etc. – I challenge those researchers to incorporate anomalous data into this view.

Theories are starting places for research, not proven conclusions, and UFO researchers must be willing to expand and alter their pet theories according to the data they uncover. It would be wonderful if we could shape ET experiences into something positive, but until the details of abduction encounters–all the details–are given serious consideration, I think it’s dangerous to cling to theories that ignore data that will not fit. We owe it to ourselves to seek the whole truth.

No matter what the truth ultimately proves to be, we have to go for it! I mean without it we’re like children playing with shadows and we’re ignorant and we’re certainly unempowered to deal with and confront whatever the real entities are behind this masquerade. To take it all at face value is foolish. To take none of it at face value is ridiculous. Investigations into this field….there cannot be anything more important for us to be doing right now than to dig past our wishes, dig past our fears and dig for objective reality and understanding.

– Dr. Karla Turner

Eve Lorgen coined the term “Love Bite” as a situation where two abductees are being programmed by their alien handlers to engage in a love relationship, and essentially “fall in love” with each other. In her book “The Love Bite: Alien Interference in Human Love Relationships“, Lorgen explores the effects of the Love Bite, which can range from simple break-ups of platonic relationships, to violent divorces, and from “puppy love” to sudden urges to marry a complete stranger. Through several fascinating case histories, Lorgen demonstrates how the alien beings are orchestrating these relationships and dramas for their own agenda.

Most often this happens with two individuals who live far away from each other, each being seeded with the image of the partner they are supposed to be with. A strong longing to meet the other person, telepathic connections, mystical experiences, having dreams of each other, and orchestrated synchronicities through the alien handlers eventually bring those two people together. The sense of having met one’s soul mate or twin flame is very strong. It seems like magic; straight out of a fairy tale, having found the “one”. Both feel like they have known each other for a long time, even assuming a past life connection. The sexual connection is also very strong with “out of this world” sex, creating an energetic bond and hormonal rush which imprints the idea that this is meant to happen even more. It is “love at first sight” and a love obsession follows. One or both partners may even leave their job, their spouse and family, and move away just to be with the other person.

Then, after a period of being together, one person all of a sudden switches off, and becomes emotionally unavailable, leaving the other person in a state of unrequited love. This results in intense emotional turmoil and suffering for the love obsessed person who still feels very bonded to the person who suddenly “switched off”. Suicidal tendencies, mental and physical exhaustion or even illness are the result. This may switch back and forth as well, when the love obsessed person all of a sudden turns off emotionally, and the other person who previously shut down is now being targeted with the Love Bite again and feels deeply attached to the other person, resulting in even more emotional turmoil.

“I did not want to marry the person who became my first wife, yet I had no control over the decision. Before we were married, we were jointly abducted and subjected to severe programming. The results brought no happiness to either of us. We both starved for love and companionship, even though we tried with all our might to find them. My son was also one of their subjects, and is miserable and lost. He is an artistic person with so many unknowable fears that he is paralyzed. I know of abductees murdered by mutilations. reports of which are suppressed immediately and completely, by cancers that no physician has ever seen before, and by madness that has led to suicide. In my opinion, these acts were not caused by “brothers” of any sort.”

– Elton Turner, husband of Dr. Karla Turner

One of the reasons for this scenario of why the aliens orchestrate such Love Bite relationships, is to feed off the emotional turmoil created. This ties into the idea of the HMCS, and that humanity is food for higher density/hyperdimensional beings who play with humans like figures on a chess board. Food doesn’t necessarily mean physical substance, but consciousness is food for higher density beings. Our emotions and sexual energy, triggered through these manipulations, is what these entities are feeding off and it seems they are trying to keep us in a “frequency prison” through genetic and other forms of manipulation (like implanting certain religious and New Age belief systems) so they can secure their food source.

The alien abduction phenomenon is certainly not a psychological issue on the part of the people who have these experiences. It is not an illusion or mental disorder. It is very real, and a sincere study into this topic shows this clearly. In order to fully grasp the topic of abductions, we need to let go of what we think is or is not possible, while watching our conditioned mind which tries to “explain away” such experiences with basic “cultural approved” psychology or New Age “spirituality”. It is very important to understand the High Strangeness aspect of the UFO and Alien phenomena. People who haven’t really looked into it carefully often paint pictures too fast, asking how all this could be possible on such a grand scale, without anyone really noticing? 
They don’t realize that a lot of this is a non-physical phenomena, dealing with a higher intelligence life form that is able to pop in and out of 3D physicality, transcending time and space. They can insert thoughts, memories, emotions, create virtual realities, and change appearances, depending on the belief system of the abductee. This is further documented in Dr. Karla Turner’s books “Masquerade of Angels” and “Into the Fringe”.

“We need to hold ourselves to facts in this field and I think that is extremely important. We should repeat that ten times a day as we go through the work in this area. The problem of course with the abduction phenomena, as with a lot of UFOlogy, is that the nature of the alien activity is designed deliberately to keep us from having much in the way of concrete evidence. Designed that way. It is not an accident.”

– Dr. Karla Turner

“Another disturbing factor that emerged from my research was that these beings, whether demons, vampires, or aliens, seem to have the ability to control our thoughts to a certain extent, our physical bodies, the weather and even events in our lives. Many people reported that their abductors were benevolent beings, but when we consider all the factors of the big picture of the phenomena, it seems that such stories of benevolence may be misleading.“

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk,  The High Strangeness of Dimensions, Densities and the process of Alien Abduction

They can play any scenario to make the abductee feel as if having a “spiritual” experience, hence many contactees claim these aliens being are benevolent despite the fact that abductions happen against their free will to begin with. As terrifying as this may all sound, we also have to understand that we are more powerful than we think we are. It’s a spiritual war, and our weapons to defend and protect ourselves are knowledge and awareness. In fact, the deception lies in these entities making us believe that we are powerless and that we can’t do anything about it.

“I think we need to recognize that deceptions are employed at almost every level of this interaction to keep abductees from knowing about the actual events and the actual entities involved in these encounters. To me, maybe I’m just a suspicious sort, this implies that there is something they don’t want us to know about and often what seems implied from the reports is that there is something within is, the humans, something of which we can be capable, something of resistance or altering of this scenario that the abductors absolutely do not want us to be aware of. They go to great lengths to program our thinking about our encounters with them; that we are subordinate, that we are helpless, or that we are dependent, or that we belong to them…the list goes on and on. And they go to a great deal of trouble to convince us in every way that they can that we can do nothing about controlling these situations.

The good news is that in a number of cases in the past couple of years that hasn’t proven to be true. Abductees are finding more and more specific instances in which they were able to resist the illusion suggestions in which they were able to say “No” to procedures and in fact when they have been able to break free of actual controls. This to me is a great step forward and I think it’s going to be something growing. With any luck we’re going to find abductees are realizing there are ways to change this entire pattern of activity.”

– Dr. Karla Turner

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Dr. Karla Turner

Besides feeding off the emotional/sexual energy, there are also other reasons for the Alien Love Bite scenario. This goes deeper into the topics of alien abductions, MILABS (military abductions), MK Ultra, Project Monarch and the dark side of the UFO/abduction phenomenon. It’s impossible to cover all the aspects in depth in this blog. Eve Lorgen describes the symptomology of a Love Bite set-up by the conditions below. There may be a variation of these presenting symptoms, depending on the individual and his or her background:

Characteristics, Signs and Symptoms of a Love Bite Bonding Set Up:

– Multiple abduction histories. In most cases the person had numerous alien encounters and/or UFO sightings. In a few cases the targeted love bite partner did not realize him/herself to be an abductee.

– Memories of bonding scenarios in abductions, vivid dreams or virtual reality scenarios. Some have described it as a “stage managed” dream where both partners are present in a bedroom scene set up, where both individuals are being given telepathic messages to initiate contact, either on a verbal level or more physical sexual level. Oftentimes either partner appears to be in a tranced out or drugged state. Other stage-managed dreams and/or abductions may have the partners in various situations as if they are being tested for their emotional compatibility or coerced into thinking that this person would make an ideal romantic mate.

– Supernatural Events and Synchronicities. Uncoincidental coincidences and psychic flashes concerning the targeted partner. Meeting the person seems to be set up in a supernatural way, such that the couple may believe their eventual union to be divinely arranged. A match made in heaven. A first meeting of the pre-bonded partner may set off a series of de ja vu memories, flashback memories of previous abductions or dream related bondings. Some have even described it as a “body memory” of having made love to that person before. One or both partners have a strong sense of having known the person before, as if they knew them all their lives or a strong soul connection.

– Paranormal and supernatural phenomena increases during the love bite set-up. This may include empathic and even telepathic communication between the love bite pair. Spontaneous remote viewing images and mutually shared dreams. Other oddities may include the physical sensation of the partners “touch” or energy field when the other partner is thinking or fantasizing about them. This is known as telesthesia, and is often experienced in a sexual way oftentimes in an altered state of consciousness. These conditions may propel either person to find the other, an obsession to find the dream partner.

– Strong emotional, mental and even psychic connections with the bonded partner—such that it sets up the conditions and desire for them to meet one another. The connection can be so strong that they have described it as a soul immersion in their beloved or literally having their souls joined to one another. Another bi-product is the amplification of psychic abilities in both or one partner. Some MILAB abductees reported that the reason for the bonding was to amplify their psychic abilities, such as remote viewing to be later used in a secret mission or “mind controlled ops”.

– Love obsession. A need for one partner or the other to be with them to the point of becoming infatuated. This includes the need to meet the person, even if it is in secret, and having to hear the person’s voice on the phone, sometimes calling the person daily or several times a day. Just hearing the targeted partner’s voice may have a calming effect on the obsessed lover. Extreme anxiety may be felt if the obsessed person cannot hear that person’s voice or see them somehow.

– The obsessed partner usually feels “love at first sight” and may lose all critical reasoning ability. Some have described it as having the compulsion to make sudden life decisions like moving away, changing jobs, getting divorced or going out of their way to do things for the targeted person. It has been compared to being under a “love spell” whenever the obsessed person hears their partner’s voice. They may go to great lengths to please the person—doing anything for them, even giving up their life for them.

– Switching off. One or the other partners becomes unplugged emotionally, leaving the other in a state of unrequited love. Usually the obsessed lover becomes painfully unrequited after the other partner loses interest, often right after abduction. It has been described as the psychic and emotional unplugging of the targeted partner. Unfortunately the obsessed lover still feels the strong psychic/emotional connection, but the other “switched off” partner feels nothing, leaving the obsessed lover grieving. Or the conditions for the bonded lovers are such that it is impossible for them to consummate their strong love, such as both partners being married to others or living a great distance away.

– Emotional turmoil in the unrequited partners life. These powerful emotions of love and grief may cause the person to be inspired with creative energy, so that they write poetry, music, or any other art form of creative inspiration. Conversely, the degree of emotional pain may throw the unrequited lover into suicidal tendencies, mental and physical exhaustion or illness.

– Profound mystical experiences may also be perceived during the time of increased emotional processing or periods of prayer.

– Increase in alien encounters during periods of high drama and emotional conflict. The alien encounters may also increase if the person gets involved in alternative sexual lifestyles or increased sexual activity—especially if it’s with the targeted love bite partner. Some have reported increases in reptilian activity with methamphetamine or “crack cocaine” abuse.

– Some abductees have reported the bonding experience to take place more than once, whereby they have been on both sides of the love bite; the obsessed unrequited end, or the non-unrequited end. When they are on the non-unrequited end, a platonic friendship may be engendered. Some heterosexuals have suddenly become obsessed with a homosexual where a drastic change in lifestyle occurs.

There are variations to the love bite dramas, wherein, for example, two abductees are placed together perhaps for the purpose of having children together, and they may not go through all the stages in the above set of symptoms. Based on the number of love bite histories I have compiled, I have come to the conclusion that there are at least four reasons for these set-ups. Some of these may serve dual purposes. One for the aliens and the other for the cooperating human military or intelligence personnel involved with a particular abductee. In this instance, MILABS or a faction of MK Ultra operatives under the abduction programs.

The four basic reasons behind love bite relationships are:

1. Genetic bloodline study or perpetuation of a particular trait useful for the aliens and/or military, intelligence or Illuminati related group. For example high psi and dissociative ability.

2. Emotional soul harvesting of energies siphoned off the abductee for aliens, such as reptilians, Dracos, or demonic powers accrued to human magicians. In cases where sexual manipulations are done, this sexual energy can be used in Montauk type experiments for time travel or psi amplifications, or materializations.

3. Amplification of paranormal abilities such as telekinesis, telepathy, remote viewing and precognition through sexual and soul bonding of other psychic abductees. In this case you can call them MILAB operatives. Some of these operatives may have Monarch Programming or the more sophisticated alien programming based on the fundamentals of Monarch MK Ultra programming. Oftentimes programmers, who orchestrate the various missions for their highly trained operatives, will want to soul bond and sexually bond a pair. This serves to keep the twinned operatives loyal to one another, and increase their performance. For example, when two operatives are so bonded to one another, they can telepathically transmit large amounts of information to one another, sometimes during sexual activity. If they love one another, they will also die for one another, taking greater risks for the success of a dangerous mission.

4. Distraction and neutralization of troublesome abductees, or researchers, who are either breaking programming, whistle blowing, or getting too close to the truth. This may present itself as an abductee client that comes in to work with a researcher, where a love affair ensues. Then the relationship may be an emotional roller coaster, or create chaos in the researchers life distracting him or her from useful research. Or a sleeper operative abductee starts coming to a support group, wreaking chaos wherever they go, which may include a love bite set up with one of the members. It may result in dividing the support group, creating unnecessary enmity between abductees and researchers who could have shared insightful experiences. In these instances the set up serves to prevent useful information from reaching the public.

The Alien Love Bite scenario researched by Eve Lorgen relates only to love relationships between abductees. The question of who is an abductee or not, is not always easy to answer. There are the obvious abduction characteristics and symptoms which abduction researchers like Eve Lorgen, Karla Turner, David Jacobs, Barbara Bartholic, and others, have identified over decades of research and working with abductees. Personally, I’ve seen some UFOs here and there, and even reptilian/alien-like entities, but nothing that would hint at a typical alien abduction; no abduction dreams, missing time or any of that, well, as far as I’m aware of. I did have “high strangeness” situations in my life, and what could be coined “hyperdimensional interference” in relationships, as described above, but nothing that I’m aware of, hinting at an abduction.

Having said that, many abductions are not that obvious, and can only be retraced through hypnosis since the aliens seem to have an ability to mind-control the abductee, erase memory, manipulate space and time, as well as implant certain thoughts, emotions (everything from bliss to indifference), and even false memories, as opposed to what really went on during the abduction. This happens through the use of a hyperspace-technology that makes our technology look like the stone age.
 Some abductions have been reported fully conscious without hypnosis, and there are many similarities between the stories of thousands of reported abduction cases world-wide, independently showing a rather disturbing picture.

Since most abductions are not remembered consciously, some abduction researchers believe that there are millions of abductions world-wide of people who have not the slightest idea that they had been abducted. Sometimes people only remember much later in life that something like an abduction could have occurred earlier in life. Abductions can start as early as infancy and can occur until late in life. Some people have been abducted hundreds of times. Many abductees are living in fear; not knowing when the next “taking” will happen, not being able to talk about it for obvious ridicule in the public. Many need to even hide these experiences from their families and friends, afraid of are being shamed or called crazy/mental.

However, the most disturbing part is the complete denial of this issue, not only in the mainstream scientific community, but especially in many “progressive” truth and New Age/conscious movements. Most people have never sincerely researched this topic in depth. The topic of alien abductions is, by far, treated as if it is non-existent, or simply laughed at and ridiculed.

The Dark Side of Cupid

Expanding on her work in the “Love Bite”, Eve Lorgen wrote a book called “The Dark Side of Cupid – Love Affairs, The Supernatural and Energy Vampirism” in 2012, published by UFO historian Richard Dolan’s Keyhole Publishing Company/Richard Dolan Press. In this book she explores hyperdimensional interference in and set-up of love relationships between people who are not necessarily abductees. I will be quoting extensively from her new book as well as sharing my own experiences in light of the Dark Side of Cupid.

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“Rarely, if ever, is any attention placed on the supernatural within the context of human love relationships being orchestrated and interfered with. There are books about love relationships believed to be brought together by divine intervention m mystical tales  of how Cupid’s arrow magically brought together true soul mates. But it’s generally within a positive framework of finding one’s true love, twin flame or soul mate. But what about love relationships that have the appearance of being a match made from heaven—but instead end disastrously, as if a supernatural intelligence interlopes as Cupid? A counterfeit soul mate match. Could such a thing happen? The answer is yes and this is what I call the Dark Side of Cupid.
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Of all the anomalous experiences under investigation, those that stood out as being extraordinarily traumatic were those that involved love relationships whose onset appeared magical, as if an unseen force had been at work forging powerful psychic connections, only to cascade into a spiral of  emotionally draining dramas.
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I examine unusual love relationships in which something magical seemed to happen. But, instead of becoming a delightful and fulfilling soul mate experience, the person was either psychically drained or thrown into an emotionally manipulated, high-drama relationship that had the earmarks of supernatural interference.
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If I had not experienced this myself, or counseled so many others involving these types of love relationships, I would not have believed or even considered such an idea. But now I do. …With The Dark Side of Cupid, my aim is to challenge the reader to enhance their awareness of the possibility of relationship interference, forged psychic connections and even soul mate counterfeiting. …Finding one’s soul mate and happiness in love requires emotional maturity and spiritual wisdom. We can retain the magic, wonder , and unity of true love, but to do so, we must be discerning. In my experience, awareness and wisdom had come with a price. This pearl of wisdom I offer to you, in the hope that others do not have to pay such a heavy price of pain and emotional suffering on their journey to find true love. The truth is, what we lack in awareness can and does hurt us. And so let us be wise in matters of love.
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Needless to say, the alien love bite hypothesis is not something easily proven, but it became the name and definition of a type of experience in which its victims felt as if a powerful love match seemed to be set up elsewhere by a supernatural puppet master pulling some very potent emotional strings.

I want to address one issue before going further. Whenever I bring up this topic some people claim that there is always emotional drama in relationships at times in various degrees and people already tend to blame their partner, parents and others for their problems. They claim that bringing up the idea of “invisible beings” causing relationships dramas and interfering with relationships gives people even more excuse to blame others and outside forces, not taking responsibility for their own problems and issues. For the most part this assessment is based on not understanding the “topic of all topics” in more depth. I also pointed out in my article Spiritual Bypassing, Relationships and the Shadow that is crucial to take responsibility for issues that come up in relationships, understanding shadow projection, childhood wounding, narcissistic wounding and basic psychology in general where we play out unconscious parts of our father/mother image we are not aware of or we try to get needs met from a partner which we didn’t get as children from our parents. So basic psychological work and taking responsibility is absolutely needed and necessary. This is not about blaming but understanding that there is more to reality than we are aware of and have been told.

However, what I didn’t mention in my blog on relationships and the shadow, but have in other blogs and also in the film “Love, Reality, and the Time of Transition“, is that not everything “negative” in the world or in our lives is a manifestation of our shadow material, nor do we attract everything with our thoughts/emotions. As mentioned above, we are not the peak of God’s creation and so special and holy that nothing other than ourselves would harm, control or manipulate us. It’s actually quite anthropocentric to think that way. We don’t do everything to ourselves. It’s not about blaming but getting out of our self-centered view of reality and the universe. There are other “forces” that affect us more than most of us are aware of, independently from our own shadow material. There are limitations when looking at it all through the psychology of Jungian shadow projection even though it does contain a lot of truth and is very useful and important in our self-work and working on relationship issues.

The learning never stops and humanity still has much to confront and learn about that may require a whole new understanding of reality. There is always more to learn and find out that requires an adjustment and new understanding, expanding our view and understanding of reality. It is what raising consciousness implies. People who are stuck in one idea or teaching and try to explain everything through it are building their own limited reality box. This relates to philosophy, spirituality, psychology, astrology, science, or any religion (east and west) where many experts in any of these systems are only looking through one lens (many of them distorted/false to begin with), not realizing that this approach can easily lead to distortion and a tunnel vision. It can also become an egotistical point of pride preventing that person to admit to him/herself that there is maybe more to the story which one hasn’t considered before, especially when their career depends on it and they have an image to sell and live up to.

“Some people who contact me keep this part of their lives secret for years, often a decade or more. The alien love bite experience leaves its victims feeling bewildered, emotionally drained, and betrayed not only by their alien visitors (if they know themselves to be abductees), but by the unseen entities that magically arrange the love partnership. It is as if the aliens – or whoever these Cupid interlopers are – leave their victims feeling so profoundly affected that words can barely describe the emotional and psychic pain must endure. Love bite experiences are largely disbelieved, even ridiculed by mainstream media as well as by most psychotherapists and medical professionals. Adding insult to injury, many of their peers within the truth-seeking and disclosure community often ostracize them, as ironic as it sounds.
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The Alien Love Bite theory and the embarrassingly painful effects do not bode well for the popular ufological Disclosure movement, exopolitics theories, and space-brothers-are-here-to-save-us mentality prevalent in the New Age and UFO community. No! Not at all. Nor has it gained acceptance within mainstream psychology circles. This means that those who experience the trauma of alien abductions and the love bite drama are stranded between a rock and a hard place, isolated in a no man’s land where secrecy remains the rule rather than the exception. If disclosure of all things UFO, extraterrestrial, and related secrets ever happens, then the Alien Love Bite and especially the Dark Side of Cupid must be part of this. In my view it may very well be the root driving force behind the ancient extraterrestrial star gods themselves and those powerful clandestine organizations who appear to serve them.
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I’ve studied countless relationship self-help books dealing with toxic relationships, trauma and addictions, emotional vampires, dangerous men, and psychopathology. And yet none of these books ever recognize or mention anything near to what I am seeing. None address the paranormal element of orchestration and interference in conjunction with being drained emotionally, in a powerfully connected love relationship that doesn’t end well. While there is often a level of psychopathology present in one of the partners, such as addiction or narcissism, it does not explain other anomalous characteristics of the relationship.

Psychic and emotional vampirism is a key feature, and yet the vampirism itself may be an indirect aspect of the relationship interference – as opposed to being the sole fault of one partner, a.k.a. the energy vampire. In other words, the emotional draining effects of the relationship may be a result of one partner who acts as a portal or some sort of conduit for another entity, such as Dark Cupid. This Dark Cupid’s job is to hijack the energetic component of the love relationship. In other words, the greater the emotional drama, the more energy for Cupid to feed upon.

Based on having worked with many people over the years who shared their experiences, Lorgen has identified three indications of major hall marks of a Dark Side of Cupid relationship:

1. Magical/paranormal elements such as omens, precognitions and psychic linking.

2. Psychic draining, or vampirism, and/or extreme emotional highs and lows.

3. The emotional manipulation and/or psychopathology factor.

At least two of the three indicators have been present in all cases, mostly all three of them. She calls them the “Unholy Triad” of symptomatology of the Dark Side of Cupid.

In the first category, magical and supernatural elements happen right before and during the love affair. Synchronicities, vivid/precognitive dreams, feelings of déjà vu usually occur. It seems as if it’s meant to be. Synchronicity has been coined by Carl Jung as being an “acausual connecting principle, i.e. a pattern of connection that is not explained by causality, or in other words, a “meaningful coincidence”. Many of us have experienced synchronicity in our personal lives not only related to love relationships. For the most part we feel that these synchronicities are positive in nature, as if the “universe” is helping to be in the right situation at the right time without expecting it, or we may come across just the right book or article which helps us to get more insight around a situation we are in. I have experienced these positive synchronicities many times.

However, what most people don’t know is that synchronicites can be orchestrated by higher dimensional “alien” beings that look initially positive but were a “bait” to get us into our certain situation out of our own free will for their own agenda. So while there can be definitely synchronicites that lead us to meet the “right” person without interference, there are orchestrated syncronicities in the Love Bite/Dark Cupid scenario. These synchroniocities target our wishful thinking, blind spots, wounds (which are different for each of us) in form of temptation or magical meeting with ones perceived “soul mate” but is in actuality a “counterfeit soul mate/twin flame” as Lorgen called it. Finding one’s true soul mate and happiness in love requires emotional maturity/intelligence, awareness, discernment, and spiritual wisdom. The whole idea of a soul mate or twin flame has also become very distorted in New Age circles.

Speaking of using baits to get us into situations (which are not what we assume they are at first) out of our own free will for the alien’s own agenda, it is important to understand what Michael Topper wrote below. This goes even beyond the love bite scenario but relates to the global matrix control system and hyperdimensional manipulation in general. This is drawn from a series of articles written by a man named Michael Topper, who uses the nom de plume “Marshall Telemachus” or even “Mother Terasu” and others. After producing a great deal of material, most of which was published by Val Valerian in his series of Matrix books, he sort of disappeared from the scene after being under serious attack from the forces he exposed. His body of work and released material is complex but gives away deeper secrets of reality.

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“In the higher densities, the Name of the Game is Consciousness. This simply means that the higher densities of existence, whether positive or negative in orientation, all recognize that the business of all being and existence everywhere is always that of Consciousness… becoming more and more “Aware.” Awareness is related to “density” of consciousness, so to say. The STS (Service to Self) way of achieving “density of consciousness” is to “gain weight” by assimilation of other consciousness units. This is generally promoted as “All is One” and refers to “evil” as a “rebellion” or a fault or something that will ultimately be “done away with.”

STO (Service to Others), on the other hand sees “gaining weight” in a different way. It sees that an acknowledgement of the consciousness of “other self” as equal to its own consciousness, in spite of completely different manifestation of that being, is the way to “network” the consciousness so that the Whole is greater than the sum of the parts.

The difference is that the STO guys recognize consciousness as being an “integrative” activity of mutual networking and interdependence because they view all others as self, even if they are different, and therefore seek to help and assist because the other IS self in an absolute internal sense. In this way, Absolute Consciousness, or God is “glorified” by a marvelous diversity of being if you wish to put it in those terms.

The negative guys, on the other hand, play the game in terms of domination, subjugation and absorption of other consciousnesses into “One.” . But, they too, understand that the rules of the game posit that in order for them to truly “absorb” into their being these other “consciousnesses,” that the “other” must choose to become part of their “self-aggrandizement.” An unwilling “food” is, in essence, not “nutritious” so to say. If the consciousness does not choose, it becomes a “poison” to the consciousness that seeks to “eat it.” And so they must promote “Oneness” in a very particular way.

Note that both sides acknowledge “Oneness,” but in very different ways.

So, we have to understand here that the true Negative Realm agenda is to “eat consciousness.” So, this actually prevents an overt “take-over” in literal, physical terms. If an “invasion” was detected, this would mean that the veil would be lifted and all would see the “man behind the curtain” and would be disgusted and turn away. Just as in the “Wizard of Oz,” those Ruby Slippers have to be obtained VERY CAREFULLY!

Gathering the essence is an art of great subtlety! The “negative alien plan” is, in its purest sense, STALKING.

The aim of Stalking is to create a completely controlled artificial environment composed of thoroughly predictable human behaviors – made predictable because they have been programmed to respond to cues of conditioning [inculcated through centuries of lies and obfuscations presented in the form of religions] and all of this revolves around a ‘story’ that is actually untrue, and wholly misrepresentative of the real negative aim.

For centuries these programming signals have been being set up – either because of time travel capabilities, or because of actual historical presence. Various prophets or religious leaders have been influenced to preach, or teach or prophesy philosophies designed to lay a foundation for later take-over – possibly in our present time. When people begin to get wise, the Negatives simply go back into the past, add something more to the soup to “cover up” the new awareness. This then act as a domino effect and influences our present. Time loops and all that. A lot of people think that the “alien invasion scenario” is a ruse concocted by the government to create the impression that there is a forming “threat,” thereby enabling the institution of a New World Order. But, this idea is based on a misrepresentation of the process just described.

The important thing to remember is this: there is NOT a “unified conspiratorial activity” going on here in the hierarchy of government. The “divide and conquer” effect is also manifest at this level and and suits the alien purposes to a “T.” Such activity at ALL levels is consistent with their program of STALKING, in which confusion and cross-purpose prevents a clear perception on the part of the Stalkees.

Yet, at some deep level there may be a direct conspiratorial interaction between the “secret government” and the negative aliens… but it is unlikely that any name of those involved would be recognized by anyone, no matter how “in the know” regarding the subject. These “secret superiors” are just that: SECRET. Any organization you can name, or about which you are AWARE, are merely “outer circles.”

What is the designed objective of this STALKING? It is two-fold. First, the effect of Stalking is sort of like stampeding a herd of cattle. Bit by bit, they are consolidated into a “negative mode” which consists of the idea of “us vs them.” Even though, on the surface, it may seem that this “mode” is positive or STO,(i.e. save the world because it is “wrong” or flawed, or blighted with original sin or whatever) the very fact that it is formed in the “dominator” mode of perceiving salvation “outside,” means that it can more easily be “taken over” body, mind and soul at a level that is “unseen and unseeable.” In other words: Satan CAN and most often DOES appear as an Angel of Light!

It is only at the lower levels of the power structure that many still believe they are playing out the basic ‘antagonism’ and ‘self- protection’ roles. They believe that “sending love and light” to those “in need” is appropriate, without realizing that this activity is predicated upon a deep belief that there is something wrong, in error, in rebellion, and thus becomes again, “us vs them.”

There is evidence that extensive implant technology may be used to ensure influenced obedience; yet, a degree of freedom must be conserved through the consciousness due to the essential fact that the valued commodity is consciousness. A totally drugged, surgically altered and thoroughly programmed psyche is only good for robotic slave-service (and this may also be going on also, by the way). It is in this understanding that we find our way out of the trap. It isn’t easy, but it is a way.

The primary object of Negative stalking is to persuade through strongly influenced, but not robotic, behavior patterns, the Free Choice of the targeted CONSCIOUSNESS to align with negative higher-density existence. Because, in the Long Run, the object is the “eating” of functioning units of consciousness by the negative hierarchy, with Free Will intact! It is not good food otherwise![…]”

– from “The Positive/Negative Realms of Higher Densities” by Michael Topper

The second category of the “Unholy Trinity” is about extreme emotional highs and lows as well as emotional draining that goes beyond “normal” relationship issues. One or both partners may be putting the other partner on a pedestal with ecstatic feelings and ego boosting episodes and suddenly be let down to an emotional low, from one day to the next. It literally feels like becoming crazy where no rational, balanced and grounded communication is possible to work things out. It can feel like the both partners speak a “different language”. One day they may be experiencing out of the world sex and a magical love connection, the next day triggers come up resulting in over-blown reactions draining one or both partners to an extreme and the next day it’s all love and bliss again and back and forth, creating a lot of emotional turmoil that serves as “food” for negatively oriented hyperdimensional beings.

The third category is about emotional manipulation and the psychopathology element. One or both partners may display unusually controlling, manipulative, abusive or attention-getting behaviors, such as narcissism or a Jekyll-Hyde duality. One partner may also appear as if “possessed” as if something is working through him/her with paranormal characteristics. It’s important to keep in mind that these paranormal/possession type characteristics are not always that obvious and certainly not like displayed in Hollywood horror movies. There are various degrees to it, from more subtle and covert to more obvious and overt, but the goal is the same: to create drama, eruptions and emotional turmoil in order to feed off  it or for other agendas of the “aliens” as mentioned before.

The issues that come up for a couple in a Dark Side of Cupid relationship may have characteristics of BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder), PTSD, Bipolar disorder, narcissistic wounding  or other personality disorders and psychological issues, however, as I’ll talk about later on in more depth, these psychological disorders may just be the manifestation/symptoms of a Love Bite. People who have no reference or understand the Dark Side of Cupid/Love Bite scenario usually try to explain what is happening only through the framework of mainstream psychology when in fact something else may be going on. It’s also important to see the whole picture of a possible Love Bite relationship, especially the paranormal aspect. This quote by LKJ mentioned above is important to keep in mind:

“We are not just talking about a “petty dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.”

Eve Lorgen gives a general description of how a Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid love relationship usually looks like:

Are you on the Dark Side of Cupid’s Hit list? When it feels like a match made in heaven.

The meeting could be accidental, in an unusual place or situation for you. But somehow, something magically happens that creates an opportunity. Perhaps you feel a premonition, energetic feelings that seems to happen out of the blue. Then your eyes meet.

There is a sense of familiarity, as if you already know this strange new person, perhaps from another place or time. Yet, you can’t seem to place it. The locked gaze, the sensation of butterflies swirling in your stomach, the feeling of excitement, anxiety, and perhaps even danger all lurk inside you. You can barely contain the sense that something big is happening.

Maybe he or she asks you something that was on your mind, just as you were going to speak it. “Have we met before? You seem familiar.” A few moments pass, and maybe you experience a feeling of déjà vu. Perhaps you recall a recent dream when you saw the face of your could-be lover. He or she is wearing the same color that appeared in your dream, or perhaps appears in a familiar scene. You now feel that the dream was some sort of divine precognitive foreshadowing. Your dream lover has come to life.

Your senses feel heightened, more alive. Those zingy, tingly, warm, and fuzzy feelings in your body seem to be resonating with this other person. Did you just meet The One? Your soul mate? Is this a sign that this person is about to enter center stage in your life? You exchange phone numbers and email. Next time you meet, you talk about things that you thought no one would ever really share with you, much less understand. You seem to have so much in common. Perhaps the person is not normally your type, yet inexplicably you share a powerful connection. The erotic fantasies begin. Somehow they feel so much more real. Why is that?

From deep inside, however, you feel a subtle hint of push-pull resistance. Your inner voice tries to check in with you, but you squash it like a bug. Your logical mind may question all this, […] but the lonely part of you can’t stop wanting excitement, a rescue from that hopeless feeling that you’ll never have true love and will always settle for less. You want to experience passion and love that you’ve never really known before. You fight both sides of yourself as if you’ve been split into two people. Confusion sets in, and you just can’t stop thinking about that person.

The Love Connection Begins and Cupid’s Drama Unfolds

A series of magical phone calls, texting, emailing, and meetings begin. Perhaps you are compelled to drive long distances or even go across the country to meet with your newfound lover-to-be. The energies of excitement build, and you can’t stop thinking about him or her, and especially about when you can have more time together to really connect, touch. Merge.

You never felt such a powerful connection with someone; it’s almost telepathic with supernatural overtones. You finish each other’s sentences, buy similar things at the store, find yourself wearing the same colors, and even eating the same food when not in each others’ presence, and at the same times.

That first kiss sends electrical thrills that zip right down to your erogenous zones. It’s almost like you’ve been zapped by Cupid’s arrow! You kiss again, deeply. It happens so easily, so fast. Sex feels so natural and connected. You find yourself doing things you didn’t do with other partners. You feel less inhibited and the creative juices flow. You take greater risks that may be out of character for you. You push away confusion and the inner red-flag voice flailing to be heard because, you say to yourself, “Yes! I’m going to follow my heart. I want passion!”

Now the roller coaster drama begins, and your life turns upside down. He or she makes you feel on top of the world, desired, cherished, and important. Events seem magically to unfold as though a divine script were being written that has pierced through the wall of your lonely heart. You are on a blissful high.

Yet it doesn’t last. Something happens. At some point, where you once felt excitement and passion, you wonder why you begin to feel weak and a little drained. Maybe your partner reveals a dark side. Emotional manipulation starts to unveil. Is your partner deliberately manipulating you like an emotional vampire, or does it just seem like it? You don’t want to believe it. The emotional crashing lows begin, and you start to feel that events are unfolding out of your control. Your partner’s full attention and presence seem to be out of your reach, and your life becomes an endless chase of unconsummated love.

Eventually, unrequited love pangs tear at your heart as you and your lover are buffeted about in one drama after another. In time, you become an emotional wreck. Confusion sets in and it seems as though every time you get near Cupid’s lover, you become weaker. You feel sucked dry of your emotions, logic, and better sense. What happened?

A lot of what Lorgen describes may sound like the typical phases of any relationship. The initial infatuation, emotional highs, projections, great sex and all the hormones creating a rush of bliss and excitement. That is usually the romantic phase. Then reality kicks in and the shadow appears triggering childhood wounds and other issues that usually come up in any relationship. However, there is more to the story in a Dark Side of Cupid/Love Bite relationship.

Here is the basic Dark Side of Cupid questionnaire that Lorgen asks her clients:

Do these main characteristics seem familiar to you?

1. Magical and Supernatural elements that preceded or occurred during the love affair. Things such as synchronicities, precognitive dreams, insights, vivid dreams and feelings of déjà vu. Paranormal activity. Love match seems to have been influenced from the beyond, as if it was meant to be. A very strong connection with the person. Y/N

2. Emotional highs and crashing lows, emotional and psychic draining. You may have been perceived on a pedestal with ecstatic feelings, then were suddenly let down to an emotional low, either by the partner or through events out of your control. Lots of drama. Y/N

3. Emotional Manipulation and the Psychopathology Element. Did your partner have unusually controlling, manipulative or abusive and attention-getting behaviors such as

a) Histrionic, drama king/queen, endless talking, chatter, attention seeker. Y/N

b) Addictive and compulsive, drugs, alcohol, sex, work, sports. Y/N

c) Controlling, jealous, emotional manipulator, passive aggressive. Y/N

d) Narcissistic, lack of empathy, exaggerated sense of entitlement, praise seeking, needs constant attention and/or superiority complex. Y/N

e) Passive, “yes-but” whiner-victim, very needy. Y/N

f) Extreme narcissist, or Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde duality, demonic possession or hosting. Supernatural qualities, like black magic, hypnotic control of victim as if you are under a spell. Y/N

Personal Questions Category

Category 1: Magical and Paranormal Elements

a) What kinds of things happened before or in the initial phases of the relationship that led you to believe that this was perhaps out of the ordinary? Things such as vivid dreams, astral connecting with the partner, synchronicities, a stronger psychic link with the partner than was normally experienced with anyone, etc. Explain.

b) Did the relationship seem to be manipulated or orchestrated from unseen intelligences, and make you feel that you were under a spell?

c) How did you feel the connection, did you have a greater degree of passion, and did you feel this to be more than just sexual? Did your heart area, solar plexus or other areas feel distinctly different? Describe.

d) Did you experience a heightened degree of psychic sensitivity or empathy with your partner or other people during this love drama?

e) Did you or your partner witness any ghostly presences, spirits, or alien entities during or immediately preceding the love relationship?

f) Did you or your partner experience a love obsession that was not characteristic for you or them?

Category 2: Emotional highs, lows, drama, emotional draining

a) Were you emotionally drained after a certain point, and did this affect you physically, like getting ill or losing a lot of weight?

b) Did events happen out of your control that kept you both from being able to meet or consummate the relationship or do more things together?

c) Did you find yourself thinking or doing things that was out of character for you when around this partner or even afterwards. Taking greater risks, for example.

d) Did you or your partner suddenly become emotionally switched off and uninterested for no apparent reason or was there a reason if this happened?

e) How long did it take you to heal and get over this love relationship? How long did the relationship last?

Category 3: Emotional Manipulation and the Psychopathology Element

a) Do you believe your partner was a psychopath, witch, demon influenced or possibly a possessed individual?

b) What kinds of behaviors did your partner do that you felt were: • Emotionally manipulative, inflicting guilt, shame or that you are “less than” or ‘bad” Explain with an example. • Controlling or abusive? Overt or passive-aggressive. Explain a typical scene or interaction.

I want to say a little more about the hallmarks of the Dark Side of Cupid experience. When examined from afar, the beginnings of the love drama appear positive, and perhaps within the normal range of human experience. But when delving deeper into the dynamics of the love match, I noticed that the experience held a greater degree of a magical reality. Overtones of extrasensory perception and paranormal elements manifested in ways that had not normally been experienced in the lovers’ lives or in those of most people.

Obviously there are many variations and degrees of the symptoms listed and not all have to apply, but if the majority fits then it may indeed be a Dark Side of Cupid encounter. It all depends on each individual and his/her personal history as well. As said above, this is just a basic questionnaire. It takes deeper introspection, recapitulation and objectivity to see all the red flags which people tend to rationalize away, as I did as well in my experiences at first. Most often this is not possible until after the relationship is over and one is in a more balanced emotional state to understand what actually had happened.

There are various vulnerability factors, as Lorgen calls them, which make people more likely to become a victim of the Dark Cupid, although it still can happen to anyone as she pointed out as well. The most common two factors of possibly being a target for a Love Bite or Dark Side of Cupid are – Engagement in Alternative Media, Research, Conspiracy, and Paranormal & Spirituality being 99% of the case studies by Eve Lorgen and – Involvement in Caretaking and Nurturing Professions (71%).

Engagement in Alternative Media, Research, Conspiracy, and Paranormal & Spirituality:

All but one respondent who filled out my Dark Side of Cupid questionnaire was a follower of alternative media, paranormal, conspiracy, and/or spirituality interests. These were individuals who were actively engaged in becoming aware of what is going on in the world and cosmos, including higher consciousness explorations. These people tended to do a lot of internet research and radio talk show involvement, and had interests in spirituality and the paranormal. All persons were intelligent, “outside-the-box” thinkers, who challenged the status quo of mainstream media, education, politics, and religion. Some were whistleblowers. Many of them had psychic abilities and a greater awareness on social and esoteric levels. One may ask, how can this be a vulnerability factor? If lack of awareness were a major vulnerability factor why would aware people be so vulnerable? [note by me: good question and we will explore this more later on.]

Involvement in Caretaking and Nurturing Professions:

Over two-thirds of the Dark Side of Cupid cases involved people in careers such as teaching, counseling, nursing, and psychic intuitive work. These individuals have a tendency for a high empathy factor, and are more giving in nature. As a result, they sometimes have greater difficulty setting firmer boundaries with “user and taker” partners, friends, and co-workers.

Maybe now is a good moment to share some of my experiences, especially since I fit right into those two main categories. My quest for truth, questioning the world we live in and getting interested in the paranormal, conspiracies, spirituality and other topics outside the box of the status started about 20 years ago. 8 years ago I started to write about these topics on my blog and social media outlets. Around that time I also started working full-time as a self-employed bodyworker/massage therapist. Before that my relationships were pretty normal even if they didn’t work out. No high emotional drama, no paranormal occurrences and no over-the-top magical synchronicities. Even in retrospect I don’t see anything that could have hinted at a Dark Side of Cupid love relationship. I haven’t had many relationships and have been more single in my life than being in relationship. I never felt that I had fear of intimacy or fear of love relationships in general. Back then I was just very involved and focused on my band in my musician years and also the research I got into. So a couple of relationships came and went but without any drama, paranormal activity, lingering issues or hard time to let go.

All that changed once I got deeper into esoteric knowledge and especially into the “topic of all topics”, the UFO phenomenon, abductions and the dark side of the “alien” topic; the hyperdimensional control and manipulation of humanity, which manifests itself in different ways throughout the (secret) history of the world based on the cultural context.

“…This underlying hyperdimensional reality that is behind our history and how it extrudes itself into the historical timeline, and how you can observe these long historical events and see the movement of that hyperdimensional energy through the actions of human beings, through historical cycles, through the behavior of groups of people, through the manipulations. Things emerge, you know. …”

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk

It all intensified around the time I was making the film “UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact” with my friend Humberto Braga. During the making of the film we both experienced high strangeness events in our lives. Humberto started to get involved in a relationship that also had symptoms of Love Bite. He started to have dreams about abductions and even having has abduction like experiences, waking up in the opposite direction of how he felt asleep with strange body marks, cuts and scratches on his body. His relationship turned into a spiral downward with a lot of irrational behavior and emotional drama by the girl he was involved in. One day she literally just disappeared without a word or closure. It took him a long time to get over it.

While we were making the film I also had a new female client coming to my studio for a massage session. It was someone I never met before and who had no idea about my research and topics I’m interested in besides bodywork. I usually check in with my clients before the session, asking how they are feeling, what is going in their lives and also inquire about their dreams to a get a better assessment of where the person is at and how their emotional life and stress affects their body. The dream and experience this particular women shared was a text-book alien abduction scenario. She told me that she had a dream in which a small creature appeared at her bed. She then woke up and felt s strange presence. She looked out of the window and saw a UFO taking off right behind her house. She told me that she had no idea what that meant and she also had no background knowledge or any interest in the topic of UFOs. The description of the entity she encountered was very similar to the typical grey alien creature. Obviously I had to be very external considerate and didn’t mention anything about my research into this topic. After all I didn’t know her at all and didn’t want to freak her out. I just gave her some bodywork to help her get grounded since she also was going through a lot in her life, especially with regards to relationships.

A week later she came again for another session. This time she shared more of her family history, telling me that her whole family, even her grandparents had strange encounters with aliens and UFO sightings. It seems to have been running in her family which is another big clue. Then she shared with me another dream she had after the first bodywork session. In this dream this alien being appeared again and told her that she had been “re-programmed”. She had no idea what that meant and neither did I. Since we had established a good rapport and trust, I then suggested to her to look into UFO literature and see if she can find some similarities to her experiences. I also suggested to do more bodywork sessions to help her connect with her body more since the work did help her. She was out of touch with her body and seemed to disassociate a lot. She agreed and was looking froward to continue with the sessions. However, after that second session I never saw her or heard of her again. I have no idea why.

Was she too freaked out about what she experienced and did it increase since she met me?

 Or was she “re-programmed” to not engage with me anymore in order not to reveal to her what seems to be going on with her? I don’t know.

It all intensified when we released the UFO documentary in 2011. One of the UFO researchers we featured in our film, who liked it and thanked us for making it, contacted us shortly after the release telling us: “Just be aware that you will attract attack for putting this information out.” Little did I know how the attack would come about and how it already had been set up.

Since 2006, when I started to write about all that on my blog, I’ve been in three relationships, each of them showing many symptoms of a Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid love relationship (to varying degrees) as I see now in retrospect.

During the making of the UFO documentary I was involved in an on and off long-distance relationship with a woman who turned out to be an abductee, coming from a military family. Her parents and grandparents also had abduction like experiences. It was a very complicated relationship. One part of me was very infatuated with her but another part knew that something was off and I shouldn’t engage with her. She visited me periodically and we had a very strong sexual connection. But soon a lot of emotional drama came up which drained me tremendously but I couldn’t let go. Even when she was gone I felt the strange but strong pull to see her, almost obsessive. We talked a lot over the phone and during this time she also had an encounter with a reptilian entity in the middle of the night, as she told me. After we released the UFO documentary on Youtube in 2011, things got worse with her and the relationships blew up eventually. It was obvious that this was not going to work but yet I had such a hard time of letting go, as if there were strong invisible psychic/emotional chords. It took me several months to get over it which seemed way too long, considering that the relationship wasn’t that long and we only saw each other of a total of one month based on all the visits. I was very emotionally drained and exhausted.

My next relationship after that one lasted longer, about 1.5 years. I met a this girl at a workshop I took at Esalen and felt intensely drawn to her. There was also  a strong sense that I knew her. She seemed very familiar. Strange synchronicites also seemed to confirm that we were “meant” to be together. At the beginning it was intensely sensual and sexual. Both of us never experienced such a connection. I literally thought and felt I had met the “One”. There was no doubt in my mind, although there were red flags which I conveniently ignored or rationalized away (more on the topic of “red flags” later). After only two months of knowing each other she moved in with me which I even suggested to her. Looking back I can only shake my head at what I was thinking. Things started off nice and beautiful but soon it went down hill. A lot of issues and childhood wounds came up for me during this time as well as I wrote about in Spiritual Bypassing, Relationships and the Shadow. After our break up we even tried to work things out through therapy but it got worse. At one point she started to shame me about my work and what I do to the point that I went into a downward spiral of deep depression and even suicidal thoughts. I literally contemplated suicide and without the support of my good friends I would have not made it through it all. I even thought at one point to delete all the videos we made and this blog. I saw no sense of going on. The emotional pain was too much to bear. I also had a lot of pain in my solar plexus. It took me 6 months to recover from that and couldn’t continue my work during that time, not being able to read or write. I even had to take time off from doing bodywork for a bit since I couldn’t help others in the state I was in. She’s on her own healing path now and we have made peace.

"Cupid's Treasure" by Vernacatolatola

“Cupid’s Treasure” by Vernacatolatola

You’d think that by now I would have had learned my lessons, but no, a year and a half later I got involved in another relationship that only lasted for a couple of months but had the Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid written all over even more. I want to make clear that non of what happened with this or the other relationships I mentioned is anyone’s “fault”, as Eve Lorgen stresses as well. In retrospect, it felt as if we were being played like pawns on a chessboard. So keep in mind that this is not about blame, nor about demonizing or anything “personal” as I share what happened. This is a very brief description of what happened. I found myself in a strong romantic bliss with all the fuzziness and buttterflies with someone I met over the internet. She contacted me because she has followed my work for some years and it felt nice at the beginning to connect that way. I told my friend Humberto all this and he did see some red flags from the get-go as has been confirmed by other friends as well later on, but again I ignored that too, distracted by appearance and my emotional high. One thing leads to the next and we started skyping. We kept in contact and thought of doing a music/art project together, but underneath all that something else was happening. After only a couple of weeks of skyping we decided to meet each other. There were also a lot of synchronicities that seemed to show that this was meant to happen. We had dreams of each other, finished each other sentences as if we were psychically linked. It was very magical. She booked a flight and came to visit me. I remember on my way to the airport feeling that something is not right about this. This happened way too fast, but again, I ignored all the red flags and deeper hunches I got. After having not been with a woman for a year and a half I was also just looking forward to some female company.

There was a very strong sexual connection between us. The first night she was here we had sex right away. We both loved it and it was amazing. However, after the third day of having sex daily I got sick badly, coming down with fever and and a severe sore throat. Keep in mind that I haven’t gotten sick in five years at that point and I’m a healthy person. Not even five days of her being at my place, still recovering from my illness, other issues came up. According to her, I was not showing enough affection or giving more compliments. So I saw this in a positive light and opportunity to address these issues, especially since this related to some of my work about shadow projection and unfulfilled childhood needs. However, communicating about all this reasonably was not possible. She got triggered a lot and had many romantic expectations. We came to an understanding here and there where she was able to see how a lot of it related to her childhood and we switched back into romance mode, enjoying our time together. But then it switched again as if everything we talked about was forgotten, resulting in more overblown emotional turmoil. My own childhood wounds, like not feeling good enough, got triggered as well and we got inot arguments. So much came up so quickly like I have never experienced before.

Only a week later she complained why I don’t respond to her sexual cues and why we don’t have sex more often. She said that she’s just very sexual and “proud” of her sexuality, and that I just don’t have a strong libido. Some of her sexual desires didn’t feel right to me, comparing me with her past lovers who engaged in these kind of things and that she just has to get “used to me” that I’m not into that and not as sexual. Keep in mind that all this started to happen only one week into us ever being together. Naturally I got turned off to engage sexually at one point because there was no true intimacy in terms of emotional connection, nor a deeper platonic connection and communication. The focus on sex and physical affection and her romantic expectations around that were over-riding everything else. It was deeply confusing. One day she was all over me and I over her and we were in some sort of intense romantic bliss, the next day she shut down triggered by something I didn’t do, or say something as she expected me to, and back and forth, or I got triggered and projected on her. However, at the same time I felt a lot for her, believing I was in love.

I started to feel very drained with a lot of body pain, especially in my solar plexus. Going to work and doing bodywork became very difficult for me. She also started to feel drained. Whenever I tried to talk about all that and apply basic psychology, she got triggered a lot and took it personally. I tried to approach it all with empathy and compassion the best I could. Having said that, I also didn’t always handle these situations well. I was so confused and literally thought I was going crazy, so at times I became over-bearing and we got into arguments. My childhood wounds of “not being good enough” got triggered. I knew that stuff would come up eventually as they always do in relationships, but I did not expect for all this to come up only one week after meeting for the first time; not at all. I realized my mistake of connecting so fast and intensely with someone I didn’t really know, however, there was no escape since she was here for four weeks. We did have very good times and fun as well, but the emotional roller coaster of extreme highs and lows was completely out of the ordinary which I never experienced before in that short amount of time.

Feeling shame and guilt around not satisfying her enough sexually, I engaged sexually more with her than I felt comfortable with and beating myself up for not being more sexual. I’m not blaming her for that. There were other red flags which I ignored relating to her sexual history and upbringing which surfaced more over time, but which I also rationalized away. From the outside it’s easy to see it all but when you are tagged/set up by a Love Bite, reason goes out of the window. The intense emotional pull to be with her was overriding it all and I got lost in the romantic bliss we had.

“It is very important to not participate in the normalization of sexual behaviors that are not based in mutual respect and deep reverence. This may sound prudish but I do think human sexuality is powerful and threatening to the dark forces and they use normalizing sexual deviance and loose sexual behaviors to destroy people and to prevent the true spiritual potential of human sexually from being realized and enjoyed. There is no comparison when sacred sexuality is honored, realized and or known. Lower forms of sexuality are then obviously repulsive, low and degrading to every person involved.
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Having the good sense to set appropriate boundaries, finding and addressing our blind spots and past traumas that create unconscious reactions and developing the capacity for highly evolved skills of discernment is of extraordinary importance. If we  have not addressed our own blind spots and unconscious triggers or do not have a clear sense of what is really going on, this can be one of the easiest ways that narcissists and entities can use to take and misuse our energy.”

– Eve Lorgen, Spiritual Warfare and the Human Soul – Reptilian Hosting and Strip Clubs

The last week of her stay I got sick again and was emotionally very drained. Another red flag was the fact that she had been suffering from sleep paralysis throughout her life and she also shared that she had high strangeness experiences in her life with alien entities. While she was here, she had a couple of episodes of sleep paralysis, the most disturbing one was shortly before she left. She woke up in the middle of the night after being in sleep paralysis, being afraid. I woke up too and held her in my arms, trying to calm her down, telling her that I’m here and all is good. As I laid down again next to her, all of a sudden I felt this very strong sexual energy coming from her. Although I was tired I got very turned on and started to have sex with her. After it was over I felt right away that this shouldn’t have happened because I felt very animated during the act, not being myself at all.

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The next day I asked her why she wanted to have sex after her sleep paralysis. She said that she didn’t feel sexual at all and was surprised that I came on to her. She also felt that it was off and shouldn’t have happened but also engaged with me assuming that I just wanted to have sex. She also shared more about her sleep paralysis. When she was in it she saw two entities, one my body and one on her body as we were laying in bed. I wasn’t aware of any of that. Connecting all the dots, I tried to bring up the topic of spirit attachments and even the Love Bite scenario but it triggered her immensely taking it all way too personal. It seemed that something was working through her which affected me as well.

Describing it in words is extremely limiting. I’m not blaming just her or “aliens”. Sharing this publicly obviously puts me into a situation where people can project all kinds of things into what I write, especially when the idea of  a “love bite” is being dismissed entirely and everything is just being looked through the limited view of western psychology. There was an undeniable “high strangeness” factor which I haven’t experienced that strong ever before. As I explore later in this blog, it is through our own blind spots and weaknesses that these entities can attack and influence us. That doesn’t mean to blame the “aliens” but taking responsibility for our own actions as well. This should be clear to anyone who reads the whole blog in context. Having said that, I learned my lesson, take responsibility because I’m not free of making mistakes and not having blind spots. It is through mistakes and attacks that we learn.As Tom Montalk wrote in a recent article:

“While we may not always be the source of injustices against us, we are the cause of its entrance into our lives. The Matrix, even with all its imbalances and corruption by those freewill entities who have overstepped their place in nature, is nevertheless still a learning program entirely responsive to our own ignorance and weaknesses. It may be a predator’s choice to attack, but it is our choice to accept the attack and succumb to it.

The Matrix Control System can only trip us via the elements within us that correspond to its low vibratory nature. If we ignore our intuition, have blind spots in our awareness, or engage in ignoble feelings and behaviors, then these are the avenues through which we are had. Attacks serve to identify our own weaknesses, thus providing focus for where to take the next step on one’s path of spiritual awakening.

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A couple of days after that incident she flew back home and we left on a good note. We then tried to work through all the issues that have been coming up over long-distance. It was a mess. I was very confused. Part of me knew that this needed to stop and we need to stop engaging. Another part of me wanted to work it out so desperately and I felt a strong emotional attachment to her. The communication issues became worse. It felt like we were talking in different languages. I was also not handling the situation well at times and kept writing to her although she told me that she needed space on her own. My need for closure and letting go, contradicted by a desire to work things out and my emotional distress around all that was very confusing, for both me and her. I was hurting a lot but the grief and emotional pain was too over-blown compared to any other break-up after such short period of time. I was unable to let go and the pain in my solar plexus increased, even manifesting in a muscle spasm in that area that lasted for weeks and gave me a great deal of pain as well. I wasn’t able to function, not able to do my work. I felt just like after the break-up from my last relationship. That’s also when I realized that there is more going on than just basic psychological stuff or relationship issues. It was so extreme, feeling drained and paralyzed. The emotional turmoil got the best of me. The intense pain in my solar plexus was the same pain I experienced in the other two relationships as well and never experienced in any other relationships. In most of the case studies by Eve Lorgan, one or both partners also experienced uncomfortable sensations and pain in the solar plexus area:

“Physical complaints such as solar plexus sensations and exhaustion are characteristic of psychic vampirism, as opposed to simple emotional vampirism.”

Finally after a couple of months of back and forth she realized more and more how her childhood issues were coming through resulting in expectations that no man can fulfill which matched my own childhood wounding. She also was able to see how our relationship had strong aspects of a dark side of cupid scenario. We left it off at that and stopped communicating all together which seems the best for both of us. It’s interesting, as soon as we both truly acknowledged what actually happened in light of the Dark Side of Cupid without taking things personal, it was easier to let go and the pain in my solar plexus diminished although it still took a couple of week for it to pass completely. While I was writing this blog I started to feel pain in my solar plexus again and felt drained at times, not being able to focus as if “something” didn’t want me to write all this. However, the more I pushed through it with the help of good supporting friends who gave me good feedback and kept encouraging me, it did get better. Taking extra care of myself and especially getting into my body through yoga and bodywork has helped a lot.

I’m sharing all this personal stuff so others can learn form it as well and maybe relate to. There are many other ways the Dark Side of Cupid can play out in relationships depending on each person. I also want to make clear that this is not about blame. Most, if not all, happened outside our awareness at first. So it’s important to look at it all objectively and not making it a personal issue as in who is to blame or who was right or wrong. This is also not a gender issue. We need objective self-reflection when dealing with relationships in general, being able to see and own our blind spots.

“When examined from afar, the beginnings of the love drama appear positive, and perhaps within the normal range of human experience. But when delving deeper into the dynamics of the love match, I noticed that the experience held a greater degree of a magical reality.”

– Eve Lorgen

If you scroll back up to the list of characteristics Lorgen mentioned, I can answer a yes to most points she mentions in my experiences. They all manifested in different ways and in varying degrees in each relationship. Of course I need to look within myself and at my part and issue of why why I was attracted to them, my own blind spots, wounds, and wishful thinking which these entities target, while I was ignoring all the red flags that were present at the beginning and throughout the relationships. As I said before, this is not about blaming or taking/making things personal. Knowledge, awareness and taking responsibility for one’s own healing process and self-work are key.

“A “red flag” is an internal warning system that goes off when something feels off. Many who experienced a paranormally-influenced love relationship realized their red flag warning signs only in hindsight. Some signs were subtle feelings of something “being not quite right,” while others were more overt, such as nightmares and psychic warnings in the form of dreams or visions. Some people reported very physical warning sensations such as restlessness, stomach cramps, changes in appetite, jaw pain, and headaches. Others noticed mental or emotional symptoms such as anxiety or edginess.
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When a child grows up associating verbal [physically and/or emotionally] abuse and other dangers as normal, their “red flags” become repressed or ignored. …Adults who were abused or emotionally deprived as children are less likely to respond to red flags. Yet, it is possible for them to recover their awareness of these physical reactions by paying close attention to their feelings and actively working to heal their traumas.

Doing it alone usually doesn’t work. It is much more helpful to find a compassionate person to hear and understand us, someone who can help us become aware of our own blind spots. In the long run, isolation only creates more problems. Regarding paranormal interference in our lives, the widespread lack of awareness is not only the result of trauma or some walled-off, unhealed psychic wound. It is usually more about our social conditioning or even, as I have found, outright censorship of such things as UFOs, extraterrestrials, mind control experimentation, ancient scriptures, or indigenous traditions which warn humanity about spiritual warfare. Many, if not most, of the people who came to me with their ‘love bite” relationship were sensitive, intuitive individuals. Yet this did not always work in their favor when it came to red flag warning systems. I believe this indicates that we are dealing with something much more than a simple “toxic relationship” issue, easily explained by contemporary pop psychology.

The Dark Side of Cupid is real. Open discussion about it is important. We need to take global responsibility for growing in spiritual discernment and stepping it up a notch in the emotional intelligence department! We need to become aware of the specific red flags that often accompany the Dark Side of Cupid. These are indicators of an unseen interference factor. They may include paranormal activity, emotional tension, inability to consummate the love obsession, euphoric highs and crashing lows, mental changes like obsession, shifts in lifestyle and values, and energy drainage (either emotional or physical). These red flags are not necessarily in response to the love partner, but can be from the general atmosphere of the relationship itself, as if it were being arranged by an intelligent force behind the curtain. One mist be mindful not to blame the partner when the Dark Side of Cupid hits, because there are other factors at work. More often than not, the red flags are recognized only in hindsight, after the love relationship gets going or even after it ends. The biggest obstacle to recognizing them in time is a simple lack of knowledge.

Red Flags in the Dark Side of Cupid Cases:

– Dreams of the partner before meeting them, suggesting something precognitive.

– Physical sensations in the solar plexus, genital, gut or other body areas, such as neck, heart, and between the shoulders.

– Astral sex visitations and/or telesthesia — sensing the energy body in a sexual way and very physically, as if another being were present but invisible.

– Strong psychic connection, even though you may not really love your partner.

– Powerful sexual passion and obsessive need to have sex, even in cases in which you don’t love the partner or they don’t love you and/or are abusive.

– Psychic responses and coincidences from either partner, like receiving a phone call or email from your partner the moment you think about cutting off the connection.

– A sense of emotional or physical draining.

– One partner becoming suddenly switched off emotionally or “psychically unplugged.”

– Feelings of being watched, or being played like puppets in some drama-myth.

– Paranormal activity, third party “entity” visits or attacks, sudden dreams, visions and thoughts as if implanted.

– Obsessive thoughts that are not usual for either partner

– Synchronicities, omens, and a feeling of being in a magical reality.

Many of those red flags I did notice before and during those relationships, but even more so in hindsight. The biggest reason why I didn’t act on those red flags was because I didn’t trust those hunches and deeper knowing. Often times I just rationalized them all away or believing that I was projecting or afraid of “intimacy” or of being in a relationship or I took on their projections, feeling I’m not being loving or affectionate enough. Sometimes we actually can trust our first hunches before projections kick in. Many times I felt bodily sensations and especially in my solar plexus that something wan’t right, but even those impressions I ignored or rationalized away.

It is important to understand that these entities, aliens, hyperdimensional overlords or whatever you want to call them target specifically our personal blind spots, wounds, and wishful thinking. These love bites and interferences then manifest in various issues and relationship dynamics psychologically. The most basic example would be targeting our unfulfilled childhood needs which become even more heightened and we then unconsciously try to get from a partner those needs or even attract a partner unconsciously based on those unfulfilled needs. Everyone in our society is narcissistically wounded in varying degrees. It comes with growing up in a sick society where pathological characteristics have become normalized and also because no parents or care-takers are perfect. Being narcissistically wounded (not to confuse with Narcissistic Personality Disorder NPD) is nothing to be ashamed or bad of as long as we check ourselves, don’t justify/rationalize our narcissistic tendencies, show humility, engage in sincere self-work and catch ourselves when we try to get needs based on our childhood wounding, trying to feed off the attention of others (because Mom/Dad didn’t give much attention) be it through pictures we post of ourselves or any posts we make on social media outlets, consciously or not, or through other means, be it in everyday life through the clothes we wear, how we try to impress others, how much time we spend in front of the mirror, or check ourselves out in store windows as we pass by shops, seek attention from others, etc, etc.

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Narcissism in our society has become deeply ingrained, especially in the younger generation and kids who have grown up right during the internet boom of the 90’s, unconsciously affected by social media and the internet with many of them having become addicted to selfies and constantly sharing pictures of themselves. This is the process of the ponerization of society, where pathological behaviors have become normalized and are even encouraged, hiding behind ponerized ideas of “artistic expression”, “spirituality” or “self-love”. [When something or someone has become “Ponerized” in its strictest sense, it means that the person or group can no longer make the distinction between healthy and pathological thought processes and logic. One is no longer able to draw a line between correct thinking and deviate thinking.]

“We are currently in the midst of the greatest epidemic sickness known to humanity. Like a fish in water who doesn’t recognize water because it is everywhere, both outside and within the fish itself, many of us don’t realize the collective insanity in our midst, as our madness is so pervasive that it has become normalized.

People taken over by the wetiko virus usually don’t suspect a thing about how they have been “conned,” or more accurately, how they have conned themselves. The wetiko culture offers no incentive for them to self-reflectingly speculate upon their increasingly depraved condition; on the contrary, the nonlocal field configures itself to enable, further cultivate, and deepen their psychosis. When someone is a full-blown, unrecognized wetiko, the field around them torques so as to protect, collude with, and feed into their psychosis in a way that entrances those around them. Similar to how an octopus squirts ink in order to hide, a psychic field gets conjured up around full-blown wetikos which obfuscates their malfeasance.

Once under the wetiko spell, people lose the capacity to recognize the wetiko pathology in others. In a situation of “group narcissism,” wetikos at different stages of the disease assume particular postures and roles relative to each other that protect and shield themselves from their own insanity and darkness. They feed and reinforce each other’s narcissism because it enhances their own.

Anyone who doesn’t buy into the arbitrarily established story is marginalized and demonized, and called either crazy, a conspiracy theorist, or even a terrorist. Such a group consensus about the nature of reality gets increasingly hard to sustain as time passes, however, as, like a house of cards ready to collapse at any moment, its vision of the world is based on the fundamental error of not being true. Strangely enough, people under the collective enchantment of wetiko become fanatically attached to supporting an agenda that oftentimes is diametrically opposed to serving then own best interests.This is an outer behavioral reflection of the inner state of being under the sway of the self-destructive wetiko parasite.

All of the mainstream, culturally sanctioned, corporatized institutions are in the business of indoctrination, telling us what to think and not think, as well as how to think. Our mind is continually being massaged into shape by the prevailing culture, our true face lifted as our spiritual pockets are picked. Our civilization has become the mouthpiece for the propaganda organ of the disease, entrancing us to “buy” into its viewpoint as we are bled to death of what really counts. The culture that informs and forms around wetiko illness is itself a channel of its transmission and growth. If we sign on the dotted line and subscribe to its viewpoint, its life-denying culture will gradually subsume us into itself, enlisting us as its agents who unwitingly do its bidding. This is how the ever-expanding, self-generating psychic empire of collective psychosis works, as it increasingly takes over and approaches “full-employment.”

We are truly in a war. It is not the war we imagine we are in, which is the way our true adversaries want it. It is ultimately and actually not a foreign war against a foreign enemy. It is a war on consciousness, a war on our own minds.

– Paul Levy, Dispelling Wetiko – Breaking the Curse of Evil

There is a difference between healthy self-love and self-expression as opposed to Narcissism and sometimes the lines are blurry for we all have the immense ability to lie to ourselves and rationalize our behaviors. There are also other pathologies many people are dealing with and are not aware like the dance between a co-dependent and narcissist, for example, who attract each other based on “trauma bonding”. I certainly can see how my own codependency issues have attracted narcissistic women. Trauma bonding happens when two people are attracted to each other because of their unconscious wounds mistaking that as “love”.

In fact, much of what we call psychological issues or defects may be the just the symptom/manifestation of a spirit attachment or “alien” interference. Shamanic cultures were very aware of hyperdimensional interference and malevolent sprits who would attach to people (their energy body and aura), creating physical and psychological disease and illness.

Through emotional manipulation and psychic attacks, targeting our blind spots, these entities implant the love bite, intensifying our sexual and emotional desires to be with the other person which silences our inner knowing and keeps us from detecting and acting on those red flags. This is then even more emphasized through creating synchronicities and all kinds of magical events that make it seen that this is meant to be, linking two partners psychically. Distance is irrelevant because these beings exist outside our 3D concept of space and time. In fact most of the Dark Cupid cases Lorgen investigated started off as long distance relationship. I think the reason for that is that it creates more drama and emotional turmoil when both partners try to meet each other in person and the yearning is more intensified, leading to irrational decisions and complicated situations. That has certainly been my experience anyway.

My personal blind spots were very clear to me in retrospect. Even though I have done a lot of self-work over the years and know my childhood wounds, there have been other issues I haven’t fully realized. Plus I’m always a work in process and the learning never stops. Being comfortable in my solitude I was never desperate for a relationship but enjoy being single for most part. I never get bored and seldom feel lonely. However, a part of me definitely is yearning to be with a partner, someone who is on the same page and I can connect with on all levels: emotionally, physically and intellectually. Obviously that is what everyone wants on some level. However, in a sense it’s “easier” to be in a relationship when both partners are plugged into the matrix, not questioning anything but going along with the program with socially and culturally conditioned desires and goals. In my case and for may others as well, love relationships became way more difficult once you are in the process of seeking truth and have done so for along time, engaged in deeper self-work and actively speak out about topics which the majority of people ignore, laugh about or ridicule. It can be a very lonely road at times where it is even hard to find good friends with whom you can share all this and be truly yourself and who are also engaged in the same work and process sincerely.

The hook for me was that I thought these women were sincerely interested in the same topics based on what they told me when we first met and there was also a very strong sexual/sensual attraction. My assumptions resulted then in projecting into them, not seeing clearly where they are actually at and expecting too much of them, not being externally considerate. It was just my desperate attempt to get them on the same page and sometimes I gave without being asked. Or the “the asking” is not sincere.

“These terms, “Service to Others” and “Service to Self” are inextricably mixed up with the idea of “love.” On an individual basis, we may say that we Love this or that person, and want to Serve them, but then the question arises: WHICH PART OF THEM are we serving? The higher part that seeks spiritual growth and Union with God, or the Lower part that seeks survival in the Flesh?  When we help someone who keeps making the same mistakes over and over again, we are clearly interfering in their lessons. What, then, are we serving? Most likely ourselves because we are then able to “feel good” that we are so “long suffering” and “patient” and “self-sacrificing,” because we can certainly see, from the evidence of our eyes, that the other person isn’t making any progress by virtue of our efforts. And, it may be a far more difficult thing to deny assistance, to refuse association with them, particularly when it is someone we love, because it “hurts us to see them hurt.” Yet, that may be the very thing needed in order for them to grow – to be left to their own suffering until they have had enough so that they will begin to see their own way out of the difficulty, thereby building soul strength and accessing their own powers and inner potentials.

But, we run into a problem of judgment here: aren’t we judging whether the person is really asking from the soul level or the level of the flesh? And, can’t we be wrong?

How do we know when our giving is violating another’s free will? Well, we DO have a little bit of a clue in many ancient teachings about “asking.” The stories say: “ask and you shall receive.”

But, if you study this idea, you find that what they really say is “ask and keep on asking, and it shall be given you; seek and keep on seeking, and you shall find; knock and keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you.

There are a number of Jesus’ parables that illustrate this point, particularly the “Friend at Midnight,” found in the Gospel of Luke, chapter 11, vs.5-13.

The same teaching is standard procedure among the yogis of India and Tibet. A sufficient effort must be made by the supplicant before a response is made. In some cases, it takes YEARS of asking!

So, a good general rule to follow is that TRUE asking is accompanied by sincere effort on the part of the one asking, and they must have done all that is in their power to achieve that for which they are asking.

And so we began to learn that sometimes, “Serving Others,” in the human sense of the word, is merely the serving of the STS part of the person, the 3rd density aspect of the flesh, and is NOT true STO in the sense of achieving higher balance.

Another aspect that needs to be understood is this: In 3rd density, we are ALL Serving Self in one way or another. We cannot, by our very nature of existence in the flesh that must consume to survive, be pure STO beings. That’s the bottom line. And, it is in the understanding of this, the acceptance of it and then focusing on learning the lessons of this estate in which we find our being, becoming, at the very least, aware, and acting on that awareness to whatever extent possible, that we have the chance of becoming “STO candidates.” ”

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk, The Wave – Volume 5&6 – Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown

My “fault” is also that I’m very giving and always give the person the benefit of a doubt even though the red flags are waving at me. I tend to over-extend myself and give more than is coming back. Being empathetic by nature, always helping others I also have gotten myself into “savior/victim” relationships resulting in very unbalanced dynamics and mistaking that as “love”. That’s also why I tend to attract narcissistic women who need a lot of attention. They match my savior/codependency tendencies which also stems from my own narcissistic wounding. Many times I took this on myself which matches my childhood wounding of “not being good enough” and then attempt to give my partner what is actually not for me to give but what she needs to give herself and cannot expect from me or any partner.

As mentioned before, the women I attracted were also very sexual, especially the last girl I’ve been with. This may sound like a “nice” problem for any man to deal with, but for me it always got confusing especially if no deeper platonic and emotional connection had been established before. In fact, for me it’s been like the reverse of the cultural stereo type of women and men. In general men are usually more driven by sexual desires and don’t really want to talk and share their emotions while most women want to create emotional intimacy first and tend to share more of their emotions. For me it was reversed in most relationships, as if I was playing out the cultural stereotype of a “woman” and the women were playing out the cultural stereotype of a “man” when it comes to sex and intimacy. The point is that we all have our inner feminine and masculine side which need to be brought into balance in a healthy way. True intimacy has also not all to do with physical affection and sex, but is more about emotional intimacy and relating. For many people physical affection and sex comes easier to them than emotional vulnerability and intelligence and being able to share this through verbal communication. More than anything I wanted to talk, establish a strong platonic connection and get to know each other first because too much sex at the beginning of a relationship without truly knowing the other person has always gotten me emotionally confused because a LOT opens up when you have sex with someone.

“Initially, when we have this euphoric feeling of falling in love, there is a very strong erotic and lustful sexual attraction. We begin to have sexual fantasies about being with the person who evokes what we call chemistry. The unconscious pull towards a person can feel so intense that it’s like a magnet. We desperately want to merge. It’s compelling, fascinating, captivating and enchanting to meet someone who evokes our God image. 

The passion is unbelievable. These are the scenes of grasping and groping at one another sexually that we see in movies. We are frantically pulling the other person’s clothes off. The real motivation behind this, or should I say underneath all of this, is the urge to unite with ourselves. When we go through it with another human being, we experience this as blissful and heavenly but it is not the basis for a conscious relationship. It’s only a short-term phenomenon. The relationship will have to have a stronger foundation than chemistry for it to have a chance to make it.
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Acquaintance – friendship – dating – commitment, then sex is the order that I feel is important for a relationship. We can’t skip any of these steps. When we are exploring friendship and dating, we find out a lot about the person. We may or may not want to continue into a committed situation. After being good friends and dating for a long period of time, only then are we ready to deal with commitment and sexual intimacy. Otherwise we are having sex with a stranger. When we prematurely become sexually intimate, this actually prevents us from getting to know people. Too much fear enters the situation. We start to come from a space of how we can feel secure in this situation instead of how we can get to know who this person is or whether we have a good partnership. When we are compulsively or magnetically drawn to anyone, it is inevitable that there is an element of projection.”

– Rebeca Eigen, Shadow Dance & The Astrological 7th house – Marriage, Partnership, and Open Enemies

Having said that, the sexual attraction and intensity took me over as well at the beginning and acted on it without awareness. Getting lost in the romantic bliss with all the hormones rushing in I got involved deeply and fast, too fast. The love bite intensifies these desires even more. My big lesson in all of this is obviously to take my time to truly get to know the other person first and watch out for the red flags and not just act on all the emotional bliss, sexual passion and romantic projections. That’s easier said than done when this happens, especially when a Love Bite/Dark Cupid is involved.

Being in the midst of a Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid relationship and the the leading up to it is hard to put into words or describe to someone who has never experienced anything like that. The outside observer may assume it all looks fine, like many friends told me about some of these relationships and how “great we look together”, but appearances and pictures can be very deceiving. When I shared what’s actually going on and realized all the red flags even more, some of my friends couldn’t understand why I don’t just let it go and and be over and done with it. It’s NOT that easy at all and takes a long time to recover, longer than any other “normal” relationships that had no signs of a Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid. Having said, a few very good friends who know about the topic of the Dark Side of Cupid and the “topic of all topics” saw right away what was going on and helped me a lot through it all, even encouraging me to write this blog to share my experiences so others can learn from it who can see similar characteristics in their relationships which defy any “normal” relationship dynamics and cannot be explained through basic psychology or spirituality alone.

The topic of the abuse and distortion of sex and sexuality in our society is a subject on its own. I wanted to write about this subject more in depth in this blog as well, but considering how long this article already is I’ll just address some points briefly.

Sex and Sexuality is highly distorted in our society. In fact humanity is screwed up sexually in so many ways we’re not even aware of and the “abuse of sex” is wide-spread, not only in the obvious ways (such as pedophilia, rape, sexual harassment, porn, etc.) but predominately in ways what most people consider “normal” or “healthy” sexual behaviors and desires with all kinds of kinks and fetishes. There is also a difference between true sexual play for fun and unconscious drives and behaviors based on sexual and emotional abuse, even violence, under the disguise of “play”. Interestingly, after thousands of years we still haven’t gotten a deeper understanding of the mystery of sexual energy and its real power, creativity and healing capabilities. We’re not grasping the deeper effects, positive or negative, of how we use or abuse sex and sexual energy, the effects it has on other realms of existence and multiverses and how other beings feed off it and work through us and how we are at times animated by forces we are not aware of at all so they can get at the “juice”. But of course this distortion and suppression of sexuality happened by design and is a major aspect of the matrix-prison we’re in. Our society is over-sexualized, bombarded with sexual images (especially in the entertainment industry) and sexually suppressed at the same time. The friction between those two extremes creates a lot of neurosis. For example, the popularity of “50 Shades of Grey” says a lot about or culture.

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There is the obvious guilt-ridden suppression of sexuality through dogmatic religion or the opposite side of the coin, the distorted approach to sexuality where “anything goes”, sometimes with a very superficial spiritual idea of sexuality that has more to do with hedonism. There are many so-called “sexual healers” and gurus who mask up their own pathologies/predatory nature as “sexual healing” and “conscious sex”. Psychological health and sexual health are deeply connected in ways most of us are not aware of. Wilhelm Reich, whose books were burned and who died in prison, was truly on to something when it comes to distorted sexual energy and how it affects society. Since our society has become very ponerized, where pathological characteristics have become normalized, so have our ideas around sex and sexuality. Most people act mechanically on their sexual impulses and drives and just follow their sexual desires without discernment. I certainly have done so myself. Most of our social every day life is based on unconscious feeding on sexual energy as Gurdjieff talked about in “In Search of the Miraculous” by P.D. Ouspensky:

Sex plays a tremendous role in maintaining the mechanicalness of life. Everything that people do is connected with “sex”: politics, religion, art, the theater, music, is all “sex.” Do you think people go to the theater or to church to pray or to see some new play? That is only for the sake of appearances. The principal thing in the theater as well as in church, is that there will be a lot of women or a lot of men. This is the center of gravity of all gatherings.What do you think brings people to cafes, to restaurants, to various fetes? One thing only. Sex: it is the principal motive force of all mechanicalness. All sleep, all hypnosis, depends upon it.”

– G.I. Gurdjieff

For example, we see many people posting “sexy” pics of themselves on social media with a conscious or unconscious attempt to feed off it or mask it up as “art”. However, what is actually feeding off that is the predator working through them. This also ties into the ever-rising epidemic of Narcissism in this day and age as mentioned before where many people support each others’ narcissistic tendencies because it has become so normalized. Most people don’t know how narcissistic they actually are. What is distorted and suppressed usually comes out neurotically until we educate ourselves about what sexual energy truly is and how it affects us everyday in ways we’re not conscious of. Psychological health plays a major part in it. Like with any topic of deeper significance, there is disinformation and distorted ideas around the topic of sex. Spirituality has become distorted in today’s “conscious movements”, and so has sexuality. Truth is mixed with lies and the discernment is even harder with a topic that affects all of us in ways most of us are not aware of. The temptation (no pun intended) to lie to oneself about it is even more heightened.

Most people in the case studies of Eve Lorgen also reported that the sex was amazing and “out of this world” at the beginning, more intense than in other relationships. In those cases it also happened very fast and was extremely passionate, which I can relate to as well, getting hooked on that. However, a strong sexual connection is by no means a sign of true love or even compatibility in other ways. Something else needs to be considered as well:

“Within the sexual frequency, you exchange with one another. So if you are bonding yourself and chemically exchanging with a person who is not of your likeness, you are taking on their garbage because you are exchanging energy quite intimately. Even if you don’t want to be with this person, the sexual experience stays with you because you have had an electromagnetic exchange.”

– Barbara Marciniak, Bringers of the Dawn

With the last girl I was sexually intimate with I definitely felt I took something on and something was working through her. The fact that I got sick twice and drained a lot energetically, especially after having had sex, were huge red flags (no STD involved). Several times I felt what Eve Lorgen reported from her case studies as well:

In several of the cases, individuals reported feeling that their partner was some kind of conduit or host being overshadowed or temporarily possessed by another spirit.
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In the case of Wiz and Koral, Wiz experienced a twisting, contorting knot in his solar plexus area after having sex with Koral. As the relationship progressed, he became confused, exhausted, and depressed. Even after he and Koral broke up, Wiz continued to experience paranormal activity and unusual dreams, as if a dark force followed him around, sucking his energy. He reported this to me years after the relationship ended, and could feel a distinct energy-draining sensation between his shoulder blades, as if an entity had become attached to the back of his heart chakra area. This often happened in conjunction with sexual “astral attacks” in which he believed his sexual energy was being siphoned by predatory inter dimensional entities.
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What could be happening with the Dark Side of Cupid is an indirect form of psychic feeding. One partner tends to have the greater psychic vampire features, but instead of being a direct, consciously feeding vampire, the partner is used as a sort of portal for an interdimensional, parasitic entity. The Dark Cupid is accessing the two lovers’ energy through some kind of mediated energy transfer. The question may then be, “Is Cupid, or whomever is behind this mask, a psychic vampire?”

One of the disconcerting issues that Dixon brought up with deep psychic feeding or communion with a vampire is the permanent psychic link that will be maintained with the donor or unwitting partner. This powerful connection is often felt as true love for the one being fed upon. For the vampire, the partner may be nothing more than an energy fix or addiction. This may result in unrequited love for the unfortunate ones caught in the nest of psychic feeders, as unintentional as it may be. A hazardous by-product of psychic vampire sexual feeding, is a powerful connection which feels like one’s true love or soul mate. Hence, the counterfeit soul-mate connection.

As mentioned before and I want to make this clear again because it is very important. It is NOT about blaming the other person nor should anyone who might have to come to terms with that he/she is acting as a “portal” or has taken on a spirit attachment take this personal either. I have been dealing with spirit attachments myself in the past. As Lorgen said:

“Psychic and emotional vampirism is a key feature, and yet the vampirism itself may be an indirect aspect of the relationship interference – as opposed to being the sole fault of one partner, a.k.a. the energy vampire. In other words, the emotional draining effects of the relationship may be a result of one partner who acts as a portal or some sort of conduit for another entity, such as Dark Cupid. …These red flags are not necessarily in response to the love partner, but can be from the general atmosphere of the relationship itself, as if it were being arranged by an intelligent force behind the curtain. One must be mindful not to blame the partner when the Dark Side of Cupid hits, because there are other factors at work.

However, bringing this topic up to a partner who may be dealing with a spirit attachment and/or being a conduit for other entities is not easy at all for the predator-mind in them will defend and rationalize it away or take it very personal where no objective discussion is possible. In fact, it may be the case that the entity is working through them in that instance, injecting thoughts, buffers and defense mechanisms which they take as their own thoughts because “it” doesn’t want to be exposed. Lorgen shared a couple of cases where it was possible for a couple to work through a Dark Side of Cupid set-up since both partners were able to look at it objectively, not taking things personal, made an effort to educate themselves about this topic and were actively engaged in self-work and relationship work.

‘I want to appeal to your analytical mind, ‘ don Juan said. ‘Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal. ‘

‘But how can they do this, don Juan?’ I asked, somehow angered further by what he was saying. ‘Do they whisper all that in our ears while we are asleep?’

‘No, they don’t do it that way. That’s idiotic!’ don Juan said, smiling. ‘They are infinitely more efficient and organized than that. In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver – stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now.

‘I know that even though you have never suffered hunger… you have food anxiety, which is none other than the anxiety of the predator who fears that any moment now its maneuver is going to be uncovered and food is going to be denied. Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them.And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as a buffer against their fear.”

– Carlos Castaneda, The Active Side of Infinity

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The spirit attachment/possession syndrome also relates to the Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid. Dr. William Baldwin has done extensive research around this topic:

“The condition of spirit possession, (that is, full or partial takeover of a living human by a discarnate being) has been recognized or at least theorized in every era and every culture. In 90% of societies worldwide there are records of possession-like phenomena (Foulks, 1985).

Extensive contemporary clinical evidence suggests that discarnate beings, the spirits of deceased humans, can influence living people by forming a physical or mental connection or attachment, and subsequently imposing detrimental physical and/or emotional conditions and symptoms. This condition has been called the “possession state,” “possession disorder,” “spirit possession,” or “spirit attachment”.

Earthbound spirits, the surviving consciousness of deceased humans, are the most prevalent possessing, obsessing or attaching entities to be found. The disembodied consciousness seems to attach itself and merge fully or partially with the subconscious mind of a living person, exerting some degree of influence on thought processes, emotions, behavior and the physical body. The entity becomes a parasite in the mind of the host. A victim of this condition can be totally amnesic about episodes of complete takeover.

…An attachment can be benevolent in nature, totally self serving, malevolent in intention, or completely neutral. Attachment to any person may be completely random, even accidental. It can occur simply because of physical proximity to the dying person at the time of the death. In about half the cases encountered in clinical practice it is a random choice with no prior connection in this or any other incarnation. In the remainder some connection can be found, some unfinished business from this or another lifetime.

Any mental or physical symptom or condition, strong emotion, repressed negative feeling, conscious or unconscious need can act like a magnet to attract a discarnate entity with the same or similar emotion, condition, need, or feeling. Anger and rage, fear and terror, sadness and grief, guilt, remorse or feelings of the need for punishment can invite entities with similar feelings.

Severe stress may cause susceptibility to the influence of an intrusive spirit. Altering the consciousness with alcohol or drugs, especially the hallucinogens, loosens one’s external ego boundaries and opens the subconscious mind to infestation by discarnate beings. The same holds true for the use of strong analgesics and the anesthetic drugs necessary in Surgery. A codeine tablet taken for the relief of pain of a dental extraction can sufficiently alter the consciousness to allow entry to a Spirit.

Physical intrusions such as surgery or blood transfusion can lead to an entity attachment. In the case of an organ transplant the Spirit of the organ donor can literally follow the transplanted organ into the new body. Physical trauma from auto collision, accidental falls, beating or any blow to the head can render a person vulnerable to an intrusive Spirit.

The openness and surrender during sexual intercourse can allow the exchange of attached entities between two people. Sexual abuse such as rape, incest or molestation of any sort creates a vulnerability to Spirit invasion. Violence during the sexual abuse increases the likelihood of intrusion by an opportunistic spirit.

A spirit can be bound to the earth by the emotions and feelings connected with a sudden traumatic death. Anger, fear, jealousy, resentment, guilt, remorse, even strong ties of love can interfere with the normal transition. Erroneous religious beliefs about the afterlife can prevent a spirit from moving into the Light because the after death experience does not coincide with false expectations or preconceived notions of the way it is supposed to be.

Following death by drug overdose, a newly deceased spirit maintains a strong appetite for the drug, and this hunger cannot be satisfied in the non-physical realm. The being must experience the drug through the sensorium of a living person who uses the substance. This can only be accomplished through a parasitic attachment to the person. Many drug users are controlled by the attached spirit of a deceased drug addict.

Spirit attachment does not require the permission of the host. This seems to be a violation of free will. It also appears to refute the popular notion that each person is totally responsible for creating his or her reality and that there are no victims. The apparent conflict here stems from the definitions of permission and free will choice. Ignorance and denial of the possibility of spirit interference is no defense against spirit attachment. Belief or lack of belief regarding the existence of intrusive entities has no bearing on the reality of these beings and their behavior.

In denial and ignorance, most people do not refuse permission to these nonphysical intruders. Individual sovereign beings have the right to deny any violation or intrusion by another being. With limited, if any, knowledge and distorted perceptions of the nature of the spirit world, the nonphysical reality, many people leave themselves open and create their own vulnerability as part of creating their own reality. It is fashionable today among many “new Age” enthusiasts to attempt to channel some higher power, a spirit teacher or master who will use the voice mechanism of any willing person to speak “words of wisdom”. Some use the terminology “for my highest good” when calling for a spirit to channel through. This activity constitutes permission and welcome for a discarnate spirit. The identifiers such as “master” and “teacher” and qualifiers such as “for my highest good” will be claimed by the entities as personally valid identifications, qualities or attributes.

 …The host is usually unaware of the presence of attached spirits. The thoughts, desires and behaviors of an attached entity are experienced as the person’s own thoughts, desires and behaviors. The thoughts, feelings, habits and desires do not seem foreign if they have been present for a long time, even from childhood. This is a major factor in the widespread denial of the concept and lack of acceptance of the phenomena of discarnate interference and spirit attachment, obsession or possession.

In most cases, a person can only experience and acknowledge the reality of the condition after an attached entity has been released. The realization may come some months after a releasement session as the person suddenly notices the absence of a familiar attitude, desire, addiction or behavior. The symptoms of spirit attachment can be very subtle. An attached spirit may be present without producing any noticeable symptoms.

…A living person can have dozens, even hundreds of attached spirits, as they occupy no physical space. They can attach to the aura or float within the aura outside the body. If any part of the body of the host has a physical weakness the earthbound can attach to that area because of a corresponding weakness or injury to the physical body of the spirit prior to death. A spirit can lodge in any of the chakras of the host, drawn by the particular energy of the chakra or by the physical structures of that level of the body.

…An attached entity can be associated with any emotional track of a living person such as anger, fear, sadness, or guilt. The emotional energy of the entity intensifies the expression of a specific emotion, often leading to inappropriate overreactions to ordinary life situations.

…The mental, emotional and physical influence of an attached entity can alter the original path of karmic options and opportunities of the host. It can disrupt the planned lifeline by hastening death or prolonging life, thus interfering with any specific checkout point. An entity of the opposite gender can influence the sexual preference and gender orientation. An attached entity can influence the choice of marriage partners and the choice of a partner for an extra-marital affair.

Many areas of a person’s life can be influenced by one or more attached entities. In short, spirit attachment can interfere with any aspect of the life of the unsuspecting host.

The symptoms of spirit attachment can be very subtle. An attached spirit may be present without producing any noticeable symptoms. Yet attached entities always exert some influence ranging from a minor energy drain to a major degree of control or interference. Complete possession and takeover can result in Suppression of the original personality. The earthbound spirit does not replace the rightful spirit in the body in such a case, it just usurps control. An attached earthbound spirit cannot maintain life in a human body after the original spirit being has separated from the body in the transition of death.”

Path towards healing and protection from the Dark Side of Cupid

The obvious questions that come up are how can we prevent Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid relationships? How can we prevent psychic attacks and spirit attachments? How can we recover from them?

The most important part is to gain knowledge about this topic. But knowledge alone is not enough. We need to understand and apply it. I realize that I understood many things intellectually in the past but my naiveté and lack of awareness of my blind spots left me vulnerable to these attacks and set-ups. It’s one thing to be attacked overtly through ad hominem attacks and ridicule which I’ve received a lot for my work over the years, speaking out about these topics and other subjects as well. I can handle those just fine. My blind spot and weakness were love relationships and these forces working through the women I attracted and was attracted to and also working through me in ways I wasn’t aware of. I also trust my inner knowing (which was there like a distant voice) and truly see all the red flags, seeing the “unseen” of what is happening underneath it all. It was clouded by romantic bliss and sexual ecstasy.

All there is are lessons and even those entities that work through others to attack us or work through ourselves are in the end “teachers”, pointing to our issues and blind spots which they conveniently use to get to us. In a sense it’s like a shamanic initiation, battling with demons within and without. That’s why it is important not to fall into blame or making it a personal issue and project on to the partner. These Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid experiences, especially the last one, forced me to take a deeper look into myself even more and also truly understand how romance at the beginning of a relationship can be so deceiving with all the emotional high and fixation when our hormones go crazy. Trusting our intuition and inner knowing from the get-go is very important, resisting to act on our impulses, especially if their are out-of-proportion emotionally and sexually driven.

Sexual chemistry and sexual intercourse itself is also a preferred method of creating a powerful link for psychic feeding.

– Eve Lorgen

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Most often we don’t question our desires and impulses. We believe we know ourselves but mistake unfulfilled childhood needs as our true adult needs at times, mistaking the conditioned self for the true self. We also don’t question our sexual fixations and desires at times and just act on them as their arise, assuming that this is just who we are and we just feel “sexual” or “horny” and hence just need to have sex or masturbate. Many people are obviously into all kinds of things sexually and most of them never question them, especially in light of what Dr. Baldwin found out in his research into spirit attachments:

The openness and surrender during sexual intercourse can allow the exchange of attached entities between two people….The thoughts, desires and behaviors of an attached entity are experienced as the person’s own thoughts, desires and behaviors. The thoughts, feelings, habits and desires do not seem foreign if they have been present for a long time, even from childhood. This is a major factor in the widespread denial of the concept and lack of acceptance of the phenomena of discarnate interference and spirit attachment, obsession or possession.”

It’s obviously not about denying our sexuality. It’s not about this black and white thinking or falling into shame/guilt for having certain desires or denying our natural biological sexual drives, but about truly understanding ourselves and where our desires actually come from and how we tend to use sex at times to avoid facing deeper emotional vulnerability and a more intimate connection with another person beyond the physical connection. As Eve Lorgen said, “Powerful sexual passion and obsessive need to have sex” is one of the red flags in a Dark Side of Cupid love relationship.  I certainly have experienced that in myself at times in a Love Bite relationship hence I’m not taking myself out of the equation. Sex is beautiful and healing on many levels if used appropriately and with true love present. But as I said before, there is much more to be said about the topic of sex and sexuality. There is a reason why transmutation (not suppression!) of sexual energy is big part of esoteric work in order to “escape the Matrix”.

All this information may create paranoia in some people. Considering the idea of hypedimensional forces attacking us and spirit attachments working through us and others opens up pandora’s box big time. But again, where there is knowledge, understanding and awareness, there is no fear or paranoia, hence educating ourselves about this topic is crucial for there is more to reality than we can perceive and we’re not on top of the food chain. The food for these beings is emotional turmoil and sexual energy plays a big part in it as well. This requires open mindedness, questioning our long held socially conditioned views of reality.

How do we turn off the food supply for these beings? This goes back to what I mentioned before. Besides educating ourselves about this topic it really comes down to basic psychological work first and foremost.

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One of the main things I learned through this process is that any individual who wishes to pursue esoteric studies ought to have a clean and fully functional – and most of all healthy – psyche before he goes wandering off into unknown realms. After all, if your psychological state is such that you cannot deal effectively with your everyday life, how can you possibly trust such a psychological state not to mislead you in studies where you have fewer solid landmarks or feedback mechanisms to guide you? And so, it strikes me that the very first order of business in any esoteric work is to get psychologically healthy. That’s basically what the Gurdjieff “self-remembering” and Mouravieff “introspection” and Castaneda “recapitulation” is all about.

Sure, it can be referred to in nebulous ways such as “the work of sorcerers” and “recapturing energy” and “crystallizing a soul” and so on, but it can also be talked about in very practical, scientific, modern terminology with definite examples and techniques for accomplishing this important work of knowing your machine, cleaning and adjusting it so that it works properly, and preparing oneself for more interesting esoteric work.
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We have found that dealing with the issues of narcissism and psychopathology in our world is the clearest and most direct path to dealing with programs, buffers or the Predator’s mind in man. Most human beings in the world are narcissistic and most of us are raised by narcissists. The world itself – society, culture, science, religion – is heavily influenced by psychopathic influences and these influences are one of the reasons that most potentially healthy people become narcissistic – it is a defense – a system of buffers.

And so, as we are raised in a psychopathic/narcissistic world, we also grow these buffers that separate us from our true self and that force our machine to use up vast quantities of soul energy just to keep running at all.

And so, we approach the problem in a very pragmatic and practical way. A person can do nothing until they are psychologically healthy and this means removing buffers, mentally going over the machine in a careful and thorough way, cleaning it, re-wiring it and most of all, having new experiences that help with this re-wiring process in an environment where this is possible.

Then, of course, you need to really understand how the world got to be the way it is, and that involves the study of psychopathy. Studying psychopathy is useful for another very good reason: when you finally clearly see the traits of the psychopath writ large, it helps you to identify traces of such influences in your own make-up. Psychopaths are like caricatures that help you recognize something by its most pronounced features, just like the drawing known as a caricature.
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Life is lessons. It’s that simple. We “pass” these lessons by learning to see the hidden dynamics of our interpersonal relationships. Once we understand these dynamics we can learn to put an end to the destructive and emotionally draining ones. …

Therefore, the process of recapitulation is one of great importance. By having an understanding of our past mistakes we can apply our understanding in the present, thus protecting ourselves for the future. We can truly self-remember, as Gurdjieff says, and utilize the present for whatever aim we have set for ourselves.”

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk, The Wave – Volume 5&6 – Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown

The more we are aware of our childhood wounds, possible trauma, sexual issues, blind spots, and actively work towards healing ourselves, the more we become objective with ourselves, without behaving mechanically and reactionary, the better we truly know ourselves. Know Thyself! However, knowing thyself also implies knowing our weaknesses, buffers and lies we’re telling ourselves and may have for a very long time. This work cannot always be done alone for we need mirrors from others who see us at times better than we can see ourselves. Obviously it would help to have friends who are also engaged in sincere self-work, have basic understanding of psychology and are aware of “the topic of all topics”, otherwise our friends may just support our buffers in their well-meaning intent to make ourselves feel better.

“According to the Great Work, a friend is one in which you support and encourage the other’s expansion in either the mind or the spirit. Otherwise they are people you are sentimentally attached to it because they would eat cinnamon bun with you. And they will say ‘hee, hee, hee’ aren’t we having fun”. Drug addicts do the same thing. Drug addicts want to be around people who will support them and be away from real friends. Do you know why? Because it feels good. To be a memeber of a mystery school can be catastrophic to the ego and to the ego’s habits and to the propensity for mediocrity. No one ever cried striving for excellence. They only cried when their mediocrity was taken away from them and pointed out to them.”

–  Jerhoam

The most important part of that work is emotional intelligence and regulation. In various esoteric teachings emotions (sensations, feelings and passions) are represented by horses with the master (true self) in the carriage (physical body) and the coachman is the ensemble of the intellectual faculties including reason. The horses need to be trained by the coachman so they don’t drive us over the cliff. In other words, emotional intelligence is the ability to link our emotions to reason, connecting the heart and the mind and not letting one over-ride the other.

“When discussing emotional intelligence, the “intelligence” component refers to the ability to apply reason to factual information. The “emotional” component is how we interact with others based on this information. An emotionally intelligent person uses both qualities in balance.
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In order to avoid attracting and feeding the paranormal virus as it attempts to infect the living cells of our love relationship, we must start with emotional clearing. Pent up emotions and unhealed wounds can cause tension, anger, and depression, and act as a magnetic attractor to more of the same. Once the awareness of unresolved emotions emerges, it is the responsibility of the more aware partner to address these issues.
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Developing emotional awareness and intelligence means being willing to be present with our feelings and needs, respecting others and engaging in mindfulness practices. Tracking our behavior patterns, such as compulsions, addictions, and things that “trigger” us emotionally, is essential to expanding our awareness. It’s part of raising our consciousness and evolving as human beings.”

– Eve Lorgen

In other words, we need to develop or connect to our objective observer, being able to step outside ourselves, not disassociating, not “getting into our head”,  but staying grounded and embodied, observing what is actually happening and tapping into our reason and inner knowing, the master who can “see”, knows which “direction” we need to go and can make the right decision.

“As we’ve already learned, the main thrust of the Stoics was that human beings should strive for rational control of moral action as defined by the rational – as objective as possible – understanding of the human constitution and cosmic design as related to humans. Posidonius explained a moral ‘mistake’ as being due to a person being inadequately educated, either in rational understanding or life habits, who was ruled by his or her emotions. Such a person would give more value to objects of emotion and desire (drive) which would cause them to so distort their rational thoughts that they ended up making a choice that actually overrode moral reason. Posidonius insisted that the root of evil or vicious action is internal, a seed lying in the natural pathology of our own make-up. He agreed that the seed could be nurtured and grown by external agencies, but in the end, right or wrong is our individual, personal responsibility.

So, what to do? Posidonius had a very practical approach. He proposed that an individual should be trained along two pathways simultaneously. The first one was theoretical study of the natural world and the second was training by having moral rules that define appropriate acts to follow.
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Both courses of education were needed: one aimed at developing and strengthening the rational mind with knowledge and awareness, and the other directed at overcoming mental pathology, bad habits, wrong reactions and overactive emotions.

According to Posidonius, the rational aspect of a person was amenable to infusion of knowledge and training when he was sane. He could then be taught that he needed to follow, in everything, reason, which is similar to the rationality that infuses the cosmos. And the way to find that out was to study the cosmos itself, i.e. the world and everything in it. One should understand fully and completely that it is a deviation from true humanness to be swept along by our irrational aspects like an animal. Thus, such a course of study would include natural philosophy and logic so as to come to an understanding of the structure and operation of the cosmos and our positive, responsible function within it, and from this to acknowledge that our rationality, not our emotional impulses, was our true directing force. In other words, aetiology, the study of causation, should be one of our chief occupations.

However, when the ordinary man is insane due to excessive emotionality, different training methods needed to be used since irrational states do not respond to rational discussion.

It should be noted here that in no way did the Stoics think that eradicating emotions was proper. As Posidonius noted, they are a necessary part of our natural and normal mental make-up. But like a horse, they needed to be trained and not allowed to pull the carriage over a cliff. Seneca tells us that Posidonius elaborated a whole system of ethics for training and it included different methods of persuasion, exhortation and many examples.”

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk, Comets and the Horns of Moses

Without emotional intelligence we become easier targets of the Dark Cupid/Love Bite. Emotional Intelligence helps us also to become more discerning of who we engage with, especially intimately and sexually.

The General Law and Life in the Matrix

Let’s explore a bit deeper why certain individuals are especially targeted with a Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid as mentioned before:

“One common factor in each of my Dark Side of Cupid cases is that all the individuals were involved in the alternative research, paranormal, conspiracy, and/or spirituality circles. In other words, all these people were part of a larger consciousness-raising movement in the global community.”

– Eve Lorgen

One thing upfront. It’s one thing to speak out and post articles/videos on social media about what is really going on in our world here and there. That’s great and necessary and helps to spread awareness. However, it’s a whole different ball game when engaging into deeper research, reading books (not just articles, listening to pod casts or watching youtube videos) and actively seeking truth which requires time, work, and effort and then speaking out about it publicly through writing articles, books, giving talks or making videos with the potential of reaching a lot more people than just our immediate circle of friends. UFO researcher and historian Richard Dolan called people “armchair researchers” who just google things, read some articles or watch videos and then claim to have knowledge and understanding of the topic matter. It takes much more to get at the truth than that.

For example. recently I have disabled the comment section for our film “UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact” on youtube. I’ve never seen so many trolls in one place with the vast majority of comments being completely off topic or downright vile. So much bible thumping too. Sometimes I wonder if they mistakingly commented on a different video because it makes no sense what many of them write as if they have not seen the film at all, or they project so much nonsense into it that has nothing to do with what has been actually said and presented. It’s a good example for the fact that just because someone watches something it doesn’t mean that he/she actually understood what had been said. Moreover, hardly anyone makes an effort to actually read/study the resource list shown in the film and in the info section as well. Numerous times I’ve mentioned in the film and elsewhere how important it is to approach this topic carefully and do more research about it since this film is just an over-view and only touches the tip of the iceberg.

The same happens at times with the blogs I write. Many people don’t check out the hyperlinks and listed resources which would help them to get a better understanding since all the articles on here (even the very long ones like this one) are just a summary and overview of deep and complex topics.

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It’s also one thing to speak out about general topics like GMOs, environmental issues, political issues like the illusion of the two party paradigm, or choice through voting, the 9/11 lie, or even Zionism and questioning the official story of WWII which definitely attracts more attack and ridicule than the usual topics many “progressive” and “liberal” type people concern themselves with. Then there is of course the topic of genetic psychopathy and psychopaths in power (who, btw, are the perfect “vehicles” for these hyperdimensional overlords/aliens to work through) which causes a lot of resistance since most people believe all humans are born equal and are the same inside.

It’s important to speak out about the more obvious issues our world is facing since, unfortunately, it is still not that obvious to most people and sometimes you gotta reach people on that level before going straight into the fringe and deeper, hidden aspects of the Matrix Control System.

However, what I have noticed in my life as well as in the life of others is that once you expose the “topic of all topics” and the hyperdimensional control/manipulation of humanity, which is the root cause of the many other issues that are merely the symptoms, the “control system” goes into over-drive and attacks these people even more, mostly through others or directly through psychic attacks……or in the form of a Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid relationship.  On a side note, I would never claim to be a researcher in the likes of the many amazing researchers and minds I quote and refer to often. I just connect the dots based on their their work, cross-reference them, and relate it to my own research, experiences and insights. Many of those renegades and amazing researchers have suffered under severe attacks more than I ever have. Some of them were even killed or “suicized”.

As I mentioned before, my life definitely changed big time once I got deeper into these topics and especially after releasing the UFO documentary when even one of the researchers presented in this film told us: “Just be aware that you will attract attack for putting this information out“. For the most part those attacks happened in ways I did not expect at all, as though these forces knew exactly my blind spots and weaknesses, even though I was aware of the idea of hyperdimensional attack and interference since that is what the film and other writings were all about to begin with. It sounds contradictory since this knowledge should have protected me, right? Well, many times I was aware of attack coming through others who were not conscious of being used as a “portal” and I was able to protect myself, “seeing the unseen”, but when it came to love relationships my awareness was lacking at times for reasons mentioned before. Knowledge alone is not enough if we don’t fully apply it at all times, stay aware and keep working on ourselves with all the impeccability and “super-efforts” (Gurdjieff) necessary. We also need to a good network of truly like-minded friends who are engaged in the same work so we can be “alarm clocks” to each other and check each other’s blind spots.

“The Cassiopaeans say “knowledge protects,” and from their perspective, it is not “knowledge” until it is applied – it is merely a collection of data and facts.

And so we come to the idea that if a person is viewing this present situation we are discussing from a strictly human view, without considering the soul dynamics involved, then it certainly would seem to be merely a “tempest in a teapot” or a “petty squabble” or even a “lack of harmony.” From the human perspective, most of what occurs in interpersonal dynamical interactions is so judged. It is that very “human judgment” that we are being challenged to see through!
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The ordinary “human interpretation” that is generally put on such things is a mechanical reaction from the “why can’t we all just make nice and get along” school of thought. And that is precisely what the Matrix Control System promotes.
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When you put the various pieces of the puzzle together, what you find is that the Predator’s Mind, the “hypnosis” that Gurdjieff talked about, the Matrix Control System interface with our bio-cosmic computers, our bodies, is our DNA which is controlled and restricted by the generation of specific brain chemicals via the control of our emotions. This is what determines the way our brains and nervous systems are set up, which includes certain early periods of Imprinting, which establishes our circuitry and thinking processes at an age and under conditions over which we have no control. And once those circuits are set up in a certain way, they can almost never be changed without a major melt-down, and they determine forever after how all incoming information is categorized. Indeed, we all have “reptilian” DNA. But we also have avian DNA. In fact, we are a veritable smorgasbord of DNA from all that exists around us. Nevertheless, something is going on that puts the reptilian DNA in control, and it is in that context that Don Juan means that the “Predator gave us his mind.”

Also, that these Control Programs, these chemicals of “feeding,” can be and ARE stimulated and perpetuated through our interactions with other human beings, most especially those closest to us, is a cold, hard fact of science.
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Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation….It is in “seeing the unseen” that we become aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we experience the “battles” between the forces of STS (Service to Self) and STO (Service to Others)! And it is most definitely this factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to conceal!… In other words, we are not just talking about a “petty dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk,  The Wave – Volume 5&6 – Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown

The Matrix Control System relates to the “General Law” as Boris Mouravieff talked about in Gnosis and forces acting upon the seeker who tries to “escape”(the Way) the Matrix or reveals information about the truth of our situation.

“Economy of energies too is a must, as the walk to and on the Way demands their total mobilization. Any unjustified expenditure can lead in the end to failure. We must always keep this in mind. In general, the reaction of those around towards someone who begins to search for the Way is negative. This negative attitude is the result of the action of the General Law, which, as we know, tends to keep man in his place. Not being able to do this directly by the action of Illusion, the General Law, when it loses its dominion over the man who ‘moves’, acts indirectly by the mediation of those around him.”

On the other hand, if someone just lives along without any efforts of waking up and seeking truth and is no threat to the “General Law” or Matrix Control System (that also entails speaking out about issues that are not a real threat to the Matrix or just distractions which ties into COINTELPRO, distracting the seeker with pseudo conspiracies, corrupted spiritual/New Age teachings and disinformation), he/she will be left alone. He/she can even make a brilliant career, be successful, have a family, kids, and be “happy” in the matrix reality without much struggle, yet he/she will not have progressed esoterically being unconsciously under the influence of the General Law following “A” influences of official culture and the status quo.

“We are not aware of how much we are bound by the action of the General Law. Acting on us as it does on our cells, this law immobilizes us or constantly tends to bring us back to our place. Its strength leaves us little freedom of action outside the limits of its direction and scope. It acts in various ways. One can say that if man lives ‘like everyone else’, if he does not venture off the beaten track, he will never perceive the existence of this force, or rather this force will ignore him.

If man spends his life without distinguishing between ‘A’ and ‘B’ influences, he will end it as he started, one could say mechanically, driven by the Law of Accident. However, according to the nature and the intensity of the resultant forces to which he is subjected, it can happen to him to make a brilliant career, in the meaning the world gives to this expression. Yet he will come to the end of his days without having either learned or understood anything of Reality. And earth returns to Earth.”

That can be seen very clearly in our world. Most people who just goes along with the masses and accepted reality have not much struggle in the world. Birth, school, choose a career, get a job, watch TV, consume, reproduce, entertain, be nationalistic or religious, follow your desires and impulses unexamined, etc…

Not knowing himself, but a slave to the outside world, full on under the control of the General Law/Matrix, the common man has no free will, although he thinks he does.

However, whenever someone awakens, steps up and tries to “escape” The General Law/Matrix by questioning what we’ve been taught and told, gaining knowledge and speaking out, forces are put on to him trying to to put him back in line, back to sleep. He will be ridiculed or even silenced. His only chance of protection is to apply Knowledge and fuse the magnetic center through sincere self-work, so he doesn’t fall back to sleep. Anything that is not a threat to the Matrix Control System or General Law will be ignored or even promoted heavily, be it through religion, politics, entertainment or popular new age/spiritual ideas.

“But if his enterprises are out of the ordinary, no matter what field they are in, but especially in esotericism, this force begins to act, and stirs up all sorts of obstacles in order to bring him back to the point where — according to the General Law — he must reside. Even without knowing this force, we have an intuition of its existence and of the many forms which clothe it. The Holy Scriptures speak of it more than once, especially where esoteric work is concerned.

Thus, if this conservative force, which is the servant of the General Law, does not succeed in ‘calming’ man by acting directly upon him, it tries to reach him indirectly through the people of his household, either through the feelings they invoke or the coolness and contempt they openly show him.”

Organic Portals

This “conservative force, the servant of the General Law” acts mostly through Organic Portals. Humans who are not aware, having no access to the higher centers or haven’t built a strong “I” and foundation are being used as portals through which the Matrix works and unconsciously try to keep others from awakening through hyperdimenstional forces (4D STS) working through them. Think of Agent Smith being able to inject himself into any character in the film “The Matrix” trying to stop Neo from awakening. Hence, blind people, people who are asleep, plugged into the Matrix, the grand illusion, become unconscious “tools” and puppets of the Matrix to make sure no one jumps out of line.

“[Organic Portals] are generic vehicles or portals, in human form, open for use by a variety of forces, which is why they make excellent matrix puppets. It just so happens that they’re being used now by 4D STS to control 3D STS / 4D STO candidates through “clapper” and “vampire” functions — keeping us locked into a behavioral pattern matching the orchestrated norm, and being physically close to us to sap our energies and keep us from having enough “escape velocity” to remove ourselves from the Matrix Control System’s tug, via development of our magnetic centers. Thus we see that the “natural” function of the OP of imitation of the soul energy, the process by which they were able to progress and evolve, assumes a specific character with the STS development stream of collecting the soul energy of souled individuals in order to pass it along the feeding chain to 4D STS. The principal role of the OP is now to prevent the genuine seeker from advancing along the Way.

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk, The Secret History of the World

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“Were you listening to me, Neo? Or were you looking at the woman in the red dress?” – Morpheus, The Matrix

We can see how this ties into Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid love relationships, not only to feed off the emotional turmoil but to set-up one partner, who is involved in seeking truth and speaking out about the topics that expose the Matrix Control System, in order to divert and distract him/her from the path. The primary talent of an OP is that of imitation, of mimicry as they steal energy from souled beings so as to emulate them. They also tend to be very focused on carnal love, based on the lower three centers and especially the sexual center. Of course all of this happens unconsciously.

“The pre-adamic being (Organic Portal) is IN his or her environment in a way that an adamic being (Souled Individual) is not. The world with its “A” influences holds great attraction. The activity of the sexual center seeks gratification in a world more and more sexually charged through media and open displays of sexual imagery. The “I” of the body can exist happily on the level of a basic animal existence governed by the lower centers, but the developing real “I” in the process of activating the higher centers cannot.”

The topic of Organic Portals is deep and far-reaching. One must not to come to hasty conclusions, assumptions or judgments. We all are Organic Portals to one degree or another as the “predator” and matrix works through all of us until we make the effort to gain (self)knowledge and work on fusing our centers that connect us to our higher self in a conscious way, dislodging our programs and conditioned, mechanical behaviors so we’re able to use our will in a conscious and awake manner. That is the basis for true free will.

Whether or not the individuals named are Organic Portals is not the issue. They may be souled individuals who have not yet been able to see behind the lie of the Personality. As long as that has not happened, souled individuals will function and see the world and themselves as if they were Organic Portals.
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A major part of our esoteric work is to learn to extricate ourselves from the energy feeding dynamic inherent in relationships with Organic Portals. Moreover, because those who have the higher centers in potential are subject to the same programming and are mechanical, reaction units until they undertake the work to develop their higher centers, the same thing holds true in our interactions and dynamics with them. We are all feeders until we learn to stop our feeding off of others and how to stop others from feeding off of us. Esoteric work demands enormous amounts of energy, and this energy is the energy off of which others feed.

In order to progress in esoteric work, it is fundamental to understand this underlying dynamic of feeding; it is pointless and dangerous to attempt to identify and to classify individuals as organic portals because we are all OPs until we choose to be otherwise. To turn a tool for understanding the true terror of our situation in this world of the fallen into a weapon against individuals is to empty it of its spiritual importance and render it a tool of our enslavement in the material world, the same process that has occurred to all of the world’s religions during the course of our unhappy history.

A true understanding of the organic portal and the world in which we live gives us the knowledge necessary for getting out “alive”, whether that is literally or whether it is just being alive to our true nature as souls locked in material bodies in order to learn important lessons that only this world can teach. We can no more hate those who have no access to the higher truths because of who they are than we can hate the cat who plays with the mouse prior to killing and eating it.”

For a deeper and better understanding of this topic please read “Organic Portals – Soulless Humans” and check out the resources and links within it.

Wanderers

Let’s look at the Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid scenario in light of the idea of Wanderers. Wanderers are individuals whose souls have incarnated from a higher density (4th or 6th density) into this 3rd density with a specific mission to accomplish in order to assist humanity, helping with The Harvest or Graduation to 4th Density during this Age of Transformation. However, due to the “veil of forgetting” when entering a lower density, the mission/task by the Wanderer is forgotten and he/she needs to awaken to what they came here to do.

Wanderers need to become conscious and aware of the traps, deceptions and distractions in 3rd density which may interfere with their mission since most people are NOT like them, but have a different inner wiring so to speak. Ra mentions that “the Wanderer is less inclined to the deviousness of third density and therefore does not recognize as easily as a more negative individual would, the negative nature of thoughts or beings“.

“Ra tells us that wanderers are vulnerable because they become completely the creature of third density in mind and body, and are, by nature, less inclined to deviousness and manipulation. For this reason, they often do not recognize as easily the negative nature of other beings or thoughts before they become involved with them.Then, very often, because of this very lack of perception of negativity, they often persist in relationships that are negative because they repeatedly attribute to the other person their own benevolent motives and perceptions.

Additionally, there is just as much chance of negative hyperdimensional telepathic mind control influence being brought to bear on a wanderer as anyone else. The only difference occurs in what Ra calls the “spirit complex” which, if it wishes, has an armor of light which enables it to recognize more clearly that which is not appropriately desired. This is not more than a bias, and cannot be called an understanding. So, in other words, you just have an instinct about things that are not right. But then, with all our be-nice programming, we generally override the instinct and shove such signals under the rug, or search endlessly for reasons to excuse bad behavior…. Ra and the Cs both confirm that wanderers, however they are defined, are most definitely high-priority targets of the Matrix Controllers.

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk, The Wave (Volume 2): Soul Hackers – The Hidden Hands Behind The New Age Movement

Wanderers are not only subject to hypedimensional manipulation in this Matrix Control System as everyone else, but are PRIMARY targets of the 4D STS forces because their mission obviously interferes with the plans of the controllers of this world and they don’t want this to happen. They don’t want to loose their food source.

From “Soul Hackers – The Hidden Hands Behind The New Age Movement” (The Wave Book 2), chapter “All There Is Is Lessons, or Wandering Around in Third Density Can Be Hazardous to Your Health” by Laura Knight-Jadczyk:

The problem seems to be that of “waking up” [of the wanderer] to the nature of the mission and this presents special problems. Ra gives us several more clues:

 “Wanderers become completely the creatures of third density in mind/body complex. There is just as much chance of [them being subjected to Orion STS mind programming attempts] as to a mind/body complex of [strictly third density]. The only difference occurs in the spirit complex which, if it wishes, has an armor of light, if you will, which enables it to recognize more clearly that which is not be desired by the mind/body/spirit complex. This is not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding.”

 So we begin to understand that even the purest of the pure are subject to corruption and deception. They do seem to have a bit of help in separating the wheat from the chaff, but Ra describes it as “not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding.”

The problem is, the “bias” often comes into direct conflict with the mind programming efforts of the Orion STS and a lot of suffering and torture can result. And there is also a special weakness of those who are configured to STO — since they don’t have meanness and deception in their own hearts, it can take almost forever for them to see it in others who are being used to keep them from awakening! Ra remarks on this as well:

“Furthermore, the Wanderer is less inclined to the deviousness of third density and therefore does not recognize as easily as a more negative individual would, the negative nature of thoughts or beings… [If the Wanderer is successfully co-opted by the Orion STS it would be] caught into the planetary vibration and, when harvested, possibly repeat again the master cycle of third density as a planetary entity.”

Ra also confirmed Don’s remark that those with missions, Wanderers, are “high priority targets” of the Orion STS faction. That’s a scary thought!

What it means is that if a person comes into incarnation from a higher density with a mission to serve, not only are they enveloped in the “veil of forgetting”, they become special targets for a bunch of Intergalactic rapists and murderers who are only restrained in their actions by some sort of vague Law of Free Will which still allows every imaginable trick and deception to be perpetrated on them so that they will engage in relationships, beliefs, actions or reactions designed to “bring them down a few densities,” so to speak!

And they only get a “bias” toward what is Truth, and not a clear understanding!

So with all of this information we are trying to put together about what is out there just waiting to trap and deceive us, how in the world are we supposed to have a clue as to what is going on? Just who are the Good Guys here?!

“[In terms of STO contacts from the higher densities] the infringement upon free will is greatly undesired. Therefore, those entities, which are Wanderers upon your plane of illusion, will be the only subjects for the thought projections that make up the so-called “Close Encounters” and meetings…”

Ra seems to be saying that only the “Wanderers” have any hope of being in contact with the higher level “Good Guys” because they are, ipso facto, already of STO configuration and therefore, contact is not an infringement upon their free will as it would be if the STO contact came to a third density being who has not yet graduated to the higher densities.

Of course, they all look alike here on the Big Blue Marble, and they are all mostly engaged in living relatively normal lives side by side with one another. And they do have to be “awakened”! Also, there is a special condition under which Wanderers may be contacted, it seems, that pretty much eliminates your “weekend seminar” in channeling. It seems that there is an almost mathematical law involved in being able to communicate with higher density beings

If we just stop and think for a moment about the nature of most people on the planet who do not want to search or learn; they do not want to think or do the necessary work that prepares a “vessel” for the inflow of higher knowledge; they want to be “saved” with as little effort as possible, then you begin to understand the odds against contact with truly higher density STO beings. That is the operation of the Law of Free Will.

The majority of beings of third density are STS — they would not be in this density otherwise. By this choice, they have also chosen the illusions that are part of this “con job”. Yes, at a very deep level, it is a choice to experience in order to learn, but let’s not get ahead of ourselves here.

By the very fact that this is the choice of the majority, the few who might truly wish to perceive the truth are overruled by the mass choice according to the law of Free Will!

Even if the being is a fourth or sixth density “Wanderer”, by entering this density, they have chosen to “play by the rules” and cannot abridge them!
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Ra did give us a figure: 65 million Wanderers on the planet at the time he was speaking. That amounts to about one person out of every hundred on the planet. But how many of them survive the attacks? How many of them actually do, can, or will wake up? Particularly when we must expect them to be objects of special “attention” in terms of “attack”?
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So now we begin to understand the special traps set up for these Wanderers wherein human agents are used to manipulate and control them. If they cannot be corrupted directly, the strategy is to corrupt those around them — including family, friends, spouses and associates of all kinds.
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There was a curious exchange with the Cassiopaeans at one session which included another individual who also fits this profile that gives some clues as to how this occurs:

May 3, 1997

Q: (L) Reading through the session of May 23, last year, when TK was also here, and the issue of his living in isolation from the rest of the world was addressed, you asked who had begged him to stay there even though he wanted to move to a place where he could have more contact with other people and more opportunities for growth and stimulation. The answer to this question was that it was his wife who insisted on remaining even though it was clear that he was unhappy in the environment. Then you made a remark about an EM [Electromagnetic] vector. The way I understood it is that you were saying that a person can be an EM vector. Is that possible?

A: Vector means focuser of direction.

Q: (L) So his wife is the one who controls the focus of his direction. But how? Could that mean that a human being can vector EM waves simply by their presence and that these EM waves are part of the control system that manipulates people? Can it be that such “agents” are used as EM vectors in the sense that they emanate a special frequency that literally affects the mind in terms of shutting down clarity, or even actually transmitting pre-coded thought loops?

A: Precisely.

Q: (L) I also noticed that several of us have been involved with persons and relationships that seem designed to confuse, defuse, and otherwise distort our learning, as well as drain our energy. Basically, keeping us so stressed that we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some significance to this observation?

A: That is elementary, my dear Knight! […]

Q: (L) Were the individuals in our lives selected for the extremely subtle nature of their abilities to evoke pity, or were we programmed to respond to pity so that we were blind to something that was obvious to other people?

A: Neither. You were selected to interact with those who would trigger a hypnotic response that would ultimately lead to a drain of energy.

Q: (T) Well, it is a fact, because my energy is sure drained. (L) What is the purpose of this draining of energy?

A: What do you think?

Q: (T) So you can’t concentrate or do anything. You can’t get anywhere with anything.

A: Or, at least not the important things.

Q: (T) Is that why my concentration is so low?

A: Yes. You are dealing with a no-win situation!! As you know.

Q: (T) So, if I don’t get out, I will just keep going down. Is it the area or the person?

A: Both. One is wrapped within the other. […]

Q: (L) Is it true that being in the presence of such people, that one is under the influence of an energy, an emanation from them physically, that befuddles the mind and makes it almost impossible to think one’s way out of the situation?

A: It is the draining of energy that befuddles the mind.

Q: (L) Where does this energy drain?

A: 4th density STS.

Q: (L) These people we are associated with drain our energy from us and fourth density STS harvests it from them?

A: “They” do nothing!!!! 4th density STS does it all through them! […]

Lesson number 1: Always expect attack.

Lesson number 2: Know the modes of same.

Lesson number 3: Know how to counteract same.

When you are under attack, expect the unexpected, if it is going to cause problems… But, if you expect it, you learn how to “head it off,” thus neutralizing it. This is called vigilance, which is rooted in knowledge. And, what does knowledge do?

Q: (L) Protects! I guess that a person just has to come to the full realization that virtually everything that happens on the planet — no exceptions — is a symbol of some interaction of STS vs. STO energy at higher levels.

A: Yes, and for most, that is not as of yet realized. It must be part of a natural learning process.

Q: (L) Well, I guess that all of us tend to keep one or another area sacrosanct and think that it is not subject to attack, or that we can use logic and third density thinking to explain it. Until a person realizes that attack can come through even one’s self, wives and husbands, children and parents, friends — virtuallyanybodynobody is exempt.

A: The block is a lack of faith in the concept. Remember, when one has been indoctrinated by religion, culture and/or science, they are predisposed to view all things in the sense of the measurable physical reality exclusively. One must be cured of lack of faith in the reality of nonphysical attack.

One major thing we see from the above is that our associations can be crucial. Of course, if we are aware that anyone and everyone can be used as an “EM vector” to modulate our frequency or behavior or thinking, then we have some protection. But to be unaware of it, to be in close association with those who are unaware themselves, and therefore subject to this manipulation, is to be firmly “in the trap”.

But suppose one person in a relationship begins to “wake up”, and becomes aware (even if only vaguely), that all is not as it seems. They will have continual glimpses of the reality, mostly when not in the presence of the other individual. They may clearly see that something is not working, that it is not right, and may even make decisions to change it or to leave. But the instant the other person is physically present with their EM vectoring capabilities, the glimpses of truth are “damped” or even shut down and the waking person begins to feel schizophrenic or crazy in some way for having such conflicting and opposing thoughts. Add to this the social and religious enculturation to “turn the other cheek” or “suffer because it’s noble and holy,” and you have the recipe for cooking the Wanderer’s goose!

Another of the factors in the control system is the “self-destruct” program. Obviously the aliens have no problem abducting and killing and eating many people who are still lost in the initial choice for STS/third density. But there are the special cases of the Wanderers who, obviously, the STS invaders don’t want to tangle with at that level, as described above by Ra, so they have a rather clever way around this little stumbling block to their machinations: the suicide game.

This is a very cunning setup, I can tell you! It can follow a variety of lines in the lives of different people, and it seems that the STS Orions take some sort of fiendish delight in designing variations for their entertainment pleasure, but the gist of it is this: a Wanderer is born. Obviously they have to be born somewhere, to some family, with certain genetics. It is also equally obvious that the choices probably don’t include having Wanderers for parents or siblings, (though there are exceptions). There they are, innocent little babies, volunteers for a great mission, surrounded by potential EM vectors and Lizzie agents! And the game begins!

Abuse — physical, sexual, and psychological — comes into play to “set them up” for a later fall — if in fact they are not just simply killed by same right at the beginning. But the special characteristic of the Wanderer type is that they continue to “shine” with a sort of “inner purity” of the questing spirit even in the face of such treatment. As a result of this abuse, they can be attached by any number of “dead dudes” or elementals or even demonic-type entities that enter in through wounds in the psychological/psychic shield like cosmic bacteria.

The usual next stage in this drama is to cause the Wanderer to be attracted to a particular type of person who is a sort of “false image” of STO. This can be what researcher Eve Lorgen calls a Love Bite relationship where a great “cosmic love” is simulated, only to fall flat as soon as the EM vector is turned off. The intended result of this betrayal is to induce suicidal feelings or to set the Wanderer up for the next variation of the game.

What happens now is that the Wanderer is set up by the previous dramas to seek out marriage or love partners who are also abusive either overtly or covertly. And, of course, the Wanderer’s special characteristics of being unable to really understand negative thinking because it is not a part of their own make-up, prevents them from seeing exactly what is going on. They always seem to attribute the same high motives and ideals to others that are in themselves. They endlessly excuse abuse and hurt to themselves and others with the idea that if they just love the other long enough, hard enough, pure enough or stand by them through thick and thin, that the abuser will overcome their hurts/wounds which are the cause of their abusive behavior, and they will then be able to be whole, which, of course, the Wanderer believes to be a person similar to themselves!

Gee, sounds like the Way of the Monk, doesn’t it? Perhaps that “way” was created just to trap such positive individuals and to use them as energy food for STS.

Then there is the constant projection of the suicide program by the many EM vectors that the Wanderer finds in their environment. It takes careful observation to determine who these individuals may be, but it can be done! The natural feelings of being lost and alone and alienated from this environment are intensified and twisted so that the Wanderer begins to focus solely upon the idea of getting out from under this enormous psychic pressure. Spirit attachments can also be used in this respect, attacking the Wanderer from the “inside”, so to speak.

 April 15, 1995

Q: (L) [You have mentioned attack.] Is this physical danger or just harassment danger?

A: Mind attack for purpose of self-destruction.

Q: (L) Is there anything that can be done to shield against this kind of attack?

A: Yes. Knowledge input on a continuous basis.

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Through it all, the Wanderer never whines or complains that others are “doing it to” them; they always tend, first of all, to seek in themselves the cause of the events or the treatment they receive. They react with the idea that somehow they are not giving enough or in the right way, though they are entirely naive about what “giving” really is because, as mentioned, they have been brainwashed by the erroneous ideals of the third density STS environment which are manipulations to induce service to an illusion.

With this enculturation, the most difficult thing that the Wanderer has to face and do is to learn to not give in some instances, because this not giving is actually a form of giving at the soul level.

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For an in-depth exploration of the topic of Wanderers please read “Wanderers, Purpose, and Esoteric Work in this Time of Transition” to get a better understanding of this subject.

 Twin Soul Relationships and Polar Beings

The question that comes up is how can we know when it is a true love/soul mate connection and when is it a set-up and faux/counterfeit soul mate connection as Lorgen called it? Is there any hope for true love? Of course there is. However, people involved in seeking truth and doing the work to help raise consciousness and awareness, especially about topics that are far outside the mainstream and challenge the status quo, need to be extra aware when it comes to love relationships, making sure that their partner is collinear. That means to be truly on the same page and having a common unspoken understanding about the basics and a true foundation to build on. Most importantly both partners need to be engaged in sincere self-work and having done so for a significant time on their own before getting into a love relationship.

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Psychotherapist David Richo suggests in his book “How to Be an Adult in Relationships” that both partners should have done at least 50% of self-work on their own before getting into a committed relationship. When do we know we have done 50% of our work? According to his definition, this is the state of awareness when we are able to recognize when triggers come up without reacting on them, having developed the objective mindful observer and emotional intelligence to be able to work through issues as they come up without taking things personal and not getting lost in reactionary behavior. It also means being able to differentiate between unfulfilled childhood needs we cannot expect from a partner to fulfill as opposed to healthy adult needs based on our true self. Having said that, most often our wounds and unfulfilled childhood needs are being shown to us once we actually engage in an intimate love relationship and we weren’t aware of on our own. In other words, relationships are lessons in love and not an end in themselves. So it goes both ways, not jumping into relationships impulsively but also not isolating ourselves and avoiding relationships altogether. These lessons are different for each of us.

“Mindfulness is being an adult. It is unattainable for someone who lacks inner cohesion, personal continuity, and integration. Being a fair witness requires a healthy ego, because distance and objectivity are unavailable to someone with poor boundaries, no tolerance of ambiguity, and no sense of a personal center.
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The healthy ego is the part of us that can observe self, situations, and persons, assess them; and respond in such a way as to move towards our goals. It assists us in relationships by making us responsible and sensible in our choices and commitments.

The neurotic ego, on the other hand, is the part of us that is compulsively driven or stymied by fear or desire, feeding arrogance, entitlement, attachment, and the need to control other people. Sometimes it is self-negating and makes us feel we are victims of others. This neurotic ego is the one we are meant to dismantle as our spiritual task in life.

The neurotic ego wants to follow the path of least resistance. The spiritual Self wants to reveal new paths.

Childhood forces influence present choices, for the past is on a continuum with the present. Early business that is still unfinished does not have to be a sign of immaturity; rather, it can signal continuity. Recurrence of childhood themes in adult relationships gives our life depth in that we are not superficially passing over life events but inhabiting them fully as they evolve. Our past becomes a problem only when it leads to a compulsion to repeat our losses or smuggles unconscious determinants into our decisions. Our work, then, is not to abolish our connection to the past but to take it into account without being at its mercy. The question is how much the past interferes with our chances at healthy relating and living in accord with our deepest needs, values, and wishes.

Every person needs the nourishment of food throughout life. Likewise, a psychologically healthy person needs the sustenance of the five A’s – attention, acceptance, appreciation, affection, and allowing. It is true that unmet needs for the five A’s in childhood cannot be made up for later in life, in the sense that they cannot be fulfilled so absolutely, so immediately, or so unfailingly. That absolute, immediate fulfillment of needs by one person is appropriate only to infants. But needs can be fulfilled, in short or longterm installments, throughout life. The problem is not that we seek gratification but that we seek too much of it all at once. What we did not receive enough of before, we cannot receive enough of now; what we did receive enough of before, we can receive enough of now. We do not outgrow our early needs. Rather they become less overwhelming, and we find less primitive ways to fulfill them. For example, an infant may need to be cradled and carried, while an adult may be satisfied with a supportive remark and a kindly glance. Sometimes a lifelong need can be fulfilled by just such little moments of mindful love.”

– David Richo, How to Be an Adult in Relationships

 Eve Lorgen defines a true twin soul relationship as follow:

“The difference between a twin soul relationship and a non-soul mate situation is that …in a good relationship, two people proceed in harmony, reconciling their conflicting views; but the twin-soul relationship is founded on a fundamental sense of oneness: oneness of vision, oneness of purpose, oneness of feeling. Twin souls do not pull their separate ways, except briefly and temporarily at the personality level. They progress as one, no longer hobbled by difference in pace or direction. This is the reason their advance is so swift once the connection has been made.

In twin soul relationships, both persons are usually on parallel spiritual paths or extended personal growth that reached a plateau where they were ready to meet their “other half”. There was no emotional manipulation or psychic vampirism at all. The connection between twin souls were nearly telepathic in some cases, but in ways that brought great satisfaction, harmony and oneness of spiritual purpose in life. These people were spiritually focused and service-oriented.”

In the esoteric tradition the concept of “polar beings” relates to what is commonly called twin soul relationship nowadays. Mouravieff writes in “Gnosis” about such a union. He also emphasizes the need for both partners having established the real “I and control over the lower impulses, especially the emotional and sexual center, before being able to recognize each other. He talks about that the necessity to move from carnal love based on the lower centers to courtly love and a strong platonic connection where both partners have done the necessary self-work to truly recognize each other based on the foundation of the real “I”. What he describes below in esoteric language relates to what Richo and Lorgen talked about above and psychological self-work in general. Keep in mind that the term “man” relates to “human” and is not gender specific.

Human love is imperfect because it is instinctive and impulsive. As long as man automatically follows his impulses, his love will serve only the cosmic goals of the ensemble [the General Law]. The pleasure he always gains from this is as much an equilibrating element as a reward. As it is, it will not serve his esoteric evolution in any way. Yet Love is the surest and most powerful means of achieving this evolution. This is because Love is the one objective element in our lives. That objectivity remains true in all Love’s many aspects, and through all the variety of its manifestations. Love can, in effect, serve man in his esoteric evolution. However, to achieve this aim, man must apply conscious efforts to this love, not allow himself be led on by impulses. It can then be used to accelerate the growth of his Personality and its progress towards the second Birth, the first tangible result of esoteric practices.
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This work, done by man and woman working together, can develop with extraordinary power and give rapid results… on condition that from the esoteric point of view the two beings entirely suit each other, and also on condition that they are a perfect couple, that is, that their combination — with reservations concerning the peculiarities of their human type — reflects the relation between the absolute ‘I’ and the ‘You’ before the Creation of the Universe. This is the case of those beings known in esoteric science as polar beings.
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We must add that now, at the threshold of the era of the Holy Spirit, where all that is wrong—however well-intentioned—must fall and break, the problem of the real polarity of couples becomes crucially important. Two beings, man and woman, who are supposed to be polar, cannot be absolutely certain of their polarity until later on, when they have reached the level of man 4, on the threshold of level 5. This is because, although polar in essence, each of them brings with them a past that covers their real ‘I’ with a dissimilar crust. Those who are polar in essence must take this fact into account. It is only when they gradually shed this crust that the qualities of their essence will progressively shine through, bringing at each discovery an abundance of ineffable joy. Thus their love will always grow.
[…]
Conscious personal efforts, especially efforts between two polar beings, and the joint efforts of people who have already progressed in the search for the Way, mark out the route for those who want to serve, who wish to be useful to the task of redemption which esoteric work wants to accomplish today in the whole world.
[…]
To set out on the Way, man must necessarily go through an inner collapse of the Personality, what we call moral bankruptcy. Then he will know the vain illusion of pride, and the true value of humility.
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To return to this source, the chief practical objectives are mastery of the sexual centre, and the training of the emotional centre. However, for this esoteric work to be completed successfully by two people, it is essential that the two beings — man and woman — are integrally polar.
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Here the real ‘I’ is involved, and the couple’s Love, while containing all the possibilities already described in the preceding cases, has a singularly emotional character of a higher order. It naturally follows as this Love is hylic, psychic and spiritual at the same time, thus leading to an attraction that is visual, auditory and tactile, it is incomparably richer.
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The chief characteristic of this so-called Royal case is the bi-polarity of the real ‘ I ‘ – one for each couple. This orients their Personalities and their bodies in such a way that what each hopes for and awaits from the other is precisely, and very naturally, what the other desires to and is prepared to offer. It is only in a case of this kind that there can be absolute harmony between a couple, and even this is conditional on each of them trying progressively to liquidate his or her karmic burden and to establish a balance between the lower centres, whose development must be pushed to the limit. These are the combined objectives which the allegedly polar couple who enter on the fifth way must seek through their work. This means that, right from the beginning, the Knight and his Lady-elect must practice courtly Love, which unites in itself Faith, Hope and Knowledge (Gnosis).”

Closing Thoughts

The more we are seeking truth sincerely and speak out a about it, the more attack we will receive in ways most of us are not aware of. As if relationships are not already hard enough for many people, they can become even more challenging for us who are involved in the alternative research, paranormal, conspiracy, and/or spirituality circles, being part of a larger consciousness-raising movement in the global community. Does that mean it is a lost cause? No, as mentioned at the beginning, we have to understand that we are more powerful than we think we are. It’s a spiritual war and our weapons to defend and protect ourselves are knowledge and awareness. In fact, the deception lies in these entities making us believe that we are powerless and that we can’t do anything about it.

We can look at it in a different way. The fact that you are being attacked and attract that kind of attention shows that you are on to something that is a threat the to the Matrix Control System, be it through the information you share of for who you simply are and what you are here to do but haven’t realized yet. It can show you that you are actually on the right track. Struggle and suffering is inevitable on the path. The New Age has corrupted this as well with the very distorted idea of “You Create Your Own Reality“, blaming you for your own misfortunes. Yes, at times we do put ourselves into unfortunate situation based on on our blind spots and unconscious behaviors but there is way more to the story as we have explored in this blog.

At the same time we do need to be careful not to attract the attacks of the General Law/Matrix Control System unnecessarily. Strategic enclosure and external consideration is important in that regard. We cannot wake up others by force nor can we give when it is not asked for. Blind revolution without sincere self-work and gaining knowledge will make you that which you fight against, the trap of the reactionary revolutionary mind which is only focused on the outside world of our 3D reality, fighting the shadows on the wall.

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The path of the wanderer, renegade or warrior to bring the light by making the darkness conscious is not an easy path by far. There are many traps, temptations, and distractions that can steer us away from what we are here to do and one of the most vulnerable points for many of us are love relationships. Understanding the topic of the Alien Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid is essential knowledge for anyone on that path.

Isn’t it interesting, as we all focus on global issues such as the environment, government corruption, the fake war on terror, economy, the banking system, etc… all important topics that need to be addressed and looked at, but all along there seems to be something else going which many people are not aware of, ignore, deny, even laugh about or try to explain away with questionable spiritual concepts or mainstream psychology.

If anything, the so-called “New Age” movement has been so heavily inculcated with the idea that one must not ever think about negative things, that they, above all other people, are most subject to [the predations of higher realms]. If you don’t know about something, you cannot defend yourself against it. The consistent deflection from the truth of the state of so-called higher realms by masses of published material over the many years, suggests almost a program of disinformation. It was beginning to look as though there was something or someone “out there” who didn’t want us to know something.“

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk

It is also important to keep in mind that not everyone is suited for this path nor is it their calling, hence we need to be “wise as serpents and gentle as doves” as the esoteric axiom states, yet not shying away to give the lie what it deserves: the truth and that entails calling a spade a spade at times and not let our “make nice” program dampen our inner voice and knowing.

This may sound all a bit depressing but in the end we’re all in this together, all of us who answer the call. We’re all teachers and students alike, but we also have different lessons to learn and integrate on an individual basis. We need to assist each other in this Time of Transition and do the best we can to move from ‘Service to Self’ to ‘Service to Others’, create community and be around like-minded people. If you can’t be truly yourself with the people you are hanging out with, then you may want to ask yourself, what does true friendship really mean if you can’t be yourself? On the path towards awakening and seeking truth people and long-time friends my fall out of one’s life to make room for new ones to enter. That is a normal process. As we change inside, the outer changes as well. It can get lonely at times and confusing, but there are assisting forces all around, even if we can’t see them. After all the truth WILL set us free even if the process is a challenging at times.

Whatever happens in the world and in our lives, we must be careful not to get stuck in a frequency of fear or negative emotions, for that is what these hyperdimensional overlords would like to see happen on this planet, using all kinds of deceptions and mind control techniques to keep us away from our true Self and Knowledge, from true Love and Understanding. Our path to (Self-)Knowledge and Truth is the biggest threat to the ones wanting to control humanity for their own good. Hence, don’t expect this to be a smooth ride.  The importance of sincere self-work and gaining knowledge in order to vibrate on a higher frequency of TRUE Love in this time and age is obvious and self-evident when looking at the state of the world. We are in a spiritual warfare and the war is being fought through us. I leave you with the words of Eve Lorgen:

“After two decades of researching anomalous trauma, and more recently what I call love bite relationships, I have concluded that the paranormal factor is very real and we must deal with it. The problem with paranormal complications lies in the fact that not all individuals can perceive what is happening on more subtle levels of reality – let alone understand it. Even in “regular” relationships we have misunderstandings, where one partner perceives something of which the other is unaware, and this may become a flashpoint of contention. There are varying degrees of differences in perception, even day to day, and that is normal to deal with. What I’m talking about are widely divergent perceptions because one individual is essentially unaware of their own internal process, emotional well-being, and spiritual identity.In the Dark Side of Cupid, perceptual variations are exacerbated because, for the majority of cases, one partner was more aware than the other when it came to seeing behind the facade of physical reality.

There are two issues here that need addressing:

– One partner has a higher degree of awareness on subtle and emotional levels of reality, and/or both partners disagree on what they are perceiving in situations that cause distress.

– An independent “third party entity,” aka “Cupid, demonic entities, or other paranormal viral factors, are interfering with the relationship to cause emotional trauma and suffering.

Perceptual variations between two partners – and disagreements thereof – are one thing, but an assault on consciousness through deliberate orchestration of disharmonious love relationships is entirely a different matter. And this is the infectious culprit I believe we are dealing with. This is where paranormal intervention is needed. Let me explain my hypothesis simply. There is an assault on the raising of human consciousness and harmonious love relationships by a viral “paranormal factor” I have defined as The Dark Side of Cupid. Some may call it demonic, alien, artificial intelligence, or the ancient, mythical Cupid playing games. Why do I believe this? Because nearly all of my respondents who reported a Dark Side of Cupid relation-ship were actively involved in research of alternative media, spirituality, and/or higher consciousness study. Some had reported extraterrestrial encounters and ghostly visitations. All were dissatisfied with what the main-stream media, educational system, orthodox religion, or politics told them. Why? Because their experiences and explorations of what was going on in their lives and in the world was not the same reality as what they were being told by mainstream establishment sources and global elite policy makers.

The people who experienced the Dark Side of Cupid were not good little slaves with a hive mind. In my opinion, they were able to perceive things outside the box, and were actively engaged in activities which expand and redefine the outmoded herd mentality. I had to ask myself: Is this an ancient war on the attempt to raise humanity’s consciousness above the slave mentality? Spiritual warfare? Or is this simply a paranormal manifestation of parasitic soul-energy vampirism? Maybe both. The only way we can approach this dilemma is to raise our own awareness, to recognize that there is a problem so we can start dealing with it, and heal from it. We must set forth intervention strategies and proactive measures to create the relationships we want that will not feed the Dark Side of Cupid. I am reminded of a mother’s wisdom: All peace in the world starts at the core of our love relationships and family. We must start here.

I like to view the Dark Side of Cupid as an alien virus, a sociopathic parasite if you will. It is, I believe, the greatest test of human emotional and spiritual strength. It masquerades as all kinds of other diseases and can even look like the cure. In small doses, it won’t be as noticeable and may even add some spice to the relationship. But in larger doses, it eventually kills  the host, the love relationship itself. Paranormal intervention number one is to strengthen our own emotional and spiritual immune systems so that we are resistant to the virus.

Our hearts, minds, and souls need cleansing on a regular basis. Even the most astute and spiritually dedicated people can be on the Dark Side of Cupid’s hit list. In fact, I believe that people who are directed by a higher consciousness would be targeted by this kind of spiritual warfare. I don’t think ‘bad karma” is entirely the problem, but many a New Ager will quickly cast blame on the victim, implying that their difficulties arise because their intentions are not positive enough. I am often amazed at the lack of compassion displayed by many New Age proponents when confronted by another’s misfortunes, saying in effect, “Well you create your own reality.” True insight, healing and empowerment cannot take place in the face of blame, nor without compassion. Arrogance is not the answer and having a beginner’s mind, as the Buddhists contend, is the first step to become free from suffering.”

[ ADDED UPDATE: The recording from our Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid Roundtable from Feb. 28th 2015 with Eve Lorgen, James Bartley, Laura Leon, Brenda Butler and myself  is now available for download. It was an awesome and insightful discussion. If you have missed and are interested in this topic make sure to get it. Available in audio only or video. Go here: http://www.risemultiversity.org/recording-2015-02-28.html ]


2012 – Collective Awakening or End of the World?

We’re half way through 2012. Many prophecies have hinted at this time as The Shift of the Ages and The Time of Transition. If you take a look at the shelves of any spiritual/new age bookstore, you’ll see dozens of books with 2012 in the title. It certainly has become a good marketing bit. There are many theories of what 2012 is supposedly all about. From the end of the world to global mass enlightenment. If you type “2012” into Google, 25,270,000,000 results come up.

Much of it is based on the Mayan Calendar which is presumably ending on 12/21 2012. Many people seem to be fixated on this date. I don’t want to get into the technicality of the Mayan Calendar. Lies are mixed with truth and there are all kinds of theories from historians, experts, channeled material and authors who make various claims about this date and the Mayan Calendar, many of them contradicting each other. Instead, I’d like to look into some overlooked issues our world is facing , examining the possibility of a cataclysmic “end time” scenario or a “collective awakening” from a different perspective. But let’s backtrack first.

I first heard about the Mayan Calendar and the mystery of 2012 in 1998. The first book I read about it was “Solving the Greatest Mystery of Our time: The Mayan Calendar” by Carl Johan Calleman. I was intrigued to say the least. However, back then I wasn’t very discerning and much of my “research” was  partly emotional driven with wishful thinking and assumptions, lacking critical thinking. The more I read and took in information, the more I was also confused because there was so much conflicting data. It was hard to discern what is true and what not. According to Calleman, the Mayan Calendar already ended on October 28th 2011. He also made predictions of ET disclosure and the mass awareness of the UFO phenomenon before that date. As we can see none of that has happened.

Other books I’ve read were “Maya Cosmogenesis 2012: The True Meaning of the Maya Calendar End-Date” by John Major Jenkins, “The Mayan Factor” by Jose Arguelles,  and “2012: The Return of Quetzalcoatl” by Daniel Pinchbeck among countless articles on the internet and various books that touch on this subject, including Terence Mckenna’s concept of the “Timewave Zero”. While insightful and interesting to a point, none of these works really satisfied my thirst for deeper knowledge. It seemed something was missing.

At the same time I also got into more fringe topics, conspiracy theories, the UFO phenomenon as well as esoteric teachings and channeled material. What I’ve learned the most as I was digging deeper is that there is a lot of smoke, disinformation and noise surrounding the topic of 2012. I learned about COINTELPRO (Counter Intelligence Programs) and how much of the material about 2012 is infected with many lies, distracting the seeker on purpose. in fact, the “New Age Movement” and much of the distorted spiritual concepts we see these days seemed too have been created for that very purpose: to disinform, distract and vector anyone away from the truth. The reader is encouraged to check out my other articles which examine some of these New Age corruptions in more depth:

Of course mainstream science and media also ridicules anything that doesn’t fit into the reality box of “official culture”. That is to be expected. But what was more disturbing for me was how many folks in the alternative media buy into so much disinformation, be it consciously or not. Everyone who started to question reality and embarked on the quest of truth has at one point in his/her life believed in lies and disinformation.  We all deal with cultural conditioning and programming. As I’ve written before, I’m not exempt from it and there have been many times when I had to adjust my understanding of the world when new data came in and I had to admit that I was wrong about some things. I’m not interested in being right, but in truth, as it is, even if it doesn’t conform to my wishes and desires of how I’d like it to be.

I’ve said before that I didn’t “like” to find out the more disturbing aspects of our reality. My rose colored glasses were shattered in the face of a cold harsh reality where most people dream to be awake but are asleep. Waking up and seeking truth entails facing the lies we tell ourselves through sincere self-work and networking. For some time I was also blinded with wishful thinking, assuming that everyone who is seeking truth would do so sincerely without an agenda but willing to look into certain topics more critically, neither with “blind belief” or “cynical debunking”, even if these subjects contradict what they’ve found out so far.

A big wake-up call in that regard was my interaction with Daniel Pinchbeck, author of “2012: The Return of Quetzalcoatl” and co-fonder of the Evolver Social Movement. He gives talks around the world and festivals such as ‘Burning Man’ and ‘Lightning in a Bottle’. I thought he touched on some important subjects (although very superficially) in his 2012 book, such as the UFO phenomenon, alien abductions, crop circles and shamanism. It mostly dealt with his personal journey, infused by his psychedelic experiences. Pinchbeck’s claim is that we are in the final stages of a fundamental global shift from a society based on materiality to one based on spirituality.

In 2007 we connected on a 2012 forum at tribe.net, a social network. He initially liked what I had to say about the UFO phenomena and suggested that I should write an article about it for his online magazine “Reality Sandwich“. This was the birth of my first draft of “UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact” (which was the basis for the documentary of the same name I made with Humberto Braga, with 1.5 million views so far). He rejected the article stating that “it’s unfortunate that you have such a negative view of this topic”. I purposely focused more on the overseen aspects of the UFO phenomena, especially the darker side of alien abductions and hyperdimensional realities. Some of it was not in line with what he wrote in his 2012 book, which only covered the alien topic in a very generalized and philosophical way. I wrote him a lengthy response, asking him to be more clear about his assessment. He just answered that he has no time to get into it and that he resonates more with the ideas of Steven Greer (founder of the “Disclosure Project”). Anyone who has researched the UFO topic in more depth knows that Greer spreads a lot of disinformation, so I was actually surprised to hear that Pinchbeck “resonated” with his work. It clearly showed and proved that his research was off.

A couple years later we connected again on facebook when he came across an article I posted about Alex Jones being potentially COINTELPRO.  Pinchbeck had a similar view and asked if I’d like to try to write an article again for Reality Sandwich. Before I even got to that he found another post of mine where I recommended the book “The Controversy of Zion” by Douglas Reed (since Alex Jones is known to avoid the topic of Zionism). He wrote to me, asking why I recommend this “conspiracy book” and if I’m holocaust revisionist (denier). I wrote him back stating I simply question everything, including the official story of the holocaust (not denying that it happened, but HOW it happened and how it has been used for social control and justifying the politics of the “victim” state Israel), considering we’ve been lied to about virtually everything regarding our history. I supported my claims with articles and documentaries made by Jews who also took a more critical look into what had happened, which also ties into the subject of Zionism. This opened up a can of worms. He didn’t look into any of it and just responded with a passive aggressive and emotionally driven insulting tone, telling me that I must have a “psychological disposition” because of my German heritage. He then stated that he lost family in the holocaust and didn’t want to work or communicate with me anymore in the future. While I had compassion for what happened to his family, I was still surprised that he wasn’t able to stay objective.

That was it and we never communicated again since then. Complete lack of critical thinking and objectivity on his part. He didn’t look into any of the information I sent him, but already had his mind made up, driven by his own conditioning/programming. Pinchbeck also advocates the use of psychedelic drugs and his work is very much influenced by it. It seems he trusts his psychedelic experiences more than he does research, study or empirical evidence, similar to the late Terence McKenna (his death because of a brain tumor may be the exact result/manifestation of forcing his consciousness to open up through a life-long use of these drugs), who also put way too much importance on these drugs, resulting in lack of critical thinking, and not fully grasping the dangers of these substances from an esoteric perspective.

Daniel Pinchbeck at “Burning Man”

The reason I mention this interaction I had with Pinchbeck is because I observed similar reactions in many self-proclaimed visionaries, and truth seekers. There are certain topics that are usually automatically dismissed, ridiculed and debunked without any of the debunkers looking into them and researching them sincerely and unbiased.

“Sometimes people hold a core belief that is very strong. When they are presented with evidence that works against that belief, the new evidence cannot be accepted. It would create a feeling that is extremely uncomfortable, called cognitive dissonance. And because it is so important to protect the core belief, they will rationalize, ignore and even deny anything that doesn’t fit in with the core belief.”

Frantz Fanon

Most of these topics are also not mentioned by many 2012-ers or are highly distorted. Interestingly the few who actively research these subjects sincerely and speak out about them are attacked or ignored. You don’t get to be on mainstream TV or having articles about you in the NY Times or Rolling Stone Magazine if you’d speak the truth and talk about taboo topics that go against the status quo of a deeply conditioned/programmed culture.

In that sense Daniel Pinchbeck and others become like “useful idiots“, essentially supporting the system they claim to oppose through their denial and lack of critical thinking regarding certain topics despite their well-meaning intentions and visionary approach. It also became clear to me how psychedelic drugs can impair one’s critical thinking abilities and how these substances are romanticized and have a darker side to them, most “psychonauts” are not aware of or simply deny. I fell into this trap myself when I was experimenting with them, deluding myself about many things, despite some of the insights I had on medicine plants. I know people who use these entheogens on a regular basis, but still vote for Obama or believe the official 9/11 fairy tale and the phony war on terror. There is even a well-known healer who works with ayahuasca in my area, conducting medicine journeys throughout the country. He’s also an outspoken Democrat and constantly posts on facebook supporting Obama, buying into the the illusion of choice through voting in this two party set-up.  A “shamanic healer” who not only believes in but supports the political circus side show that is clearly used for social/cultural control and he even identifies himself with a country and political party? What an oxymoron! It shows that these mind expanding drugs are no “magic pill” that automatically pierce through the cultural conditioning and the lies we believe in.

The Neo-Shamanism that is around today has distorted what Shamanism is truly about and rendered it into a hyped attraction where all you have to pay is some $ to have THE experience. While medicinal plants and herbs can undoubtedly be helpful as a physical healing aid, their use for so-called ‘accessing of higher realities’ usually serves to distract people from what deeper spiritual and esoteric work is about, even giving one the illusion that one has “awoken”. There are many dangers – energetically, psychically (spirit attachments) and esoterically – when forcing oneself to enter a higher state of consciousness through these drugs. This is a touchy subject that requires a careful approach, certainly a much more careful approach than what I’ve seen from Pinchbeck, McKenna and others, especially when considering “the topic of all topics” (more on that later).

“The phenomenology of the trance underwent many changes and corruptions, due in large part to confusion as to the precise nature of ecstasy….Concerning the original shamanic experience … narcotics are only a vulgar substitute for “pure” trance.  The use of intoxicants is a recent innovation and points to a decadence in shamanic technique. Narcotic intoxication is called on to provide an imitation of a state that the shaman is no longer capable of attaining otherwise. Decadence or vulgarization of a mystical technique – in ancient and modern India, and indeed all through the East, we constantly find this strange mixture of “difficult ways” and “easy ways” of realizing mystical ecstasy or some other decisive experience.”

Mircea Eliade, Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy

The 2012 “movement” has become in many ways another distraction infiltrated with COINTELPRO which works in favor of the powers that be. It’s almost “hip” and “in” to talk about a shift and awakening these days. Festivals like Burning Man and Lightning in a Bottle, attended by many self-proclaimed aware people, supposedly representing the “counter culture”, are also part of this. It’s interesting to note how the “psychedelic movement” is also very much intertwined with this (with Pinchbeck being one of the main figure heads) and how carelessly mind expanding drugs are promoted for “spiritual growth” or just partying, where most often hedonism is mistaken for spiritual work/awareness. It seems evident that these drugs have been used for social control since the “creation” of the hippie/psychedelic movement in the 6os. Various researchers have uncovered certain CIA operations (such as MK Ultra) supplying the youth with LSD and other mind expanding drugs to vector people away from the truth for the purpose of creating a “controlled opposition”. Author Jan Irvin recently made compelling discoveries when researching about Gordon Wasson, revealing how the psychedelic revolution was launched by the CFR, CIA and the elite, and how R. Gordon Wasson, the so called discoverer of magic mushrooms, and the founder of the field of ethnomycology, was himself a government asset, a friend of Edward Bernays – the father of propaganda, and is one of the key figures for launching one of the largest mind control operations in history. Irvin writes in R. Gordon Wasson: The Man, the Legend, the Myth –  Beginning a New History of Magic Mushrooms, Ethnomycology, and the Psychedelic Revolution:

“There are several reasons why the psychedelic movement may have been launched, including attempts to distract people from government policy failure; extracting information from people under the influence, such as with MK‐ULTRA; making money from the drugs through the pharmaceutical industry; and even pacifying people with a Huxleyan‐like soma or with positivist spirituality so that they could be more easily controlled.

Here are some other eye-opening articles from researchers relating to COINTELPRO, the corruption of the “Human Potential Movement” and the creation/infiltration of the Hippie, Psychedelic and New Age Movement:

Aliens and Cosmic COINTELPRO by Laura Knight-Jadczyk

“[…]Aldous Huxley also made an early connection between the effects experienced by those partaking of psychedelic drugs and the experiences of Eastern Mysticism and this set the consciousness-raising bomb off with a BANG! Along came Timothy Leary, Richard Alpert AKA Baba Ram Dass with their LSD and other modes of mind marvels, leading the parade of those who were “turned on, tuned in.” Abraham Maslow became a father figure to the new “wave” of those desiring to fill the gaping hole of their reality with “peak experiences.” Maslow cited psychedelic drugs as one of the means in which even ordinary people could have a little of what the Eastern Mystics worked many years to develop. Now, it could be had for a weekend seminar at Big Sur, or a study by mail course at only $29.95 per lesson! What a deal!

Peak Experiences…experience, experience, and experience…became the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow of the 1960’s. No one needed to live in Existential Despair any longer! Everyone could become a “spiritual voyager” and achieve extended periods in realms of consciousness they had only heard about in veiled, mysterious allusions down through the ages. Encounter groups, radical therapies, old and new combinations of theories and practice came rolling off the conveyor belt of techno-spirituality. The intangibles of spirit had been harnessed! Anyone could evoke some desirable experience by manipulating awareness at the basic physical and psychological levels. Never mind that all of this bypassed the vital processes of reason and conscious decision making. By its very nature, the whole techno-spiritual machine operated completely without critical thinking; it tapped the bottomless pit of feeling-emotion…primal being. Never mind that much of this emotion was negative, confusing, anxious and fearful! Let’s just get it all out here in the open and have a party with it!

Each of the many techniques developed during this time was fully capable of producing an emotional high of one sort or another. There were endless “peak experiences,” and dramatic “personal breakthroughs.” The mixtures of Zen, yoga, meditation, and drugs along with strict mechanical technology, were a veritable adventure in awareness! The only problem was: in the midst of all this peaking, mind-blowing, turning on and tuning in, ecstasy and encountering, many people encountered things that, perhaps, ought not have been awakened. Boundaries were breached into unseeable and terrifying realms of consciousness. William Chittick, translator of the works of the great Sufi Shaykh, Ibn al-’Arabi, wrote:

Nowadays most people interested in the spirituality of the East desire the “experience,” though they may call what they are after intimate communion with God. Those familiar with the standards and norms of spiritual experience set down by disciplined paths like Sufism are usually appalled at the way Westerners seize upon any apparition from the domain outside of normal consciousness as a manifestation of the “spiritual.” In fact, there are innumerable realms in the unseen world, some of them far more dangerous than the worst jungles of the visible world. [Al-Arabi himself said]:

So preserve yourselves, my brothers, from the calamities of this place, for distinguishing it is extremely difficult! Souls find it sweet, and then within it they are duped, since they become completely enamored of it.

By the end of the decade of the 60’s, the “human potential” movement had become a veritable potpourri of religion, science, mysticism, magick and “the occult.” The drug use got out of hand, the “techniques” began to show serious flaws with a number of tragedies resulting in crime or madness, and the whole idea of human beings becoming “psychic supermen” hit the skids. The promise of the 60’s decayed into an aimless lethargy…old hippies living in communes, braiding their gray locks and lusting after the sweet young teeny boppers while they fired up another bong and reminisced about the “good old days” at Esalen.

But wait! Something else happened here! Remember, this is America! The home of the Free…Market that is. Many people suggest that the subsequent proliferation of the “New Age” consciousness raising movement was the result of big business seeing a pile of money to be made in the development of slick, newly packaged psychoanalysis and psychodrama. There was, indeed, mass distribution and Madison Avenue marketing of things like Mind Dynamics, Arica, Silva Mind Control, Transcendental Meditation, and on and on. Individual entrepreneurs knew a good thing when they saw it. However, there is more to this than meets the eye. This is important to our subject, so bear with me. […]”

Inside The Lauel Canyon – The Strange but Mostly True Story of Laurel Canyon and the Birth of the Hippie Generation  (21 parts) by Dave McGowan

“Hippies came out of no where and sort of co opted it, I think it was quite deliberate…they wanted to give the anti-war movement a face that would be completely unacceptable to mainstream America…I mean everything about them was offensive to mainstream America, to middle America, the hairstyles, the clothing styles, the open drug use, the music, everything about them was designed to repel mainstream America and prevent the anti-war movement from gaining any additional speed by putting this face on it…I think the whole hippy flower child thing…..was a creation of the Intelligence community to take the steam out of the anti-war movements and various  other movements….The battle cry of the hippy movement was turn on, tune in, drop out…telling people don’t worry about it, get high.

We can see the same thread in many “conscious movements” these days and at the aforementioned festivals. It’s as if history is repeating itself with a different appearance, more tech, more potent drugs, new gadgets and clothes but the same attitude with even more pseudo New Age “spiritual techniques” to activate your “third eye”, DNA or speed up your “ascension process” and where sexual pathologies are often buffered up as “sexual healing” and “spirituality”. There is the usual  “just focus on yourself”, focus on “we are all one” and our “oneness”. Don’t look at the “negative” things happening in the world, but “connect to earth”, meditate on the “Shift” to activate your light body, send love and light to the world and its leaders, etc.. As long as you “feel good” and focus on “love” everything will be ok. Everything is as it is supposed to be, etc. It is proclaimed that there is no objectivity, just your own subjective reality and you create your own reality by your thoughts and what you focus on. But as various ancient esoteric teachings and mystery schools have transmitted , even the “children of light” shall be deceived by false prophets and false teachings. And we see exactly that happening now:

It is possible to obtain so-called esoteric results that are impure, but they are false and thus transitory. Here we refer to the vast realm of occultism, where the children of this century, more capable than the children of light, seek to apply their abilities beyond the visible world. This occurs in what we call ‘mysticism of phenomena‘.

It is curious to see how much these false prophets, magicians and ‘christs’ impressed themselves on the imagination of the men and  even more of the women of the past. It is the same today.

For there is a type of human being who declines all moral responsibility for himself or for those to whom he is in duty bound. One comes across this type quite often, always trying to find someone else to shoulder his responsibilities as long as this someone else possesses some kind of authority, earned or otherwise. These people are open to any form of hypnotic suggestion and practically ask to be hypnotized. They are of good faith, but they search for the ‘marvelous’ because they are too weak or too lazy to undertake esoteric work successfully.

And the ‘wolves’ devour them finding justification in the fact that they are only the ‘scourings of humanity.’ But this is not true; for ‘scourings’ who are converted can become key figures on the esoteric chess-board. Mental apathy and emotional inertia are responsible for tipping man down the slope of least resistance even when armed with the best intentions, especially if he justifies himself for his human frailties by finding them normal, particularly on the sexual plane.

Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis

Of course it’s not black and white and I wouldn’t say that everyone who enjoys these festivals or is part of a “conscious movement”  is co-opted or asleep to what is truly going in our world. However, one also needs to look only at the workshops and lectures at many of those events. Anything that sounds or “feels good” infused with pop-psychology/spirituality is being promoted and anything that is perceived as “negative” is being avoided and ignored. As I said before, important subjects that are actually part of becoming aware and conscious seem to be missing. They are neither negative nor positive, but simply ARE part of our reality and we’re all affected by them. I’ve posted this following video many times before. Marianne Williamson is really hitting the nail on the head. It’s from a talk she gave at “Lightning in Bottle” in 2011, a festival I attended to see it for myself. A rare voice of truth among the “Love & Light” crowd. I couldn’t agree with her more:

Instead of “countering culture”, many of these movements become another form of the same conditioned culture with similar manifestations of cliques, feeding dynamics, its own fashion, marketing, programming/conditioning, and (new age) religion. Many people say we need to stop pointing out what is wrong and what we don’t have in common (aka being”negative”) but present solutions and focus on what we have in common (aka being “positive”). Yes, but solutions and building community/tribe, reflecting our common “humanity”, without a deeper understanding of humanity and our world to begin with, including the “unpleasant” things, will disintegrate eventually as history has proven. What topics am I talking about which are virtually ignored in many “conscious movements” and in the alternative media? What follows are just VERY brief summaries of three topics. The reader is encouraged to read/study/watch the suggested resources under each point before rejecting these ideas or making hasty conclusions which only lead to distortions.

1. We are all one, but we are not all the same

The biggest illusion many people seem to have is the assumption that, since we’re all one, we all have the potential to awaken in this life time and have access to love, empathy, conscience and higher values. It is assumed that because we’re collectively connected and look like “humans”, we are all are “equal”and the same. Another assumption is that everyone who is not “aware” is just misguided and can be “fixed”. This illusion is based on projecting one’s own higher qualities onto others, especially people in power.

There exists a type of human who has no connection to the higher centers of universal love/awareness at birth. He/she is not genetically wired this way, not being able to access them this lifetime around but he/she can emulate and mimic these higher characteristics quite well and even distract you from evolving by sapping your energy and feeding off it. He/she can tell you exactly what you want to hear, appear compassionate, empathetic and understanding without meaning or feeling it.

 This type of “human” is the psychopath (making up about 6% of humanity) who is hiding behind a mask of sanity, creating misery and chaos which they feed off. They are not necessarily criminals in prisons, but can be successful CEO’s, politicians, spiritual leaders, a husband, wife, child or the neighbor next door. They’re also pathological liars who never feel any guilt or remorse. That is a topic which is very misunderstood and ignored. Becoming aware of it and educating oneself and others about it is the most crucial and important action we can undertake to make this world a better place. It’s the underlying cause of the reason why our world is in the state it’s in: It is run by psychopaths.

“”Likeable,” “Charming,” “Intelligent,” “Alert,” “Impressive,” “Confidence-inspiring,” and “A great success with the ladies”: These are the sorts of descriptions repeatedly used by Cleckley in his famous case-studies of psychopaths.
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Psychopaths seem to have in abundance the very traits most desired by normal persons. The untroubled self-confidence of the psychopath seems almost like an impossible dream and is generally what “normal” people seek to acquire when they attend assertiveness training classes. In many instances, the magnetic attraction of the psychopath for members of the opposite sex seems almost supernatural.
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This lack of “soul quality” makes them very efficient “machines.” They can be brilliant, write scholarly works, imitate the words of emotion, but over time, it becomes clear that their words do not match their actions. They are the type of person who can claim that they are devastated by grief who then attend a party “to forget.” The problem is: they really DO forget.

Being very efficient machines, like a computer, they are able to execute very complex routines designed to elicit from others support for what they want. In this way, many psychopaths are able to reach very high positions in life. It is only over time that their associates become aware of the fact that their climb up the ladder of success is predicated on violating the rights of others. Even when they are indifferent to the rights of their associates, they are often able to inspire feelings of trust and confidence. The psychopath recognizes no flaw in his psyche, no need for change.

– from “The Psychopath – The Mask of Sanity

It affects EVERYONE since our society has become ponerized, where normal people and society as a whole have taken on pathological traits that are seen as normal. It ties in with the atrophy of critical thinking and not recognizing pathological individuals as such. I’m not just talking about the average mainstream public, but especially spiritually inclined people who deny/ignore this topic (usually without having done any sincere research into it). It’s of no use to envision and create new money/barter systems, a resource based economy or focusing on environmental issues if this topic is not addressed and made conscious of for the virus of psychopathy will destroy any communities and utopian visions eventually. I’m not saying NOT to focus on such solutions, but the illusion that all humans are equal and the same needs to be shattered for true change to happen.

“One phenomenon all ponerogenic groups and associations have in common is the fact that their members lose (or have already lost) the capacity to perceive pathological individuals as such, interpreting their behavior in fascinated, heroic, or melodramatic ways….When the habits of subconscious selection and substitution of thought-data spread to the macrosocial level, a society tends to develop contempt for factual criticism and to humiliate anyone sounding an alarm.”

Andrew M. Lobaczewski

Recommended reading and watching:

But beyond the reality of psychopaths among us, there is another topic that relates to the difference between humans on a mass scale. Certain sources that talk about a shift or transformation occurring in our age also mention a “splitting” of humanity and that not everyone is going to wake up. The main reason for this can be found in a very interesting issue this planet faces and has been written about in various esoteric teachings as well as transmitted through certain channeled material (more on that later). It relates to two different “humanities” coexisting on earth, alike from the outside, but unlike in the inside. All six billion people on the planet are not the same. There are fundamental differences that are genetic and esoteric. But these differences have nothing to do with those cited throughout history and used to justify the domination of one group over another: color, race, culture, language, wealth or social status.

According to “Gnosis” by Boris Mouravieff, there seems to exist two kind of humans that are equally divided (50/50): adamic man and pre-adamic man. One type with soul potential, the other has no individual soul, but is connected to a “soul pool”. Only the former has the inherent capacity to evolve esoterically, fusing the lower with the higher centers. The latter does not have the possibility in his current evolutionary cycle to bridge to the higher centers and no access to higher knowing/awareness/love, but is NOT a psychopath. 
They are like “cardboard” people who are “empty” inside, living mechanically under the rule of the General Law. Looking at the Indian chakra model, one could say that pre-adamic man only exists on the lower three chakras without any access to the higher ones, while adamic man also only exists on the lower centers, but has the ability to activate and bridge the higher centers through conscious esoteric work.

© Quantum Future Group

Suppression and distortion of esoteric knowledge is one of the means for control of the masses on planet earth. This has been going on for thousands of years. Even the material presented in “Gnosis” is covered around a biblical gloss that one needs to weed through. The topic of “soulless people” (also coined “Organic Portals (OP)”) is deep and far-reaching. It begs the question, what is a “soul” to begin with? Some people who appear “soulless” may actually be a “soul in struggle“, so we need to be careful not to judge too quickly, but get a better and deeper understanding of this topic. When exploring this idea more closely, with an objective, open and critical mind, it gives huge insight into the state of the world. OPs have their natural place in the grand scheme of things and they also serve a purpose in the evolutionary process. There is nothing evil or wrong with them, nor is it about “us vs. them”, but simply having a deeper understanding of humanity so we can actually live truly in more harmony, aligned with the universe, nature and evolution of Being and Knowledge.

EVERYONE is on the level of an OP until he/she engages in esoteric work activating the higher centers. We all are “Organic Portals” to one degree or another as the “predator” and matrix works through all of us (see next point) until we make the effort to gain self-knowledge and work on fusing our higher centers that connect us to our higher self in a conscious way, dislodging our programs and conditioned, mechanical behaviors so we’re able to use our will in a conscious and awake manner. That is the basis for true free will. A good introduction into this topic is “Organic Portals – Soulless Humans” (it also explains the difference between psychopaths and OPs), which ties in with the next point. Laura Knight-Jadczyk writes about it extensively in “The Secret History of the World“.

2. Hyperdimensional Realities

There is more to our reality than our five senses can perceive. We are not God’s ultimate creation, nor on the peak on the evolutionary ladder in Darwinian terms (whichever creationist/evolutionary theory you believe in). Our reality is embedded in a complex system of unseen worlds and controlled by denizens of higher reality. The forces at work are not all good and we’re not on top of the food chain. “Food” doesn’t have to be physical and these beings feed off our negative emotions and energy, predominantly chaos, sexual pathologies and fear, which they create working through us. The ancient esoteric teachings talk about a “hyperdimensional matrix control system” (MCS) that has influenced and controlled humanity for millennia, each in their own way. Don Juan in Castaneda’s last book called it “the topic of all topics“, speaking of a cosmic predator that uses man as food: Man has a glowing coat of awareness which the predator eats, leaving just the bare minimum of “consciousness stuff” for man to remain physically alive. The predator “milks” man through arranging for constant trouble and crisis and senseless preoccupation, so as to generate flashes of awareness that it then proceeds to eat. Gurdjeff refers to it in the tale of “The Evil Magician” and the concept of “Food for the Moon” . The Gnostics maintained that the Earth and material creation in general were the product of an evil demiurge, chief of the “archons of darkness“. Boris Mouravieff writes about the “General Law” in his trilogy “Gnosis” which influences humanity and keeps it in its place. It takes tremendous effort, awareness and esoteric self-work to “escape” the General Law and influences of the MCS.

The UFO phenomenon relates to it in more ways than usually acknowledged by some contemporary UFO researchers who have a very “nuts and bolts” physical approach to the idea of UFOs, aliens and extraterrestrials. There is a paranormal characteristic that accompanies UFO sightings, alien abductions and other high strangeness occurrences that should encourage us to look at this phenomena in a different way instead of the popular assumptions that UFOs are physical “alien space ships coming from other planets”.  When researching the topic of hyperdimensional realities it also puts into question the various Disclosure and Exopolitics scenarios promoted by some UFO researchers. There is a lot of disinformation surrounding that topic and it is interesting to note that attempts to reveal the hyperdimensional aspect are often ignored, attacked and ridiculed, even more so than the “nuts and bolts” scenario.

However, in light of the ancient esoteric teachings mentioned above it all makes sense, since the MCS is trying to conceal exactly that: Hyperdimensional realities and the beings inhabiting them. Humanity is not on top of the food chain, nor in control of itself. Some UFO, paranormal and history researchers such as Dr. Jacques Vallee, John Keel and Laura Knight Jadczyk have done groundbreaking research into this topic.

“If we look at the world from an informational point of view, and if we consider the many complex ways in which time and space my be structured, the old idea of space travel and interplanetary craft to which most technologists are still clinging appears not only obsolete, but ludicrous. Indeed, modern physics has already bypassed it, offering a very different interpretation of what an “extraterrestrial” system might look like.
 I believe there is a system around us that transcends time as it transcends space. The system may well be able to locate itself in outer space, but its manifestations are not spacecraft in the ordinary ‘nuts and bolts’ sense. The UFOs are physical manifestations that cannot be understood apart from their psychic and symbolic reality. What we see in effect here is a control system which acts on humans and uses humans.

Dr. Jacques Vallee

“The scope, frequency, and distribution of the sightings make the popular extraterrestrial (interplanetary) hypothesis completely untenable… Many flying saucers seem to be nothing more than a disguise for some hidden phenomenon. They are like Trojan horses descending into our forests and farm fields, promising salvation and offering us the splendor of some great super-civilization in the sky… Do the ultraterrestrials really care about us? There is much disturbing evidence that they don’t. They care only to the extent that we can fulfill our enigmatic use to them.
[…]
The real UFO story must encompass all of the many manifestations being observed. It is a story of ghosts and phantoms and strange mental abberations; of an invisible world which surrounds us and occasionally engulfs us; of prophets and prophecies, and gods and demons. It is a world of illusion and hallucination where the unreal seems very real, and where reality itself is distorted by strange forces which can seemingly manipulate space, time, and physical matter—forces which are almost entirely beyond our powers of comprehension.
[…]
Our skies have been filled with “Trojan horses” throughout history, and like the original Trojan Horse, they seem to conceal hostile intent. … This hostility theory is further supported by the fact that the objects choose, most often, to appear in forms which we can readily accept and explain to our own satisfaction—ranging from derigibles to meteors and conventional-appearing airplanes. … In other words, flying saucers are not at all what we have hoped they were. They are a part of something else. I call that something else Operation Trojan Horse.
[…]
The real truth is that the UFO cultists have been played for suckers for years, not by the government, but by the phenomenon.

John Keel

“In the case of the idea of man being “food” for hyperdimensional beings, there is an enormous amount of both vertical and lateral corroboration of all kinds. So much so that, in fact, it is almost impossible to understand why it is not generally known. Clearly, there have been deliberate efforts to “hide this fact”. And, the fact that it is hidden may itself tell us something.

The point is, when Don Juan and Gurdjieff and the Cassiopaeans (and others) tell us that our religions, our social structure, our values, our beliefs about our spiritual nature and condition have been deliberately created to perpetuate the illusion that we are free; that we are (or can be) “special and adored children of a loving God”; that we are or can be “co-creators” with God, that we can do anything at all of a positive and powerful nature, we need to carefully examine this issue!

But it is work to examine it objectively. It is hard work because it consists of long and difficult self-examination in order to be able to overcome the emotions that prevent us from discovering what illusions we are hanging onto, what illusions are preventing us from seeing and acting in such a way as to become free.
[…]
As we continue to think in these terms, it becomes more and more apparent that this Great Work of the alchemists was essentially the process of becoming “free of the Matrix”, described in alchemical and allegorical terms.
[…]
This hyperdimensional world is all around us, yet we are unable to see it because it is beyond the range of our senses. All the objects of our world are very likely just our limited perceptions of what is happening in this total reality.

Since those forces that create and maintain the Matrix have so much to lose, they exert a great deal of energy to keep the Matrix of lies and false beliefs in place. And doing it from a state of hyperdimensional reality enables them to work from a state of timelessness, so as to be able to produce all the perceived effects that support their agenda; the Evil Magician of Gurdjieff; the “Flyer“ of Castaneda; the Shaitans of the Sufis. And the reality has been manipulated for so long that it seems natural. It has become a comfortable prison in which Stockholm Syndrome reigns supreme, and the inmates love their captors.
[…]
Thus it is that we may find that our religious myths and rites are remnants of narratives – a message in a bottle – designed to explain these phenomena, and that the monotheistic versions, declaring a Final End, or a Judgment Day of a final end, are merely distortions of the myth designed to establish a Control System on our planet. These distortions are beneficial to those who seek power and wealth, who are under the control of archetypal forces of another realm of which our own reality is but a shadow or a reflection. Let me reiterate: I do not mean, here, to suggest that this other realm is “astral” or ephemeral or non-material. I am suggesting that it is an intermediate realm of para-physical, hyper-dimensional beings whose existence and nature has been carefully concealed from us for millennia – for a reason that is not to our benefit.
[…]
And as we have learned from Jesus, Gurdjieff and the Gnostic Sufis, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans, the rules of this World in which we live were set up and are controlled by this STS (Service to Self) hierarchy and have been for a very long time. Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation….It is in “seeing the unseen” that we become aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we experience the “battles” between the forces of STS (Service to Self) and STO (Service to Others)! And it is most definitely this factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to conceal!… In other words, we are not just talking about a “petty dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.

Laura Knight Jadczyk

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3. Cyclic Cataclysms and Climate Change

Our climate and weather is surely acting strange these days. We’re being told that much of it is our fault since we contribute to global warming. The mainstream scientific consensus and other interest groups (political and business) push this idea into the public supported with very questionable science. Scientists who don’t conform to it and questing man-made global warning often don’t get funding for their research, lose their jobs and data/facts that contradict the consensus are being suppressed. It became a political issue with the old illusory fight between left and right, liberals and conservatives, all of which is distracting from what is truly going on. Climate change is happening, but it doesn’t have much to do with man-made global warming. In fact, the planet is cooling and we seem to enter a period of a new Ice Age. I want to point out that this doesn’t mean we shouldn’t be more environmental conscious since we obviously pollute the planet in many ways, however humanity is not all responsible for what is going on with our climate and weather. Our planet has survived worse conditions than what we’re dealing with now. Follow the money trail and you’ll see what Al Gore’s and other high profile global warming proponents true agenda is.

Andrés Perezalonso writes in Global Warming And The Corruption Of Science:

“[…]Since it is unlikely that all of the above are a simple series of honest mistakes, we must ask if there is an agenda other than a strictly scientific one driving the discourse of Global Warming as a whole. In searching for possible motives the $2.7 billion carbon emissions market overseen by the UN appears as a plausible candidate. This scheme effectively permits polluters to continue with their less than optimal practices as long as they pay money for it. The hype over reducing the ‘carbon foot print’ of industry is also set to make certain individuals very rich. Al Gore for example is a founder of Generation Investment Management a UK based company that has substantial interests in ‘green technology’. Gore is also heavily financially invested in Silver Spring Networks, a US company that has contracts with utilities that in October 2009 received a combined subsidy of $560m from the US energy department.

‘Global warming’ is also a major money-making opportunity for the financial establishment. JP Morgan Chase, Bank America Merrill Lynch, Barclay’s, Citi Bank, Nomura, Société Générale, Morgan Stanley and Goldman Sachs are actively involved in carbon trading. According to a Guardian report of late 2009 “the carbon market could become double the size of the vast oil market if the new breed of City players who trade greenhouse gas emissions through the EU’s emissions trading scheme have their way”.”

With all the focus on man-made global warming, environmentalists doing everything to “save the planet”, people buying hybrid cars, feeling good about themselves to do something for the planet and “green” business opportunities flourishing (there is always a buck to be made, even (or especially) if it is based on lies and corrupted science), something else is happening in our skies which is not given much attention.

Over the last couple of years fireballs and meteorite sightings have increased exponentially, some of which may be even responsible for the wild fires in Colorado and the crash of Air France Flight 447 from Rio de Janeiro to Paris in 2009 (it took three years for the official report to come out to tell us that is was caused my “mechanical and human failure”. Can we say “damage control” considering the auspicious timing of that report?)

There are obvious cosmic changes under way and other strange occurrences (like masses of birds falling dead from the sky around the world) in our atmosphere that are not even closely related to man-made global warming. These cosmic influences have an effect on our climate more than what is publicly acknowledged or recognized. The contrary, there seems to be a deliberate effort to hide this information from the public.  Joe Quinn and Niall Bradley made an excellent analysis of what seems to be happening in Reign of Fire: Meteorites, Wildfires, Planetary Chaos and the Sixth Extinction , showing that the powers that be know what is going on but try their best to vector the public away from the truth:

“Compounding our suspicion that the US government is racing to put out more than just forest fires is this impeccably timed dispatch from the official ‘al Qaeda magazine’ Inspire, in which the CIA’s favourite ‘terrorists’ called for jihadists of the world to “torch forests as part of the Islamic war against the West.” The Department of Homeland Security apparently had their story planned in advance, claiming that for more than a decade “international terrorist groups and associated individuals have expressed interest in using fire as a tactic against the Homeland to cause economic loss, fear, resource depletion, and humanitarian hardship.” Pretty coincidental, eh? Those ‘al-qaeda’ terrorists really are very useful.

Meanwhile COINTELPRO has been set to work helping the US government deceive the alt.net community with the usual garbage about super-secret (sic) scalar weapons, plasma weapons and HAARP being tested on unwitting Coloradans.

In a report commissioned by the US Air Force, British astronomer Victor Clube, author of The Cosmic Serpent and The Cosmic Winter, succinctly summarized the fundamental tenet of geopolitics:

“We do not need the celestial threat to disguise Cold War intentions; rather we need the Cold War to disguise celestial intentions!”

No, Clube wasn’t referring to aliens or spacecraft; the ‘celestial threat’ he was referring to appears in Earth’s skies during times of turmoil and social upheaval that are linked to a serious imbalance in human evolution. They also induce all kinds of weird environmental effects, the least of which are those strange sky sounds and other electromagnetic phenomena that are also picking up in frequency and intensity. Flooding the Internet with disinformation about chemtrails has convinced some that governments can master Nature’s most powerful forces. For everyone else, there’s always the ‘terrorist’ bogeyman and man-made global warming to remind them why they need Big Brother.

Global cyclic cataclysms have been recorded throughout history, yet the possibility of that happening in our time and age is suppressed, ignored or ridiculed. One thing most Mayan Calendar scholars have pointed out is that time is cyclic and the ancient civilizations have recorded this. However, with all the focus on “shift of consciousness” and the “galactic alignment” on 12/21/2012 many of them don’t seem to acknowledge the obvious: that cosmic bombardment has always been a part of our history during such shifts and it seems very likely that we’re just at the beginning of massive changes of a cosmic nature that also manifest in cataclysms.

A SOTT reader posted his research recently under this article, proposing a different interpretation of the Mayan Calendar:

“I have been tracking the incidence of reported fireballs over the US for over a year now, since the increase first caught my notice. Mind these figures are for US only, a fraction of global events.

Working from the ams.org database, and researching prior reports going back a century, what I found was that the reported fireball incidence has held steady at around 1.2-1.3 per day for a very long time.

Beginning in 2006 we see the following pattern of steady increases, save for 2009:

2005: 1.28
2006: 1.41
2007: 1.61
2008: 1.98
2009: 1.90
2010: 2.59
2011: 4.46

And so far for 2012, as of 2 July: 5.03

Plot those points and the slope is pretty steep.

I am beginning to suspect that the “Mayan” calendar, which is not really Mayan, since they inherited it from the Olmec, who got it from who knows where, is actually a countdown calendar the pinpoints an intersection with the dense stream of cometary fragments that caused the Younger Dryas period some 12.5K years ago.

My reasoning is that if the impacts that likely killed the megafuana and Clovis culture occurred over a period of time, say months, instead of hours, then it is possible that those people or more properly, the survivors,were able to figure out the orbit, and that orbit was very long.

If you knew that something devasting was going to return may thousands of years later, how do you warn the future?

About the only thing that might possibly stand the test of time would be a calendar system. So if you construct the calendar to end at the beginning of the intersection, there is some small hope that people will be prompted to pay greater attention to things around them and pick up on the warning signs. Small hope, but better than nothing.

For what it is worth, that’s my theory.

I hope I’m wrong, but with the fireball incidence rising as fast as it is doing, I’m not so sure I am. I think we are now entering the front of a dense cloud of rocks or comet fragments that will intensify come December.

I think that the increase has a lot to do with the freaky global weather; so much extra energy is being put into the upper and middle layers of the atmosphere and that energy is being expressed in the weather. Not to mention that we are heating the bottom pretty hard ourselves. Combined with extra solar input from higher sunspot activity, the totality seems to predict some very bad weather ahead.

Most folk worry about a big asteroid smashing into the planet and killing everything in fell swoop. Me, I worry about the shotgun blast effect of many much smaller fragments impacting over a long period of time.

Heads up!”

Usually when I bring up the topic of cyclic cataclysms in conversations or on facebook and point out that we may enter such a period right now, I’m met with the usual “fear and doomsday mongerer” or “you’re so negative!” accusations. The information I provide is often denied off-hand without further investigation on their part. This has nothing to do with the “end of the world”, nor do I see ALL of the population being wiped out, nor do I want that to happen. However, facts are facts and fact is that there has been a significant increase of meteor and fireball sightings that are either downplayed or ignored. Most importantly, the powers that be know what’s coming, even if they delude themselves that they won’t be affected. So don’t expect an early warning anytime soon.

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Joking aside, anyone who takes a sober look at the world can see that we’re far from any significant collective shift in consciousness. We live in a day and age where most people still believe the lies we’re being told. It’s a global Stockholm Syndrome, the perfect Matrix Control System, where the prisoners build their own walls and worship their captors, becoming tools of the matrix as the sheep police each other. No martial control needed.

“Till at last the child’s mind is these suggestions, and the sum of the suggestions is the child’s mind. And not the child’s mind only. The adult’s mind too-all his life long. The mind that judges and desire and decides-made up of these suggestions. But all these suggestions are our suggestions… Suggestions from the State.”

Aldous Huxley,  A Brave New World

Much of it has also do to with what Bob Altemeyer called “The Authoritarians“, who blindly believe government (left or right) and official authority.

“They [Authoritarians] are highly submissive to established authority, aggressive in the name of that authority, and conventional to the point of insisting everyone should behave as their authorities decide. They are fearful and self-righteous and have a lot of hostility in them that they readily direct toward various out-groups. They are easily incited, easily led, rather un-inclined to think for themselves, largely impervious to facts and reason, and rely instead on social support to maintain their beliefs. They bring strong loyalty to their in-groups, have thick-walled, highly compartmentalized minds, use lots of double standards in their judgments, are surprisingly unprincipled at times, and are often hypocrites. But they are also Teflon-coated when it comes to guilt. They are blind to themselves, ethnocentric and prejudiced, and as close-minded as they are narrow-minded.”

This is not only true for the obvious right-wing conservative (republicans) oriented folks, but also for many self-proclaimed liberal, progressive lefties and Democrats who support Obama, the man-made global warming scam, the official 9/11 story (fantasy), Israel’s genocide in Palestine, etc… without questioning. I’ve had many “discussions” with such individuals who pride themselves of being “aware” and “spiritual”, some of them even popular yoga teachers, life coaches, and “healers” (such as the aforementioned “ayahuascero”) here in Los Angeles, hiding behind a passive aggressive mask who are more close-minded and conditioned than they are aware of. Much of it is also about keeping a “politically correct” attitude because speaking out about such topics may not serve their career and public image. What I’ve experienced in my interactions with them mirrors exactly what Bob Altermayer said: They bring strong loyalty to their in-groups, have thick-walled, highly compartmentalized minds, use lots of double standards in their judgments, are surprisingly unprincipled at times, and are often hypocrites. But they are also Teflon-coated when it comes to guilt. They are blind to themselves, ethnocentric and prejudiced, and as close-minded as they are narrow-minded.

As I said in “Love, Reality, and the Time of Transition“:

There is always more to learn and find out that requires an adjustment and new understanding, expanding our view and understanding of reality. It is what raising consciousness implies.  People who are stuck in one idea or teaching and try to explain everything through it are building their own limited reality box. This also relates to psychology, astrology, philosophy, the healing arts, spiritual practices or any religion (east and west) where many “experts” in any of these systems are looking through one lens (many of them distorted/false to begin with), not realizing that this approach can easily lead to distortion and a tunnel vision.  It can also become an egotistical point of pride preventing that person to admit to him/herself that there is maybe more to the story which one hasn’t considered before, especially when they have written books about it, their career depends on it and they have an image to sell/live up to.

One can see these fallacies with many popular spiritual teachers, researchers, visionaries, therapists and self-help gurus, where career and image seem to take precedence over truth and reality. There are many topics that affect us more than many of them are aware of. But instead of being more open to such topics and looking into them sincerely and unbiased, these seemingly intelligent and aware individuals ignore or debunk them right off-hand exposing their own lack of critical thinking.

Anti-Authoritarians are are even diagnosed as mentally ill these days. People who question their government and learn about “the man behind the curtain” are often labeled as “paranoid conspiracy theorists” in a condemning ad hominem way, as though governments never act in secret.

What better way to maintain the status quo than to view inattention, anger, anxiety, and depression as biochemical problems of those who are mentally ill rather than normal reactions to an increasingly authoritarian society.… We are now in another dark age, only the institutions have changed. Americans desperately need anti-authoritarians to question, challenge, and resist new illegitimate authorities and regain confidence in their own common sense.… Authoritarians financially marginalize those who buck the system, they criminalize anti-authoritarianism, they psychopathologize anti-authoritarians, and they market drugs for their “cure.”

– Bruce Levine, Ph.D., Why Anti-Authoritarians are Diagnosed as Mentally Ill

I’ve been living in the Los Angeles area for 17 years now. What I’ve come to realize more and more is the vast difference between people “appearing” aware, spiritual and conscious as opposed to their true state of being and awareness, reflected in their beliefs and (non)-actions. California is known to be “progressive” and being a professional bodyworker I can attest that in light of the “healing arts”. I don’t know any other place in the world that has so much to offer in that regard. I’ve learned from amazing teachers and am able to make a living with something I love doing and which would not be very easy in other parts in the world that are not that open to alternative healing modalities. It’s a strange mixture of open mindedness, progressiveness, niceness and the same time close mindedness, denial, self-delusion and self-grandeur.

Humanity is not as special as we believe ourselves to be. The universe and our planet are part of a living system that has its own purpose. If we don’t align ourselves with the universe and its evolution, the system will do what it has always done in the past and adjust itself, even if it means “shaking off” a large part of the population. We’re talking about the evolution in knowledge and consciousness, which is tied on with seeing the world as it is without blinders on. As I wrote in Reflections on Love, Healing, and 9/11:

If you believe a lie, no matter how ‘positive’, ‘loving’ or ‘peaceful’ you are, you are feeding negativity and entropy. When you believe a lie, you have allowed your energy of awareness to be vectored and given away your power to the liars, allowing yourself to be manipulated, essentially losing free will.

Lies are aligned with the principle of entropy simply because the more lies the world contains, the less organized and fragmented it becomes and the more energy is expended in maintaining all this complexity. This ties up energy which otherwise could be expressed creatively. This is true within the individual as well as at the societal scale.

No matter how well-meaning our intention is, as long as we support lies by mistaking them for truth or by not speaking out against them, we’ll keep feeding entropy and the suffering in the world. During this “Time of Transition” we don’t get to move on until the lessons are learned. Essentially, there is no Love where there is no Truth.

On the positive note, are there any signs of a “raise in consciousness” and “awakening”? There is the Occupy movement where people finally stood up to the crimes of their governments, yet at the same time most “Occupiers” mistake the symptoms for the cause, not being aware of Psychopaths in positions of high power and how it affects society. Despite the issues I pointed out with certain “conscious” festivals, they are also a great outlet for self-expression, art and dance, connecting people from all walks of life, but they can also be easily an escape from reality, instead of being a sign of a true “collective awakening”.

Technological progress and the Internet is connecting millions of people across the globe. Social networks like facebook can help in the process of seeking truth and spreading awareness. However, they can also increase narcissistic tendencies and disconnect us from real-life interaction. They are tools, neither good or bad and it depends on the user how they are being applied. There is much nonsense and disinformation on the internet as well. Lies are mixed with truth, so discernment is imperative without falling into the traps of “cynical debunking” or “blind belief”, the two sides of the same coin.

There are many well-meaning people who also see that our world is going through big changes and that we need to make changes within and without. Many of them do their best to look for alternative ways of living, offering more sustainable solutions. However, each of the various Conscious Movements ( The Zeitgeist Movement, Evolver Social Movement, Thrive Movement, etc…. ) can easily be (and may have been already) co-opted (or even created) by COINTELPRO, spread disinformation and ignore/deny important topics even without the conscious intent/awareness of their founders and members/followers because of cognitive dissonance, denial, wishful thinking and ego related issues that are in the way of the pursuit of truth. Again, understanding how the Matrix Control System works through us is crucial and how easily we can buffer up the lies we’re telling ourselves, dreaming to be awake.

“Try for a moment to accept the idea that you are not what you believe yourself to be, that you overestimate yourself, in fact that you lie to yourself. That you always lie to yourself every moment, all day, all your life. That this lying rules you to such an extent that you cannot control it any more. You are the prey of lying. You lie, everywhere. Your relations with others—lies. The upbringing you give, the conventions—lies. Your teaching—lies. Your theories, your art—lies. Your social life, your family life—lies. And what you think of yourself—lies also.

But you never stop yourself in what you are doing or in what you are saying because you believe in yourself. You must stop inwardly and observe. Observe without preconceptions, accepting for a time this idea of lying. And if you observe in this way, paying with yourself, without self-pity, giving up all your supposed riches for a moment of reality, perhaps you will suddenly see something you have never before seen in yourself until this day. You will see that you are different from what you think you are. You will see that you are two. One who is not, but takes the place and plays the role of the other. And one who is, yet so weak, so insubstantial, that he no sooner appears than he immediately disappears. He cannot endure lies. The least lie makes him faint away. He does not struggle, he does not resist, he is defeated in advance. Learn to look until you have seen the difference between your two natures, until you have seen the lies, the deception in yourself. When you have seen your two natures, that day, in yourself, the truth will be born.”

Jeanne de Salzmann, First Initiation

“The scientific discourse misses the fact that the ability to deny is an 
amazing human phenomenon, a product of sheer complexity of our 
emotional, linguistic, moral and intellectual lives. Denial is a complex unconscious defense mechanism for coping with guilt, anxiety and other disturbing emotions aroused by reality.”

Stanley Cohen

“To awaken is difficult to do, as sapiens is submitted to a cosmic hypnotic influence which is the universal energy of creation; and if this were not enough, each individual, when he does not like the reality of life or is not satisfied with himself, dreams of himself and the world in a manner ideal for himself.”

John Baines

The three subjects mentioned above hold the clues and keys to the Golden Age and world peace most of us yearn for. They need to be approached in a scientific and open minded way, questioning our own beliefs about the world and humanity, which entails working through our social, religious and cultural programming and adjusting our understanding even if it contradicts our long-held beliefs. From an esoteric perspective lies to the self are the most harming and as long as we believe the lies in the world we will keep going in circles until mother earth had enough and she sakes us off. There is always the danger of dogma and agendas, mistaking the false for the true, that are in the way of creating a new world if we don’t make the sincere pursuit of truth the foundation in every aspects of our lives.

Whatever your talent, profession or vocation may be, ask yourself, why you do what you do and what is your true intention? How much of it is socially conditioned and what is truly YOU? Don’t be afraid to speak out in fear of ridicule or what others may think. So much of what people do is driven by the need for acceptance, appearance, approval, money, status, and security. Our lives lose integrity if we’re not honest with ourselves. There is only Love where there is Knowledge and Truth.

I see 2012 as an opportunity, not in the literal sense of the date but in terms of the times we’re in.  There is potential for an awakening on a mass scale, although I question that there will be anything close to a “collective awakening”. A splitting may happen as “The Wave” approaches. There is so much we don’t know. For that reason we must make the search for Knowledge and Truth a priority before we present solutions too quickly. The more we see the world as it is, with all “the faces of God”, the more we are aligned with the universe and the more creativity we can access, enabling us to act in tune with nature without fighting her. This has an effect on the outside and maybe the archetypal “reset button” doesn’t need to be pressed. That is the evolution of consciousness, which is the evolution of Knowledge and Being. It doesn’t happen by itself. Conscious work and effort are needed to counter the forces of entropy within and without.

I don’t see a fundamental rise in consciousness or awakening at or after 12/21/2012 if not the aforementioned topics are made conscious of, nor are there any short cuts to take until we learn our lessons personally and collectively. Whatever our living system’s purpose is, we need to align ourselves with that and get out of our anthropocentric view of the universe, so we can make the transition from a material-based view of our world to a spiritual one.

“The fact of the matter is that our planet and everything on it comprises an intelligent and living system that has designed into it a mechanism through which any imbalance in any aspect of the system can be dealt with. Consider the way in which animal populations are naturally kept in check via predators or disease. This mechanism is designed to protect the overall system and prevent any one aspect from compromising the evolutionary goals of the system itself. Humans have evolved to the point where they have no natural predators, and while disease still kills many human beings each year, modern medicine has succeeded (so far) in preventing a pandemic from wiping out the human race. But it would be foolhardy for anyone to think that the ‘living system’ has overlooked human beings when it comes to redressing any imbalance caused by human beings that threatens the aim of the overall living system. We trust that what we have written here provides ample evidence that it has not.

We also hope that it is fairly clear that human beings, as a species on planet earth, have reached a point of serious imbalance, both in terms of their effect on the planet and on other living beings on it, and in terms of humanity’s own proper evolution which can be defined as evolution in knowledge and consciousness. Clearly, humanity today has stalled in its evolution. Indeed it appears to be back-sliding at an alarming rate, due primarily to the influence of the deviant ideology spread by psychopaths in positions of power around the world. We need only consider the fact that billions of people today have bought into and support the lie that is the psychopathic ‘war on terror’, which has as its goal the murder and domination of as many innocent people as possible. What does that fact alone (among many other deceptions that people have bought in to) say about the level of knowledge and awareness of the human race as a whole?

Joe Quinn and Niall Bradley, Reign of Fire: Meteorites, Wildfires, Planetary Chaos and the Sixth Extinction

“Discomfort” and examining our fears can serve a purpose. There is a chance for healing from a shamanic and esoteric perspective. It is good to put oneself into a state of vulnerability when looking at the “darker” aspects of our reality or of oneself, truly looking at it, facing it and not giving the ego a chance to explain it all away, so we can go back to our comfort zone through self-calming and ultimately back to “sleep”. It is not about buying into fear and panic either, but about gaining knowledge and understanding. Sometimes things need to be confronted without automatically defending our beliefs and views, allowing us to look at the world and ourselves more objectively. That’s part of the awakening process and raising consciousness.

There is help out there, but no one is coming to save us. No Aliens, Jesus, or Galactic Federation of Light. There are accounts of information and help from “channeled sources”, stating that is it is up to us to discern truth from deception, that we are our own the rescue team. Everything is part of creation. Evolution is a process of learning, becoming aware and conscious, gaining knowledge and hence wisdom and love.

“Life experiences reflect how one interacts with God. Those who are asleep are those of little faith in terms of their interaction with the creation. Some people think that the world exists for them to overcome or ignore or shut out. For those individuals, the worlds will cease. They will become exactly what they give to life. They will become merely a dream in the “past.” People who pay strict attention to objective reality right and left, become the reality of the “Future.””

– from the Cassiopaean Transmissions

The topic of channeled information needs to be examined very carefully, neither in blind belief and also not rejected because of cynical debunking. We need to be careful not to throw out the baby with the bathwater. “Higher benevolent forces” (including our higher self or even “us in the future”) may be able to contact us that way, when asked for and when it doesn’t infringe free will or interferes with the learning process of the one asking. However, who is coming through and what is the source really saying is the question. Sometimes the messages can be subtle in our every day life and it is up to us to be able to “see” and “hear” them. There is much disinformation, where most often the devil appears as angels of light. Even synchronicities and “coincidences” are not always positive or beneficial but can be orchestrated by negative entities to distract or vector the seeker away from truth, be it through temptation or ego/emotional hooks. It’s the archetypal spiritual war of dark and light through us.

Channeled material can be approached as Superluminal Communication from a scientific perspective. It should never be taken as fact and proof alone, but one should cross-reference it with other material and combine it with scientific research, using it as inspiration for new ways of thinking. There are some sources that actually encourage that approach and tell us that it is up to us to learn, discern and gain knowledge, hence becoming more aware and conscious, consciously engaging in the process of evolution and awakening. This entails piercing through the corruption of science and open the pathways to scientifically study the paranormal and high strangeness aspects of our reality, the “topic of all topics”, which is so ridiculed or ignored in our “official culture” for reasons that are actually un-scientific. That alone should make us think.

The path of seeking truth within and without is not an easy one. It goes literally against everything we’ve been told and taught by society and governments. The indoctrination of lies, the conditioning and programming is deep and far reaching. It has been going on for millennia. It takes tremendous effort to wake up from the hypnotic slumber, where most people dream to be awake. At this Time of Transition, as more and more knowledge is coming to the surface, there is the potential to create a new earth. However, this is also the age of deception for there are forces at work that do not want this to happen. They do their best to vector us away from truth and the most effective way to swallow a lie is to sandwich it between some truth with some emotional hooks. As mentioned many times before, lies are mixed with truth, hence discernment is essential. We need to engage our higher emotional center connecting us to divine intuition and also activate our higher intellect, engaging in sincere, open minded critical thinking, fusing the heart and the mind, mysticism and science.

That is the prerequisite to build the vessel inside of us that can receive Gnosis/Knowledge for the truth is hidden in plain sight, so we can “see the unseen” and not get distracted by the shadows on the wall. James Baldwin said “Precisely at the point when you begin to develop a conscience, you must find yourself at war with your society.” There has been much struggle, depression and suffering on my own path since I started to question reality. It has lead to alienation and ridicule from friends and family. However, “alienation” is actually a good thing and depression can be a stepping stone to seeing the world as it is and connecting with one’s real “I”. It’s part of the awakening process. The sincere truth seeker will inevitably feel alienated from society at one point, because he/she starts to “see” through appearances and the lies of “official culture”.  As J. Krishnamurti said: “It is no sign of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” Essentially, the Matrix works through people as they defend the prison they are in.

Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation. It is in “seeing the unseen” that we become aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we experience the “battles” between the forces of STS (Service to Self) and STO (Service to Others)! And it is most definitely this factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to conceal! In other words, we are not just talking about a “petty dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.

In general, the reaction of those around towards someone who begins to search for the Way is negative. This negative attitude is the result of the action of the General Law, which, as we know, tends to keep man in his place. Not being able to do this directly by the action of Illusion, the General Law, when it loses its dominion over the man who ‘moves’, acts indirectly by the mediation of those around him.

It is a classic situation. From his side, after having passed through moral bankruptcy, he who seeks the Way becomes different from men who continue to live within the limits permitted by the General Law, and thus take mirages for reality. Due to this, he will feel himself more and more isolated. The center of gravity of his interest will progressively turn to esoteric work, which will end by absorbing him completely. But it is entirely in his interest not to show the new attitude which he has taken towards exterior life. The ‘World’ will be hostile to him, because its own purposes are different; it is not in his interest to provoke this tendency, and even less to keep it alive. The day will come — if he remains in the same milieu — where, apart from rare exceptions he will be openly or secretly hated.

The Way is a one-way street. Meaning that whoever begins to walk it is forbidden to turn back. This is not because of some kind of external imperative, but due to the fact that each step forward on the Way irrevocably modifies the content of whoever has started walking it. It follows that he will become more and more of a stranger to his surroundings; that he will lose more and more interest in exterior life, in which only yesterday he participated fully. The appearance of things, and especially of beings, undergoes a deep change in his eyes. He will one day be surprised to constate that certain faces which only yesterday he found very beautiful now reveal to him marks of bestiality behind their features: not all, but many of them!

The more man progresses on the Way, the more his feeling of being a stranger is intensified. Soon he will become boring: later still he will become unbearable, and finally, odious. That is why ‘the prophet is despised in his country, among his close relations and in his own house.‘ That indication is precise and leaves no room for doubt. He who wants to start esoteric studies is invited to think it over twice, and weigh it all, before he rushes to cross the moat-threshold. We repeat that it will not be possible for him to return to exterior life and to find his place, his pleasures and his satisfaction there as in the past.

However, as well as the difficulties which are the first results of his evolution, such a man will receive comforting impressions, especially in his human relations. He will be surprised to perceive one day that certain faces which only yesterday appeared to him ordinary, today shine in his eyes with a bright beauty. It is because his sight, sharpened by esoteric work, has acquired the faculty of penetrating beyond the external crust. It is amongst these brighter beings that he will find his new friends. Their society will welcome him as one of their own. He will be understood among them, and their community of common aims and interests will be a stimulus and a help for all.

Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis

As tedious and hard as it is at times, the esoteric axiom remains: “The truth shall set you free!The necessity of disillusionment is unavoidable before we truly can become free, fulfill our potential and create a New Earth. Despite the struggle within and without and the madness in our world, I can say that I find more and more true love, fulfillment, happiness, joy, authentic friendships and a deeper connection to nature and the universe. It’s an ongoing process. There is light at the end of the tunnel and the only way out is through. Don’t ever give up. Every sincere effort will be noticed by the universe, even if seemingly unnoticed in your immediate environment and it will contribute to a positive outcome of this Time of Transition and to the progress of your soul. All there is are lessons. Our task is to give the lies what they deserve: the truth. Many are called, but few choose to answer the call.

“Organic life on Earth serves as a “transmitter station”. As such a transmitter, during times of Transition, as it is in the case of a quantum wave collapse, what is being “transmitted/observed determines the “measurement . There are approximately 6 billion human beings on the planet at this moment of transition, most of them contributing to the quantitative transmission. But what is missing is the qualitative frequency resonance vibration that will create the template for the New World.

The quality of humanity has changed little in the past many millennia. Most human beings are still ruled by fear, hunger and sex in states of misery and chaos.

In short, although the global intensity of transmission has grown exponentially with the increase of the population of the planet, the spectrum of energies transmitted is incomplete. It lacks massive amounts of the finest energies of the psyche. Only human beings on the verge of true spiritual ascension are capable of ensuring the transmission of these energies in sufficient quality and quantity.

The energies needed are the Three Currents of Objective Love: Spiritual, Emotional/Mental, and physical love. And we emphasize that these currents must be pure.

Man alone has the ability to capture and live all three. But to grasp and fully experience the Soul Love, the giving love, the courteous Love demonstrated and taught by Chivalry and the Knights of the Grail stories, the Seeker must develop a magnetic center within himself.

Human beings are penetrated through and through by the two currents of mental/emotional and physical love, but these currents are not pure; without a fully developed magnetic center, the individual has no capacity to capture them. It is only by actualizing these three currents in his or her life, either in the mode of the Alchemist, or in the Model of the Grail Quest, both of which exemplify the Shamanic Ecstatic Ascent, that a person has the real possibility of Ascension, the return to the Golden Age. We have seen in our survey of the history and the evidence, what the potentials are: a Return to the Edenic State in the literal terms of Primitive Chiliasm – a New Heaven and a New Earth.

Again, this depends upon capturing and holding stable – possibly in the face of extraordinary events – massive quantities of what the tradition refers to as purified Objective Love.

It is clear to those who have been paying attention to what is going on in the world that there are forces that do not wish for this possibility to manifest! They do not want to lose their supply of negative energy food! And with this end in mind, they propagate endless lies and deceptions upon humanity – so as to deceive even the very elect!

How to achieve this anchoring of the frequency – the three currents of Objective Love? Let’s look first at what the tradition teaches utilizing the commentary of Mouravieff with editorial clarification.

The attitude a person takes toward Love reflects his level of being. The splendor of the Love of God/Creation is generally inconceivable to human beings; it would burn out all their circuits with a mere glimpse. However, a human being can glimpse and survive the spiritual Love of Objective Knowledge. But, in order to do this, the individual must pass to a higher level of BEing and become a true individuality. Only those beings who have achieved the level of Individuality, who obey the imperatives of the Divine within, the real “I” , have the possibility of holding this frequency and radiating it at the Time of Transition.

The “Elect” , the Children of Elias as Fulcanelli terms them, are human beings who have crossed the Second Threshold and who have achieved the Second Birth. They will be “gathered from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other, to pass through the Transition and form the seed of humanity in the New World.” This means that they will be humans of all colors and types – the only criteria being that they have crossed the Second Threshold. Each of them will be Fully Conscious through a direct and indissoluble union of the Personality with his Higher Emotional/Intellectual Center. This direct contact of the new humanity with the higher planes explains why the Second Coming will not require a “new incarnation of Christ. This is why we were warned: “If any man shall say unto you, Lo, here is Christ or there; believe it not. For there shall arise false Christs and false prophets and shall show great prodigies and miracles; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall seduce the very elect.”

The path that must be followed is that which is exemplified in the Quest for the Holy Grail. Human beings must travel from the residue of Celestial Love that we experience in our ordinary lives, to the Love of the Spirit. This is the general requirement for “Salvation”.

This path is the way to the Second Birth. But to be reborn, a human being must pass the test of True Love. Only he who has mastered his personality and burns with this True Love can cross the Second Threshold. And before he can even reach this point, the Seeker, will pass through intermediate stages. These stages include challenges that test Sincerity and Strength. These challenges cannot be met without discernment, and discernment can only be acquired by first attaining Knowledge.

Knowledge acquired through study and work is only a temporary – but essential – stage. Only Higher Love can reveal the Divine Nature. But if there is no vessel built by Knowledge to receive Gnosis, there is no possibility of anchoring the Forerunner Spirit – creating the magnetic center – which will open the gates to the Holy Spirit. The Gatekeeper is Knowledge.

But for this to occur, the sign of Knowledge, that is, the Sign of St. Matthew-Science as Fulcanelli describes it, must be correctly oriented. And this means that the Seeker must be liberated from lying [to oneself and others] and believing in lies. Without this, there is no possible access to the Era of the Holy Spirit. No matter how well-meaning the individual, if they are following practices or teachings that are based on lies, they will not achieve the Grail. And so, we see why knowledge and discernment is essential. Again, I refer the reader to the section of this book that discusses neurochemistry.

Access to knowledge requires courage, as it demands a special psychological effort from the Seeker: he has to accept the postulate that, “the truth is out there”, but it is very difficult to find , while at the same time disregarding his own ideas and personal beliefs to which he is emotionally attached.

With the approach of the era of the Holy Spirit, everything must be gradually brought to the light of day, not only the secrets of the laboratory, but the deepest meaning of esotericism. The same must happen with illusions, errors and lies, which must be revealed so that they can be rectified. This process, including the Revelation of the deepest esoteric Knowledge that has been promised and prophesied, will fully reveal the many deviations of man’s fundamentally inquiring spirit. Initiation, in the esoteric meaning of the word, is not simply a “ceremony . In fact, the “initiation ceremony does not occur on the human plane with human rituals. True initiation occurs on the super-sensory plane. It confirms the Initiate in a new dignity earned by his Work, and carries him towards the Divine Grace.

To solve the problem of anchoring the Three Currents of Objective Love, we must concentrate on a positive and practical solution to the problems of individual human beings. A practical application of esoteric knowledge should help those who are Seekers and who burn with the desire to reach the Second Birth.

The Seeker of the Holy Grail, burning for Truth, just as depicted in the stories, must first assimilate all he can learn exoterically and mesoterically. And he must then be ready to serve the Cause joyfully. To Burn and to Serve is the motto of the new Knight.”

Laura Knight-Jadczyk, The Secret History of the World


Wanderers, Purpose, and Esoteric Work in this Time of Transition


A topic that has been coming up recently in a conversation with some friends is the idea of “Wanderers” in relation to esoteric work, the awakening process and the Time of Transition we are in. It is something that has been on my mind for a while and wanted to explore a bit deeper, also reflecting on my own life.

I first came across this subject when I read the Ra material in the 90’s as well as Barbara Marciniak’s “Bringers of the Dawn“. According to Ra, Wanderers are individuals whose souls have incarnated from a higher density (4th or 6th density) into this 3rd density with a specific mission to accomplish in order to assist humanity, helping with The Harvest or Graduation to 4th Density during this Age of Transformation. However, due to the “veil of forgetting” when entering a lower density, the mission/task by the Wanderer is forgotten and he/she needs to awaken to what they came here to do. Ra tells us:

Questioner: You spoke of Wanderers. Who are Wanderers? Where do they come from?

Ra: Imagine, if you will, the sands of your shores. As countless as the grains of sand are the sources of intelligent infinity. When a social memory complex has achieved its complete understanding of its desire, it may conclude that its desire is service to others with the distortion towards reaching their hand, figuratively, to any entities who call for aid. These entities whom you may call the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow move toward this calling of sorrow. These entities are from all reaches of the infinite creation and are bound together by the desire to serve in this distortion. Entities are from all reaches of infinite creation, bound together by desire to serve in Earth’s 3D.

Questioner: How many of them are incarnate on Earth now?

Ra: The number is approximate due to an heavy influx of those birthed at this time due to an intensive need to lighten the planetary vibration and thus aid in harvest. The number approaches sixty-five million.

Questioner: Are most of these from the fourth density? Or what density do they come from?

Ra:  Few there are of fourth density. The largest number of Wanderers, as you call them, are of the sixth density. The desire to serve must be distorted towards a great deal of purity of mind and what you may call foolhardiness or bravery, depending upon your distortion complex judgment. The challenge/danger of the Wanderer is that it will forget its mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the maelstrom of which it had incarnated to avert the destruction….

It was the aim of Wanderers to serve the entities of this planet in whatever way was requested. and it was also the aim of Wanderers that their vibratory patterns might lighten the planetary vibration as a whole, thus ameliorating the effects of planetary disharmony and palliating any results of this disharmony. Specific intentions such as aiding in a situation not yet manifest are not the aim of Wanderers. Light and love go where they are sought and needed, and their direction is not planned aforetimes.”

……The energies of the Wanderers, your teachers and adepts at this time are all bent upon increasing the harvest. However, there are few to harvest.

Carla L. Rueckert, the “instrument” through which Ra spoke wrote “A Wanderer’s Handbook”, exploring this topic in more depth and also incorporating other channeled material:

“In addition to those lessons which are learned in a manner native to those who work through the third density for the first time, those who are what you call Wanderers bring a certain task and a certain responsibility, which may be viewed as operating so as to put into an unique light, a particular slant or bias, those precise lessons which within third density all must learn. And so in a sense, the task is compounded proportionate to the unique gifts which have been brought from other densities, so that they may be laid down in service to the souls which seek, so hungrily, to reach beyond the limits which are those of third density, a density of choice.”

The Pleiadians in Barabra Marciniak’s “Bringers of the Dawn” refer to the same concept of Wanderers as “Renegades”, “System Busters” and “Family of Light”:

“You represent the renegade group of light, and you have agreed to come back on the planet. You are on assignment. You come into these physical bodies and take them over, and you intend, through the power of your spiritual identity, to change the physical body. You all selected with great care the genetic lines that would best give you head starts with all of this. Each of you chose a genetic history through which members of the Family of Light have threaded….

As members of the Family of Light, you have incarnated on this planet to prepare yourselves to do your work. What is your work? Your work is quite simple: you carry frequency into systems that have limited light frequency, because light is information. This is not cold, computer-data information; it is information that is transmitted biologically through an electromagnetic send-out of consciousness. This is what you are experts in. If you were to have a business card printed up for yourselves when you are in full memory of your identity, it would say something like: “Renegade Member of Family of Light. Systems Buster. Available for altering systems of consciousness within the free-will universe. On call.“….

You go for it! This is what you do. This is an aspect of your identity that you all have in common, and you are here in the millions at this time. You are here primarily to remember who you are, to operate multi- dimensionally within the system, and to teach humans-the natives in this place that have been under frequency control for a long time….

The task for you members of the Family of Light who have desired to take this information inside of yourselves is to anchor a new frequency on the planet by anchoring it impeccably inside yourselves. This is not easy. It was not meant to be easy. You did not come here to have an easy assignment. You are renegades, and you have been renegades…

Before you came into the body, all of you committed to designing events that would fire your codings, or blueprints that would activate your memories. Then you came into the body and you forgot. All of you have had your blueprints and codings fired to some extent because you understand that there is a divine purpose or Divine Plan that you are a part of…

Part of the friction you feel with others is that you are on this path of evolution and bursting forth. Others don’t like this because they are not coded at this time to respond the way you are. Some people are not coded at all for this

As members of the Family of Light, you are renegades. You are systems busters, here to conquer your own fears and to show the rest of the planet that there is no reason to fear anything. You love to go in and cause trouble. You are famous, your branch of the Family of Light. You are famous for going into systems of reality and altering the frequency, thus bringing information. It is not your task as members of the Family of Light to proselytize. You simply go into systems and act as receptacles; you receive the creative cosmic rays into your bodies, the bodies that you occupy as humans. You are in disguise as humans, and you allow a process to take place…

You are coded, and as your memory begins to rise, you will respond to the plan with which you came here to participate to alter the frequencies. You will begin to hold, keep, and maintain a certain frequency and then to line it. Identity as frequency is the sum total of your physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies broadcast as electronic pulsations. As you live your frequency, you affect everyone, every place you go. That is what you are doing now. There are many who already understand their assignment, and there are those whose memories are just beginning to rise

As members of the Family of Light, you have access to a tremendous amount of understanding that others do not have. You came in with it, you are being reminded of it, and you are now learning it and accepting it….Light is information, so the Family of Light is the family of information

Believe us when we say that you, as members of the Family of Light, made a vast study of the historical manipulation that has been going on on this planet, just as anyone sent on assignment would be trained for a long period of time before they were sent out into the field. Each of you has been trained, and you have the knowledge inside you. Our part is to hit key chords and play your consciousness into activity so you can go ahead and make the tune or song or dance you are prepared for. Your knowledge is inside of you, and as you agree to discover it, it will awaken on deeper and deeper levels. You will become very self-sufficient, those of you who agree to this. You will also become incredibly knowledgeable, those of you who do not stop because you are frightened. Light is information; ignorance is darkness…

We speak to you as if you are not human because, to us, you are not. To us, you are members of the Family of Light, and we know your multidimensional selves. We speak to you about dealing with humans because it is your assignment to integrate with them, soothe them, and awaken a spark of light within them so that they are not all destroyed and so that this place can house a new species and a new realm of activity….

You have been hired and are on assignment from the future to catapult back into this cycle of existence to incarnate many times so that you can understand what has kept humans controlled. In this way, you can operate from the inside and change the system….

As each of you has been assigned to become informed and to bring about a frequency alteration on this planet, you must learn to become Keepers of Frequency. You must rise to a certain place of knowledge and consistently stay there. You must become in command of your body so that you can will it into stillness or into activity. You must be able to go inside yourself and heal what needs to be healed emotionally and physically. You must begin to part the jungle of self and find the clearing so that you can show others the way….”

The topic of Wanderers or higher dimensional-beings who haveincarnated for the purpose of assisting humanity is somewhat popular in the New Age movement. There are plenty of people these days who claim to be “Star Seeds”or “Light Workers” from planet this or that. However, some of them seem to use this identification to enhance their ego and self-importance, over-estimating their level of Being and Awareness, appearing “special” and “mysterious”, clouded in a very fluff talk of Love and Light. Especially nowadays, where it is hip to be “spiritual”, many self-proclaimed lightworkers dress accordingly and give themselves fancy spiritual names which are supposed to reflect their higher state of awareness, claiming to be awake. It’s easy to identify oneself with such an idea but does one’s life truly reflect that? Does one truly KNOW what it means to be a lightworker or Wanderer and the work it entails? Or is it just another label used for appearance’s sake and to make oneself feel better? There are many distortions and people tend to project their own filtered view into it. As with everything these days truth is mixed with lies.

Personally I don’t dismiss the idea of higher density souls coming back in time with a specific mission to fulfill. However, I also take it with a grain of salt at the same time. Reflecting on my life, I can see that I could fit the profile of a Wanderer and learning about it has given much clarity and understanding of myself and what I felt deep inside all along. However I don’t see myself as being special or better since I have to learn my lessons as everyone else in this 3D human experience.

Throughout my whole life I felt different and was very much a loner in high school, not being able to fit in, dealing with a high sensitive nature and a deep emotional life which was confusing to say the least. Obviously many children feel this way growing up in our pathological world and is by no means an indication that one is automatically a Wanderer.  My parents did their best in raising me according to their knowledge. I didn’t have a bad childhood or was abused by any means. I just felt I wasn’t from here and even as a young kid in my pre-teens I used to look at the stars at night thinking and longing “Take me home…Why am I here?…Why am I so alone?”. However, I never truly made the connection that I was maybe a Wanderer, nor was I conscious of this idea. It was just natural for me for me to stare at the night sky asking these questions and it had a soothing affect on me.

Scott Mandelker who has  published several books on the Ra material and Buddhism came up with a questionnaire (similar to determining personality types) which can help to find out if one is potentially a Wanderer. Obviously there is no true scientific way to prove one way or another. I think Mendelker’s quiz is over-simplified, short and vague and missing some important points which can also lead to misinterpretations. Deeper introspection and understanding of what being a Wanderer entails is certainly needed. I would not go by this questionnaire alone and proclaim “I’m a Wanderer” even if I can answer most questions with a yes. It’s easy to read into things and “bend the truth” in order to fit it for oneself. As Laura mentioned earlier, what is it you truly DO about it?

I started questioning the world as we know it more consciously when I went to the University of Munich studying business in 1991, a choice I made due to social pressure, being confused, not knowing myself and just doing what everyone else did: getting a degree, so I can have a secure job and make a living. I was depressed and felt just like I did in High School, doing things that I didn’t like to do but thought I had to do in order to “fit in”. I kept thinking there must be more to life than this! Well, as the saying goes, ask and you shall receive and I was asking sincerely from the depth of my being. The call was answered when a good friend I met around that time asked me to try out playing drums for his band. My life changed completely. Music has always been my ally in my life. Listening to it helped me to deal with my complex emotional life. But I was so conditioned and lost that I never thought to make music myself. I was in awe when I saw bands playing live and especially intrigued when watching the drummer. My low self-esteem didn’t even make that connection that I could be doing this myself since I thought I had to study and be a good student in order to get a degree in something more practical and secure to fit into society and also please my parents.

Playing drums connected me to something deeper within me and for the first time in my life I truly knew what I wanted to do. I was so infused with inspiration and sudden self-confidence that I dropped out of university, saved up money and moved to Los Angeles to study drums and percussion at the Musicians Institute. At that time I realized there must be even more to life and more to who I am, that there is purpose to my life, that there was something I’m here to do. A lot of things came up for me and it was not always a happy time. Dealing with depression, childhood programming, social conditioning and this seemingly never-ending feeling of loneliness, unable to connect with people on a deeper level, I started to look for answers, trying to figure myself out as I was going through the “dark night of the soul” with suicidal thoughts and even drug abuse (which didn’t last long, since it interfered with my passion for playing drums. Music literally saved my life).My search and asking fueled by intense internal suffering lead me to the works of Carl Gustav Jung, J. Krihshnamurti, Alan Watts, Joseph Campbell and other spiritual/psychology/philosophy literature as well as Astrology, which helped me in the process of seeking answers to deeper life questions and understanding myself better.

Another big shift in my life started when I first read “Bringers of the Dawn” (BOTD) in the late 90’s. No other book has had such a deep impact on me. It was almost like an instruction manual I’ve read before, awakening something within me that was always there. It was more a recognition than learning something new. It resonated with me deeply. Readers of my blogs know that I don’t take the idea of “resonating” lightly since I believe that there is such a thing as “false resonating”.

While there is validity to the idea of “resonating” with a certain teaching or source, it can easily be misapplied if the “reading instrument”, the Self, is not “tuned” correctly. Some fundamentalist Christians also “resonate” with the Bible in literal terms, believing the earth is only 5000 years old.  “Feel good” messages are no proof of truth and can also be very emotional manipulative. Disinformation is always lies mixed with truth. Enough truth to use as a bait to get the seeker’s attention and then put him/her on a false lead so to speak, keeping him asleep while he believes to awaken. In order to find the true resonance one needs to separate the false self (with its assumptions, conditioning, expectations, wishful thinking, buffers, emotional hooks and ego desires) from the true self which is grounded in Knowledge, connected to the small voice inside that can always separate a lie from truth, using intuition and critical thinking alike, even if the truth is not very “pleasant” and challenging to one’s world view. In other words, honest self-work is needed in order to resonate with truth. Within and without.

Marciniak’s book started my quest for truth on a whole new level, confirming my feeling that there is something else happening on our planet besides what we have been taught and told by official culture. For many people the information in BOTD is too far out or laughable, however that also makes sense as I’ll explain later on. It was not only the idea of higher density souls coming “back in time” incarnating in human form (Renegades, Family of Light) with a mission profile to assist humanity during this time of transformation which I resonated with, but also the more disturbing topic of hyperdimensional control and that humans are not on top of the food chain, nor in control of themselves, but have been manipulated genetically and controlled by “Aliens” (hyperdimensional 4D STS forces).

Her work led me to the Ra material, as well as the Cassiopaean Experiment and the work of Laura Knight-Jadczyk who wrote in depth about the Theological Drama with hyperdimensional forces working through humanity, incorporating a vast array of esoteric teachings, channeled material (Ra, Marciniak’s Pleiadians) and research into ancient history, connecting the dots scientifically, esoterically, historically and mystically. Her personal story and discoveries are written about in “The Wave” and “The Secret History of the World”.

According to the Ra material and Cassiopaean transmissions humans have been of STO (Service to Others) orientation before the “Fall”. Both sources talk about the “Fall” from this state happening about 300,000 years ago when 4th density STS (Service to Self) entities (called the Orion group (Ra) or Lizzies/Reptilians (Cassiopaea, Pleiadians) ) “raided” this planet, took over control (from a hyperdimensional point of view as in frequency/consciousness control) and humans became STS (development of ego, false personality, worship of physicality, cut off from the higher centers).  We’re now at the end of a big cycle where mind/body/spirit complexes (Ra) of 3rd density (humans) have the opportunity to “graduate” or “evolve” to 4th density STO orientation (The “harvest” according to Ra). However, this is a choice. According to both sources as well as various ancient esoteric teachings, conscious self-work and effort are required to move on to the next level so to speak, activating the higher centers by gaining knowledge, engaging in sincere self-work and being of service.

Planet earth as it is now is of STS orientation. We all are STS and cannot be otherwise, however one can become a STO candidate and polarize oneself to that vibration/frequency through esoteric work. 4th density STS entities try their best to manipulate our “free will” through frequency and genetic control which has been going on since “the fall”, keeping us in a lower form of consciousness as they feed off those lower vibrations. It’s simply food for them and sustains/nourishes them, like plant and animals (2nd density) serve us for food. 3rd density feeds off 2nd density and 4th density feeds off 3rd density. Humans are not at the end of the food chain. As above, so below. The UFO phenomenon relates to this and is for the most part a manifestation of the hyperdimensional matrix control system as examined in more depth in the documentary “UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact” I made with Humberto Braga.

Now is a window of opportunity to break free from this control and evolve to a higher level of existence. Not everyone will “graduate”. It’s everyone’s own choice/calling and doesn’t depend on anything or anyone “out there”. No one can do it for another, but one must do the self-work in order to activate the higher centers, raising one’s level of Being and Awareness above a certain minimum. This is also not something that happens over night or on a specific date (like the much popularized end of the Mayan Calendar 12/21/2012) but is related to the shift of ages spanning over a many years and we are already in the midst of it.

There is a choice to be made very shortly, and it would be preferable if all of the people of this planet understand the choice that is to be made. It will be difficult for many of the people of this planet to understand what this choice is, because it is a choice that they have not considered. They have been much too involved in their daily activities and their confusion and their desires of a very trivial nature to be concerned with an understanding of the choice that they are very shortly to make. Whether they wish to or not, whether they understand it or not, regardless of any influence, each and every one of the people who dwell upon planet Earth will shortly make a choice. There will be no middle area. There will be those who choose to follow the path of love and light (knowledge) and those who choose otherwise.

This choice will not be made by saying, “I choose the path of love and light,”or “l do not choose it.” The verbal choice will mean nothing. This choice will be measured by the individual’s demonstration of his choice. This choice is measured by what we term the vibratory rate of the individual. It is necessary, if an individual is to join those who make the choice of love and understanding, for his rate of vibration to be above a certain minimal level.
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At the time at which each of you incarnated, my friends, each of you was aware that certain lessons, hitherto unlearned, were to be the goals for achievement in this incarnation. If it seems to you that your entire incarnation within this illusion has been a series of difficulties of one particular type, then you are almost certainly aware in some manner of one of your lessons. As you can see, these lessons are not to be avoided. They are to be learned.

from Hatonn, L/L Transcripts

Going back to the topic of Wanderers and renegades who have incarnated in this time and age with a specific mission relating to the shift we’re in, there is also this insightful writing by Marshall Vian Summers about the deeper meaning of purpose, our “ancient home” and how it is intrinsically connected to gaining Knowledge. Purpose is not a definition or an end in itself, but a journey to be discovered as we work on ourselves and separate truth from lies within and without. This process is different for each as everyone has different lessons to learn and talents to develop.

PURPOSE IS SOMETHING YOU WILL UNDERSTAND as you climb higher on the mountain of life. As you gain a greater vantage point, you will understand more of the journey itself, by looking behind and by being increasingly able to anticipate what is up ahead. Purpose is realized by taking the journey, not by establishing a favorable or fascinating explanation or a definition for oneself. Purpose is not a justification. It does not compensate for anything. Purpose is something that is waiting for you to discover. You can only discover it by taking the journey, by following the way, by learning as you go and by gaining the greater perspective and understanding that one acquires as one matures in The Way of Knowledge.

As we have said before, you have come from someplace and you will return to that place. You have come bearing gifts for the world. Your greater purpose is embodied in this idea. Because of your origin and your destiny, you have something greater to give to the world, something that the world cannot give to you. Your gift is hidden within you like a secret cargo, but you cannot gain access to it until you have advanced. Then it will begin to emerge, slowly and incrementally, all on its own.

Your calling in life is very specific. It involves engaging with certain people for specific reasons at certain junctures of your life. The greater purpose that you share with everyone is to keep Knowledge alive in the world and to bring something from your Ancient Home into the world. This is a definition that you can abide with because it will not limit you and it will not deceive you, but go no further in your definitions. Allow the manifestation of your purpose to take place naturally, as it will if you follow in The Way of Knowledge. Your purpose now is to prepare to gain a greater understanding of the world, the world’s evolution and the world’s destiny. Within this larger context you will gain a new vantage point for understanding your role in the world and your reason for coming here.

Your life must be fulfilled. It must be justified. The world is a difficult place to come to. It is not a vacation spot. It is not a place where you are sent for punishment. It is not a place where you are sent for pleasure. It is a place that needs your gifts from your Ancient Home, and for this reason you have come. […]

Your purpose is not to escape the world. Your purpose is not to run home to your Creator. Your purpose is to give what you came here to give, to reunite with those whom you are intended to reunite with and to contribute all that you have brought with you—that secret cargo that you carry even at this moment. […]

You are here in the world for very specific reasons. They are not your personal reasons. You are here to contribute to and participate in a greater order of reality that exists within the world and beyond the world and even beyond the physical manifestation of life.

With greater awareness comes a greater ability. This all comes from Knowledge. Here you are asked to follow, to respond and to learn the great lessons in discernment, discretion, communication and affinity. These lessons are inherent in the preparation itself. From the first step to the last, you will be learning these things, and life will be your laboratory.

As you come to realize that your purpose is not for you alone, then you will realize that you must not allow yourself to become self-possessed or self-absorbed. Indeed, the great liberation is a liberation from this self-absorption which returns you to life with an open mind and with all of your faculties fully activated. […]

The ones who will succeed are the ones who focus on their preparation and allow the course of their life to unfold without determining its result and without determining what it will look like, how it will be and so forth. Here you must develop a great and growing faith in yourself, in the beneficence of those people who assist you, in the Unseen Ones who guide you and help you and in the power and presence of Knowledge within you. […]

Purpose is a process; it is not a definition. It is not a validation. It is not a form of self- comfort. It is something that awaits you. It is a great journey. It is a door that is open to you now, a door that you can pass through. It is a journey where you do not lead yourself alone, but instead become a part of the greater education that exists throughout the universe. The Creator is at work everywhere, reclaiming the separated through Knowledge. This is the Creator’s purpose. Your purpose is to give what you are designed to give, according to your nature and your true abilities. In this, your life becomes fulfilled because everything you have done can now serve a greater purpose.

This journey requires phenomenal self-honesty. Humility, honesty, openness, discernment, restraint, discretion, tolerance and compassion—these are qualities that result from preparation and advancement in The Way of Knowledge. These things are what provide inspiration and true ability in life. […]

Your purpose is the same as everyone else’s. However, your calling is specific. It is a specific set of tasks with specific people and in specific relationships for certain purposes. That is a calling. But for a calling to be genuine, to be real and to really bear fruit in life, it must be fundamentally based within the greater purpose that you share with everyone. […]

It is not wandering around blindly, speculating and having big ideas. Instead, it is engaging in a process of development that has been provided for you by your Creator and by your Spiritual Family to initiate you in this life into the greater calling and purpose for which you have come. Only through this discovery will your life be fully justified and fully realized. Here you will enter a greater range of relationship and understanding which will make you a person of incredible value in the world.

The world is a hungry and lonely place. It is full of fantasy and folly. Its suffering is profound. Its confusion is deep. Its violence is sickening. Its possibilities are great. Who can see these things but those who realize that they have come from beyond the world to give something? They realize this because it is something they can feel. It is not an emotion; it is something they feel. They feel that they have come here for a reason. It is something that they cannot yet define, but they cannot make it go away either. Something greater is calling them. This is purpose. […]

Their awareness of the mystery of life will grow more and more profound, and their ability in life—in their relationships, in their career, in all their activities—will deepen. This is purpose. At some point, they will give themselves to something that involves other people in service to the world in one capacity or another according to their nature and their design. It will be natural for them to give themselves in this way, as it would be unnatural for them to decline it. This is purpose.

As we describe this process of preparation in a very general way, do not think that you are near the end. Do not claim that you are anywhere in the process, for how can you tell? You cannot pull yourself out of life and examine your life. You do not have that vantage point yet. Accept that the journey is great. It is marvelous. It is at times difficult. But in all ways it refines you. It washes away that which is nonessential in you and reveals that which is permanent and meaningful. Your real purpose and calling become apparent when all that hides and conceals them has fallen away, and what is left is what is real, and that becomes welcomed and embraced. […]

This is the time that you are here, and this is the condition of the world and the evolution of the world at this time. Though your specific calling may seem to have little to do with the Greater Community, you are serving the world in its emergence into the Greater Community. You are fostering goodness, Wisdom and the reality of Knowledge in the world through your own demonstration. This is your purpose.

Let’s summarize what we can see so far from these quoted sources.

Wandereres/Renegades are souls from a higher density (4th or 6th) that have incarnated in a human body in order to be of assistance during this Time of Transition. They are “system busters” challenging the status quo who don’t fit in with most of humanity. Due to entering the lower density of physical life they have forgotten that it was their conscious choice to do so in order to perform certain tasks according to a mission profile. Their memory from the “ancient home” is buried deep within them which needs to be awakened. This purpose is an ongoing discovery that depends on conscious self-development and gaining Knowledge. Love is Light is Knowledge. Ra says that the reason for this “forgetting” is also rooted in respecting the free will of 3D entities:

“Free will of 3D entities needs to be preserved. Thus Wanderers volunteer for 3D genetic or DNA connections to mind/body/spirit complex. Forgetting process can be penetrated to extent of Wanderer remembering what it is and why it is upon the planet. However, it would be an infringement if Wanderers penetrated forgetting so far as to activate more dense bodies and thus be able to live in a god-like manner. This would not be proper for those who have chosen to serve.”

The Ps (Pleiadians) tell us that wanderers/renegades are “committed to designing events that would fire [their] codings, or blueprints that would activate their memories.” In other words, the friction and struggle many people (who could be Wanderers) perceive can be used as catalysts to help them awaken and remember what they came here to do. The lessons are not to be avoided, but are to be learned. The obstacle that is in the way of a Wanderer to awaken is that he/she becomes karmically involved and conditioned/programmed through upbringing and society, steering him/her off the path. In order to activate the higher centers, connecting them to their higher selves and giving them access to their “blueprints”, sincere self work is necessary to cut through the lies and conditioning of the false personality, which everyone has to one degree or another.

This shows us that despite their hidden higher knowledge and awareness that Wanderers bring with them, they need to deal with the challenges of life like everyone else on the planet. It is of no use to proclaim proudly that one is a Wanderer without realizing and engaging in the work that is necessary to truly walk the talk. The verbal choice will mean nothing. This choice will be measured by the individual’s demonstration of his choice. However, due to being “foreign” to 3rd density, Wanderers do have more problems adjusting to the planetary vibration of physicality than humans whose home is 3D. Ra tells us:

“Due to the extreme variance between the vibratory distortions of third density and those of the more dense densities, if you will, Wanderers have as a general rule some form of handicap, difficulty, or feeling of alienation which is severe. The most common of these difficulties are alienation, the reaction against the planetary vibration by personality disorders, as you would call them, and body complex ailments indicating difficulty in adjustment to the planetary vibrations such as allergies, as you would call them”.

“Possibility of such problems due to 6D incarnating in 3D is rather large. Not necessarily a problem — it depends upon unique orientation of each m/b/s complex having this situation or placement of energies.”

“There are, in case of Wanderers, not only a congenital difficulty in dealing with 3D vibratory patterns but also a recollection, however dim, that these distortions are not necessary or usual in home vibration.”

Many people who resonate with being a Wanderer do so because of the most common of these difficulties,  alienation, that is severe (and I can certainly relate to that), which is probably due to the difficulty of dealing with 3D vibratory patterns that are not necessary or usual in home vibration (6D).

These difficulties are crucial and can be approached in two ways for better or worse. One can use them as an excuse to not deal with 3D life  because one feels “too spiritual” or “too good” to do so or claiming to have “transcended” anything that may require too much work to confront, be it within oneself or in the world. I have heard many times from people (Wanderers or not) that they are “too spiritual” for politics or speaking out against injustices in the world (and ultimately the 4D STS control system) because they have “transcended” it all and just want to live in the Light (misunderstanding that Light actually means Knowledge). But as Marianne Williamson said, addressing that at a talk at “Lightning in a Bottle”: There is a difference between transcendence and denial.

Others even use their “spiritual highness” as an excuse to not pay their bills, get a source of income or just managing ordinary daily affairs and reject anything that is part of life in our current 3D reality. They tend to  manipulate, leech (and essentially feed) off others, which can keep them in 3D STS frequency with the potential of getting “stuck” there, not graduating (or not going back “home”) and having to repeat the 3rd density cycle.

“If Wanderer demonstrated through action a negative orientation towards others it would be caught into the planetary vibration and, when harvested, possibly repeat master cycle of 3D as a planetary entity”.

One needs to watch out that seeing oneself as a Wanderer doesn’t become an escape and is not used as a buffer/excuse, which will only be in the way of living up to one’s potential and purpose. Laura Knight-Jadczyk makes an important point in that regard:

“This is another area where there are some misunderstandings in the spiritual life. Many seekers believe that their inability to function in the real world is like a badge of merit — a proof of their great spirituality. Physical ailments, loss of function, inability to manage ordinary daily affairs, and so on and on are all excused because the person is so “spiritual” that they cannot be expected to be bothered with such things.

Well, that’s all fine and good but wouldn’t you think that a person who is supposed to have graduated to higher spiritual realms did so because they mastered the lower ones? And, if that is the case, what is so hard about remembering those lessons and activating them at a higher level of competence this time around? If you have graduated to sixth grade, surely you can ace all the tests of third grade?

The healthier approach, which will actually help Wanderers to truly remember what they came here to do and act on it, is to confront these difficulties, learn the lessons and use the friction and shocks to create the fire within, transmuting lead into gold, building the magnetic center within, which connects them to their higher self, the real “I” and the hidden knowledge within them. This is where esoteric works come in. Wanderers actually have a better disposition to engage in this work but this is not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding as Ra said (more on that later).

Instead of rejecting these experiences and lessons due to an unconscious feeling that this is not their natural habitat, Wanderers have actually all the “tools” and knowledge to deal with them, especially since they chose to incarnate due the “the call” and request. Hence, being “spiritual” and/or being a Wanderer implies taking absolute responsibility for one’s life regardless what the challenges and difficulties may be without blame, self-pity or self-importance. This also relates to the work of Carlos Castaneda and Don Juan’s teaching of the “warrior”:

“Only as a warrior can one withstand the path of knowledge. A  warrior cannot complain or regret anything. His life is an endless challenge, and challenges cannot possibly be good or bad.  Challenges are simple challenges.”

“What seems natural is to think that a warrior who can hold his  own in the face of the unknown can certainly face petty tyrants with  impunity. But that’s not necessarily so. What destroyed the superb warriors of ancient times was to rely on that assumption. Nothing  can temper the spirit of a warrior as much as the challenge of  dealing with impossible people in positions of power. Only under  those conditions can warriors acquire the sobriety and serenity to  withstand the pressure of the unknowable.”

So regardless of Wanderers being “higher evolved” or old souls, they’re on the same playing field as everyone else on 3D earth and must do the work to access their knowledge. The only “help” they have is that they may get triggered in some way and the right book appears at the right time for example or synchronicities and coincidences may lead them to the information or life situation they need to come across and experience in order to be awakened. But they need to do the work themselves with discernment, separating truth from lies within and without. The friction and limitations of 3rd density actually serve as a catalyst for faster learning, growth and polarization. What seems clear is that Wanderers didn’t just choose to be of assistance with their coded mission and potentially teach/heal but also to learn the lessons they need to learn for their own evolution and polarization.

“[The] Wanderer has potential of greatly accelerating density whence it comes in its progress in evolution. This is due to intensive life experiences and opportunities of 3D. Positively oriented Wanderers choose to hazard danger of forgetting to be of service to others by radiating love of others. If forgetting is penetrated, amount of catalyst in 3D will polarize Wanderer w/ much greater efficiency than shall be expected in higher, more harmonious densities.

They may also be guided and awakened by higher density STO forces to be triggered through subconscious impulses but not to do the work FOR them. As the Ps said:

“All of you jumped at the chance to be here in such a challenging place at such a challenging time. You were certain you could do it. Also, you were told before you came here that there would be much assistance and that, at different junctures of your development, different entities would present themselves upon the planet in different capacities to trigger you, fire you up, and remind you-not to do it for you. We are one of those triggers, a catalyst. ….You yourself chose to be here. You are on assignment to bring memory forward and to bring the value of human existence back to the forefront of creation. You are needed…….”

Each of you has been trained, and you have the knowledge inside you. Our part is to hit key chords and play your consciousness into activity so you can go ahead and make the tune or song or dance you are prepared for. Your knowledge is inside of you, and as you agree to discover it, it will awaken on deeper and deeper levels. You will become very self-sufficient, those of you who agree to this. You will also become incredibly knowledgeable, those of you who do not stop because you are frightened. Light is information; ignorance is darkness…

Assistance comes to you in all avenues of life, yet others cannot do things for you because you designed life in such a way that the species must self-motivate and evolve in order to be empowered

It is very important to observe how you deal with events. Different events are brought to you so that you can observe them. Learn to observe your behavior and to spend much more time alone even if sometimes it is difficult for you and you feel lonely. In the long run, you will thank us for directing you to have a more meaningful encounter with yourself…

Who’s going to bail you out when the going gets rough? Where is the rescue team? You are it. In order to have this transformation take place, you must use what you have to bring it about. There is incredible assistance from all kinds of realms; however, it all depends on you, not us. You are going to change the frequency simply by commitment, determination, and willpower…”

And from the Ra material:

“The methods used to awaken Wanderers are varied. The center of each approach is the entrance into the conscious and subconscious in such a way as to avoid causing fear and to maximize the potential for an understandable subjective experience that has meaning for the entity. Many such occur in sleep, others in the midst of many activities during the waking hours. The approach is flexible and does not necessarily include the “Close Encounter” syndrome.”

This is also where free will comes in. Wanderers incarnated because of the “request” and “answering the call”. Their mission is not to preach, impose or give without being asked. From an STO perspective one can only give when asked and many people choose not to wake up, they choose not to seek truth or do conscious self-work. They choose to stay asleep, dreaming to be awake. Many even choose to be STS on a soul level,  just as many choose not to “graduate” to 4D. Free will needs to be respected, even if it is the free will to stay ignorant. Only STS violates free will through self-serving manipulation and non-asked interference. This also relates to the esoteric sayings Being wise as serpents and gentle as doves and Do not give what is holy to dogs, and do not throw your pearls before swine, or they will trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.

Asking can come in different ways and it not necessarily verbal, however, not every asking is sincere, so knowledge, discernment and awareness are required to truly distinguish between STS and STO, especially within ourselves as we all have STS tendencies, mistaking them for STO (remember that STS is the default polarity for this current 3rd density we are ALL subjected to). Are we giving to another without expectation and to truly help the other person? What part in them are we supporting? Sometimes NOT giving is actually STO in order not to support the STS feeding dynamics. Are we being externally considerate? Or are we considering internally and are trying to make ourselves feel better by “being of service” or for the sake of image/appearance/status, inflating our self-importance?  For example, if people donate money to various causes, what is their true underlying drive?

“How we admire you. We remember third density. It is the shortest of the densities, the density of choice. You are here to choose to serve the Creator by serving others or by serving the self and manipulating others. As you serve others, you may be asked to do outrageous things, to go beyond your limitations, to do what cannot be done yet which shall be done because it must. And in those situations we strongly advise that you release your personal personality and move to an impersonal portion of your deep self, that god-self of unmitigated and straightforward compassion. To determine what is pleasing as opposed to what is serving another entity is sometimes difficult, especially on the spur of the moment.

People have to learn their own lessons even if we can see how much they’re lying to themselves and are in their own ways. Free will is essentially tied to learning the lessons and understanding that everyone has their own lessons but also that there are collective lessons for all of humanity to learn. From the Cassiopaea material:

Q: What creates this environment of limitation?
A: It is the grand illusion which is there for the purpose of learning.
Q: And who put the illusion into place?
A: The Creator who is also the Created. Which is also you and us and all. As we have told you, we are you and vice versa. And so is everything else.
Q: Is the key that it is all illusion?
A: Basically, yes. As we have told you before, if you will be patient just a moment, the universe is merely a school. And, a school is there for all to learn. That is why everything exists. There is no other reason. Now, if only you understood the true depth of that statement, you would begin to start to see, and experience for yourself, all the levels of density that it is possible to experience, all the dimensions that it is possible to experience, all awareness. When an individual understands that statement to its greatest possible depth, that individual becomes illumined. And, certainly you have heard of that. And, for one moment, which lasts for all eternity, that individual knows absolutely everything that there is to know.

As an STO candidate one cannot interfere with the learning process of another, but only assist with advice, mirrors and suggestions if it is asked for. One can also spread “seeds of awareness”, share information and show the “door” if appropriate but people will have to walk through it themselves. Each situation is different and specific. No one can do the work for another, nor can anyone “save” another. As Morpheus told Neo in “The Matrix”: Unfortunately no one can be told what the matrix is, you have to see it for yourself.” .

“[The wanderer’s] desire is service to others with the distortion towards reaching their hand, figuratively, to any entities who call for aid….Specific intentions such as aiding in a situation not yet manifest are not the aim of Wanderers. Light and love go where they are sought and needed, and their direction is not planned aforetimes.”

“[Different attitude toward unharvestable Earth entities?] Not substantially. To those who wish to sleep we could only offer comforts designed for sleeping. Service is only possible to extent it is requested. We were ready to serve in whatever way we could. This still seems satisfactory as a means of dealing with others in 3D. To be each entity which one attempts to serve simplifies grasp of what service is necessary/possible””

– Ra

It is not your task as members of the Family of Light to proselytize. You simply go into systems and act as receptacles…. Assistance comes to you in all avenues of life, yet others cannot do things for you because you designed life in such a way that the species must self-motivate and evolve in order to be empowered…..Not everyone is going to make the shift. Not everyone is in the vibration that wants to work in harmony at this time.

– Ps

Laura Knight-Jadczyk writes:

“Ra tells us about “wanderers,” or higher dimensional-beings who have incarnated for the purpose of assisting humanity without violating free will. This “service to others” is described as a “dispassionate attempt to share information without concern for numbers or growth among others.” The attempt to make the information available is the service. There are no shortcuts to enlightenment. It cannot be taught. It cannot be achieved with rituals or formulas. The only thing that can be shared is information, stories of inspiration, love and mystery, and experiences that may spark another person to reach out and begin seeking on their own….

Ra warns that the challenge and danger of the wanderer is that he or she will forget the mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the maelstrom. The question here is, of course, how does one become karmically involved? Ra answers: By acting in a consciously unloving manner in action with other beings. As the readers have discovered, what is or is not “love” is a huge issue. And it is in this subject that the most intensive disinformation has been promulgated, or so it seems.

All of this also relates to the topic of Organic Portals (OPs), the possibility that half of humanity does not have an individual soul and has no ability to access the higher centers, which would enable them to engage in esoteric work in order to graduate. There is nothing wrong with them, it is just part of the evolutionary process. However, one must be aware not to project one’s own soul potential into OPs who can serve as portals through which 4D STS forces can work through in order to keep souled individuals from advancing (esoterically speaking), just like agent Smith in “The Matrix” was able to insert himself into humans (programs) trying to keep Neo from awakening. The reader is encouraged to read “Organic Portals – Soulless Humans” to get a better understanding of that important topic.

Especially Wanderers need to be conscious and aware of the traps, deceptions and distractions in 3rd density which may interfere with their mission since most people are NOT like them, but have a different inner wiring so to speak. Ra mentions that “the Wanderer is less inclined to the deviousness of third density and therefore does not recognize as easily as a more negative individual would, the negative nature of thoughts or beings“.

“Ra tells us that wanderers are vulnerable because they become completely the creature of third density in mind and body, and are, by nature, less inclined to deviousness and manipulation. For this reason, they often do not recognize as easily the negative nature of other beings or thoughts before they become involved with them. Then, very often, because of this very lack of perception of negativity, they often persist in relationships that are negative because they repeatedly attribute to the other person their own benevolent motives and perceptions.

Additionally, there is just as much chance of negative hyperdimensional telepathic mind control influence being brought to bear on a wanderer as anyone else. The only difference occurs in what Ra calls the “spirit complex” which, if it wishes, has an armor of light which enables it to recognize more clearly that which is not appropriately desired. This is not more than a bias, and cannot be called an understanding. So, in other words, you just have an instinct about things that are not right. But then, with all our be-nice programming, we generally override the instinct and shove such signals under the rug, or search endlessly for reasons to excuse bad behavior…. Ra and the Cs both confirm that wanderers, however they are defined, are most definitely high-priority targets of the Matrix Controllers.

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk

Wanderers are not only subject to hypedimensional manipulation in this Matrix Control System as everyone else, but are PRIMARY targets of the 4D STS forces (Orion STS according to Ra. The Lizzies/dark shirts according to the Ps) because their mission obviously interferes with the plans of the controllers of this world and they don’t want this to happen. They don’t want to loose their food source. Laura Knight-Jadczyk makes an excellent analysis of this issue in “Soul Hackers – The Hidden Hands Behind The New Age Movement” (The Wave Book 2), chapter “All There Is Is Lessons, or Wandering Around in Third Density Can Be Hazardous to Your Health.” Here’s an excerpt:

[…]  The problem seems to be that of “waking up” [of the wanderer] to the nature of the mission and this presents special problems. Ra gives us several more clues:

 “Wanderers become completely the creatures of third density in mind/body complex. There is just as much chance of [them being subjected to Orion STS mind programming attempts] as to a mind/body complex of [strictly third density]. The only difference occurs in the spirit complex which, if it wishes, has an armor of light, if you will, which enables it to recognize more clearly that which is not be desired by the mind/body/spirit complex. This is not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding.”

 So we begin to understand that even the purest of the pure are subject to corruption and deception. They do seem to have a bit of help in separating the wheat from the chaff, but Ra describes it as “not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding.”

 The problem is, the “bias” often comes into direct conflict with the mind programming efforts of the Orion STS and a lot of suffering and torture can result. And there is also a special weakness of those who are configured to STO — since they don’t have meanness and deception in their own hearts, it can take almost forever for them to see it in others who are being used to keep them from awakening! Ra remarks on this as well:

 “Furthermore, the Wanderer is less inclined to the deviousness of third density and therefore does not recognize as easily as a more negative individual would, the negative nature of thoughts or beings… [If the Wanderer is successfully co-opted by the Orion STS it would be] caught into the planetary vibration and, when harvested, possibly repeat again the master cycle of third density as a planetary entity.”

Ra also confirmed Don’s remark that those with missions, Wanderers, are “high priority targets” of the Orion STS faction. That’s a scary thought!

What it means is that if a person comes into incarnation from a higher density with a mission to serve, not only are they enveloped in the “veil of forgetting”, they become special targets for a bunch of Intergalactic rapists and murderers who are only restrained in their actions by some sort of vague Law of Free Will which still allows every imaginable trick and deception to be perpetrated on them so that they will engage in relationships, beliefs, actions or reactions designed to “bring them down a few densities,” so to speak!

And they only get a “bias” toward what is Truth, and not a clear understanding!

So with all of this information we are trying to put together about what is out there just waiting to trap and deceive us, how in the world are we supposed to have a clue as to what is going on? Just who are the Good Guys here?!

“[In terms of STO contacts from the higher densities] the infringement upon free will is greatly undesired. Therefore, those entities, which are Wanderers upon your plane of illusion, will be the only subjects for the thought projections that make up the so-called “Close Encounters” and meetings…”

Ra seems to be saying that only the “Wanderers” have any hope of being in contact with the higher level “Good Guys” because they are, ipso facto, already of STO configuration and therefore, contact is not an infringement upon their free will as it would be if the STO contact came to a third density being who has not yet graduated to the higher densities.

Of course, they all look alike here on the Big Blue Marble, and they are all mostly engaged in living relatively normal lives side by side with one another. And they do have to be “awakened”! Also, there is a special condition under which Wanderers may be contacted, it seems, that pretty much eliminates your “weekend seminar” in channeling. It seems that there is an almost mathematical law involved in being able to communicate with higher density beings:

The calling of a group of people whose square overcame the integrated resistance of those unwilling to search or learn…

If we just stop and think for a moment about the nature of most people on the planet who do not want to search or learn; they do not want to think or do the necessary work that prepares a “vessel” for the inflow of higher knowledge; they want to be “saved” with as little effort as possible, then you begin to understand the odds against contact with truly higher density STO beings. That is the operation of the Law of Free Will.

The majority of beings of third density are STS — they would not be in this density otherwise. By this choice, they have also chosen the illusions that are part of this “con job”. Yes, at a very deep level, it is a choice to experience in order to learn, but let’s not get ahead of ourselves here.

By the very fact that this is the choice of the majority, the few who might truly wish to perceive the truth are overruled by the mass choice according to the law of Free Will!

Even if the being is a fourth or sixth density “Wanderer”, by entering this density, they have chosen to “play by the rules” and cannot abridge them!

Thus, in order to penetrate this “veil of forgetting”, extreme effort is required in a mathematical ratio. A consistent “call” by a group, must go out. And the energy required to penetrate the veil must be built up over a period of time in order to meet this requirement. This principle is expressed in two of the purported sayings of Jesus: “Wherever two or more are gathered in my name…” and you must “ask and keep on asking, knock and keep on knocking, and it will be opened to you.”

So, just by thinking about this very simple Law of Free Will and its implications, we come to an understanding that the likelihood of the many “sources” of information that purport to have “serendipitously” contacted this or that channel who was just humming along one day and — ZAP! — along came Swami Whosits or Koot Hoot or Lord Sandyando or whoever, are very likely victims of the deception — possibly even Wanderers being “neutralized” by STS forces, or simply those who are “agents” of the STS forces, including those programmed a la Greenbaum.

Ra did give us a figure: 65 million Wanderers on the planet at the time he was speaking. That amounts to about one person out of every hundred on the planet. But how many of them survive the attacks? How many of them actually do, can, or will wake up? Particularly when we must expect them to be objects of special “attention” in terms of “attack”?

But, apparently all is not lost! Those Wanderers who have struggled and worked or survived the attack/lessons to the point that something inside them is ready can awaken via subtle “contacts” or inner urgings:

“The feeling of being awakened or activated is the goal of this type of contact… The methods used to awaken Wanderers are varied. The center of each approach is the entrance into the conscious and subconscious in such a way as to avoid causing fear and to maximize the potential for an understandable subjective experience that has meaning for the entity. Many such occur in sleep, others in the midst of many activities during the waking hours. The approach is flexible and does not necessarily include the “Close Encounter” syndrome.”

So we are given to understand that such “wake up” experiences can be varied. Considering the deceptions and manipulations of the Orion STS that have already been described, we also must consider that there will be many efforts to block, obfuscate, or mimic such awakenings. Again, only knowledge can give us the tools with which to discriminate. Again Ra brings up a special class of attack that can occur to those who are on a destined mission, as the Cassiopaeans call it:

“Wanderers do have “Close Encounters” with Orion STS, though it is rare. [Such] occurs either due to the Orion entities’ lack of perception of the depth of positivity to be encountered or due to the Orion entities’ desire to, shall we say, attempt to remove this positivity from this plane of existence. …A mistaken Orion STS contact with highly polarized positive entities can wreak havoc with Orion troops unless [they] are able to depolarize the entity mistakenly contacted.

This occurrence is almost unheard of. Therefore, the Orion group prefers to make physical contact only with the weaker-minded entity… The most typical approach of Orion entities is to choose what you might call the weaker minded entity that it might suggest a greater amount of Orion STS philosophy to be disseminated.”

So now we begin to understand the special traps set up for these Wanderers wherein human agents are used to manipulate and control them. If they cannot be corrupted directly, the strategy is to corrupt those around them — including family, friends, spouses and associates of all kinds. While I would never claim to be one of these “Wanderers”, even if the profile does fit (since I am not inclined to “true believership” in anything), there was a curious exchange with the Cassiopaeans at one session which included another individual who also fits this profile that gives some clues as to how this occurs:

May 3, 1997

Q: (L) Reading through the session of May 23, last year, when TK was also here, and the issue of his living in isolation from the rest of the world was addressed, you asked who had begged him to stay there even though he wanted to move to a place where he could have more contact with other people and more opportunities for growth and stimulation. The answer to this question was that it was his wife who insisted on remaining even though it was clear that he was unhappy in the environment. Then you made a remark about an EM [Electromagnetic] vector. The way I understood it is that you were saying that a person can be an EM vector. Is that possible?

A: Vector means focuser of direction.

Q: (L) So his wife is the one who controls the focus of his direction. But how? Could that mean that a human being can vector EM waves simply by their presence and that these EM waves are part of the control system that manipulates people? Can it be that such “agents” are used as EM vectors in the sense that they emanate a special frequency that literally affects the mind in terms of shutting down clarity, or even actually transmitting pre-coded thought loops?

A: Precisely.

Q: (L) I also noticed that several of us have been involved with persons and relationships that seem designed to confuse, defuse, and otherwise distort our learning, as well as drain our energy. Basically, keeping us so stressed that we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some significance to this observation?

A: That is elementary, my dear Knight! […]

Q: (L) Were the individuals in our lives selected for the extremely subtle nature of their abilities to evoke pity, or were we programmed to respond to pity so that we were blind to something that was obvious to other people?

A: Neither. You were selected to interact with those who would trigger a hypnotic response that would ultimately lead to a drain of energy.

Q: (T) Well, it is a fact, because my energy is sure drained. (L) What is the purpose of this draining of energy?

A: What do you think?

Q: (T) So you can’t concentrate or do anything. You can’t get anywhere with anything.

A: Or, at least not the important things.

Q: (T) Is that why my concentration is so low?

A: Yes. You are dealing with a no-win situation!! As you know.

Q: (T) So, if I don’t get out, I will just keep going down. Is it the area or the person?

A: Both. One is wrapped within the other. […]

Q: (L) Is it true that being in the presence of such people, that one is under the influence of an energy, an emanation from them physically, that befuddles the mind and makes it almost impossible to think one’s way out of the situation?

A: It is the draining of energy that befuddles the mind.

Q: (L) Where does this energy drain?

A: 4th density STS.

Q: (L) These people we are associated with drain our energy from us and fourth density STS harvests it from them?

A: “They” do nothing!!!! 4th density STS does it all through them! […]

Lesson number 1: Always expect attack.

Lesson number 2: Know the modes of same.

Lesson number 3: Know how to counteract same.

When you are under attack, expect the unexpected, if it is going to cause problems… But, if you expect it, you learn how to “head it off,” thus neutralizing it. This is called vigilance, which is rooted in knowledge. And, what does knowledge do?

Q: (L) Protects! I guess that a person just has to come to the full realization that virtually everything that happens on the planet — no exceptions — is a symbol of some interaction of STS vs. STO energy at higher levels.

A: Yes, and for most, that is not as of yet realized. It must be part of a natural learning process.

Q: (L) Well, I guess that all of us tend to keep one or another area sacrosanct and think that it is not subject to attack, or that we can use logic and third density thinking to explain it. Until a person realizes that attack can come through even one’s self, wives and husbands, children and parents, friends — virtually anybodynobody is exempt.

A: The block is a lack of faith in the concept. Remember, when one has been indoctrinated by religion, culture and/or science, they are predisposed to view all things in the sense of the measurable physical reality exclusively. One must be cured of lack of faith in the reality of nonphysical attack.

One major thing we see from the above is that our associations can be crucial. Of course, if we are aware that anyone and everyone can be used as an “EM vector” to modulate our frequency or behavior or thinking, then we have some protection. But to be unaware of it, to be in close association with those who are unaware themselves, and therefore subject to this manipulation, is to be firmly “in the trap”.

But suppose one person in a relationship begins to “wake up”, and becomes aware (even if only vaguely), that all is not as it seems. They will have continual glimpses of the reality, mostly when not in the presence of the other individual. They may clearly see that something is not working, that it is not right, and may even make decisions to change it or to leave. But the instant the other person is physically present with their EM vectoring capabilities, the glimpses of truth are “damped” or even shut down and the waking person begins to feel schizophrenic or crazy in some way for having such conflicting and opposing thoughts. Add to this the social and religious enculturation to “turn the other cheek” or “suffer because it’s noble and holy,” and you have the recipe for cooking the Wanderer’s goose!

Another of the factors in the control system is the “self-destruct” program. Obviously the aliens have no problem abducting and killing and eating many people who are still lost in the initial choice for STS/third density. But there are the special cases of the Wanderers who, obviously, the STS invaders don’t want to tangle with at that level, as described above by Ra, so they have a rather clever way around this little stumbling block to their machinations: the suicide game.

This is a very cunning setup, I can tell you! It can follow a variety of lines in the lives of different people, and it seems that the STS Orions take some sort of fiendish delight in designing variations for their entertainment pleasure, but the gist of it is this: a Wanderer is born. Obviously they have to be born somewhere, to some family, with certain genetics. It is also equally obvious that the choices probably don’t include having Wanderers for parents or siblings, (though there are exceptions). There they are, innocent little babies, volunteers for a great mission, surrounded by potential EM vectors and Lizzie agents! And the game begins!

Abuse — physical, sexual, and psychological — comes into play to “set them up” for a later fall — if in fact they are not just simply killed by same right at the beginning. But the special characteristic of the Wanderer type is that they continue to “shine” with a sort of “inner purity” of the questing spirit even in the face of such treatment. As a result of this abuse, they can be attached by any number of “dead dudes” or elementals or even demonic-type entities that enter in through wounds in the psychological/psychic shield like cosmic bacteria.

The usual next stage in this drama is to cause the Wanderer to be attracted to a particular type of person who is a sort of “false image” of STO. This can be what researcher Eve Lorgen calls a Love Bite relationship where a great “cosmic love” is simulated, only to fall flat as soon as the EM vector is turned off. The intended result of this betrayal is to induce suicidal feelings or to set the Wanderer up for the next variation of the game.

What happens now is that the Wanderer is set up by the previous dramas to seek out marriage or love partners who are also abusive either overtly or covertly. And, of course, the Wanderer’s special characteristics of being unable to really understand negative thinking because it is not a part of their own make-up, prevents them from seeing exactly what is going on. They always seem to attribute the same high motives and ideals to others that are in themselves. They endlessly excuse abuse and hurt to themselves and others with the idea that if they just love the other long enough, hard enough, pure enough or stand by them through thick and thin, that the abuser will overcome their hurts/wounds which are the cause of their abusive behavior, and they will then be able to be whole, which, of course, the Wanderer believes to be a person similar to themselves!

Gee, sounds like the Way of the Monk, doesn’t it? Perhaps that “way” was created just to trap such positive individuals and to use them as energy food for STS.

Then there is the constant projection of the suicide program by the many EM vectors that the Wanderer finds in their environment. It takes careful observation to determine who these individuals may be, but it can be done! The natural feelings of being lost and alone and alienated from this environment are intensified and twisted so that the Wanderer begins to focus solely upon the idea of getting out from under this enormous psychic pressure. Spirit attachments can also be used in this respect, attacking the Wanderer from the “inside”, so to speak.

 April 15, 1995

Q: (L) [You have mentioned attack.] Is this physical danger or just harassment danger?

A: Mind attack for purpose of self-destruction.

Q: (L) Is there anything that can be done to shield against this kind of attack?

A: Yes. Knowledge input on a continuous basis.

Q: (L) And what form should this knowledge take? Does this mean channeled information, books, videos, what?

A: All and other. Networking of information now, warning!!! All others will very soon experience great increase of same type of attack, two of you have had episodes in past from same source for similar reasons, but now your association puts you in different category!! Remember all channels and those of similar make-up are identified, tracked, and “dealt with”. Suicidal thoughts?

Q: (T) So, we have the knowledge and that’s all we need to do to prevent the attacks from being nasty?

A: You do not have all the awareness you need! Not by any means! Remember, all there is is lessons. Daily prayer helps.

Through it all, the Wanderer never whines or complains that others are “doing it to” them; they always tend, first of all, to seek in themselves the cause of the events or the treatment they receive. They react with the idea that somehow they are not giving enough or in the right way, though they are entirely naive about what “giving” really is because, as mentioned, they have been brainwashed by the erroneous ideals of the third density STS environment which are manipulations to induce service to an illusion.

With this enculturation, the most difficult thing that the Wanderer has to face and do is to learn to not give in some instances, because this not giving is actually a form of giving at the soul level. Ra exemplifies this in a curious series of comments:

For many of your centuries, both the [STO group] and the [STS group] busied themselves with each other upon planes above your own, shall we say, planes in time/space whereby machinations were conceived and the armor of light girded. Battles have been and are continuing to be fought upon these levels.

…Picture [your mind] in total unity with all other minds of your society. You are then single-minded and that which is a weak electrical charge in your physical illusion is now an enormously powerful machine whereby thoughts may be projected as things.

…In this endeavor the [STS group] charges or attacks the [STO group] armed with light. The result, a standoff, as you would call it, both energies being somewhat depleted by this and needing to regroup; the negative depleted through failure to manipulate, the positive depleted through failure to accept that which is given.

…[To explain “failure to accept that which is given”]: At the level of time/space which this takes place in the form of what you may call thought-war, the most accepting and loving energy would be to so love those who wished to manipulate that those entities were surrounded and engulfed, transformed by positive energies.

…This, however, being a battle of equals, the [STO group] is aware that it cannot, on equal footing, allow itself to be manipulated in order to remain purely positive, for then though pure it would not be of any consequence, having been placed by the so-called powers of darkness under the heel, as you may say. It is thus that those who deal with this thought war must be defensive rather than accepting in order to preserve their usefulness in service to others. Thusly, they cannot accept fully what the [STS group] wishes to give, that being enslavement.

 …The only consequence which has been helpful is a balancing of the energies available to this planet so that these energies have less necessity to be balanced in this time/space, thus lessening the chances of planetary annihilation.

So we see here a guiding principle of balance. For those who believe that it is Love to “accept enslavement” — which is to respond to manipulation and thereby serve the STS faction, it becomes clear that to do so is to neutralize their effectiveness as an STO candidate because they are then no longer “purely positive”! By accepting the manipulations, they become part of the other side!

 The bottom line here is this: if you are duped or sucked into the illusions of the machinations of STS, you are effectively “one of them”, no matter what your intentions, and you thus further contribute to the unbalanced energies. This neutralizes the true nature of Service to Others. […]

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We can see now that being a Wanderer is not a walk in the park, nor a “free ride” on this planetary experience. It doesn’t matter what knowledge they have brought with them. It takes tremendous work, vigilance and discernment to bring it forth and act on it, being aware of attacks from the “other team”.  This entails much conscious struggle and suffering, especially at the beginning, as the Wanderer is activating his/her higher centers linking him/her to his/her higher self more consciously, so they start to remember and align themselves with their life’s purpose.

This purpose is not a definition and task one realizes over night. It’s a process and since the future is open with different potential outcomes, the tasks based on the wanderer’s inherent gifts will reveal themselves more specifically according to specific situations and the choices they make. Their direction is not planned aforetimes. This also depends on the Wanderer’s conscious self-work to learn the lessons he/she needs to learn in order to be truly of service. This implies not only remembering themselves but also gaining Knowledge on a continuous basis.

“Purpose is realized by taking the journey, not by establishing a favorable or fascinating explanation or a definition for oneself. Purpose is not a justification. It does not compensate for anything. Purpose is something that is waiting for you to discover. You can only discover it by taking the journey, by following the way, by learning as you go and by gaining the greater perspective and understanding that one acquires as one matures in The Way of Knowledge.

This journey requires phenomenal self-honesty. Humility, honesty, openness, discernment, restraint, discretion, tolerance and compassion— these are qualities that result from preparation and advancement in The Way of Knowledge. These things are what provide inspiration and true ability in life…..With greater awareness comes a greater ability. This all comes from Knowledge. Here you are asked to follow, to respond and to learn the great lessons in discernment, discretion, communication and affinity. These lessons are inherent in the preparation itself…..Accept that the journey is great. It is marvelous. It is at times difficult. But in all ways it refines you. It washes away that which is nonessential in you and reveals that which is permanent and meaningful. Your real purpose and calling become apparent when all that hides and conceals them has fallen away, and what is left is what is real, and that becomes welcomed and embraced.

I can relate to this in my own life. As mentioned before, I came to the Los Angeles to study drums and percussion and play in bands. It was the beginning of my journey towards self-discovery. I was following my bliss, as Joseph Campbell would say. Back then I thought that was my purpose, what I really wanted to do. Nothing else mattered. I played drums 4-6 hours a day, rehearsed with my band and put my heart and soul into it. All I wanted to do was make music, tour and make a living as a musician. However, I was still suffering and struggling internally. A lot of things came up during that time for me which I was forced to look at, otherwise I would have not survived as my depression and despair put me on the edge of insanity.

At the same time new friends and and situations came into my life which introduced me to the healing arts, in particular yoga, qi gong, and bodywork as well as shamanism and medicine plants, which also helped me in my inner process. Interestingly I wasn’t seeking these things out fully conscious. It just happened in the flow of life as I was seeking answers and trying to heal and understand myself. Something else was guiding me. During that time I also discovered another talent: bodywork. My roommate back then, who was a yoga teacher and bodyworker, introduced me to it, worked on me and started to teach me some basic massage techniques. He became my mentor. Having had tremendous breakthroughs and healing moments physically and emotionally through receiving bodywork, I experienced first hand the healing power of it. I began to do bodywork on friends and seemed to have a healing touch for it based on the feedback I received. People came to me asking me to work on them on a regular basis, yet I didn’t think of doing it professionally back then. My focus was still on music and drumming.

I started to write during my time with my band Revolve in early 2000. We gave out writings at our shows to spread awareness, but eventually my drive to seek truth and knowledge overshadowed the musical aspect of my life and it seemed very natural when the band broke up. Writing helped me to learn and clarify the new information I was taking in. Many insights came along with it. I was inspired and wanted to share all this amazing hidden Knowledge about our reality and what was happening on our planet. Looking back I can see how this at times was not externally considerate and I was trying to give without being asked. I can also see how I was gullible and not discerning about some of the information I came across back then. I was drinking the New Age cool-aid at one point, driven by wishful thinking, emotional hooks and was not very discerning. However, it complicated my life even more. Thankfully the universe didn’t give me what I “wanted”, but what I “needed” at that time to snap me out it.

When my band Revolve broke up after inspiring years of musical creativity, recording and touring, I enrolled in Massage School to pursue bodywork, the new talent I had discovered. It seemed the universe literally pushed me to do it and I was answering the call. I have been working as a professional bodyworker ever since. It was a complete shift in my life path and it seemed that certain triggers lead me to it without my “conscious” choice. Looking back at my life, connecting the dots, I feel like what the late Apple founder Steve Jobs said. When discovering your bliss, sometimes you just gotta do things because you are drawn to them for reasons you canʼt fully understand in the moment and only in retrospect can you connect the dots in your life and see how it all works together. For example, I know now that without my years as a drummer, using music and drumming for healing and emotional exploration (even if I wasn’t fully aware of that back then), and without my suffering and crisis, I wouldn’t be the bodyworker and healer Iʼm today nor write about the things I’m writing now. However, I never “planned” to become a bodyworker or writer. I know now that I had to confront my dark side, programming and conditioning and heal myself, however painful it was, in order to become my real Self (and there is always more work to do). As Carl Jung said: There is no coming to consciousness without pain. It’s the mythological journey of Chiron, the Wounded Healer, who in his search for his own cure discovered how to heal others. The lesson of Chiron teaches us is that we can overcome pain and transcend into knowledge.

“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.”

– Steve Jobs

I also had many assisting forces, seen and unseen, spirit guides and non-physical STO forces that guided me along when I was able and willing to “listen”. There were many friends, mentors and teachers that came in and out of my life who helped me along the way, assisting me on my path or giving me just the right book to read. And of course, in light of the Knowledge I have now, I can also see how STS forces and the Matrix Control System have tried to steer me off my path (sometimes disguised as “angels”, “friends” or romantic relationships) working through people (and my own “predator-mind”) with temptations and distractions, getting at my weak spots. However, I felt very strongly throughout my life that I came here with a specific purpose that is beyond what I “think” I want to do at times and this purpose seems to crystallize itself and becomes clearer as I learn my lessons, “get myself out of the way” and remember more of who I truly am. There is still much more to learn and to remember.

“A hero is someone who has given his or her life to something bigger than oneself.”

– Joseph Campbell

My intent for sharing my personal story throughout this article is also for you to reflect back on your own life and see how you “got here”, so you can understand your past and your life choices better, when you have been truly acting in alignment with your higher self or self-sabotaging because of conditioned/programmed patterns and beliefs. That way we can understand our present better and create our future more consciously. What worked for me may not work for another. We all have our own story, individual lessons to learn, karma to work out and talents to develop.

“Each Wanderer has unique abilities, biases, specialties so that from each portion of each Density represented among Wanderers come array of pre-incarnative talents which may be expressed so that each Wanderer, in offering itself before incarnation, has some special service to offer in addition to the doubling effect of planetary love/light [vibrations adding to the planet just as electrical polarity or charging a battery] and basic function of serving as beacon or shepher….

The best way of service to others is the constant attempt to seek to share the love of the Creator as it is known to the inner self. This involves self knowledge and the ability to open the self to the other-self without hesitation. This involves, shall we say, radiating that which is the essence or the heart of the mind/body/ spirit complex…. The best way for each seeker in third density to be of service to others is unique to that mind/body/spirit complex. This means that the mind/body/ spirit complex must then seek within itself the intelligence of its own discernment as to the way it may best serve other-selves. This will be different for each.

– Ra

Let’s take the archetypal Hero’s Journey a bit deeper and look at the awakening process more closely, knowing now that there are other forces acting against us, trying to keep us from advancing esoterically. The initiatory process is the same in all true mystery teachings. It is not a sudden “enlightenment” where one feels One with everything. It is not a pleasant event at all, but is a decent into the underworld, fighting demons, coming to terms with the predator within and the lies one is telling oneself, dying and being reborn, crossing the threshold which enables one to engage in esoteric work consciously. Laura Knight Jadczyk writes in “The Wave” Volume 5&6 “Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown”:

“The moment of true initiation. It seems that, as the great masters teach us, it is not a moment of “great enlightenment.” It is not someone who comes to “show us reality.” It is not a “seeing all the world as a oneness.” It is seeing the self as a liar and a feeder on others. It is measuring the self with TRUTH. It is seeing that the predator has been feeding on the self, that the self has been feeding on others and propagating the infection on to all those who one claims to love and wish to help.

Initiation is not a glorious inpouring of life and love and tears for the beauty and oneness of the world.

It is sheer terror.

It is a descent into Hell. It is the Shamanic descent into the underworld to do battle with demons. It is the dismemberment of the body, the flaying of the flesh from the bones, and the subsequent rebuilding of the self on a different foundation – a foundation of spiritual verity.

And if I could convey to you that Hell, that sensation, that solitary test in which the soul is weighed, BY THE SELF, finally and completely and seen for what it has truly done, you would see how little truth there is because of all the beliefs of the Matrix that have been inculcated and promulgate and tended so carefully by our emotions and by the deceptions of the predator within who convinces us that we are “good” and “pure” and there is “oneness.”

Indeed, one sees that there is “oneness,” but one sees that the aspect of God that is experienced at this level is the black, sucking, feeding maw of STS (Service to Self). One sees how little true Love is actually manifested at this level of being. One sees that all of our illusions about “goodness” and truth and beauty are LIES. They are masks for more feeding. And that is so horrifying an initiation that few survive.

That is “paying everything.”

Now, re-read what Gurdjieff had to say about the matter; how he pointed out that a person has to “pay in advance,” that the key is to accept the idea that one is not what one thinks, that there is a different reality from which our own is projected, and that developing this idea in the realm of pure thought, and then using it as the platform by which one can observe and analyze, is the key to being able to see for a moment, and then again. One must be able to see the interactions of the Petty Tyrants in our lives, the Predators who prey on us in the Theological Reality. And then, one must be willing to act. It is only after action that the true nature of the Predator reveals itself just as the Vampire reacts with violence to being exposed by the presence of a mirror. Because, it must be kept always in mind that there ARE predators who are predators by choice – even if that choice is made at some level, in some part of themselves that is not available to even their own conscious awareness. They, too, are part of the Matrix, and they wouldn’t be able to play their roles if they were not consciously convinced that they are right, that they are “good,” that they are righteous and long-suffering.”

As I was diving deeper into Esoteric Science coming across Gurdjieff’s 4th Way Teachings as well as Boris Mouravieff’s “Gnosis”, it all seemed to confirm in many ways what I’ve encountered throughout my life in the process of awakening and in relation to my inner state and to outer circumstances, people and the world at large, from “moral bankruptcy”, the death of the “personality”, to struggle with forces trying to keep me from advancing/waking up, to seeing the light and forming the “magnetic center”. All of which is still a process and much work is still to be done. We are all works in progress in our own ways.

The Way is the ensemble of practices which, carried out properly according 
to the principles of esoteric science, will allow man to evolve.”

– Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis I

As mentioned before, every once in a while a book or teaching presents itself, which acts like a “guide”, appearing sat just the right moment in time, helping and showing me that I’m “on track”, describing things I’ve been through and hinting at where it is all leading to and what one must do or not do in order to awaken.

What follows are some insights into Esoteric Science as transmitted by Boris Mouravieff in his trilogy “Gnosis”. Maybe some of you can recognize yourselves in these words as well. For some these writings may strike home, touching something deep within beyond the personality of the false “I”. For others it may sound very foreign and complex. This also relates to what Ra said about Wanderers having a disposition towards esoteric work or other souled individuals who have the seed that can sprout and grow, activating the higher centers. This work is not for everyone. As Mouravieff said in his introduction to “Gnosis”:

“Some people complain that the subject of the fundamentals of esotericism is not simple. Others have said that it leads to great clarity.  This apparent contradiction is explained by the fact that esotericism is addressed to readers who are predisposed to esoteric culture by their nature, formation or personal experience.”

We also know that no steps can be skipped, the lessons need to be learned and that starting with the right foundation is imperative so one doesn’t over-estimate one’s level of Being at the start of the journey. I know out of personal experience that I was grasping certain esoteric ideas intellectually at first, but it wasn’t matched up with my Being and Understanding to truly apply the Knowledge I gained. In other words I didn’t embody it. It’s the fine balance between Knowledge, Being and Understanding  A false foundation can also result if one gets hooked by a false teaching for example, mistaking lies for truth or having “sacred cows”, which are beliefs one is identified with, hence taking any challenge to ones beliefs as a personal attack (Identification with a nation/country is a good example for that). As the Cs said: Gaining false Knowledge is more dangerous than gaining no Knowledge.” Gurdjieff makes this point in Ouspenky’s “In Search of the Miraculous”:

“In the history of humanity there are known many examples when entire civilizations have perished because knowledge outweighed being or being outweighed knowledge. “What are the results of the development of the line of knowledge without being, or the development of the line of being without knowledge?” someone asked during a talk upon this subject.

The development of the line of knowledge without the line of being gives a weak yogi,” said G., “that is to say, a man who knows a great deal but can do nothing, a man who does not understand” (he emphasized these words) “what he knows, a man without appreciation, that is, a man for whom there is no difference between one kind of knowledge and another.

And the development of the line of being without knowledge gives a stupid saint, that is, a man who can do a great deal but who does not know what to do or with what object; and if he does anything he acts in obedience to his subjective feelings which may lead him greatly astray and cause him to commit grave mistakes, that is, actually to do the opposite of what he wants. In either case both the weak yogi and the stupid saint are brought to a standstill.

Neither the one nor the other can develop further.

In order to understand this and, in general, the nature of knowledge and the nature of being, as well as their interrelation, it is necessary to understand the relation of knowledge and being to ‘understanding.’

Knowledge is one thing, understanding is another thing.

People often confuse these concepts and do not clearly grasp what is the difference between them. Knowledge by itself does not give understanding. Nor is understanding increased by an increase of knowledge alone. Understanding depends upon the relation of knowledge to being. Understanding is the resultant of knowledge and being. And knowledge and being must not diverge too far, otherwise understanding will prove to be far removed from either. At the same time the relation of knowledge to being does not change with a mere growth of knowledge. It changes only when being grows simultaneously with knowledge. In other words, understanding grows only with the growth of being.

In ordinary thinking, people do not distinguish understanding from knowledge. They think that greater understanding depends on greater knowledge. Therefore they accumulate knowledge, or that which they call knowledge, but they do not know how to accumulate understanding and do not bother about it.”

“…..A man must first of all understand certain things. He has thousands of false ideas and false conceptions, chiefly about himself, and he must get rid of some of them before beginning to acquire anything new. Otherwise the new will be built on a wrong foundation and the result will be worse than before. To speak the truth is the most difficult thing in the world; one must study a great deal and for a long time in order to speak the truth. The wish alone is not enough. To speak the truth one must know what the truth is and what a lie is, and first of all in oneself. And this nobody wants to know.

The path toward “Ascension”, to rise above this world (Being in this world but not of it), The Way of esoteric work is also told in stories in form of symbols. The clues are everywhere for the Initiated to see. It relates to seeing the unseen. There are ‘B’ influences, not of this world which are conscious in their origin and have been created consciously outside life by conscious people for a definite purpose. These influences are the “soul” of any culture and they are embodied in the form of religious systems and teachings, philosophical doctrines, art, etc., as opposed to ‘A’ influences ( such as race, nation, country, pop culture, family, profession, entertainment, current ideas, customs and so on) which relate to “The General Law” and “Law of Accident”, keeping man asleep at the mercy of the external world
, lost in the wilderness of everyday life. Discernment between those two is vital for the wanderer, esoteric student and seeker, separating truth from lies.

A and B influences have been mixed throughout history. Many spiritual inclined people tend to mistake A for B influences. Much of the popular New Age material with its superficial and vague spirituality falls into that category. We can see millions of well intentioned people in our world wanting to change the world for “the better” through voting or pseudo new age spirituality a la “The Secret”, wanting to”create” a new reality. However, most of them don’t confront their interior but stay in the “wilderness” of ‘A’ influences, the lies that are the basis of the Illusion/Matrix. And so instead of breaking out of the prison, they re-enforce it through the distortion of their conditioned personality and wishful thinking, enhancing their false “I” instead of strengthening their essence. In many ways what we see in today’s popular spiritual concepts and self-help books is the opposite of what the ancient esoteric traditions have taught. People can be very successful within the matrix of A influences, make a lot of money, have a successful career, become famous, etc. but not have progressed esoterically/spiritually one bit. From Mouravieff’s Gnosis:

“If man spends his life without distinguishing between ‘A’ and ‘B’ influences, he will end it as he started, one could say mechanically, driven by the Law of Accident. However, according to the nature and the intensity of the resultant forces to which he is subjected, it can happen to him to make a brilliant career, in the meaning the world gives to this expression. Yet he will come to the end of his days without having either learned or understood anything of Reality.

Man can delude himself and, believing he is absorbing ‘B’ influences and making the necessary selection all the while, he in fact absorbs ‘A’ influences.This will put him into contact with people who possess magnetic centres of the same nature: who are themselves duped or who dupe others, and who have no direct or indirect link with the esoteric Centre. What guarantee can man have that he will not dupe himself and that he will not fall into the latter situation? The answer is simple. The purity of the magnetic centre must be scrupulously maintained from the start and all through his evolution.”

One can see now very clearly that much of the New Age and pop-spirituality is in actuality ‘A’ influences packaged in a ‘B’ wrapping. Truth mixed with lies, which can divert the seeker from his real “I” and true awakening. An example would be the whole abstract new age bits of “sending love and light into the world”, focusing just on “good” thoughts, visualizing the “light body” as a means of ascension, or just “being open”, avoiding anything “bad” or “negative”, ignoring the “unpleasant” and just focus on manifesting one’s desires, etc …

As long as one has not established the purity of the magnetic center through deep self-work and conscious suffering one just acts in STS, putting the false personality’s (ego’s) subjective will on to the world which only fuels entropy and feeding dynamics, strengthening the STS polarity while lying to oneself about one’s state of being and awareness.

In that sense much New Age material is just like fundamental Religion. It works on blind belief, wishful thinking, not Knowledge and Truth. And so many seekers are developing a false magnetic center, a false foundation,who are themselves duped or who dupe others, and who have no direct or indirect link with the esoteric Centre.” That’s also how wanderers can be duped and being vectored away from the mission they came to accomplish.

Furthermore, the one’s promoting just to focus on “love and light” (without understanding the true meaning of these words) and ignoring the “bad/negative” the loudest are the ones most heavily duped, more duped than the average sleeping man, because the former actually thinks he has awakened and can “see” now…….little does he know that he’s going in circles vectored by ‘A’ influences and staying in the “wilderness”, dreaming to be awake.

On that note, there is nothing “wrong” with desires of the ego/personality and just creating reality based on unquestioned desires of the “I”, nothing “wrong” with shutting off anything “bad” and “unpleasant” and keep living in a subjective tunnel vision and wishful thinking based on Service to Self (STS). Enjoy! It’s a free will universe. Everyone can do as they want to, be it you, me, Bush, Obama or anyone else. However, what needs to be kept in mind is that this approach has nothing to do with conscious spiritual evolution or the “path of ascension”. It is the reason why the world and its people are on a course to self-destruction. It’s not a spiral upward but a spiral downward that grinds itself into an abyss. Humanity has evolved technologically, but not spiritually/consciously really at all and man is still mostly driven by his lower centers and mechanical personality.

“What strikes us from the very beginning is that man confuses moral progress with technical progress, so that the development of science continues in dangerous isolation. The brilliant progress that has come from technology has changed nothing essential in the human condition, and will change nothing, because it operates only in the field of everyday events. For this reason it touches the inner life of man only superficially.”

– Mouravieff, Gnosis

Life on Earth as we know it, this 3rd density experience is based on STS, Service to Self. STO, Service to Others, is something man can aspire to through conscious evolution. During this Time of Transformation the choice to be made is really between STO and STS and truly understanding what that means, differentiating between A and B influences, separating lies from truth, inside oneself and outside in the world. This is the age of awakening but also the age of deceit and deception, not only through the obvious political circus, but through corrupted spiritual teachings as well, be it dogmatic religion or New Age hype.

“The next is manipulation of spiritual values and tendencies.It is no accident that in the last four years that we’ve seen in new religious thought the religion of acquiescence and passivity: trusting in the process; whatever happens is what needs to happen; everyone is right where they need to be;… you don’t resist; you acquiesce; to resist is to be negative, is to be fearful, is to be unconscious. A great prescription for convincing the natives to give over the keys to the kingdom, a very good, clever form of manipulation.”

– M. V. Summers

It’s like taking the red or blue pill (as in the film “The Matrix”), truth or illusion, waking up or staying asleep. There is no “right” or “wrong” choice. There is only choice, as it is, respecting free will. However, most people do not even know that there is a choice to be made in this time of transition and are in the dark about what is happening on this planet, manipulated through hyperdimensional STS forces working through themselves, government, religion, official culture, corrupted new age teachings, channeled material, etc… .

Interestingly, one can also see how the mystery teachings were also describing a “Hyperdimensional Control System”, the “General Law” in esoteric terms, acting on man, keeping him in line with mechanical unconscious behavior to be “Food for the Moon”. In order to escape the Matrix/General Law man needs to align oneself with “The Law of Exception”, engaging in esoteric work with conscious effort. There is a threshold to be crossed, a void, which puts the seeker on The Way. The process and necessity of moral bankruptcy ,which initiates the seeker into “The Way” of esoteric work, is described in more detail in Boris Mouravieff’s “Gnosis”. This also relates to the idea of wanderers and their initiation/awakening process.

“This void, which can only be crossed at the cost 
of considerable effort or even of super-efforts, operates selectively. 
The character and the quantity of effort necessary differs for
 each person, depending upon the nature and degree of deformation of the
 mind of each exterior man; an individual factor

Man was compared to a cell of organic life on Earth. 
Because he belongs to this organism, man is subject to the General Law, and 
it is only when he has escaped it that he is elevated to the Law of Exception.

We are not aware of how much we are bound by the action of the General 
Law. Acting on us as it does on our cells, this law immobilizes us or
 constantly tends to bring us back to our place. Its strength leaves us little 
freedom of action outside the limits of its direction and scope. It acts in
 various ways. One can say that if man lives ‘like everyone else’, if he does
not venture off the beaten track, he will never perceive the existence of this
force, or rather this force will ignore him.

We can see this very clearly in our world. Everyone who is just going along with the masses and the accepted reality of official culture has not much struggle in the world. Birth, school, choose a career, get a job, buy a TV, consume, reproduce, entertain, be nationalistic or religious, follow your desires and impulses unexamined, etc…
 Not knowing himself, but a slave to the outside world, fully asleep, dreaming to be awake under the control of the General Law/Matrix, the common man has no free will, although he thinks he does. 
However, whenever someone awakens, steps up and tries to “escape” the General Law/Matrix by speaking up and seeking truth, forces are put on to him to put him back in line, back to sleep. They will be ridiculed or even silenced (Gandhi, MLK, John Lennon and many other truth seekers most people haven’t even heard about), depending on their impact. Anything that is not a threat to the MCS (Matrix Control System) or General Law will be ignored or even promoted heavily, be it dogmatic religion, politics, entertainment or new age fluff which works in favor of the PTB (powers that be).

But if his enterprises are out of the ordinary, 
no matter what field they are in, but especially in esotericism,
 this force begins to act, and stirs up all sorts of obstacles in order to bring
 him back to the point where — according to the General Law — he must
 reside. Even without knowing this force, we have an intuition of its 
existence and of the many forms which clothe it. The Holy Scripture s
speak of it more than once, especially where esoteric work is concerned.

Thus, if this conservative force, which is the 
servant of the General Law, does not succeed in ‘calming’ man by acting
directly upon him, it tries to reach him indirectly through the people of his
household, either through the feelings they invoke or the coolness and
 contempt they openly show him.

 As long as it is not mastered, the force of illusion keeps 
each one of us in his place, obliging him most often to
 mistake the false for the true.

Submerged in unreality, instead of advancing, 
man marks time; one step forward and two steps backwards; two 
steps forward and one step backwards, and so on.

We generally agree to recognize the existence of the danger of 
Illusion, but rather theoretically; most often, we see its action on those
 round about us, but not on ourselves. We continue to live day by day in the
 same old way, so that the power we know as the Devil still triumphs.
 Whatever name we give it, it remains ever-present.

We live in an artificial,
 illusory world.

 The power of illusion which chains us exerts its action individually on each
 one of us, as well as collectively. Each mind is falsified in a way peculiar to 
it. What can be the outcome of such a situation? If we keep quietly to 
our place, human careers open to us … just as long as we stay far away from
t he void. We may have a happy or unhappy life; a family life; a life of loves;
 we may make discoveries, travel, write. Then comes the end. 
Our reasoning starts to become more realistic if our attention is concentrated
 on this end. Everything can happen to us in life; or nothing. Our 
aspirations can be fulfilled or unfulfilled, but there is a sure end, which is
 death.”

“The Threshold” to be crossed out of the wilderness which grants the access to the “The Way” and staircase to transcend the Matrix/General Law is described in esoteric parables:

Lost in a forest full of wild beasts, moved by confused but deep feelings, a bewildered
man searches for the way. Exhausted after running the gauntlet of a thousand
 dangers, he emerges at the edge.
 Spread out before him is a view which fills him with admiration mixed with fear: a
great castle of primitive beauty is on the other side of a large moat filled with clear
and living water. Behind the castle a happy valley opens out, lit by the last rays of the
sun. To the left, a dark reddish horizon warns of a coming storm.
 Marveling, and seized by a passionate desire to reach the castle, he forgets the 
dangers and fatigue to which he has been exposed.

– ‘How do I get there?’ He asks himself.

Suddenly he hears a Voice speaking to him from his inmost heart. 
’The moat’, it says, ‘can only be crossed by swimming… the current is strong and
 the water icy.

‘
In spite of this, the man feels a surge of new strength mounting within him. 
Committed, he throws himself into the moat. The cold paralyses his breathing, 
but by an extreme effort of will he reaches the other side in a few strokes and jumps
 onto the first step of the stairs, where he gets a foothold. Three more immense
granite steps tower above him. They lead to a large stage in the form of a semicircle,
 defended by two towers. Two closed doors give access to them.
 A roaring sound comes to his ears. The man turns. At the place where he stood
only instants before, a pack of wolves paw at the ground.
The day is coming to an end. In the dusk he can still distinguish the blazing eyes of
the hungry beasts.
 Again he hears the Voice telling him:

– ‘All in all, the risk was not that great. If you had refused, you would have been
torn to shreds by the wolves.’

Terrified by his escape from that danger, the man estimates the difficulties that will
 accompany his climb.
He had hardly started to climb the second step when a deluge of rain falls, making 
the stones slippery and obstructing his movement — yet he ends by getting a foothold. 
The storm passes and the rain diminishes. His face and clothes drip heavily
onto the stone.

– ‘Little does it matter,’ says the Voice, ‘you had already got wet crossing the
moat’

The man regains his breath again and starts climbing. Night falls, and the crescent
of the new moon appears pale and golden on his right, towards the setting sun.

–  ‘A good sign,’ he hears within himself.
 The man smiles. Now he clings to a tiny ledge, reaching for the third step. He
 reaches it, hands and legs stained with blood. No sooner had he stood up than a gust
of glacial wind almost throws him off again. Clinging to the ground, he climbs up to 
the wall forming the fourth step, and finds shelter there.

–  ‘That is not all,’ says the Voice. Do not waste time taking shelter. The step can
split, and then the earth will swallow you up.’

His resistance to the storm, instead of exhausting him, redoubles his strength. 
Now he climbs the fourth step with little difficulty, although it is as high as the 
preceding ones.

 Standing, he hears an alarm trumpet like thunder. Suddenly, a scorching wind
strikes him in the face. He lifts his eyes. In the obscurity of the night, a shining
 figure stands to attention before him: It is the Guardian, clad in armor and shining
 helmet, arms outstretched, a blazing sword in his hand and pointed towards the man.

– ‘Who are you, pilgrim?’ he asks. ‘To what end and in whose name have you
passed these obstacles and climbed the steps of paradise?’

Overcome by a surge of ineffable joy, the man repeats in a loud voice the words he 
has just heard in the depth of his heart. He feels as if they are now his, and answers
 the Guardian with courage.

– ‘I am the Soul in search of divine happiness; a particle aspiring to unite with the
 Creative Principle I’

– ‘Your answer is correct’, replies the Guardian.

The door to the tower on the right opens. The sword returns to its sheath. The
 Guardian takes the man by the hand and leads him across the threshold of the open
door…
Dawn gilds the eastern sky. Precursor of the Sun, the morning Star shines above
 the happy Valley.

Here is another one of these fragments, taken from classical literature: a passage from Turgenev:

I see a great building, one enormous mass. In the front wall is a narrow arch with
open doors; behind them, dark mists. In front of the high threshold there is a young 
girl… a pretty Russian girl.

A breeze comes from the dark and icy mists, a current of freezing air, bringing
with it from the depths of the building the sound of a slow and muffled voice.

– ‘You who aspire to cross this threshold, do you know what awaits you here?

– ‘I know,’ answers the young girl.
 – ‘Cold, hunger, hate, mockery, scorn, injustice, prison, illness and even death?’

– ‘I know it. ‘
- ‘Do you expect to be shunned by everyone? Do you expect to be totally alone?’

– ‘I am ready. I know it. I shall bear all the suffering and all the blows’. 
- ‘Even if they do not come from enemies, but from parents, from friends?’
 – ‘Yes… even from those…’

– ‘Good. Do you accept the sacrifice?’
 – ‘Yes’. 
- ‘An anonymous sacrifice? You will perish and nobody… but nobody will even
know whose memory to honor?’

– ‘I have no use for recognition and pity. I have no use for a name.’ – ‘Are you ready for crime?’ 
The young girl bowed her head.
 – ‘Even for crime.’

The voice which was questioning her did not continue right away. At last it started
 again: 
— ‘Do you know that one day you will believe no more in what you believe in
now, and come to think that you have been a dupe and that it was for nothing that
you have lost your young life?’ 
— ‘That too I know. Well though I know it, I wish to enter.’
 The young girl crossed the threshold.

A heavy curtain fell.
Gritting his teeth, someone uttered behind her:
 – ‘A foolish girl!’

At which, from another place, a voice replied:
 – ‘A saint!’

Mouravieff explains the meaning of those parables:

“These two fragments, both of esoteric origin, give some idea of the access to the Way.  The further our studies progress, the better we will decipher their meaning, as everything they say is significant. For now, we draw the attention of the reader particularly to the first clue, the most important for him: the way is a one-way street. Meaning that whoever begins to walk it is forbidden to turn back. This is not because of some kind of external imperative, but due to the fact that each step forward on the Way irrevocably modifies the content of whoever has started walking it. It follows that he will become more and more of a stranger to his surroundings; that he will lose more and more interest in exterior life, in which only yesterday he participated fully. The appearance of things, and especially of beings, undergoes a deep change in his eyes. He will one day be surprised to constate that certain faces which only yesterday he found very beautiful now reveal to him marks of bestiality behind their features: not all, but many of them!”

“The more man progresses on the Way, the more his feeling of being a stranger is intensified. Soon he will become boring: later still he will become unbearable, and finally, odious. That is why ‘the prophet is despised in his country, among his close relations and in his own house. That indication is precise and leaves no room for doubt. He who wants to start esoteric studies is invited to think it over twice, and weigh it all, before he rushes to cross the moat-threshold. We repeat that it will not be possible for him to return to exterior life and to find his place, his pleasures and his satisfaction there as in the past. However, as well as the difficulties which are the first results of his evolution, such a man will receive comforting impressions, especially in his human relations. He will be surprised to perceive one day that certain faces which only yesterday appeared to him ordinary, today shine in his eyes with a bright beauty. It is because his sight, sharpened by esoteric work, has acquired the faculty of penetrating beyond the external crust. It is amongst these brighter beings that he will find his new friends. Their society will welcome him as one of their own. He will be understood among them, and their community of common aims and interests will be a stimulus and a help for all.

Looking back at my life I can certainly relate to this and maybe others who are in the same process of seeking truth and starting esoteric self-work can see this in their lives and associations as well. Literally all the friends I thought I had showed dis-contempt toward the things I was getting into and was talking about, be it through ridicule or making fun of me or even attacking me for daring to question their beliefs.

As I was coming to terms with my own predator, programming and mechanical behaviors I saw it even more in others. I saw the feeding and the lies people were telling themselves. Not only that, but I realized that I have been feeding on others myself and they were feeding off me. It seemed something else was in control of humanity and working through us.

Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal. ‘…

In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver – stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now…. ”

Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as a buffer against their fear.”

– Don Juan Matus, The Active Side of Infinity (Carlos Castaneda)

“There are a thousand things which prevent a man from awakening, which keep him in the power of his dreams. In order to act consciously with the intention of awakening, it is necessary to know the nature of the forces which keep man in a state of sleep. First of all it must be realized that the sleep in which man exists is not normal but hypnotic sleep. Man is hypnotized and this hypnotic state is continually maintained and strengthened in him. One would think that there are forces for whom it is useful and profitable to keep man in a hypnotic state and prevent him from seeing the truth and understanding his position.

– G. I. Gurdjieff

I was living a lie based on my false “I”, dreaming to be awake. I also realized that all the talk and notions about love and happiness were buffers and illusion people tell themselves for self-calming and had nothing to do with real love. I mistook many things for love myself. During my “dark night of the soul” and “moral bankruptcy” I had intense periods of deep despair and depression, sometimes not being able to get out of bed, but lying in fetal position and crying a lot. As I mentioned before I was even contemplating suicide a lot back then. It was emotionally and physically intense as if something within me was dying.

Later on as I gained more knowledge about the process I was going through esoterically and psychologically, I realized that my depression was actually a stepping stone towards becoming my true self.

Kazimierz Dabrowski is a Polish psychiatrist and psychologist who developed the Theory of Positive Disintegration (TPD). The Theory of Positive Disintegration is a novel approach to personality development and relates to “depression as a stepping stone”.

What is very interesting about this model is how it is similar in ways to certain esoteric teachings, such as Gurdjeff’s Fourth Way, Mouravieff’s Gnosis or Shamanism as transmitted through Don Juan Matus. It sees crisis such as depression or maladjustment to social norms as important stepping stones and potential for personality development.

Contrary to mainstream psychology, which tries to adjust the individual to society and its norms (sometimes through anti-depressants or any other mood-influencing pharmaceuticals), the Theory of Positive Disintegration sees it as a “good” sign if one is getting maladjusted to society, seeing it as potential for higher integration and values (non ego-centric). Certain generic New Age teachings also merely avoid the aspect of positive Disintegration through denial and a distorted understanding of negative emotions (such as just focus on the “positive”, avoid anything “negative”, meditate on “peace”, etc….).

The levels of development as defined by Dabrowski can be compared to the staircase of esoteric evolution and the moral bankruptcy man experiences when his old conditioned self conflicts with the emerging individuality.

Like Gurdjieff, Dabrowski saw the “average” man as mechanical robot-like beings (Level I) who simply exist on lower impulses as dictated by society and “official culture”, living in a reactionary state of external stimuli and influences. No true individuality can be formed on that level.

Certain people who experience so-called overexcitability (OE) (“Supersensitivities” in terms of  Psychomotor, Sensual, Emotional, Intellectual, and Imaginational) have the potential to grow out of the lower levels and integrate their being into the higher ones. However, just as explained in the aforementioned esoteric teachings, Darbrowski also points out that this process requires conscious work and it doesn’t happen by itself. In other words, if one does not use the “shocks” to further one’s evolution and does “the work” to gain self-awareness, one will stay at the lower level where most of humanity exists, mechanically and reactionary, feeding one’s little “I’s” based on conditioning and programming. In light if what we’ve explored so far, one can see how OE (especially in children) could also be an indication that one may be a wanderer. I certainly can relate to Darbowski’s TPD and see how it applies to my upbringing and personality development.

From “A very brief sketch of Dabrowski’s theory of Positive Disintegrstion” by W. Tillier:

Suffering, aloneness, self-doubt, sadness, inner conflict; these are our feelings that we have not learned to live with, that we have failed to appreciate, that we reject as destructive and completely negative, but in fact they are symptoms of an expanding consciousness. Dr. Kazimierz Dabrowski has spent 45 years piecing together the complete picture of the growth of the human psyche from primitive integration at birth; the person with potential for development will experience growth as a loosening of the stable psychic structure accompanied by symptoms of psychoneuroses. Reality becomes multileveled, the choices between higher and lower realms of behavior occupy our thought and mark us as human. Dabrowski called this process positive disintegration, he declares that psychoneurosis is not an illness and he insists that development does not come through psychotherapy but that psychotherapy is automatic when the person is conscious of his development...

Without intense and painful introspection and reflection, development is unlikely. Psychoneurotic symptoms should be embraced and transformed into anxieties about human problems of an ever higher order. If psychoneuroses continue to be classified as mental illness, then perhaps it is a sickness better than health.

To Dabrowski, real therapy is autopsychotherapy; it is the self being aware of the self through a long inner investigation; a mapping of the inner environment. There are no techniques to eliminate symptoms because the symptoms constitute the very psychic richness from which grow an increasing awareness of body, mind, humanity and cosmos. Dabrowski gives birth to that process if he can.

Initially, people who are acting on low impulses or who are simply robotically emulating society have little self conflict. Most conflicts are external. During development, the clash between one’s actual behavior and environment and one’s imagined ideals creates a great deal of internal conflict. This conflict literally motivates the individual to resolve the situation, ideally by inhibiting those aspects he or she considers lower and by accentuating those aspects he or she considers higher. At the highest levels, there is a new harmony of thought, emotion and action that eliminates internal conflict. The individual is behaving in accord with their own personality ideal and consciously derived value structure and therefore feels no internal conflict. Often a person’s external focus shifts to ‘making the world a better place.

Without passing through very difficult experiences and even something like psychoneurosis and neurosis we cannot understand human beings and we cannot realize our multidimensional and multilevel development toward higher and higher levels.

– K. Dabrowski.

It is part of a necessary process and even today there are times of depression (although not as intense anymore) as I keep working on myself and peel off the layers of my false “I”. The work never stops, it just becomes more refined and deeper. At the same time the moments of true love as a state of being and consciousness increase (not dependent on anything or anyone outside myself) as opposed to an chemical emotional experience. I feel more and more aligned with my real “I”, making the personality/ego a vessel/instrument for the higher self to work through and not letting the ego be in the driver’s seat. Just as noted in the quote above, there happens a shift at one point away from pre-occupation with oneself towards making the world a better place.”, not acting on mechanical self-absorbed lower impulses but conscious actions based on the higher centers. This can also be related to a shift from STS towards STO activating the Wanderer’s mission profile to be of service and assistance. However, I still slip into the mechanicalness of my little “I’s” if I’m not watchful and make the effort to stay conscious.

Despite society’s view that there is something wrong with you if you are depressed and selling you anti-depressants, it is actually a GOOD thing. The soul and true self is screaming for attention. As J. Krishnamurti said: “It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” One shouldn’t avoid it or numb it with medication, drugs or “feel good” pop-psychology but go with it and trust that it is actually a natural process that can be used as a catalyst for growth and esoteric development.

Laura Knight-Jadczyk talks about this process in an exchange with the Cs:

Q: (L) My experience has been, over the past couple of years, that whenever there is a significant increase in knowledge, that it is sort of cyclical – I go through a depression before I can assimilate – and it is like an inner transformation from one level to another. Is there something we can do, and if so, is it desirable, to increase or facilitate this process in some way?
A: It is a natural process, let it be.

People support each others’ pathologies and neediness, mistaking that for love and their emotional and physical addictions for happiness. There are no conscious actions, just pre-recorded patterns playing themselves out. People are not in control of themselves, not realizing the prison they are in. I saw the “horror of the situation” and what Gurdjieff told Ouspensky in “In Search of the Miraculous”:

“‘What do you expect?” said G. “People are machines. Machines have to be blind and unconscious, they cannot be otherwise, and all their actions have to correspond to their nature. Everything happens. No one does anything. ‘Progress’ and ‘civilization,’ in the real meaning of these words, can appear only as the result of conscious efforts. They cannot appear as the result of unconscious mechanical actions. And what con­scious effort can there be in machines? And if one machine is unconscious, then a hundred machines are unconscious, and so are a thousand machines, or a hundred thousand, or a million. And the unconscious activity of a million machines must necessarily result in destruction and extermination. It is precisely in unconscious involuntary manifestations that all evil lies. You do not yet understand and cannot imagine all the results of this evil. But the time will come when you will understand.

…A considerable percentage of the people we meet on the street are people who are empty inside, that is, they are actually already dead. It is fortunate for us that we do not see and do not know it. If we knew what a number of people are actually dead and what a number of these dead people govern our lives, we should go mad with horror.”

These were trying times since I realized I had no authentic friends, because I hadn’t been authentic myself. I tried to wake up my friends and family, but this just created more conflict and attacks. I still hadn’t learned the basic lesson of esoteric work and what STO truly means: Don’t give without being asked and be externally considerate. Free will needs to be respected, even if it is people’s free will to stay ignorant and asleep. No one can be forced to wake up. However, as I started to wake up and engaged in the work, letting go of my associations and friends, new people and help came along, just as Mouravieff wrote, fellow seekers who saw what I saw and who were struggling with the same things. The importance of networking with like-minded and collinear people was imperative, because alone a man can do nothing. There were not many, but it is about quality over quantity. During that time I also spent much time alone, not engaging in relationships or drawn to exterior life at all. I didn’t enjoy the things I used to enjoy. Everything seemed so shallow, empty and fake. I knew I had to disengage from certain associations and be conscious about who and what I gave my energy to, so I didn’t slip back into the “wilderness” where the Matrix/General Law is trying to keep man to be food for our hyperdimensional overlords.

“When man goes in search of the Way, it generally signifies that something within him has collapsed. Apart from exceptional cases, this collapse is preceded by a re-assessment of moral values, which in the searcher’s eyes lose the value he had previously given to them.

“Interior collapse leads to certain consequences. Man starts to see things in a different light. Two diametrically opposed effects can result. If man is sufficiently strong and impartial, he will not lower his eyes before implacable reality. He will have the courage to face things directly, and to accept the constatations which are imposed on him, no matter how disagreeable they are. This signifies that he has firmly started on the track which leads to the path of Access to the Way.

On the other hand, if the man is weak, this experience will weaken him even more. The law is explicit: ‘To whosoever hath, to him shall be given. But whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken away even that which he hath.’ If man does not accept his situation and, in particular, his inner state as it appears to him, thanks to brief illuminations from the consciousness of the real ‘I’— if he is obstinate against all evidence, justifying his Personality by protecting himself behind logic, legitimacy and justice, he will then turn his back on the path of Access, and thrust himself further into the wilderness.

Nobody can reach the path of Access to the Way, without first passing through an interior bankruptcy; a moral collapse.

Economy of energies too is a must, as the walk to and on the Way demands their total mobilization. Any unjustified expenditure can lead in the end to failure. We must always keep this in mind. In general, the reaction of those around towards someone who begins to search for the Way is negative. This negative attitude is the result of the action of the General Law, which, as we know, tends to keep man in his place. Not being able to do this directly by the action of Illusion, the General Law, when it loses its dominion over the man who ‘moves’, acts indirectly by the mediation of those around him.

“It is a classic situation. From his side, after having passed through moral bankruptcy, he who seeks the Way becomes different from men who continue to live within the limits permitted by the General Law, and thus take mirages for reality. Due to this, he will feel himself more and more isolated. The centre of gravity of his interest will progressively turn to esoteric work, which will end by absorbing him completely. But it is entirely in his interest not to show the new attitude which he has taken towards exterior life. The ‘World’ will be hostile to him, because its own purposes are different; it is not in his interest to provoke this tendency, and even less to keep it alive. The day will come — if he remains in the same milieu — where, apart from rare exceptions he will be openly or secretly hated.”

“If we ponder this in depth, we shall understand that psychologically this hostile attitude of the ‘World’ towards someone who carries on esoteric work is not only a normal phenomenon but is so to speak, a necessary one. If he who lives in the wilderness — and is satisfied to be there, were to approve of the attitude of one who walks on the track, it would be equivalent to recognizing his own bankruptcy. That is why the ‘World’ considers the latter as a failure. The more he progresses with his work, the more he becomes an object of hate. That is why it is said that: ‘no prophet is acceptable in his own country’ and also: ‘A prophet is not without honour, save in his own country, among his own kin and in his own house.‘”

Let’s examine the part If he who lives in the wilderness — and is satisfied to be there, were to approve of the attitude of one who walks on the track, it would be equivalent to recognizing his own bankruptcy a bit closer in relation to today’s’ world and events. One can easily refer this to people who keep denying that 9/11 was an inside Job or that UFO’s are and have been visiting this planet for ages and human beings are being farmed for “food”. The common man lives in the wilderness of the General Law/Matrix and has a very conditioned/limited view of reality. If he’d approve the truth of 9/11, the hyperdimensional manipulation of humanity or that Psychopaths with no conscience are ruling the world, it would produce an immense internal and psychological discomfort forcing him into moral bankruptcy as his long held beliefs would be shattered and he would have to face himself, confronting the illusionary existence he’s been living since birth based on lies. The common man has much invested in his illusion, psychologically and materialistically, his image, career, rank and status, and he will protect it against whoever threatens it, defending the prison he is in.

As Morpheus tells us in “The Matrix”:

The Matrix is a system, Neo. That system is our enemy.
But when you’re inside, you look around, what do you see? Businessmen, teachers, lawyers, carpenters.

The very minds of the people we are trying to save.
But until we do, these people are still a part of that system
 and that makes them our enemy.

You have to understand, most of these people are not ready to be unplugged. 

And many of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent on the system, that they will fight to protect it.



The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us.
You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television.
You can feel it when you go to work… when you go to church… when you pay your taxes.

It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

We can see now how esoteric work with all its struggle, suffering and attacks relate to the awakening process and initiation of the Wanderer. Super efforts are needed to truly wake up and accomplish one’s mission, whatever it turns out to be. There is also nothing “special” being a wanderer. The opposite, it takes great humility, awareness and responsibility combined with sincere self-work, gaining knowledge and learning the lessons to walk the talk and be truly of service.

“Disillusion” is a painful process and can be prolonged, depending on how much time the individual takes to realize he is living artificially and that this condition is a product of his internal dreams. Great courage is required to face reality and to destroy the mirage of a pleasant dream.”

– John Baines, The Stellar Man

“Every time a man sets himself to learn, he has to labor as hard as anyone can, and the limits of his learning are determined by his own nature. Therefore, there is no point in talking about knowledge. Fear of knowledge is natural; all of us experience it, and there is nothing we can do about it. But no matter how frightening learning is, it’s more terrible to think of a man without knowledge.”

– Don Juan Matus

We live in intense times. A lot of things are happening on our planet. Technology has advanced exponentially, yet human consciousness has not evolved at the same rate. We are in the midst of a major transformation, the shift of the ages, which many prophecies and mystery teachings have talked about. It won’t be over by 12/21/2012. Far from it.

This work is also open for any souled humans, not just Wanderers. Many are called, yet few choose to answer the call. Wanderers are not any better than “humans”. We all are multidimensional beings who have access to the deeper knowledge within us. We are them in the future. They may just have come back in “time” (since time doesn’t really exist but is a 3D concept, which doesn’t apply on higher densities) for assistance, but not to do the work for us. There is a spiritual war happening with forces at work most people are not even aware of. Understanding the Theological Drama behind STO/STS dynamics and the how the matrix control system works through ourselves is crucial for the awakening process of the wanderer and any sincere truth seeker.

“And as we have learned from Jesus, Gurdjieff and the Gnostic Sufis, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans, the rules of this World in which we live were set up and are controlled by this STS hierarchy and have been for a very long time. Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation….It is in “seeing the unseen” that we become aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we experience the “battles” between the forces of STS and STO! And it is most definitely this factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to conceal!… In other words, we are not just talking about a “petty dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.

– Laura Knight Jadczyk, “The Wave” Volume 5&6 “Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown”

It takes much work and effort to anchor TRUE Love and Light, freeing ourselves from this current STS frequency. Just as individuals who have soul potential are called to engage in sincere self-work, making the darkness conscious and understanding what it truly means to BE the change we want to see, so the world needs to go through a collective “moral bankruptcy” and “dark night of the soul” before any true shift of consciousness can occur. We are in the muck and mire of the Kali Yuga.

“This is the hardest time to live, but it is also the greatest honor to be alive now, and to be allowed to see this time. There is no other time like now. We should be thankful, for creation did not make weak spirits to live during this time. The old ones say ‘this is the time when the strongest spirits will live through and those who are empty shells, those who have lost the connection will not survive.’ We have become masters of survival -we will survive- it is our prophecy to do so.”

– Tiokasin Ghosthorse

“I wish it need not have happened in my time,” said Frodo. “So do I,” said Gandalf, “and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

–  from  ‘Lord of the Rings’

These are difficult times but also exciting times. There is love, help and support out there and good things are and can happen, but it all depends on us. The shift into 4D, the ascension and transformation into the STO vibration of Love in Light in the deepest meaning it these words is an opportunity, a choice – not a guarantee –  for the ones answering the call. The struggle, for the most part, is with oneself.

As the Cassiopaeans said: “The war is through you!”


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