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Wanderers, Purpose, and Esoteric Work in this Time of Transition


A topic that has been coming up recently in a conversation with some friends is the idea of “Wanderers” in relation to esoteric work, the awakening process and the Time of Transition we are in. It is something that has been on my mind for a while and wanted to explore a bit deeper, also reflecting on my own life.

I first came across this subject when I read the Ra material in the 90′s as well as Barbara Marciniak’s “Bringers of the Dawn“(Note: Readers who are not familiar with the “channeled” material mentioned throughout this blog should read “Channeled material and the Age of Transformation”. For the ones not familiar with the definitions of certain concepts used throughout this article please click the hyper-linked words for more information).

According to Ra, Wanderers are individuals whose souls have incarnated from a higher density (4th or 6th density) into this 3rd density with a specific mission to accomplish in order to assist humanity, helping with The Harvest or Graduation to 4th Density during this Age of Transformation. However, due to the “veil of forgetting” when entering a lower density, the mission/task by the Wanderer is forgotten and he/she needs to awaken to what they came here to do. Ra tells us:

Questioner: You spoke of Wanderers. Who are Wanderers? Where do they come from?

Ra: Imagine, if you will, the sands of your shores. As countless as the grains of sand are the sources of intelligent infinity. When a social memory complex has achieved its complete understanding of its desire, it may conclude that its desire is service to others with the distortion towards reaching their hand, figuratively, to any entities who call for aid. These entities whom you may call the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow move toward this calling of sorrow. These entities are from all reaches of the infinite creation and are bound together by the desire to serve in this distortion. Entities are from all reaches of infinite creation, bound together by desire to serve in Earth’s 3D.

Questioner: How many of them are incarnate on Earth now?

Ra: The number is approximate due to an heavy influx of those birthed at this time due to an intensive need to lighten the planetary vibration and thus aid in harvest. The number approaches sixty-five million.

Questioner: Are most of these from the fourth density? Or what density do they come from?

Ra:  Few there are of fourth density. The largest number of Wanderers, as you call them, are of the sixth density. The desire to serve must be distorted towards a great deal of purity of mind and what you may call foolhardiness or bravery, depending upon your distortion complex judgment. The challenge/danger of the Wanderer is that it will forget its mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the maelstrom of which it had incarnated to avert the destruction….

It was the aim of Wanderers to serve the entities of this planet in whatever way was requested. and it was also the aim of Wanderers that their vibratory patterns might lighten the planetary vibration as a whole, thus ameliorating the effects of planetary disharmony and palliating any results of this disharmony. Specific intentions such as aiding in a situation not yet manifest are not the aim of Wanderers. Light and love go where they are sought and needed, and their direction is not planned aforetimes.”

……The energies of the Wanderers, your teachers and adepts at this time are all bent upon increasing the harvest. However, there are few to harvest.

Carla L. Rueckert, the “instrument” through which Ra spoke wrote “A Wanderer’s Handbook”, exploring this topic in more depth and also incorporating other channeled material:

“In addition to those lessons which are learned in a manner native to those who work through the third density for the first time, those who are what you call Wanderers bring a certain task and a certain responsibility, which may be viewed as operating so as to put into an unique light, a particular slant or bias, those precise lessons which within third density all must learn. And so in a sense, the task is compounded proportionate to the unique gifts which have been brought from other densities, so that they may be laid down in service to the souls which seek, so hungrily, to reach beyond the limits which are those of third density, a density of choice.”

The Pleiadians in Barabra Marciniak’s “Bringers of the Dawn” refer to the same concept of Wanderers as “Renegades”, “System Busters” and “Family of Light”:

“You represent the renegade group of light, and you have agreed to come back on the planet. You are on assignment. You come into these physical bodies and take them over, and you intend, through the power of your spiritual identity, to change the physical body. You all selected with great care the genetic lines that would best give you head starts with all of this. Each of you chose a genetic history through which members of the Family of Light have threaded….

As members of the Family of Light, you have incarnated on this planet to prepare yourselves to do your work. What is your work? Your work is quite simple: you carry frequency into systems that have limited light frequency, because light is information. This is not cold, computer-data information; it is information that is transmitted biologically through an electromagnetic send-out of consciousness. This is what you are experts in. If you were to have a business card printed up for yourselves when you are in full memory of your identity, it would say something like: “Renegade Member of Family of Light. Systems Buster. Available for altering systems of consciousness within the free-will universe. On call.“….

You go for it! This is what you do. This is an aspect of your identity that you all have in common, and you are here in the millions at this time. You are here primarily to remember who you are, to operate multi- dimensionally within the system, and to teach humans-the natives in this place that have been under frequency control for a long time….

The task for you members of the Family of Light who have desired to take this information inside of yourselves is to anchor a new frequency on the planet by anchoring it impeccably inside yourselves. This is not easy. It was not meant to be easy. You did not come here to have an easy assignment. You are renegades, and you have been renegades…

Before you came into the body, all of you committed to designing events that would fire your codings, or blueprints that would activate your memories. Then you came into the body and you forgot. All of you have had your blueprints and codings fired to some extent because you understand that there is a divine purpose or Divine Plan that you are a part of…

Part of the friction you feel with others is that you are on this path of evolution and bursting forth. Others don’t like this because they are not coded at this time to respond the way you are. Some people are not coded at all for this

As members of the Family of Light, you are renegades. You are systems busters, here to conquer your own fears and to show the rest of the planet that there is no reason to fear anything. You love to go in and cause trouble. You are famous, your branch of the Family of Light. You are famous for going into systems of reality and altering the frequency, thus bringing information. It is not your task as members of the Family of Light to proselytize. You simply go into systems and act as receptacles; you receive the creative cosmic rays into your bodies, the bodies that you occupy as humans. You are in disguise as humans, and you allow a process to take place…

You are coded, and as your memory begins to rise, you will respond to the plan with which you came here to participate to alter the frequencies. You will begin to hold, keep, and maintain a certain frequency and then to line it. Identity as frequency is the sum total of your physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies broadcast as electronic pulsations. As you live your frequency, you affect everyone, every place you go. That is what you are doing now. There are many who already understand their assignment, and there are those whose memories are just beginning to rise

As members of the Family of Light, you have access to a tremendous amount of understanding that others do not have. You came in with it, you are being reminded of it, and you are now learning it and accepting it….Light is information, so the Family of Light is the family of information

Believe us when we say that you, as members of the Family of Light, made a vast study of the historical manipulation that has been going on on this planet, just as anyone sent on assignment would be trained for a long period of time before they were sent out into the field. Each of you has been trained, and you have the knowledge inside you. Our part is to hit key chords and play your consciousness into activity so you can go ahead and make the tune or song or dance you are prepared for. Your knowledge is inside of you, and as you agree to discover it, it will awaken on deeper and deeper levels. You will become very self-sufficient, those of you who agree to this. You will also become incredibly knowledgeable, those of you who do not stop because you are frightened. Light is information; ignorance is darkness…

We speak to you as if you are not human because, to us, you are not. To us, you are members of the Family of Light, and we know your multidimensional selves. We speak to you about dealing with humans because it is your assignment to integrate with them, soothe them, and awaken a spark of light within them so that they are not all destroyed and so that this place can house a new species and a new realm of activity….

You have been hired and are on assignment from the future to catapult back into this cycle of existence to incarnate many times so that you can understand what has kept humans controlled. In this way, you can operate from the inside and change the system….

As each of you has been assigned to become informed and to bring about a frequency alteration on this planet, you must learn to become Keepers of Frequency. You must rise to a certain place of knowledge and consistently stay there. You must become in command of your body so that you can will it into stillness or into activity. You must be able to go inside yourself and heal what needs to be healed emotionally and physically. You must begin to part the jungle of self and find the clearing so that you can show others the way….”

The topic of Wanderers or higher dimensional-beings who have incarnated for the purpose of assisting humanity is somewhat popular in the New Age movement. There are plenty of people these days who claim to be “Star Seeds”or “Light Workers” from planet this or that. However, some of them seem to use this identification to enhance their ego and self-importance, over-estimating their level of Being and Awareness, appearing “special” and “mysterious”, clouded in a very fluff talk of Love and Light. Especially nowadays, where it is hip to be “spiritual”, many self-proclaimed lightworkers dress accordingly and give themselves fancy spiritual names which are supposed to reflect their higher state of awareness, claiming to be awake. It’s easy to identify oneself with such an idea but does one’s life truly reflect that? Does one truly KNOW what it means to be a lightworker or Wanderer and the work it entails? Or is it just another label used for appearance’s sake and to make oneself feel better? There are many distortions and people tend to project their own filtered view into it. As with everything these days truth is mixed with lies.

“I think the “wanderer issue” is kind of like the “faith vs works” issue.  Anybody can say it, claim it, but does their life give evidence of it? How have they applied themselves?”

- Laura Knight-Jadczyk

Personally I don’t dismiss the idea of higher density souls coming back in time with a specific mission to fulfill. However, I also take it with a grain of salt at the same time. Reflecting on my life, I can see that I could fit the profile of a Wanderer and learning about it has given much clarity and understanding of myself and what I felt deep inside all along. However I don’t see myself as being special or better since I have to learn my lessons as everyone else in this 3D human experience.

Throughout my whole life I felt different and was very much a loner in high school, not being able to fit in, dealing with a high sensitive nature and a deep emotional life which was confusing to say the least. Obviously many children feel this way growing up in our pathological world and is by no means an indication that one is automatically a Wanderer.  My parents did their best in raising me according to their knowledge. I didn’t have a bad childhood or was abused by any means. I just felt I wasn’t from here and even as a young kid in my pre-teens I used to look at the stars at night thinking and longing “Take me home…Why am I here?…Why am I so alone?”. However, I never truly made the connection that I was maybe a Wanderer, nor was I conscious of this idea. It was just natural for me for me to stare at the night sky asking these questions and it had a soothing affect on me.

Scott Mandelker who has  published several books on the Ra material and Buddhism came up with a questionnaire (similar to determining personality types) which can help to find out if one is potentially a Wanderer. Obviously there is no true scientific way to prove one way or another. I think Mendelker’s quiz is a bit over-simplified, short and vague and missing some important points, which can also lead to misinterpretations. Deeper introspection and understanding of what being a Wanderer entails is certainly needed. I would not go by this questionnaire alone and proclaim “I’m a Wanderer” even if I can answer most questions with a yes. It’s easy to read into things and “bend the truth” in order to fit it for oneself. As Laura mentioned earlier, what is it you truly DO about it?

I started questioning the world as we know it more consciously when I went to the University of Munich studying business in 1991, a choice I made due to social pressure, being confused, not knowing myself and just doing what everyone else did: getting a degree, so I can have a secure job and make a living. I was depressed and felt just like I did in High School, doing things that I didn’t like to do but thought I had to do in order to “fit in”. I kept thinking there must be more to life than this! Well, as the saying goes, ask and you shall receive and I was asking sincerely from the depth of my being. The call was answered when a good friend I met around that time asked me to try out playing drums for his band. My life changed completely. Music has always been my ally in my life. Listening to it helped me to deal with my complex emotional life. But I was so conditioned and lost that I never thought to make music myself. I was in awe when I saw bands playing live and especially intrigued when watching the drummer. My low self-esteem didn’t even make that connection that I could be doing this myself since I thought I had to study and be a good student in order to get a degree in something more practical and secure to fit into society and also please my parents.

Playing drums connected me to something deeper within me and for the first time in my life I truly knew what I wanted to do. I was so infused with inspiration and sudden self-confidence that I dropped out of university, saved up money and moved to Los Angeles to study drums and percussion at the Musicians Institute. At that time I realized there must be even more to life and more to who I am, that there is purpose to my life, that there was something I’m here to do. A lot of things came up for me and it was not always a happy time. Dealing with depression, childhood programming, social conditioning and this seemingly never-ending feeling of loneliness, unable to connect with people on a deeper level, I started to look for answers, trying to figure myself out as I was going through the “dark night of the soul” with suicidal thoughts and even drug abuse (which didn’t last long, since it interfered with my passion for playing drums. Music literally saved my life). My search and asking fueled by intense internal suffering lead me to the works of Carl Gustav Jung, J. Krihshnamurti, Alan Watts, Joseph Campbell and other spiritual/psychology/philosophy literature as well as Astrology, which helped me in the process of seeking answers to deeper life questions and understanding myself better.

Another big shift in my life started when I first read “Bringers of the Dawn” (BOTD) in the late 90′s. No other book has had such a deep impact on me. It was almost like an instruction manual I’ve read before, awakening something within me that was always there. It was more a recognition than learning something new. It resonated with me deeply. Readers of my blogs know that I don’t take the idea of “resonating” lightly since I believe that there is such a thing as “false resonating”. As I wrote in “Channeled material and the Age of Transformation”:

While there is validity to the idea of “resonating” with a certain teaching or source, it can easily be misapplied if the “reading instrument”, the Self, is not “tuned” correctly. Some fundamentalist Christians also “resonate” with the Bible in literal terms, believing the earth is only 5000 years old.  “Feel good” messages are no proof of truth and can also be very emotional manipulative. Disinformation is always lies mixed with truth. Enough truth to use as a bait to get the seeker’s attention and then put him/her on a false lead so to speak, keeping him asleep while he believes to awaken. In order to find the true resonance one needs to separate the false self (with its assumptions, conditioning, expectations, wishful thinking, buffers, emotional hooks and ego desires) from the true self which is grounded in Knowledge, connected to the small voice inside that can always separate a lie from truth, using intuition and critical thinking alike, even if the truth is not very “pleasant” and challenging to one’s world view. In other words, honest self-work is needed in order to resonate with truth. Within and without.

Marciniak’s book started my quest for truth on a whole new level, confirming my feeling that there is something else happening on our planet besides what we have been taught and told by official culture. For many people the information in BOTD is too far out or laughable, however that also makes sense as I’ll explain later on. It was not only the idea of higher density souls coming “back in time” incarnating in human form (Renegades, Family of Light) with a mission profile to assist humanity during this time of transformation which I resonated with, but also the more disturbing topic of hyperdimensional control and that humans are not on top of the food chain, nor in control of themselves, but have been manipulated genetically and controlled by “Aliens” (hyperdimensional 4D STS forces) since “The Fall”.

Her work led me to the Ra material, as well as the Cassiopaean Experiment and the work of Laura Knight-Jadczyk who wrote in depth about the Theological Drama with hyperdimensional forces working through humanity, incorporating a vast array of esoteric teachings, channeled material (Ra, Marciniak’s Pleiadians) and research into ancient history, connecting the dots scientifically, esoterically, historically and mystically. Her personal story and discoveries are written about in her seminal works “The Wave” (8 books) and “The Secret History of the World”. I don’t know anyone else who has mapped out the true reality of our world and humanity’s place in it so well as he she has done. No wonder she has experienced (and is experiencing) so many attacks, ridicule and threats personally and for her work. You don’t get that kind of attention if you’re not on to something that may be a real threat to the powers that be and the status quo of official culture. It was another milestone in my awakening.

According to the Ra material and Cassiopaean transmissions humans have been of STO (Service to Others) orientation before the “Fall”. Both sources talk about the “Fall” from this state happening about 300,000 years ago when 4th density STS (Service to Self) entities (called the Orion group (Ra) or Lizzies/Reptilians (Cassiopaea, Pleiadians) ) “raided” this planet, took over control (from a hyperdimensional point of view as in frequency/consciousness control) and humans became STS (development of ego, false personality, worship of physicality, cut off from the higher centers).  We’re now at the end of a big cycle where mind/body/spirit complexes (Ra) of 3rd density (humans) have the opportunity to “graduate” or “evolve” to 4th density STO orientation (The “harvest” according to Ra). However, this is a choice. According to both sources as well as various ancient esoteric teachings, conscious self-work and effort are required to move on to the next level so to speak, activating the higher centers by gaining knowledge, engaging in sincere self-work and being of service.

Planet earth as it is now is of STS orientation. We all are STS and cannot be otherwise, however one can become a STO candidate and polarize oneself to that vibration/frequency through esoteric work. 4th density STS entities try their best to manipulate our “free will” through frequency and genetic control which has been going on since “the fall”, keeping us in a lower form of consciousness as they feed off those lower vibrations. It’s simply food for them and sustains/nourishes them, like plant and animals (2nd density) serve us for food. 3rd density feeds off 2nd density and 4th density feeds off 3rd density. Humans are not at the end of the food chain. As above, so below. The UFO phenomenon relates to this and is for the most part a manifestation of the hyperdimensional matrix control system as examined in more depth in the documentary “UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact” I made with Humberto Braga.

Now is a window of opportunity to break free from this control and evolve to a higher level of existence. Not everyone will “graduate”. It’s everyone’s own choice/calling and doesn’t depend on anything or anyone “out there”. No one can do it for another, but one must do the self-work in order to activate the higher centers, raising one’s level of Being and Awareness above a certain minimum. This is also not something that happens over night or on a specific date (like the much popularized end of the Mayan Calendar 12/21/2012) but is related to the shift of ages spanning over a many years and we are already in the midst of it.

There is a choice to be made very shortly, and it would be preferable if all of the people of this planet understand the choice that is to be made. It will be difficult for many of the people of this planet to understand what this choice is, because it is a choice that they have not considered. They have been much too involved in their daily activities and their confusion and their desires of a very trivial nature to be concerned with an understanding of the choice that they are very shortly to make. Whether they wish to or not, whether they understand it or not, regardless of any influence, each and every one of the people who dwell upon planet Earth will shortly make a choice. There will be no middle area. There will be those who choose to follow the path of love and light (knowledge) and those who choose otherwise.

This choice will not be made by saying, “I choose the path of love and light,”or “l do not choose it.” The verbal choice will mean nothing. This choice will be measured by the individual’s demonstration of his choice. This choice is measured by what we term the vibratory rate of the individual. It is necessary, if an individual is to join those who make the choice of love and understanding, for his rate of vibration to be above a certain minimal level.
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At the time at which each of you incarnated, my friends, each of you was aware that certain lessons, hitherto unlearned, were to be the goals for achievement in this incarnation. If it seems to you that your entire incarnation within this illusion has been a series of difficulties of one particular type, then you are almost certainly aware in some manner of one of your lessons. As you can see, these lessons are not to be avoided. They are to be learned.

- from Hatonn, L/L Transcripts

Going back to the topic of Wanderers and renegades who have incarnated in this time and age with a specific mission relating to the shift we’re in, there is also this insightful writing by Marshall Vian Summers about the deeper meaning of purpose, our “ancient home” and how it is intrinsically connected to gaining Knowledge. Purpose is not a definition or an end in itself, but a journey to be discovered as we work on ourselves and separate truth from lies within and without. This process is different for each as everyone has different lessons to learn and talents to develop.

PURPOSE IS SOMETHING YOU WILL UNDERSTAND as you climb higher on the mountain of life. As you gain a greater vantage point, you will understand more of the journey itself, by looking behind and by being increasingly able to anticipate what is up ahead. Purpose is realized by taking the journey, not by establishing a favorable or fascinating explanation or a definition for oneself. Purpose is not a justification. It does not compensate for anything. Purpose is something that is waiting for you to discover. You can only discover it by taking the journey, by following the way, by learning as you go and by gaining the greater perspective and understanding that one acquires as one matures in The Way of Knowledge.

As we have said before, you have come from someplace and you will return to that place. You have come bearing gifts for the world. Your greater purpose is embodied in this idea. Because of your origin and your destiny, you have something greater to give to the world, something that the world cannot give to you. Your gift is hidden within you like a secret cargo, but you cannot gain access to it until you have advanced. Then it will begin to emerge, slowly and incrementally, all on its own.

Your calling in life is very specific. It involves engaging with certain people for specific reasons at certain junctures of your life. The greater purpose that you share with everyone is to keep Knowledge alive in the world and to bring something from your Ancient Home into the world. This is a definition that you can abide with because it will not limit you and it will not deceive you, but go no further in your definitions. Allow the manifestation of your purpose to take place naturally, as it will if you follow in The Way of Knowledge. Your purpose now is to prepare to gain a greater understanding of the world, the world’s evolution and the world’s destiny. Within this larger context you will gain a new vantage point for understanding your role in the world and your reason for coming here.

Your life must be fulfilled. It must be justified. The world is a difficult place to come to. It is not a vacation spot. It is not a place where you are sent for punishment. It is not a place where you are sent for pleasure. It is a place that needs your gifts from your Ancient Home, and for this reason you have come. [...]

Your purpose is not to escape the world. Your purpose is not to run home to your Creator. Your purpose is to give what you came here to give, to reunite with those whom you are intended to reunite with and to contribute all that you have brought with you—that secret cargo that you carry even at this moment. [...]

You are here in the world for very specific reasons. They are not your personal reasons. You are here to contribute to and participate in a greater order of reality that exists within the world and beyond the world and even beyond the physical manifestation of life.

With greater awareness comes a greater ability. This all comes from Knowledge. Here you are asked to follow, to respond and to learn the great lessons in discernment, discretion, communication and affinity. These lessons are inherent in the preparation itself. From the first step to the last, you will be learning these things, and life will be your laboratory.

As you come to realize that your purpose is not for you alone, then you will realize that you must not allow yourself to become self-possessed or self-absorbed. Indeed, the great liberation is a liberation from this self-absorption which returns you to life with an open mind and with all of your faculties fully activated. [...]

The ones who will succeed are the ones who focus on their preparation and allow the course of their life to unfold without determining its result and without determining what it will look like, how it will be and so forth. Here you must develop a great and growing faith in yourself, in the beneficence of those people who assist you, in the Unseen Ones who guide you and help you and in the power and presence of Knowledge within you. [...]

Purpose is a process; it is not a definition. It is not a validation. It is not a form of self- comfort. It is something that awaits you. It is a great journey. It is a door that is open to you now, a door that you can pass through. It is a journey where you do not lead yourself alone, but instead become a part of the greater education that exists throughout the universe. The Creator is at work everywhere, reclaiming the separated through Knowledge. This is the Creator’s purpose. Your purpose is to give what you are designed to give, according to your nature and your true abilities. In this, your life becomes fulfilled because everything you have done can now serve a greater purpose.

This journey requires phenomenal self-honesty. Humility, honesty, openness, discernment, restraint, discretion, tolerance and compassion—these are qualities that result from preparation and advancement in The Way of Knowledge. These things are what provide inspiration and true ability in life. [...]

Your purpose is the same as everyone else’s. However, your calling is specific. It is a specific set of tasks with specific people and in specific relationships for certain purposes. That is a calling. But for a calling to be genuine, to be real and to really bear fruit in life, it must be fundamentally based within the greater purpose that you share with everyone. [...]

It is not wandering around blindly, speculating and having big ideas. Instead, it is engaging in a process of development that has been provided for you by your Creator and by your Spiritual Family to initiate you in this life into the greater calling and purpose for which you have come. Only through this discovery will your life be fully justified and fully realized. Here you will enter a greater range of relationship and understanding which will make you a person of incredible value in the world.

The world is a hungry and lonely place. It is full of fantasy and folly. Its suffering is profound. Its confusion is deep. Its violence is sickening. Its possibilities are great. Who can see these things but those who realize that they have come from beyond the world to give something? They realize this because it is something they can feel. It is not an emotion; it is something they feel. They feel that they have come here for a reason. It is something that they cannot yet define, but they cannot make it go away either. Something greater is calling them. This is purpose. [...]

Their awareness of the mystery of life will grow more and more profound, and their ability in life—in their relationships, in their career, in all their activities—will deepen. This is purpose. At some point, they will give themselves to something that involves other people in service to the world in one capacity or another according to their nature and their design. It will be natural for them to give themselves in this way, as it would be unnatural for them to decline it. This is purpose.

As we describe this process of preparation in a very general way, do not think that you are near the end. Do not claim that you are anywhere in the process, for how can you tell? You cannot pull yourself out of life and examine your life. You do not have that vantage point yet. Accept that the journey is great. It is marvelous. It is at times difficult. But in all ways it refines you. It washes away that which is nonessential in you and reveals that which is permanent and meaningful. Your real purpose and calling become apparent when all that hides and conceals them has fallen away, and what is left is what is real, and that becomes welcomed and embraced. [...]

This is the time that you are here, and this is the condition of the world and the evolution of the world at this time. Though your specific calling may seem to have little to do with the Greater Community, you are serving the world in its emergence into the Greater Community. You are fostering goodness, Wisdom and the reality of Knowledge in the world through your own demonstration. This is your purpose.

Let’s summarize what we can see so far from these quoted sources.

Wandereres/Renegades are souls from a higher density (4th or 6th) that have incarnated in a human body in order to be of assistance during this Time of Transition. They are “system busters” challenging the status quo who don’t fit in with most of humanity. Due to entering the lower density of physical life they have forgotten that it was their conscious choice to do so in order to perform certain tasks according to a mission profile. Their memory from the “ancient home” is buried deep within them which needs to be awakened. This purpose is an ongoing discovery that depends on conscious self-development and gaining Knowledge. Love is Light is Knowledge. Ra says that the reason for this “forgetting” is also rooted in respecting the free will of 3D entities:

“Free will of 3D entities needs to be preserved. Thus Wanderers volunteer for 3D genetic or DNA connections to mind/body/spirit complex. Forgetting process can be penetrated to extent of Wanderer remembering what it is and why it is upon the planet. However, it would be an infringement if Wanderers penetrated forgetting so far as to activate more dense bodies and thus be able to live in a god-like manner. This would not be proper for those who have chosen to serve.”

The Ps (Pleiadians) tell us that wanderers/renegades are “committed to designing events that would fire [their] codings, or blueprints that would activate their memories.” In other words, the friction and struggle many people (who could be Wanderers) perceive can be used as catalysts to help them awaken and remember what they came here to do. The lessons are not to be avoided, but are to be learned. The obstacle that is in the way of a Wanderer to awaken is that he/she becomes karmically involved and conditioned/programmed through upbringing and society, steering him/her off the path. In order to activate the higher centers, connecting them to their higher selves and giving them access to their “blueprints”, sincere self work is necessary to cut through the lies and conditioning of the false personality, which everyone has to one degree or another.

This shows us that despite their hidden higher knowledge and awareness that Wanderers bring with them, they need to deal with the challenges of life like everyone else on the planet. It is of no use to proclaim proudly that one is a Wanderer without realizing and engaging in the work that is necessary to truly walk the talk. The verbal choice will mean nothing. This choice will be measured by the individual’s demonstration of his choice. However, due to being “foreign” to 3rd density, Wanderers do have more problems adjusting to the planetary vibration of physicality than humans whose home is 3D. Ra tells us:

“Due to the extreme variance between the vibratory distortions of third density and those of the more dense densities, if you will, Wanderers have as a general rule some form of handicap, difficulty, or feeling of alienation which is severe. The most common of these difficulties are alienation, the reaction against the planetary vibration by personality disorders, as you would call them, and body complex ailments indicating difficulty in adjustment to the planetary vibrations such as allergies, as you would call them”.

“Possibility of such problems due to 6D incarnating in 3D is rather large. Not necessarily a problem — it depends upon unique orientation of each m/b/s complex having this situation or placement of energies.”

“There are, in case of Wanderers, not only a congenital difficulty in dealing with 3D vibratory patterns but also a recollection, however dim, that these distortions are not necessary or usual in home vibration.”

Many people who resonate with being a Wanderer do so because of the most common of these difficulties,  alienation, that is severe (and I can certainly relate to that), which is probably due to the difficulty of dealing with 3D vibratory patterns that are not necessary or usual in home vibration (6D).

These difficulties are crucial and can be approached in two ways for better or worse. One can use them as an excuse to not deal with 3D life  because one feels “too spiritual” or “too good” to do so or claiming to have “transcended” anything that may require too much work to confront, be it within oneself or in the world. I have heard many times from people (Wanderers or not) that they are “too spiritual” for politics or speaking out against injustices in the world (and ultimately the 4D STS control system) because they have “transcended” it all and just want to live in the Light (misunderstanding that Light actually means Knowledge). But as Marianne Williamson said, addressing that at a talk at “Lightning in a Bottle”: There is a difference between transcendence and denial.

Others even use their “spiritual highness” as an excuse to not pay their bills, get a source of income or just managing ordinary daily affairs and reject anything that is part of life in our current 3D reality. They tend to  manipulate, leech (and essentially feed) off others, which can keep them in 3D STS frequency with the potential of getting “stuck” there, not graduating (or not going back “home”) and having to repeat the 3rd density cycle.

“If Wanderer demonstrated through action a negative orientation towards others it would be caught into the planetary vibration and, when harvested, possibly repeat master cycle of 3D as a planetary entity”.

One needs to watch out that seeing oneself as a Wanderer doesn’t become an escape and is not used as a buffer/excuse, which will only be in the way of living up to one’s potential and purpose. Laura Knight-Jadczyk makes an important point in that regard:

“This is another area where there are some misunderstandings in the spiritual life. Many seekers believe that their inability to function in the real world is like a badge of merit — a proof of their great spirituality. Physical ailments, loss of function, inability to manage ordinary daily affairs, and so on and on are all excused because the person is so “spiritual” that they cannot be expected to be bothered with such things.

Well, that’s all fine and good but wouldn’t you think that a person who is supposed to have graduated to higher spiritual realms did so because they mastered the lower ones? And, if that is the case, what is so hard about remembering those lessons and activating them at a higher level of competence this time around? If you have graduated to sixth grade, surely you can ace all the tests of third grade?

The healthier approach, which will actually help Wanderers to truly remember what they came here to do and act on it, is to confront these difficulties, learn the lessons and use the friction and shocks to create the fire within, transmuting lead into gold, building the magnetic center within, which connects them to their higher self, the real “I” and the hidden knowledge within them. This is where esoteric works come in. Wanderers actually have a better disposition to engage in this work but this is not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding as Ra said (more on that later).

Instead of rejecting these experiences and lessons due to an unconscious feeling that this is not their natural habitat, Wanderers have actually all the “tools” and knowledge to deal with them, especially since they chose to incarnate due the “the call” and request. Hence, being “spiritual” and/or being a Wanderer implies taking absolute responsibility for one’s life regardless what the challenges and difficulties may be without blame, self-pity or self-importance. This also relates to the work of Carlos Castaneda and Don Juan’s teaching of the “warrior”:

“Only as a warrior can one withstand the path of knowledge. A  warrior cannot complain or regret anything. His life is an endless challenge, and challenges cannot possibly be good or bad.  Challenges are simple challenges.”

“What seems natural is to think that a warrior who can hold his  own in the face of the unknown can certainly face petty tyrants with  impunity. But that’s not necessarily so. What destroyed the superb warriors of ancient times was to rely on that assumption. Nothing  can temper the spirit of a warrior as much as the challenge of  dealing with impossible people in positions of power. Only under  those conditions can warriors acquire the sobriety and serenity to  withstand the pressure of the unknowable.”

So regardless of Wanderers being “higher evolved” or old souls, they’re on the same playing field as everyone else on 3D earth and must do the work to access their knowledge. The only “help” they have is that they may get triggered in some way and the right book appears at the right time for example or synchronicities and coincidences may lead them to the information or life situation they need to come across and experience in order to be awakened. But they need to do the work themselves with discernment, separating truth from lies within and without. The friction and limitations of 3rd density actually serve as a catalyst for faster learning, growth and polarization. What seems clear is that Wanderers didn’t just choose to be of assistance with their coded mission and potentially teach/heal but also to learn the lessons they need to learn for their own evolution and polarization.

“[The] Wanderer has potential of greatly accelerating density whence it comes in its progress in evolution. This is due to intensive life experiences and opportunities of 3D. Positively oriented Wanderers choose to hazard danger of forgetting to be of service to others by radiating love of others. If forgetting is penetrated, amount of catalyst in 3D will polarize Wanderer w/ much greater efficiency than shall be expected in higher, more harmonious densities.

They may also be guided and awakened by higher density STO forces to be triggered through subconscious impulses but not to do the work FOR them. As the Ps said:

“All of you jumped at the chance to be here in such a challenging place at such a challenging time. You were certain you could do it. Also, you were told before you came here that there would be much assistance and that, at different junctures of your development, different entities would present themselves upon the planet in different capacities to trigger you, fire you up, and remind you-not to do it for you. We are one of those triggers, a catalyst. ….You yourself chose to be here. You are on assignment to bring memory forward and to bring the value of human existence back to the forefront of creation. You are needed…….”

Each of you has been trained, and you have the knowledge inside you. Our part is to hit key chords and play your consciousness into activity so you can go ahead and make the tune or song or dance you are prepared for. Your knowledge is inside of you, and as you agree to discover it, it will awaken on deeper and deeper levels. You will become very self-sufficient, those of you who agree to this. You will also become incredibly knowledgeable, those of you who do not stop because you are frightened. Light is information; ignorance is darkness…

Assistance comes to you in all avenues of life, yet others cannot do things for you because you designed life in such a way that the species must self-motivate and evolve in order to be empowered

It is very important to observe how you deal with events. Different events are brought to you so that you can observe them. Learn to observe your behavior and to spend much more time alone even if sometimes it is difficult for you and you feel lonely. In the long run, you will thank us for directing you to have a more meaningful encounter with yourself…

Who’s going to bail you out when the going gets rough? Where is the rescue team? You are it. In order to have this transformation take place, you must use what you have to bring it about. There is incredible assistance from all kinds of realms; however, it all depends on you, not us. You are going to change the frequency simply by commitment, determination, and willpower…”

And from the Ra material:

“The methods used to awaken Wanderers are varied. The center of each approach is the entrance into the conscious and subconscious in such a way as to avoid causing fear and to maximize the potential for an understandable subjective experience that has meaning for the entity. Many such occur in sleep, others in the midst of many activities during the waking hours. The approach is flexible and does not necessarily include the “Close Encounter” syndrome.”

This is also where free will comes in. Wanderers incarnated because of the “request” and “answering the call”. Their mission is not to preach, impose or give without being asked. From an STO perspective one can only give when asked and many people choose not to wake up, they choose not to seek truth or do conscious self-work. They choose to stay asleep, dreaming to be awake. Many even choose to be STS on a soul level,  just as many choose not to “graduate” to 4D. Free will needs to be respected, even if it is the free will to stay ignorant. Only STS violates free will through self-serving manipulation and non-asked interference. This also relates to the esoteric sayings Being wise as serpents and gentle as doves and Do not give what is holy to dogs, and do not throw your pearls before swine, or they will trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.

Asking can come in different ways and it not necessarily verbal, however, not every asking is sincere, so knowledge, discernment and awareness are required to truly distinguish between STS and STO, especially within ourselves as we all have STS tendencies, mistaking them for STO (remember that STS is the default polarity for this current 3rd density we are ALL subjected to). Are we giving to another without expectation and to truly help the other person? What part in them are we supporting? Sometimes NOT giving is actually STO in order not to support the STS feeding dynamics. Are we being externally considerate? Or are we considering internally and are trying to make ourselves feel better by “being of service” or for the sake of image/appearance/status, inflating our self-importance?  For example, if people donate money to various causes, what is their true underlying drive?

“How we admire you. We remember third density. It is the shortest of the densities, the density of choice. You are here to choose to serve the Creator by serving others or by serving the self and manipulating others. As you serve others, you may be asked to do outrageous things, to go beyond your limitations, to do what cannot be done yet which shall be done because it must. And in those situations we strongly advise that you release your personal personality and move to an impersonal portion of your deep self, that god-self of unmitigated and straightforward compassion. To determine what is pleasing as opposed to what is serving another entity is sometimes difficult, especially on the spur of the moment.

People have to learn their own lessons even if we can see how much they’re lying to themselves and are in their own ways. Free will is essentially tied to learning the lessons and understanding that everyone has their own lessons but also that there are collective lessons for all of humanity to learn. From the Cassiopaea material:

Q: What creates this environment of limitation?
A: It is the grand illusion which is there for the purpose of learning.
Q: And who put the illusion into place?
A: The Creator who is also the Created. Which is also you and us and all. As we have told you, we are you and vice versa. And so is everything else.
Q: Is the key that it is all illusion?
A: Basically, yes. As we have told you before, if you will be patient just a moment, the universe is merely a school. And, a school is there for all to learn. That is why everything exists. There is no other reason. Now, if only you understood the true depth of that statement, you would begin to start to see, and experience for yourself, all the levels of density that it is possible to experience, all the dimensions that it is possible to experience, all awareness. When an individual understands that statement to its greatest possible depth, that individual becomes illumined. And, certainly you have heard of that. And, for one moment, which lasts for all eternity, that individual knows absolutely everything that there is to know.

As an STO candidate one cannot interfere with the learning process of another, but only assist with advice, mirrors and suggestions if it is asked for. One can also spread “seeds of awareness”, share information and show the “door” if appropriate but people will have to walk through it themselves. Each situation is different and specific. No one can do the work for another, nor can anyone “save” another. As Morpheus told Neo in “The Matrix”: Unfortunately no one can be told what the matrix is, you have to see it for yourself.” .

“[The wanderer's] desire is service to others with the distortion towards reaching their hand, figuratively, to any entities who call for aid….Specific intentions such as aiding in a situation not yet manifest are not the aim of Wanderers. Light and love go where they are sought and needed, and their direction is not planned aforetimes.”

“[Different attitude toward unharvestable Earth entities?] Not substantially. To those who wish to sleep we could only offer comforts designed for sleeping. Service is only possible to extent it is requested. We were ready to serve in whatever way we could. This still seems satisfactory as a means of dealing with others in 3D. To be each entity which one attempts to serve simplifies grasp of what service is necessary/possible””

- Ra

It is not your task as members of the Family of Light to proselytize. You simply go into systems and act as receptacles…. Assistance comes to you in all avenues of life, yet others cannot do things for you because you designed life in such a way that the species must self-motivate and evolve in order to be empowered…..Not everyone is going to make the shift. Not everyone is in the vibration that wants to work in harmony at this time.

- Ps

Laura Knight-Jadczyk writes:

“Ra tells us about “wanderers,” or higher dimensional-beings who have incarnated for the purpose of assisting humanity without violating free will. This “service to others” is described as a “dispassionate attempt to share information without concern for numbers or growth among others.” The attempt to make the information available is the service. There are no shortcuts to enlightenment. It cannot be taught. It cannot be achieved with rituals or formulas. The only thing that can be shared is information, stories of inspiration, love and mystery, and experiences that may spark another person to reach out and begin seeking on their own….

Ra warns that the challenge and danger of the wanderer is that he or she will forget the mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the maelstrom. The question here is, of course, how does one become karmically involved? Ra answers: By acting in a consciously unloving manner in action with other beings. As the readers have discovered, what is or is not “love” is a huge issue. And it is in this subject that the most intensive disinformation has been promulgated, or so it seems.

All of this also relates to the topic of Organic Portals (OPs), the possibility that half of humanity does not have an individual soul and has no ability to access the higher centers, which would enable them to engage in esoteric work in order to graduate. There is nothing wrong with them, it is just part of the evolutionary process. However, one must be aware not to project one’s own soul potential into OPs who can serve as portals through which 4D STS forces can work through in order to keep souled individuals from advancing (esoterically speaking), just like agent Smith in “The Matrix” was able to insert himself into humans (programs) trying to keep Neo from awakening. The reader is encouraged to read “Organic Portals – Soulless Humans” to get a better understanding of that important topic.

Especially Wanderers need to be conscious and aware of the traps, deceptions and distractions in 3rd density which may interfere with their mission since most people are NOT like them, but have a different inner wiring so to speak. Ra mentions that “the Wanderer is less inclined to the deviousness of third density and therefore does not recognize as easily as a more negative individual would, the negative nature of thoughts or beings“.

“Ra tells us that wanderers are vulnerable because they become completely the creature of third density in mind and body, and are, by nature, less inclined to deviousness and manipulation. For this reason, they often do not recognize as easily the negative nature of other beings or thoughts before they become involved with them. Then, very often, because of this very lack of perception of negativity, they often persist in relationships that are negative because they repeatedly attribute to the other person their own benevolent motives and perceptions.

Additionally, there is just as much chance of negative hyperdimensional telepathic mind control influence being brought to bear on a wanderer as anyone else. The only difference occurs in what Ra calls the “spirit complex” which, if it wishes, has an armor of light which enables it to recognize more clearly that which is not appropriately desired. This is not more than a bias, and cannot be called an understanding. So, in other words, you just have an instinct about things that are not right. But then, with all our be-nice programming, we generally override the instinct and shove such signals under the rug, or search endlessly for reasons to excuse bad behavior…. Ra and the Cs both confirm that wanderers, however they are defined, are most definitely high-priority targets of the Matrix Controllers.

- Laura Knight-Jadczyk

Wanderers are not only subject to hypedimensional manipulation in this Matrix Control System as everyone else, but are PRIMARY targets of the 4D STS forces (Orion STS according to Ra. The Lizzies/dark shirts according to the Ps) because their mission obviously interferes with the plans of the controllers of this world and they don’t want this to happen. They don’t want to loose their food source. Laura Knight-Jadczyk makes an excellent analysis of this issue in “Soul Hackers – The Hidden Hands Behind The New Age Movement” (The Wave Book 2), chapter All There Is Is Lessons, or Wandering Around in Third Density Can Be Hazardous to Your Health. Here’s an excerpt:

[...]  The problem seems to be that of “waking up” [of the wanderer] to the nature of the mission and this presents special problems. Ra gives us several more clues:

 “Wanderers become completely the creatures of third density in mind/body complex. There is just as much chance of [them being subjected to Orion STS mind programming attempts] as to a mind/body complex of [strictly third density]. The only difference occurs in the spirit complex which, if it wishes, has an armor of light, if you will, which enables it to recognize more clearly that which is not be desired by the mind/body/spirit complex. This is not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding.”

 So we begin to understand that even the purest of the pure are subject to corruption and deception. They do seem to have a bit of help in separating the wheat from the chaff, but Ra describes it as “not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding.”

 The problem is, the “bias” often comes into direct conflict with the mind programming efforts of the Orion STS and a lot of suffering and torture can result. And there is also a special weakness of those who are configured to STO — since they don’t have meanness and deception in their own hearts, it can take almost forever for them to see it in others who are being used to keep them from awakening! Ra remarks on this as well:

 “Furthermore, the Wanderer is less inclined to the deviousness of third density and therefore does not recognize as easily as a more negative individual would, the negative nature of thoughts or beings… [If the Wanderer is successfully co-opted by the Orion STS it would be] caught into the planetary vibration and, when harvested, possibly repeat again the master cycle of third density as a planetary entity.”

Ra also confirmed Don’s remark that those with missions, Wanderers, are “high priority targets” of the Orion STS faction. That’s a scary thought!

What it means is that if a person comes into incarnation from a higher density with a mission to serve, not only are they enveloped in the “veil of forgetting”, they become special targets for a bunch of Intergalactic rapists and murderers who are only restrained in their actions by some sort of vague Law of Free Will which still allows every imaginable trick and deception to be perpetrated on them so that they will engage in relationships, beliefs, actions or reactions designed to “bring them down a few densities,” so to speak!

And they only get a “bias” toward what is Truth, and not a clear understanding!

So with all of this information we are trying to put together about what is out there just waiting to trap and deceive us, how in the world are we supposed to have a clue as to what is going on? Just who are the Good Guys here?!

“[In terms of STO contacts from the higher densities] the infringement upon free will is greatly undesired. Therefore, those entities, which are Wanderers upon your plane of illusion, will be the only subjects for the thought projections that make up the so-called “Close Encounters” and meetings…”

Ra seems to be saying that only the “Wanderers” have any hope of being in contact with the higher level “Good Guys” because they are, ipso facto, already of STO configuration and therefore, contact is not an infringement upon their free will as it would be if the STO contact came to a third density being who has not yet graduated to the higher densities.

Of course, they all look alike here on the Big Blue Marble, and they are all mostly engaged in living relatively normal lives side by side with one another. And they do have to be “awakened”! Also, there is a special condition under which Wanderers may be contacted, it seems, that pretty much eliminates your “weekend seminar” in channeling. It seems that there is an almost mathematical law involved in being able to communicate with higher density beings:

The calling of a group of people whose square overcame the integrated resistance of those unwilling to search or learn…

If we just stop and think for a moment about the nature of most people on the planet who do not want to search or learn; they do not want to think or do the necessary work that prepares a “vessel” for the inflow of higher knowledge; they want to be “saved” with as little effort as possible, then you begin to understand the odds against contact with truly higher density STO beings. That is the operation of the Law of Free Will.

The majority of beings of third density are STS — they would not be in this density otherwise. By this choice, they have also chosen the illusions that are part of this “con job”. Yes, at a very deep level, it is a choice to experience in order to learn, but let’s not get ahead of ourselves here.

By the very fact that this is the choice of the majority, the few who might truly wish to perceive the truth are overruled by the mass choice according to the law of Free Will!

Even if the being is a fourth or sixth density “Wanderer”, by entering this density, they have chosen to “play by the rules” and cannot abridge them!

Thus, in order to penetrate this “veil of forgetting”, extreme effort is required in a mathematical ratio. A consistent “call” by a group, must go out. And the energy required to penetrate the veil must be built up over a period of time in order to meet this requirement. This principle is expressed in two of the purported sayings of Jesus: “Wherever two or more are gathered in my name…” and you must “ask and keep on asking, knock and keep on knocking, and it will be opened to you.”

So, just by thinking about this very simple Law of Free Will and its implications, we come to an understanding that the likelihood of the many “sources” of information that purport to have “serendipitously” contacted this or that channel who was just humming along one day and — ZAP! — along came Swami Whosits or Koot Hoot or Lord Sandyando or whoever, are very likely victims of the deception — possibly even Wanderers being “neutralized” by STS forces, or simply those who are “agents” of the STS forces, including those programmed a la Greenbaum.

Ra did give us a figure: 65 million Wanderers on the planet at the time he was speaking. That amounts to about one person out of every hundred on the planet. But how many of them survive the attacks? How many of them actually do, can, or will wake up? Particularly when we must expect them to be objects of special “attention” in terms of “attack”?

But, apparently all is not lost! Those Wanderers who have struggled and worked or survived the attack/lessons to the point that something inside them is ready can awaken via subtle “contacts” or inner urgings:

“The feeling of being awakened or activated is the goal of this type of contact… The methods used to awaken Wanderers are varied. The center of each approach is the entrance into the conscious and subconscious in such a way as to avoid causing fear and to maximize the potential for an understandable subjective experience that has meaning for the entity. Many such occur in sleep, others in the midst of many activities during the waking hours. The approach is flexible and does not necessarily include the “Close Encounter” syndrome.”

So we are given to understand that such “wake up” experiences can be varied. Considering the deceptions and manipulations of the Orion STS that have already been described, we also must consider that there will be many efforts to block, obfuscate, or mimic such awakenings. Again, only knowledge can give us the tools with which to discriminate. Again Ra brings up a special class of attack that can occur to those who are on a destined mission, as the Cassiopaeans call it:

“Wanderers do have “Close Encounters” with Orion STS, though it is rare. [Such] occurs either due to the Orion entities’ lack of perception of the depth of positivity to be encountered or due to the Orion entities’ desire to, shall we say, attempt to remove this positivity from this plane of existence. …A mistaken Orion STS contact with highly polarized positive entities can wreak havoc with Orion troops unless [they] are able to depolarize the entity mistakenly contacted.

This occurrence is almost unheard of. Therefore, the Orion group prefers to make physical contact only with the weaker-minded entity… The most typical approach of Orion entities is to choose what you might call the weaker minded entity that it might suggest a greater amount of Orion STS philosophy to be disseminated.”

So now we begin to understand the special traps set up for these Wanderers wherein human agents are used to manipulate and control them. If they cannot be corrupted directly, the strategy is to corrupt those around them — including family, friends, spouses and associates of all kinds. While I would never claim to be one of these “Wanderers”, even if the profile does fit (since I am not inclined to “true believership” in anything), there was a curious exchange with the Cassiopaeans at one session which included another individual who also fits this profile that gives some clues as to how this occurs:

May 3, 1997

Q: (L) Reading through the session of May 23, last year, when TK was also here, and the issue of his living in isolation from the rest of the world was addressed, you asked who had begged him to stay there even though he wanted to move to a place where he could have more contact with other people and more opportunities for growth and stimulation. The answer to this question was that it was his wife who insisted on remaining even though it was clear that he was unhappy in the environment. Then you made a remark about an EM [Electromagnetic] vector. The way I understood it is that you were saying that a person can be an EM vector. Is that possible?

A: Vector means focuser of direction.

Q: (L) So his wife is the one who controls the focus of his direction. But how? Could that mean that a human being can vector EM waves simply by their presence and that these EM waves are part of the control system that manipulates people? Can it be that such “agents” are used as EM vectors in the sense that they emanate a special frequency that literally affects the mind in terms of shutting down clarity, or even actually transmitting pre-coded thought loops?

A: Precisely.

Q: (L) I also noticed that several of us have been involved with persons and relationships that seem designed to confuse, defuse, and otherwise distort our learning, as well as drain our energy. Basically, keeping us so stressed that we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some significance to this observation?

A: That is elementary, my dear Knight! […]

Q: (L) Were the individuals in our lives selected for the extremely subtle nature of their abilities to evoke pity, or were we programmed to respond to pity so that we were blind to something that was obvious to other people?

A: Neither. You were selected to interact with those who would trigger a hypnotic response that would ultimately lead to a drain of energy.

Q: (T) Well, it is a fact, because my energy is sure drained. (L) What is the purpose of this draining of energy?

A: What do you think?

Q: (T) So you can’t concentrate or do anything. You can’t get anywhere with anything.

A: Or, at least not the important things.

Q: (T) Is that why my concentration is so low?

A: Yes. You are dealing with a no-win situation!! As you know.

Q: (T) So, if I don’t get out, I will just keep going down. Is it the area or the person?

A: Both. One is wrapped within the other. […]

Q: (L) Is it true that being in the presence of such people, that one is under the influence of an energy, an emanation from them physically, that befuddles the mind and makes it almost impossible to think one’s way out of the situation?

A: It is the draining of energy that befuddles the mind.

Q: (L) Where does this energy drain?

A: 4th density STS.

Q: (L) These people we are associated with drain our energy from us and fourth density STS harvests it from them?

A: “They” do nothing!!!! 4th density STS does it all through them! […]

Lesson number 1: Always expect attack.

Lesson number 2: Know the modes of same.

Lesson number 3: Know how to counteract same.

When you are under attack, expect the unexpected, if it is going to cause problems… But, if you expect it, you learn how to “head it off,” thus neutralizing it. This is called vigilance, which is rooted in knowledge. And, what does knowledge do?

Q: (L) Protects! I guess that a person just has to come to the full realization that virtually everything that happens on the planet — no exceptions — is a symbol of some interaction of STS vs. STO energy at higher levels.

A: Yes, and for most, that is not as of yet realized. It must be part of a natural learning process.

Q: (L) Well, I guess that all of us tend to keep one or another area sacrosanct and think that it is not subject to attack, or that we can use logic and third density thinking to explain it. Until a person realizes that attack can come through even one’s self, wives and husbands, children and parents, friends — virtually anybodynobody is exempt.

A: The block is a lack of faith in the concept. Remember, when one has been indoctrinated by religion, culture and/or science, they are predisposed to view all things in the sense of the measurable physical reality exclusively. One must be cured of lack of faith in the reality of nonphysical attack.

One major thing we see from the above is that our associations can be crucial. Of course, if we are aware that anyone and everyone can be used as an “EM vector” to modulate our frequency or behavior or thinking, then we have some protection. But to be unaware of it, to be in close association with those who are unaware themselves, and therefore subject to this manipulation, is to be firmly “in the trap”.

But suppose one person in a relationship begins to “wake up”, and becomes aware (even if only vaguely), that all is not as it seems. They will have continual glimpses of the reality, mostly when not in the presence of the other individual. They may clearly see that something is not working, that it is not right, and may even make decisions to change it or to leave. But the instant the other person is physically present with their EM vectoring capabilities, the glimpses of truth are “damped” or even shut down and the waking person begins to feel schizophrenic or crazy in some way for having such conflicting and opposing thoughts. Add to this the social and religious enculturation to “turn the other cheek” or “suffer because it’s noble and holy,” and you have the recipe for cooking the Wanderer’s goose!

Another of the factors in the control system is the “self-destruct” program. Obviously the aliens have no problem abducting and killing and eating many people who are still lost in the initial choice for STS/third density. But there are the special cases of the Wanderers who, obviously, the STS invaders don’t want to tangle with at that level, as described above by Ra, so they have a rather clever way around this little stumbling block to their machinations: the suicide game.

This is a very cunning setup, I can tell you! It can follow a variety of lines in the lives of different people, and it seems that the STS Orions take some sort of fiendish delight in designing variations for their entertainment pleasure, but the gist of it is this: a Wanderer is born. Obviously they have to be born somewhere, to some family, with certain genetics. It is also equally obvious that the choices probably don’t include having Wanderers for parents or siblings, (though there are exceptions). There they are, innocent little babies, volunteers for a great mission, surrounded by potential EM vectors and Lizzie agents! And the game begins!

Abuse — physical, sexual, and psychological — comes into play to “set them up” for a later fall — if in fact they are not just simply killed by same right at the beginning. But the special characteristic of the Wanderer type is that they continue to “shine” with a sort of “inner purity” of the questing spirit even in the face of such treatment. As a result of this abuse, they can be attached by any number of “dead dudes” or elementals or even demonic-type entities that enter in through wounds in the psychological/psychic shield like cosmic bacteria.

The usual next stage in this drama is to cause the Wanderer to be attracted to a particular type of person who is a sort of “false image” of STO. This can be what researcher Eve Lorgen calls a Love Bite relationship where a great “cosmic love” is simulated, only to fall flat as soon as the EM vector is turned off. The intended result of this betrayal is to induce suicidal feelings or to set the Wanderer up for the next variation of the game.

What happens now is that the Wanderer is set up by the previous dramas to seek out marriage or love partners who are also abusive either overtly or covertly. And, of course, the Wanderer’s special characteristics of being unable to really understand negative thinking because it is not a part of their own make-up, prevents them from seeing exactly what is going on. They always seem to attribute the same high motives and ideals to others that are in themselves. They endlessly excuse abuse and hurt to themselves and others with the idea that if they just love the other long enough, hard enough, pure enough or stand by them through thick and thin, that the abuser will overcome their hurts/wounds which are the cause of their abusive behavior, and they will then be able to be whole, which, of course, the Wanderer believes to be a person similar to themselves!

Gee, sounds like the Way of the Monk, doesn’t it? Perhaps that “way” was created just to trap such positive individuals and to use them as energy food for STS.

Then there is the constant projection of the suicide program by the many EM vectors that the Wanderer finds in their environment. It takes careful observation to determine who these individuals may be, but it can be done! The natural feelings of being lost and alone and alienated from this environment are intensified and twisted so that the Wanderer begins to focus solely upon the idea of getting out from under this enormous psychic pressure. Spirit attachments can also be used in this respect, attacking the Wanderer from the “inside”, so to speak.

 April 15, 1995

Q: (L) [You have mentioned attack.] Is this physical danger or just harassment danger?

A: Mind attack for purpose of self-destruction.

Q: (L) Is there anything that can be done to shield against this kind of attack?

A: Yes. Knowledge input on a continuous basis.

Q: (L) And what form should this knowledge take? Does this mean channeled information, books, videos, what?

A: All and other. Networking of information now, warning!!! All others will very soon experience great increase of same type of attack, two of you have had episodes in past from same source for similar reasons, but now your association puts you in different category!! Remember all channels and those of similar make-up are identified, tracked, and “dealt with”. Suicidal thoughts?

Q: (T) So, we have the knowledge and that’s all we need to do to prevent the attacks from being nasty?

A: You do not have all the awareness you need! Not by any means! Remember, all there is is lessons. Daily prayer helps.

Through it all, the Wanderer never whines or complains that others are “doing it to” them; they always tend, first of all, to seek in themselves the cause of the events or the treatment they receive. They react with the idea that somehow they are not giving enough or in the right way, though they are entirely naive about what “giving” really is because, as mentioned, they have been brainwashed by the erroneous ideals of the third density STS environment which are manipulations to induce service to an illusion.

With this enculturation, the most difficult thing that the Wanderer has to face and do is to learn to not give in some instances, because this not giving is actually a form of giving at the soul level. Ra exemplifies this in a curious series of comments:

For many of your centuries, both the [STO group] and the [STS group] busied themselves with each other upon planes above your own, shall we say, planes in time/space whereby machinations were conceived and the armor of light girded. Battles have been and are continuing to be fought upon these levels.

…Picture [your mind] in total unity with all other minds of your society. You are then single-minded and that which is a weak electrical charge in your physical illusion is now an enormously powerful machine whereby thoughts may be projected as things.

…In this endeavor the [STS group] charges or attacks the [STO group] armed with light. The result, a standoff, as you would call it, both energies being somewhat depleted by this and needing to regroup; the negative depleted through failure to manipulate, the positive depleted through failure to accept that which is given.

…[To explain “failure to accept that which is given”]: At the level of time/space which this takes place in the form of what you may call thought-war, the most accepting and loving energy would be to so love those who wished to manipulate that those entities were surrounded and engulfed, transformed by positive energies.

…This, however, being a battle of equals, the [STO group] is aware that it cannot, on equal footing, allow itself to be manipulated in order to remain purely positive, for then though pure it would not be of any consequence, having been placed by the so-called powers of darkness under the heel, as you may say. It is thus that those who deal with this thought war must be defensive rather than accepting in order to preserve their usefulness in service to others. Thusly, they cannot accept fully what the [STS group] wishes to give, that being enslavement.

 …The only consequence which has been helpful is a balancing of the energies available to this planet so that these energies have less necessity to be balanced in this time/space, thus lessening the chances of planetary annihilation.

So we see here a guiding principle of balance. For those who believe that it is Love to “accept enslavement” — which is to respond to manipulation and thereby serve the STS faction, it becomes clear that to do so is to neutralize their effectiveness as an STO candidate because they are then no longer “purely positive”! By accepting the manipulations, they become part of the other side!

 The bottom line here is this: if you are duped or sucked into the illusions of the machinations of STS, you are effectively “one of them”, no matter what your intentions, and you thus further contribute to the unbalanced energies. This neutralizes the true nature of Service to Others. [...]

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We can see now that being a Wanderer is not a walk in the park, nor a “free ride” on this planetary experience. It doesn’t matter what knowledge they have brought with them. It takes tremendous work, vigilance and discernment to bring it forth and act on it, being aware of attacks from the “other team”.  This entails much conscious struggle and suffering, especially at the beginning, as the Wanderer is activating his/her higher centers linking him/her to his/her higher self more consciously, so they start to remember and align themselves with their life’s purpose.

This purpose is not a definition and task one realizes over night. It’s a process and since the future is open with different potential outcomes, the tasks based on the wanderer’s inherent gifts will reveal themselves more specifically according to specific situations and the choices they make. Their direction is not planned aforetimes. This also depends on the Wanderer’s conscious self-work to learn the lessons he/she needs to learn in order to be truly of service. This implies not only remembering themselves but also gaining Knowledge on a continuous basis.

“Purpose is realized by taking the journey, not by establishing a favorable or fascinating explanation or a definition for oneself. Purpose is not a justification. It does not compensate for anything. Purpose is something that is waiting for you to discover. You can only discover it by taking the journey, by following the way, by learning as you go and by gaining the greater perspective and understanding that one acquires as one matures in The Way of Knowledge.

This journey requires phenomenal self-honesty. Humility, honesty, openness, discernment, restraint, discretion, tolerance and compassion— these are qualities that result from preparation and advancement in The Way of Knowledge. These things are what provide inspiration and true ability in life…..With greater awareness comes a greater ability. This all comes from Knowledge. Here you are asked to follow, to respond and to learn the great lessons in discernment, discretion, communication and affinity. These lessons are inherent in the preparation itself…..Accept that the journey is great. It is marvelous. It is at times difficult. But in all ways it refines you. It washes away that which is nonessential in you and reveals that which is permanent and meaningful. Your real purpose and calling become apparent when all that hides and conceals them has fallen away, and what is left is what is real, and that becomes welcomed and embraced.

I can relate to this in my own life. As mentioned before, I came to the Los Angeles to study drums and percussion and play in bands. It was the beginning of my journey towards self-discovery. I was following my bliss, as Joseph Campbell would say. Back then I thought that was my purpose, what I really wanted to do. Nothing else mattered. I played drums 4-6 hours a day, rehearsed with my band and put my heart and soul into it. All I wanted to do was make music, tour and make a living as a musician. However, I was still suffering and struggling internally. A lot of things came up during that time for me which I was forced to look at, otherwise I would have not survived as my depression and despair put me on the edge of insanity.

At the same time new friends and and situations came into my life which introduced me to the healing arts, in particular yoga, qi gong, and bodywork as well as shamanism and medicine plants, which also helped me in my inner process. Interestingly I wasn’t seeking these things out fully conscious. It just happened in the flow of life as I was seeking answers and trying to heal and understand myself. Something else was guiding me. During that time I also discovered another talent: bodywork. My roommate back then, who was a yoga teacher and bodyworker, introduced me to it, worked on me and started to teach me some basic massage techniques. He became my mentor. Having had tremendous breakthroughs and healing moments physically and emotionally through receiving bodywork, I experienced first hand the healing power of it. I began to do bodywork on friends and seemed to have a healing touch for it based on the feedback I received. People came to me asking me to work on them on a regular basis, yet I didn’t think of doing it professionally back then. My focus was still on music and drumming.

I started to write during my time with my band Revolve in early 2000. We gave out writings at our shows to spread awareness, but eventually my drive to seek truth and knowledge overshadowed the musical aspect of my life and it seemed very natural when the band broke up. Writing helped me to learn and clarify the new information I was taking in. Many insights came along with it. I was inspired and wanted to share all this amazing hidden Knowledge about our reality and what was happening on our planet. Looking back I can see how this at times was not externally considerate and I was trying to give without being asked. I can also see how I was gullible and not discerning about some of the information I came across back then. I was drinking the New Age cool-aid at one point, driven by wishful thinking, emotional hooks and was not very discerning. However, it complicated my life even more. Thankfully the universe didn’t give me what I “wanted”, but what I “needed” at that time to snap me out it.

When my band Revolve broke up after inspiring years of musical creativity, recording and touring, I enrolled in Massage School to pursue bodywork, the new talent I had discovered. It seemed the universe literally pushed me to do it and I was answering the call. I have been working as a professional bodyworker ever since. It was a complete shift in my life path and it seemed that certain triggers lead me to it without my “conscious” choice. Looking back at my life, connecting the dots, I feel like what the late Apple founder Steve Jobs said. When discovering your bliss, sometimes you just gotta do things because you are drawn to them for reasons you canʼt fully understand in the moment and only in retrospect can you connect the dots in your life and see how it all works together. For example, I know now that without my years as a drummer, using music and drumming for healing and emotional exploration (even if I wasn’t fully aware of that back then), and without my suffering and crisis, I wouldn’t be the bodyworker and healer Iʼm today nor write about the things I’m writing now. However, I never “planned” to become a bodyworker or writer. I know now that I had to confront my dark side, programming and conditioning and heal myself, however painful it was, in order to become my real Self (and there is always more work to do). As Carl Jung said: There is no coming to consciousness without pain. It’s the mythological journey of Chiron, the Wounded Healer, who in his search for his own cure discovered how to heal others. The lesson of Chiron teaches us is that we can overcome pain and transcend into knowledge.

“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.”

- Steve Jobs

I also had many assisting forces, seen and unseen, spirit guides and non-physical STO forces that guided me along when I was able and willing to “listen”. There were many friends, mentors and teachers that came in and out of my life who helped me along the way, assisting me on my path or giving me just the right book to read. And of course, in light of the Knowledge I have now, I can also see how STS forces and the Matrix Control System have tried to steer me off my path (sometimes disguised as “angels”, “friends” or romantic relationships) working through people (and my own predator) with temptations and distractions, getting at my weak spots. However, I felt very strongly throughout my life that I came here with a specific purpose that is beyond what I “think” I want to do at times and this purpose seems to crystallize itself and becomes clearer as I learn my lessons, “get myself out of the way” and remember more of who I truly am. There is still much more to learn and to remember.

“A hero is someone who has given his or her life to something bigger than oneself.”

- Joseph Campbell

My intent for sharing my personal story throughout this article is also for you to reflect back on your own life and see how you “got here”, so you can understand your past and your life choices better, when you have been truly acting in alignment with your higher self or self-sabotaging because of conditioned/programmed patterns and beliefs. That way we can understand our present better and create our future more consciously. What worked for me may not work for another. We all have our own story, individual lessons to learn, karma to work out and talents to develop.

“Each Wanderer has unique abilities, biases, specialties so that from each portion of each Density represented among Wanderers come array of pre-incarnative talents which may be expressed so that each Wanderer, in offering itself before incarnation, has some special service to offer in addition to the doubling effect of planetary love/light [vibrations adding to the planet just as electrical polarity or charging a battery] and basic function of serving as beacon or shepher….

The best way of service to others is the constant attempt to seek to share the love of the Creator as it is known to the inner self. This involves self knowledge and the ability to open the self to the other-self without hesitation. This involves, shall we say, radiating that which is the essence or the heart of the mind/body/ spirit complex…. The best way for each seeker in third density to be of service to others is unique to that mind/body/spirit complex. This means that the mind/body/ spirit complex must then seek within itself the intelligence of its own discernment as to the way it may best serve other-selves. This will be different for each.

- Ra

Let’s take the archetypal Hero’s Journey a bit deeper and look at the awakening process more closely, knowing now that there are other forces acting against us, trying to keep us from advancing esoterically. The initiatory process is the same in all true mystery teachings. It is not a sudden “enlightenment” where one feels One with everything. It is not a pleasant event at all, but is a decent into the underworld, fighting demons, coming to terms with the predator within and the lies one is telling oneself, dying and being reborn, crossing the threshold which enables one to engage in esoteric work consciously. Laura Knight Jadczyk writes in “The Wave” Volume 5&6 “Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown“:

“The moment of true initiation. It seems that, as the great masters teach us, it is not a moment of “great enlightenment.” It is not someone who comes to “show us reality.” It is not a “seeing all the world as a oneness.” It is seeing the self as a liar and a feeder on others. It is measuring the self with TRUTH. It is seeing that the predator has been feeding on the self, that the self has been feeding on others and propagating the infection on to all those who one claims to love and wish to help.

Initiation is not a glorious inpouring of life and love and tears for the beauty and oneness of the world.

It is sheer terror.

It is a descent into Hell. It is the Shamanic descent into the underworld to do battle with demons. It is the dismemberment of the body, the flaying of the flesh from the bones, and the subsequent rebuilding of the self on a different foundation – a foundation of spiritual verity.

And if I could convey to you that Hell, that sensation, that solitary test in which the soul is weighed, BY THE SELF, finally and completely and seen for what it has truly done, you would see how little truth there is because of all the beliefs of the Matrix that have been inculcated and promulgate and tended so carefully by our emotions and by the deceptions of the predator within who convinces us that we are “good” and “pure” and there is “oneness.”

Indeed, one sees that there is “oneness,” but one sees that the aspect of God that is experienced at this level is the black, sucking, feeding maw of STS (Service to Self). One sees how little true Love is actually manifested at this level of being. One sees that all of our illusions about “goodness” and truth and beauty are LIES. They are masks for more feeding. And that is so horrifying an initiation that few survive.

That is “paying everything.”

Now, re-read what Gurdjieff had to say about the matter; how he pointed out that a person has to “pay in advance,” that the key is to accept the idea that one is not what one thinks, that there is a different reality from which our own is projected, and that developing this idea in the realm of pure thought, and then using it as the platform by which one can observe and analyze, is the key to being able to see for a moment, and then again. One must be able to see the interactions of the Petty Tyrants in our lives, the Predators who prey on us in the Theological Reality. And then, one must be willing to act. It is only after action that the true nature of the Predator reveals itself just as the Vampire reacts with violence to being exposed by the presence of a mirror. Because, it must be kept always in mind that there ARE predators who are predators by choice – even if that choice is made at some level, in some part of themselves that is not available to even their own conscious awareness. They, too, are part of the Matrix, and they wouldn’t be able to play their roles if they were not consciously convinced that they are right, that they are “good,” that they are righteous and long-suffering.”

As I was diving deeper into Esoteric Science coming across Gurdjieff’s 4th Way Teachings as well as Boris Mouravieff’s “Gnosis”, it all seemed to confirm in many ways what I’ve encountered throughout my life in the process of awakening and in relation to my inner state and to outer circumstances, people and the world at large, from “moral bankruptcy”, the death of the “personality”, to struggle with forces trying to keep me from advancing/waking up, to seeing the light and forming the “magnetic center”. All of which is still a process and much work is still to be done. We are all works in progress in our own ways.

The Way is the ensemble of practices which, carried out properly according 
to the principles of esoteric science, will allow man to evolve.”

- Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis I

As mentioned before, every once in a while a book or teaching presents itself, which acts like a “guide”, appearing sat just the right moment in time, helping and showing me that I’m “on track”, describing things I’ve been through and hinting at where it is all leading to and what one must do or not do in order to awaken.

What follows are some insights into Esoteric Science as transmitted by Boris Mouravieff in his trilogy “Gnosis”. Maybe some of you can recognize yourselves in these words as well. For some these writings may strike home, touching something deep within beyond the personality of the false “I”. For others it may sound very foreign and complex. This also relates to what Ra said about Wanderers having a disposition towards esoteric work or other souled individuals who have the seed that can sprout and grow, activating the higher centers. This work is not for everyone. As Mouravieff said in his introduction to “Gnosis”:

“Some people complain that the subject of the fundamentals of esotericism is not simple. Others have said that it leads to great clarity.  This apparent contradiction is explained by the fact that esotericism is addressed to readers who are predisposed to esoteric culture by their nature, formation or personal experience.”

We also know that no steps can be skipped, the lessons need to be learned and that starting with the right foundation is imperative so one doesn’t over-estimate one’s level of Being at the start of the journey. I know out of personal experience that I was grasping certain esoteric ideas intellectually at first, but it wasn’t matched up with my Being and Understanding to truly apply the Knowledge I gained. In other words I didn’t embody it. It’s the fine balance between Knowledge, Being and Understanding  A false foundation can also result if one gets hooked by a false teaching for example, mistaking lies for truth or having “sacred cows”, which are beliefs one is identified with, hence taking any challenge to ones beliefs as a personal attack (Identification with a nation/country is a good example for that). As the Cs said: Gaining false Knowledge is more dangerous than gaining no Knowledge.” Gurdjieff makes this point in Ouspenky’s “In Search of the Miraculous”:

“In the history of humanity there are known many examples when entire civilizations have perished because knowledge outweighed being or being outweighed knowledge. “What are the results of the development of the line of knowledge without being, or the development of the line of being without knowledge?” someone asked during a talk upon this subject.

The development of the line of knowledge without the line of being gives a weak yogi,” said G., “that is to say, a man who knows a great deal but can do nothing, a man who does not understand” (he emphasized these words) “what he knows, a man without appreciation, that is, a man for whom there is no difference between one kind of knowledge and another.

And the development of the line of being without knowledge gives a stupid saint, that is, a man who can do a great deal but who does not know what to do or with what object; and if he does anything he acts in obedience to his subjective feelings which may lead him greatly astray and cause him to commit grave mistakes, that is, actually to do the opposite of what he wants. In either case both the weak yogi and the stupid saint are brought to a standstill.

Neither the one nor the other can develop further.

In order to understand this and, in general, the nature of knowledge and the nature of being, as well as their interrelation, it is necessary to understand the relation of knowledge and being to ‘understanding.’

Knowledge is one thing, understanding is another thing.

People often confuse these concepts and do not clearly grasp what is the difference between them. Knowledge by itself does not give understanding. Nor is understanding increased by an increase of knowledge alone. Understanding depends upon the relation of knowledge to being. Understanding is the resultant of knowledge and being. And knowledge and being must not diverge too far, otherwise understanding will prove to be far removed from either. At the same time the relation of knowledge to being does not change with a mere growth of knowledge. It changes only when being grows simultaneously with knowledge. In other words, understanding grows only with the growth of being.

In ordinary thinking, people do not distinguish understanding from knowledge. They think that greater understanding depends on greater knowledge. Therefore they accumulate knowledge, or that which they call knowledge, but they do not know how to accumulate understanding and do not bother about it.”

“…..A man must first of all understand certain things. He has thousands of false ideas and false conceptions, chiefly about himself, and he must get rid of some of them before beginning to acquire anything new. Otherwise the new will be built on a wrong foundation and the result will be worse than before. To speak the truth is the most difficult thing in the world; one must study a great deal and for a long time in order to speak the truth. The wish alone is not enough. To speak the truth one must know what the truth is and what a lie is, and first of all in oneself. And this nobody wants to know.

The path toward “Ascension”, to rise above this world (Being in this world but not of it), The Way of esoteric work is also told in stories in form of symbols. The clues are everywhere for the Initiated to see. It relates to seeing the unseen. There are ‘B’ influences, not of this world which are conscious in their origin and have been created consciously outside life by conscious people for a definite purpose. These influences are the “soul” of any culture and they are embodied in the form of religious systems and teachings, philosophical doctrines, art, etc., as opposed to ‘A’ influences ( such as race, nation, country, pop culture, family, profession, entertainment, current ideas, customs and so on) which relate to “The General Law” and “Law of Accident”, keeping man asleep at the mercy of the external world
, lost in the wilderness of everyday life. Discernment between those two is vital for the wanderer, esoteric student and seeker, separating truth from lies.

A and B influences have been mixed throughout history. Many spiritual inclined people tend to mistake A for B influences. Much of the popular New Age material with its superficial and vague spirituality falls into that category. We can see millions of well intentioned people in our world wanting to change the world for “the better” through voting or pseudo new age spirituality a la “The Secret”, wanting to”create” a new reality. However, most of them don’t confront their interior but stay in the “wilderness” of ‘A’ influences, the lies that are the basis of the Illusion/Matrix. And so instead of breaking out of the prison, they re-enforce it through the distortion of their conditioned personality and wishful thinking, enhancing their false “I” instead of strengthening their essence. In many ways what we see in today’s popular spiritual concepts and self-help books is the opposite of what the ancient esoteric traditions have taught. People can be very successful within the matrix of A influences, make a lot of money, have a successful career, become famous, etc. but not have progressed esoterically/spiritually one bit. From Mouravieff’s Gnosis:

“If man spends his life without distinguishing between ‘A’ and ‘B’ influences, he will end it as he started, one could say mechanically, driven by the Law of Accident. However, according to the nature and the intensity of the resultant forces to which he is subjected, it can happen to him to make a brilliant career, in the meaning the world gives to this expression. Yet he will come to the end of his days without having either learned or understood anything of Reality.

Man can delude himself and, believing he is absorbing ‘B’ influences and making the necessary selection all the while, he in fact absorbs ‘A’ influences.This will put him into contact with people who possess magnetic centres of the same nature: who are themselves duped or who dupe others, and who have no direct or indirect link with the esoteric Centre. What guarantee can man have that he will not dupe himself and that he will not fall into the latter situation? The answer is simple. The purity of the magnetic centre must be scrupulously maintained from the start and all through his evolution.”

One can see now very clearly that much of the New Age and pop-spirituality is in actuality ‘A’ influences packaged in a ‘B’ wrapping. Truth mixed with lies, which can divert the seeker from his real “I” and true awakening. An example would be the whole abstract new age bits of “sending love and light into the world”, focusing just on “good” thoughts, visualizing the “light body” as a means of ascension, or just “being open”, avoiding anything “bad” or “negative”, ignoring the “unpleasant” and just focus on manifesting one’s desires, etc …

As long as one has not established the purity of the magnetic center through deep self-work and conscious suffering one just acts in STS, putting the false personality’s (ego’s) subjective will on to the world which only fuels entropy and feeding dynamics, strengthening the STS polarity while lying to oneself about one’s state of being and awareness.

In that sense much New Age material is just like fundamental Religion. It works on blind belief, wishful thinking, not Knowledge and Truth. And so many seekers are developing a false magnetic center, a false foundation,who are themselves duped or who dupe others, and who have no direct or indirect link with the esoteric Centre.” That’s also how wanderers can be duped and being vectored away from the mission they came to accomplish.

Furthermore, the one’s promoting just to focus on “love and light” (without understanding the true meaning of these words) and ignoring the “bad/negative” the loudest are the ones most heavily duped, more duped than the average sleeping man, because the former actually thinks he has awakened and can “see” now…….little does he know that he’s going in circles vectored by ‘A’ influences and staying in the “wilderness”, dreaming to be awake.

On that note, there is nothing “wrong” with desires of the ego/personality and just creating reality based on unquestioned desires of the “I”, nothing “wrong” with shutting off anything “bad” and “unpleasant” and keep living in a subjective tunnel vision and wishful thinking based on Service to Self (STS). Enjoy! It’s a free will universe. Everyone can do as they want to, be it you, me, Bush, Obama or anyone else. However, what needs to be kept in mind is that this approach has nothing to do with conscious spiritual evolution or the “path of ascension”. It is the reason why the world and its people are on a course to self-destruction. It’s not a spiral upward but a spiral downward that grinds itself into an abyss. Humanity has evolved technologically, but not spiritually/consciously really at all and man is still mostly driven by his lower centers and mechanical personality.

“What strikes us from the very beginning is that man confuses moral progress with technical progress, so that the development of science continues in dangerous isolation. The brilliant progress that has come from technology has changed nothing essential in the human condition, and will change nothing, because it operates only in the field of everyday events. For this reason it touches the inner life of man only superficially.”

- Mouravieff, Gnosis

Life on Earth as we know it, this 3rd density experience is based on STS, Service to Self. STO, Service to Others, is something man can aspire to through conscious evolution. During this Time of Transformation the choice to be made is really between STO and STS and truly understanding what that means, differentiating between A and B influences, separating lies from truth, inside oneself and outside in the world. This is the age of awakening but also the age of deceit and deception, not only through the obvious political circus, but through corrupted spiritual teachings as well, be it dogmatic religion or New Age hype.

“The next is manipulation of spiritual values and tendencies.It is no accident that in the last four years that we’ve seen in new religious thought the religion of acquiescence and passivity: trusting in the process; whatever happens is what needs to happen; everyone is right where they need to be;… you don’t resist; you acquiesce; to resist is to be negative, is to be fearful, is to be unconscious. A great prescription for convincing the natives to give over the keys to the kingdom, a very good, clever form of manipulation.”

- M. V. Summers

It’s like taking the red or blue pill (as in the film “The Matrix”), truth or illusion, waking up or staying asleep. There is no “right” or “wrong” choice. There is only choice, as it is, respecting free will. However, most people do not even know that there is a choice to be made in this time of transition and are in the dark about what is happening on this planet, manipulated through hyperdimensional STS forces working through themselves, government, religion, official culture, corrupted new age teachings, channeled material, etc… .

Interestingly, one can also see how the mystery teachings were also describing a “Hyperdimensional Control System“, the “General Law” in esoteric terms, acting on man, keeping him in line with mechanical unconscious behavior to be “Food for the Moon”. In order to escape the Matrix/General Law man needs to align oneself with “The Law of Exception”, engaging in esoteric work with conscious effort. There is a threshold to be crossed, a void, which puts the seeker on The Way. The process and necessity of moral bankruptcy ,which initiates the seeker into “The Way” of esoteric work, is described in more detail in Boris Mouravieff’s “Gnosis”. This also relates to the idea of wanderers and their initiation/awakening process.

“This void, which can only be crossed at the cost 
of considerable effort or even of super-efforts, operates selectively. 
The character and the quantity of effort necessary differs for
 each person, depending upon the nature and degree of deformation of the
 mind of each exterior man; an individual factor

Man was compared to a cell of organic life on Earth. 
Because he belongs to this organism, man is subject to the General Law, and 
it is only when he has escaped it that he is elevated to the Law of Exception.

We are not aware of how much we are bound by the action of the General 
Law. Acting on us as it does on our cells, this law immobilizes us or
 constantly tends to bring us back to our place. Its strength leaves us little 
freedom of action outside the limits of its direction and scope. It acts in
 various ways. One can say that if man lives ‘like everyone else’, if he does
not venture off the beaten track, he will never perceive the existence of this
force, or rather this force will ignore him.

We can see this very clearly in our world. Everyone who is just going along with the masses and the accepted reality of official culture has not much struggle in the world. Birth, school, choose a career, get a job, buy a TV, consume, reproduce, entertain, be nationalistic or religious, follow your desires and impulses unexamined, etc…
 Not knowing himself, but a slave to the outside world, fully asleep, dreaming to be awake under the control of the General Law/Matrix, the common man has no free will, although he thinks he does. 
However, whenever someone awakens, steps up and tries to “escape” the General Law/Matrix by speaking up and seeking truth, forces are put on to him to put him back in line, back to sleep. They will be ridiculed or even silenced (Gandhi, MLK, John Lennon and many other truth seekers most people haven’t even heard about), depending on their impact. Anything that is not a threat to the MCS (Matrix Control System) or General Law will be ignored or even promoted heavily, be it dogmatic religion, politics, entertainment or new age fluff which works in favor of the PTB (powers that be).

But if his enterprises are out of the ordinary, 
no matter what field they are in, but especially in esotericism,
 this force begins to act, and stirs up all sorts of obstacles in order to bring
 him back to the point where — according to the General Law — he must
 reside. Even without knowing this force, we have an intuition of its 
existence and of the many forms which clothe it. The Holy Scripture s
speak of it more than once, especially where esoteric work is concerned.

Thus, if this conservative force, which is the 
servant of the General Law, does not succeed in ‘calming’ man by acting
directly upon him, it tries to reach him indirectly through the people of his
household, either through the feelings they invoke or the coolness and
 contempt they openly show him.

 As long as it is not mastered, the force of illusion keeps 
each one of us in his place, obliging him most often to
 mistake the false for the true.

Submerged in unreality, instead of advancing, 
man marks time; one step forward and two steps backwards; two 
steps forward and one step backwards, and so on.

We generally agree to recognize the existence of the danger of 
Illusion, but rather theoretically; most often, we see its action on those
 round about us, but not on ourselves. We continue to live day by day in the
 same old way, so that the power we know as the Devil still triumphs.
 Whatever name we give it, it remains ever-present.

We live in an artificial,
 illusory world.

 The power of illusion which chains us exerts its action individually on each
 one of us, as well as collectively. Each mind is falsified in a way peculiar to 
it. What can be the outcome of such a situation? If we keep quietly to 
our place, human careers open to us … just as long as we stay far away from
t he void. We may have a happy or unhappy life; a family life; a life of loves;
 we may make discoveries, travel, write. Then comes the end. 
Our reasoning starts to become more realistic if our attention is concentrated
 on this end. Everything can happen to us in life; or nothing. Our 
aspirations can be fulfilled or unfulfilled, but there is a sure end, which is
 death.”

“The Threshold” to be crossed out of the wilderness which grants the access to the “The Way” and staircase to transcend the Matrix/General Law is described in esoteric parables:

Lost in a forest full of wild beasts, moved by confused but deep feelings, a bewildered
man searches for the way. Exhausted after running the gauntlet of a thousand
 dangers, he emerges at the edge.
 Spread out before him is a view which fills him with admiration mixed with fear: a
great castle of primitive beauty is on the other side of a large moat filled with clear
and living water. Behind the castle a happy valley opens out, lit by the last rays of the
sun. To the left, a dark reddish horizon warns of a coming storm.
 Marveling, and seized by a passionate desire to reach the castle, he forgets the 
dangers and fatigue to which he has been exposed.

- ‘How do I get there?’ He asks himself.

Suddenly he hears a Voice speaking to him from his inmost heart. 
’The moat’, it says, ‘can only be crossed by swimming… the current is strong and
 the water icy.

‘
In spite of this, the man feels a surge of new strength mounting within him. 
Committed, he throws himself into the moat. The cold paralyses his breathing, 
but by an extreme effort of will he reaches the other side in a few strokes and jumps
 onto the first step of the stairs, where he gets a foothold. Three more immense
granite steps tower above him. They lead to a large stage in the form of a semicircle,
 defended by two towers. Two closed doors give access to them.
 A roaring sound comes to his ears. The man turns. At the place where he stood
only instants before, a pack of wolves paw at the ground.
The day is coming to an end. In the dusk he can still distinguish the blazing eyes of
the hungry beasts.
 Again he hears the Voice telling him:

- ‘All in all, the risk was not that great. If you had refused, you would have been
torn to shreds by the wolves.’

Terrified by his escape from that danger, the man estimates the difficulties that will
 accompany his climb.
He had hardly started to climb the second step when a deluge of rain falls, making 
the stones slippery and obstructing his movement — yet he ends by getting a foothold. 
The storm passes and the rain diminishes. His face and clothes drip heavily
onto the stone.

- ‘Little does it matter,’ says the Voice, ‘you had already got wet crossing the
moat’

The man regains his breath again and starts climbing. Night falls, and the crescent
of the new moon appears pale and golden on his right, towards the setting sun.

-  ‘A good sign,’ he hears within himself.
 The man smiles. Now he clings to a tiny ledge, reaching for the third step. He
 reaches it, hands and legs stained with blood. No sooner had he stood up than a gust
of glacial wind almost throws him off again. Clinging to the ground, he climbs up to 
the wall forming the fourth step, and finds shelter there.

-  ‘That is not all,’ says the Voice. Do not waste time taking shelter. The step can
split, and then the earth will swallow you up.’

His resistance to the storm, instead of exhausting him, redoubles his strength. 
Now he climbs the fourth step with little difficulty, although it is as high as the 
preceding ones.

 Standing, he hears an alarm trumpet like thunder. Suddenly, a scorching wind
strikes him in the face. He lifts his eyes. In the obscurity of the night, a shining
 figure stands to attention before him: It is the Guardian, clad in armor and shining
 helmet, arms outstretched, a blazing sword in his hand and pointed towards the man.

- ‘Who are you, pilgrim?’ he asks. ‘To what end and in whose name have you
passed these obstacles and climbed the steps of paradise?’

Overcome by a surge of ineffable joy, the man repeats in a loud voice the words he 
has just heard in the depth of his heart. He feels as if they are now his, and answers
 the Guardian with courage.

- ‘I am the Soul in search of divine happiness; a particle aspiring to unite with the
 Creative Principle I’

- ‘Your answer is correct’, replies the Guardian.

The door to the tower on the right opens. The sword returns to its sheath. The
 Guardian takes the man by the hand and leads him across the threshold of the open
door…
Dawn gilds the eastern sky. Precursor of the Sun, the morning Star shines above
 the happy Valley.

Here is another one of these fragments, taken from classical literature: a passage from Turgenev:

I see a great building, one enormous mass. In the front wall is a narrow arch with
open doors; behind them, dark mists. In front of the high threshold there is a young 
girl… a pretty Russian girl.

A breeze comes from the dark and icy mists, a current of freezing air, bringing
with it from the depths of the building the sound of a slow and muffled voice.

- ‘You who aspire to cross this threshold, do you know what awaits you here?

- ‘I know,’ answers the young girl.
 – ‘Cold, hunger, hate, mockery, scorn, injustice, prison, illness and even death?’

- ‘I know it. ‘
- ‘Do you expect to be shunned by everyone? Do you expect to be totally alone?’

- ‘I am ready. I know it. I shall bear all the suffering and all the blows’. 
- ‘Even if they do not come from enemies, but from parents, from friends?’
 – ‘Yes… even from those…’

- ‘Good. Do you accept the sacrifice?’
 – ‘Yes’. 
- ‘An anonymous sacrifice? You will perish and nobody… but nobody will even
know whose memory to honor?’

- ‘I have no use for recognition and pity. I have no use for a name.’ – ‘Are you ready for crime?’ 
The young girl bowed her head.
 – ‘Even for crime.’

The voice which was questioning her did not continue right away. At last it started
 again: 
— ‘Do you know that one day you will believe no more in what you believe in
now, and come to think that you have been a dupe and that it was for nothing that
you have lost your young life?’ 
— ‘That too I know. Well though I know it, I wish to enter.’
 The young girl crossed the threshold.

A heavy curtain fell.
Gritting his teeth, someone uttered behind her:
 – ‘A foolish girl!’

At which, from another place, a voice replied:
 – ‘A saint!’

Mouravieff explains the meaning of those parables:

“These two fragments, both of esoteric origin, give some idea of the access to the Way.  The further our studies progress, the better we will decipher their meaning, as everything they say is significant. For now, we draw the attention of the reader particularly to the first clue, the most important for him: the way is a one-way street. Meaning that whoever begins to walk it is forbidden to turn back. This is not because of some kind of external imperative, but due to the fact that each step forward on the Way irrevocably modifies the content of whoever has started walking it. It follows that he will become more and more of a stranger to his surroundings; that he will lose more and more interest in exterior life, in which only yesterday he participated fully. The appearance of things, and especially of beings, undergoes a deep change in his eyes. He will one day be surprised to constate that certain faces which only yesterday he found very beautiful now reveal to him marks of bestiality behind their features: not all, but many of them!”

“The more man progresses on the Way, the more his feeling of being a stranger is intensified. Soon he will become boring: later still he will become unbearable, and finally, odious. That is why ‘the prophet is despised in his country, among his close relations and in his own house. That indication is precise and leaves no room for doubt. He who wants to start esoteric studies is invited to think it over twice, and weigh it all, before he rushes to cross the moat-threshold. We repeat that it will not be possible for him to return to exterior life and to find his place, his pleasures and his satisfaction there as in the past. However, as well as the difficulties which are the first results of his evolution, such a man will receive comforting impressions, especially in his human relations. He will be surprised to perceive one day that certain faces which only yesterday appeared to him ordinary, today shine in his eyes with a bright beauty. It is because his sight, sharpened by esoteric work, has acquired the faculty of penetrating beyond the external crust. It is amongst these brighter beings that he will find his new friends. Their society will welcome him as one of their own. He will be understood among them, and their community of common aims and interests will be a stimulus and a help for all.

Looking back at my life I can certainly relate to this and maybe others who are in the same process of seeking truth and starting esoteric self-work can see this in their lives and associations as well. Literally all the friends I thought I had showed dis-contempt toward the things I was getting into and was talking about, be it through ridicule or making fun of me or even attacking me for daring to question their beliefs.

As I was coming to terms with my own predator, programming and mechanical behaviors I saw it even more in others. I saw the feeding and the lies people were telling themselves. Not only that, but I realized that I have been feeding on others myself and they were feeding off me. It seemed something else was in control of humanity and working through us.

Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal. ‘…

In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver – stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now…. “

Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as a buffer against their fear.”

- Don Juan Matus, The Active Side of Infinity (Carlos Castaneda)

“There are a thousand things which prevent a man from awakening, which keep him in the power of his dreams. In order to act consciously with the intention of awakening, it is necessary to know the nature of the forces which keep man in a state of sleep. First of all it must be realized that the sleep in which man exists is not normal but hypnotic sleep. Man is hypnotized and this hypnotic state is continually maintained and strengthened in him. One would think that there are forces for whom it is useful and profitable to keep man in a hypnotic state and prevent him from seeing the truth and understanding his position.

- G. I. Gurdjieff

I was living a lie based on my false “I”, dreaming to be awake. I also realized that all the talk and notions about love and happiness were buffers and illusion people tell themselves for self-calming and had nothing to do with real love. I mistook many things for love myself. During my “dark night of the soul” and “moral bankruptcy” I had intense periods of deep despair and depression, sometimes not being able to get out of bed, but lying in fetal position and crying a lot. As I mentioned before I was even contemplating suicide a lot back then. It was emotionally and physically intense as if something within me was dying.

Later on as I gained more knowledge about the process I was going through esoterically and psychologically, I realized that my depression was actually a stepping stone towards becoming my true self.

Kazimierz Dabrowski is a Polish psychiatrist and psychologist who developed the Theory of Positive Disintegration (TPD). The Theory of Positive Disintegration is a novel approach to personality development and relates to “depression as a stepping stone”.

What is very interesting about this model is how it is similar in ways to certain esoteric teachings, such as Gurdjeff’s Fourth Way, Mouravieff’s Gnosis or Shamanism as transmitted through Don Juan Matus. It sees crisis such as depression or maladjustment to social norms as important stepping stones and potential for personality development.

Contrary to mainstream psychology, which tries to adjust the individual to society and its norms (sometimes through anti-depressants or any other mood-influencing pharmaceuticals), the Theory of Positive Disintegration sees it as a “good” sign if one is getting maladjusted to society, seeing it as potential for higher integration and values (non ego-centric). Certain generic New Age teachings also merely avoid the aspect of positive Disintegration through denial and a distorted understanding of negative emotions (such as just focus on the “positive”, avoid anything “negative”, meditate on “peace”, etc….).

The levels of development as defined by Dabrowski can be compared to the staircase of esoteric evolution and the moral bankruptcy man experiences when his old conditioned self conflicts with the emerging individuality.

Like Gurdjieff, Dabrowski saw the “average” man as mechanical robot-like beings (Level I) who simply exist on lower impulses as dictated by society and “official culture”, living in a reactionary state of external stimuli and influences. No true individuality can be formed on that level.

Certain people who experience so-called overexcitability (OE) (“Supersensitivities” in terms of  Psychomotor, Sensual, Emotional, Intellectual, and Imaginational) have the potential to grow out of the lower levels and integrate their being into the higher ones. However, just as explained in the aforementioned esoteric teachings, Darbrowski also points out that this process requires conscious work and it doesn’t happen by itself. In other words, if one does not use the “shocks” to further one’s evolution and does “the work” to gain self-awareness, one will stay at the lower level where most of humanity exists, mechanically and reactionary, feeding one’s little “I’s” based on conditioning and programming. In light if what we’ve explored so far, one can see how OE (especially in children) could also be an indication that one may be a wanderer. I certainly can relate to Darbowski’s TPD and see how it applies to my upbringing and personality development.

From “A very brief sketch of Dabrowski’s theory of Positive Disintegrstion” by W. Tillier:

Suffering, aloneness, self-doubt, sadness, inner conflict; these are our feelings that we have not learned to live with, that we have failed to appreciate, that we reject as destructive and completely negative, but in fact they are symptoms of an expanding consciousness. Dr. Kazimierz Dabrowski has spent 45 years piecing together the complete picture of the growth of the human psyche from primitive integration at birth; the person with potential for development will experience growth as a loosening of the stable psychic structure accompanied by symptoms of psychoneuroses. Reality becomes multileveled, the choices between higher and lower realms of behavior occupy our thought and mark us as human. Dabrowski called this process positive disintegration, he declares that psychoneurosis is not an illness and he insists that development does not come through psychotherapy but that psychotherapy is automatic when the person is conscious of his development...

Without intense and painful introspection and reflection, development is unlikely. Psychoneurotic symptoms should be embraced and transformed into anxieties about human problems of an ever higher order. If psychoneuroses continue to be classified as mental illness, then perhaps it is a sickness better than health.

To Dabrowski, real therapy is autopsychotherapy; it is the self being aware of the self through a long inner investigation; a mapping of the inner environment. There are no techniques to eliminate symptoms because the symptoms constitute the very psychic richness from which grow an increasing awareness of body, mind, humanity and cosmos. Dabrowski gives birth to that process if he can.

Initially, people who are acting on low impulses or who are simply robotically emulating society have little self conflict. Most conflicts are external. During development, the clash between one’s actual behavior and environment and one’s imagined ideals creates a great deal of internal conflict. This conflict literally motivates the individual to resolve the situation, ideally by inhibiting those aspects he or she considers lower and by accentuating those aspects he or she considers higher. At the highest levels, there is a new harmony of thought, emotion and action that eliminates internal conflict. The individual is behaving in accord with their own personality ideal and consciously derived value structure and therefore feels no internal conflict. Often a person’s external focus shifts to ‘making the world a better place.

Without passing through very difficult experiences and even something like psychoneurosis and neurosis we cannot understand human beings and we cannot realize our multidimensional and multilevel development toward higher and higher levels.

- K. Dabrowski.

It is part of a necessary process and even today there are times of depression (although not as intense anymore) as I keep working on myself and peel off the layers of my false “I”. The work never stops, it just becomes more refined and deeper. At the same time the moments of true love as a state of being and consciousness increase (not dependent on anything or anyone outside myself) as opposed to an chemical emotional experience. I feel more and more aligned with my real “I”, making the personality/ego a vessel/instrument for the higher self to work through and not letting the ego be in the driver’s seat. Just as noted in the quote above, there happens a shift at one point away from pre-occupation with oneself towards making the world a better place.”, not acting on mechanical self-absorbed lower impulses but conscious actions based on the higher centers. This can also be related to a shift from STS towards STO activating the Wanderer’s mission profile to be of service and assistance. However, I still slip into the mechanicalness of my little “I’s” if I’m not watchful and make the effort to stay conscious.

Despite society’s view that there is something wrong with you if you are depressed and selling you anti-depressants, it is actually a GOOD thing. The soul and true self is screaming for attention. As J. Krishnamurti said: “It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” One shouldn’t avoid it or numb it with medication, drugs or “feel good” pop-psychology but go with it and trust that it is actually a natural process that can be used as a catalyst for growth and esoteric development.

Laura Knight-Jadczyk talks about this process in an exchange with the Cs:

Q: (L) My experience has been, over the past couple of years, that whenever there is a significant increase in knowledge, that it is sort of cyclical – I go through a depression before I can assimilate – and it is like an inner transformation from one level to another. Is there something we can do, and if so, is it desirable, to increase or facilitate this process in some way?
A: It is a natural process, let it be.

People support each others’ pathologies and neediness, mistaking that for love and their emotional and physical addictions for happiness. There are no conscious actions, just pre-recorded patterns playing themselves out. People are not in control of themselves, not realizing the prison they are in. I saw the “horror of the situation” and what Gurdjieff told Ouspensky in “In Search of the Miraculous”:

“‘What do you expect?” said G. “People are machines. Machines have to be blind and unconscious, they cannot be otherwise, and all their actions have to correspond to their nature. Everything happens. No one does anything. ‘Progress’ and ‘civilization,’ in the real meaning of these words, can appear only as the result of conscious efforts. They cannot appear as the result of unconscious mechanical actions. And what con­scious effort can there be in machines? And if one machine is unconscious, then a hundred machines are unconscious, and so are a thousand machines, or a hundred thousand, or a million. And the unconscious activity of a million machines must necessarily result in destruction and extermination. It is precisely in unconscious involuntary manifestations that all evil lies. You do not yet understand and cannot imagine all the results of this evil. But the time will come when you will understand.

…A considerable percentage of the people we meet on the street are people who are empty inside, that is, they are actually already dead. It is fortunate for us that we do not see and do not know it. If we knew what a number of people are actually dead and what a number of these dead people govern our lives, we should go mad with horror.”

These were trying times since I realized I had no authentic friends, because I hadn’t been authentic myself. I tried to wake up my friends and family, but this just created more conflict and attacks. I still hadn’t learned the basic lesson of esoteric work and what STO truly means: Don’t give without being asked and be externally considerate. Free will needs to be respected, even if it is people’s free will to stay ignorant and asleep. No one can be forced to wake up. However, as I started to wake up and engaged in the work, letting go of my associations and friends, new people and help came along, just as Mouravieff wrote, fellow seekers who saw what I saw and who were struggling with the same things. The importance of networking with like-minded and collinear people was imperative, because alone a man can do nothing. There were not many, but it is about quality over quantity. During that time I also spent much time alone, not engaging in relationships or drawn to exterior life at all. I didn’t enjoy the things I used to enjoy. Everything seemed so shallow, empty and fake. I knew I had to disengage from certain associations and be conscious about who and what I gave my energy to, so I didn’t slip back into the “wilderness” where the Matrix/General Law is trying to keep man to be food for our hyperdimensional overlords.

“When man goes in search of the Way, it generally signifies that something within him has collapsed. Apart from exceptional cases, this collapse is preceded by a re-assessment of moral values, which in the searcher’s eyes lose the value he had previously given to them.

“Interior collapse leads to certain consequences. Man starts to see things in a different light. Two diametrically opposed effects can result. If man is sufficiently strong and impartial, he will not lower his eyes before implacable reality. He will have the courage to face things directly, and to accept the constatations which are imposed on him, no matter how disagreeable they are. This signifies that he has firmly started on the track which leads to the path of Access to the Way.

On the other hand, if the man is weak, this experience will weaken him even more. The law is explicit: ‘To whosoever hath, to him shall be given. But whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken away even that which he hath.’ If man does not accept his situation and, in particular, his inner state as it appears to him, thanks to brief illuminations from the consciousness of the real ‘I’— if he is obstinate against all evidence, justifying his Personality by protecting himself behind logic, legitimacy and justice, he will then turn his back on the path of Access, and thrust himself further into the wilderness.

Nobody can reach the path of Access to the Way, without first passing through an interior bankruptcy; a moral collapse.

Economy of energies too is a must, as the walk to and on the Way demands their total mobilization. Any unjustified expenditure can lead in the end to failure. We must always keep this in mind. In general, the reaction of those around towards someone who begins to search for the Way is negative. This negative attitude is the result of the action of the General Law, which, as we know, tends to keep man in his place. Not being able to do this directly by the action of Illusion, the General Law, when it loses its dominion over the man who ‘moves’, acts indirectly by the mediation of those around him.

“It is a classic situation. From his side, after having passed through moral bankruptcy, he who seeks the Way becomes different from men who continue to live within the limits permitted by the General Law, and thus take mirages for reality. Due to this, he will feel himself more and more isolated. The centre of gravity of his interest will progressively turn to esoteric work, which will end by absorbing him completely. But it is entirely in his interest not to show the new attitude which he has taken towards exterior life. The ‘World’ will be hostile to him, because its own purposes are different; it is not in his interest to provoke this tendency, and even less to keep it alive. The day will come — if he remains in the same milieu — where, apart from rare exceptions he will be openly or secretly hated.”

“If we ponder this in depth, we shall understand that psychologically this hostile attitude of the ‘World’ towards someone who carries on esoteric work is not only a normal phenomenon but is so to speak, a necessary one. If he who lives in the wilderness — and is satisfied to be there, were to approve of the attitude of one who walks on the track, it would be equivalent to recognizing his own bankruptcy. That is why the ‘World’ considers the latter as a failure. The more he progresses with his work, the more he becomes an object of hate. That is why it is said that: ‘no prophet is acceptable in his own country’ and also: ‘A prophet is not without honour, save in his own country, among his own kin and in his own house.‘”

Let’s examine the part If he who lives in the wilderness — and is satisfied to be there, were to approve of the attitude of one who walks on the track, it would be equivalent to recognizing his own bankruptcy a bit closer in relation to today’s’ world and events. One can easily refer this to people who keep denying that 9/11 was an inside Job or that UFO’s are and have been visiting this planet for ages and human beings are being farmed for “food”. The common man lives in the wilderness of the General Law/Matrix and has a very conditioned/limited view of reality. If he’d approve the truth of 9/11, the hyperdimensional manipulation of humanity or that Psychopaths with no conscience are ruling the world, it would produce an immense internal and psychological discomfort forcing him into moral bankruptcy as his long held beliefs would be shattered and he would have to face himself, confronting the illusionary existence he’s been living since birth based on lies. The common man has much invested in his illusion, psychologically and materialistically, his image, career, rank and status, and he will protect it against whoever threatens it, defending the prison he is in.

As Morpheus tells us in “The Matrix”:

The Matrix is a system, Neo. That system is our enemy.
But when you’re inside, you look around, what do you see? Businessmen, teachers, lawyers, carpenters.

The very minds of the people we are trying to save.
But until we do, these people are still a part of that system
 and that makes them our enemy.

You have to understand, most of these people are not ready to be unplugged. 

And many of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent on the system, that they will fight to protect it.



The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us.
You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television.
You can feel it when you go to work… when you go to church… when you pay your taxes.

It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

We can see now how esoteric work with all its struggle, suffering and attacks relate to the awakening process and initiation of the Wanderer. Super efforts are needed to truly wake up and accomplish one’s mission, whatever it turns out to be. There is also nothing “special” being a wanderer. The opposite, it takes great humility, awareness and responsibility combined with sincere self-work, gaining knowledge and learning the lessons to walk the talk and be truly of service.

“Disillusion” is a painful process and can be prolonged, depending on how much time the individual takes to realize he is living artificially and that this condition is a product of his internal dreams. Great courage is required to face reality and to destroy the mirage of a pleasant dream.”

- John Baines, The Stellar Man

“Every time a man sets himself to learn, he has to labor as hard as anyone can, and the limits of his learning are determined by his own nature. Therefore, there is no point in talking about knowledge. Fear of knowledge is natural; all of us experience it, and there is nothing we can do about it. But no matter how frightening learning is, it’s more terrible to think of a man without knowledge.”

- Don Juan Matus

We live in intense times. A lot of things are happening on our planet. Technology has advanced exponentially, yet human consciousness has not evolved at the same rate. We are in the midst of a major transformation, the shift of the ages, which many prophecies and mystery teachings have talked about. The Wave is approaching. It won’t be over by 12/21/2012. Far from it.

This work is also open for any souled humans, not just Wanderers. Many are called, yet few choose to answer the call. Wanderers are not any better than “humans”. We all are multidimensional beings who have access to the deeper knowledge within us. We are them in the future. They may just have come back in “time” (since time doesn’t really exist but is a 3D concept, which doesn’t apply on higher densities) for assistance, but not to do the work for us. There is a spiritual war happening with forces at work most people are not even aware of. Understanding the Theological Drama behind STO/STS dynamics and the how the matrix control system works through ourselves is crucial for the awakening process of the wanderer and any sincere truth seeker.

“And as we have learned from Jesus, Gurdjieff and the Gnostic Sufis, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans, the rules of this World in which we live were set up and are controlled by this STS hierarchy and have been for a very long time. Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation….It is in “seeing the unseen” that we become aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we experience the “battles” between the forces of STS and STO! And it is most definitely this factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to conceal!… In other words, we are not just talking about a “petty dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.

- Laura Knight Jadczyk, “The Wave” Volume 5&6 “Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown”

It takes much work and effort to anchor TRUE Love and Light, freeing ourselves from this current STS frequency. Just as individuals who have soul potential are called to engage in sincere self-work, making the darkness conscious and understanding what it truly means to BE the change we want to see, so the world needs to go through a collective “moral bankruptcy” and “dark night of the soul” before any true shift of consciousness can occur. We are in the muck and mire of the Kali Yuga.

“This is the hardest time to live, but it is also the greatest honor to be alive now, and to be allowed to see this time. There is no other time like now. We should be thankful, for creation did not make weak spirits to live during this time. The old ones say ‘this is the time when the strongest spirits will live through and those who are empty shells, those who have lost the connection will not survive.’ We have become masters of survival -we will survive- it is our prophecy to do so.”

- Tiokasin Ghosthorse

“I wish it need not have happened in my time,” said Frodo. “So do I,” said Gandalf, “and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

-  from  ‘Lord of the Rings’

These are difficult times but also exciting times. There is love, help and support out there and good things are and can happen, but it all depends on us. The shift into 4D, the ascension and transformation into the STO vibration of Love in Light in the deepest meaning it these words is an opportunity, a choice – not a guarantee -  for the ones answering the call. The struggle, for the most part, is with oneself.

As the Cassiopaeans said: “The war is through you!”


Organic Portals – Soulless humans

“A considerable percentage of the people we meet on the street are people who are empty inside, that is, they are actually already dead. It is fortunate for us that we do not see and do not know it. If we knew what a number of people are actually dead and what a number of these dead people govern our lives, we should go mad with horror.”

- G.I. Gurdjieff

These are interesting times. On one hand there are changes happening on a global scale that can’t really be ignored much longer. On the other hand the majority of the population seem to live their lives as if everything is just as it always is and always will be, locked in a tunnel vision of personal and material interest.

As long as we keep lying to ourselves based on conditioning, wishful thinking, suppression or denial and believe the lies “out there”, mistaking them for truth, nothing will change. This goes also beyond having a “positive” attitude, where hope can be merely a trap and lie to the self. Believing in lies that are “positive” in appearance (regardless how well-meaning the intent or good-hearted the person) is actually being negative and blocks one’s awareness and spiritual evolution. Being positive can mean acknowledging something negative because it is the truth, seeing it for what it is. If you believe a lie, even if it seems positive and makes you “feel good”, you give away your free will and that has spiritual implications. In these times of transition it becomes imperative to do seek truth and strive towards objectivity so we don’t take the “wrong” turn into entropy.

With the approach of the era of the Holy Spirit, everything must be gradually brought to the light of day, not only the secrets of the laboratory but the deepest meanings of esotericism. The same must happen with illusions, errors and lies, which must also be revealed so that they can later be rectified.
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The world is suffering from a lack of harmony which gets deeper on every plane, and this is a serious danger to the moral and spiritual recovery of humanity. It also involves a serious risk of failure in the last stage of this Time of transition that we are now entering. If this risk is not overcome, the Deluge of Fire awaits us. We wilI have to make an immense effort to ward off this fate, and we have very little time in which to do it. Man has only himself to blame for the greatness of the effort needed: this is a result of his obstinate refusal to heed the warnings that have been addressed to him time and again by the Divine Voice, just as he continues today to blind himself to the fact that the Deluge of Fire is being made ready.
[ Gnosis II, Boris Mouravieff ]

Many people are not aware of the path this world is currently going towards. Sure, there are some self-proclaimed “aware” and “conscious” folks out there who believe that all is just going as it has to go and humanity will wake up eventually in 2012 or the Golden Age where everyone is enlightened without having to do anything at all to reach that state. “Just be” and show “love” is the mantra these days, without really understanding what “being” and “love” means to begin with or so it seems. 

However, I don’t want to get into the traps of the Pseudo Spirituality promoted through this “New Age Religion” these days. Past writings and videos have examined that. My goal is also not to try to convince anyone of anything, because  no one can make another one change. This is just about questioning some fundamental beliefs and giving food for thought.

Some sources that talk about a Shift or Transformation occurring in our age also mention a “splitting” of humanity and that not everyone is going to wake up. The main reason for this can be found in a very interesting issue this planet faces and which has been written about in various esoteric teachings as well as transmitted through certain channeled material. It relates to two different “races” or “humanities” coexisting on earth, alike from the outside, but unlike in the inside.

The common spiritual lofty idea that runs through the world these days is “we’re all one” and just by recognizing this we should unite under world peace and harmony. All what the world leaders need to do is recognize the same, hence many people send “love and light” to the rulers  and leaders , so they may see this “truth” as well, because they are so misguided and just need “love” and “compassion”, etc……

Well, yes, everything is one from a HIGHER perspective.  As a matter of fact, it is pretty obvious that All is One, is it not? The devil, however, is always in the details.

 Laura Knight-Jadczyk gives a good insight into the misplacement of “higher truths” in her book “The Secret History of the World”:

Many modern day “teachers” and “gurus” tell us “Since there is only One Being which permeates all things, all we have to do is see everything as only light”, and that will transmute the darkness, and we will “create our own reality of light.”

Such a statement ignores the fact that the statement “God is One” describes a reality that is a higher level from which our own “mixed being” manifests. The man who assumes that he can become like God at this level just by thinking it, ignores the facts of Being vs. Non-being which outrays from “God is One” at a level of existence that is clearly several levels above our own. Evil is REAL on its own level, and the task of man is to navigate the Cosmic Maze without being defiled by the Evil therein. This is the root of Free Will.

Man faces a predicament as REAL as himself: he is forced to choose – to utilize his knowledge by applying it – between the straight path which leads to Being, and the crooked paths which lead to Non-Being.

Human beings are required to discern between good and evil – consciousness energy directors – at every stage of their existence in this reality. Because, in fact, they must understand that God is consciousness and God is matter. God is good, and God is evil. The Creation assumes all the different properties of the many “Names of God.” The Cosmos is full of Life-giving and Slaying, Forgiveness and Vengeance, Exaltation and Abasement, Guidance and Deception. To attempt to assume God’s point of view and “mix everything” at this level, results only in STAYING at this level. Therefore, human beings must always separate God’s point of view from their own point of view and the fact that all creation assumes the divine Names and Traits.

Yes, we’re all one, but we’re not all the same in this 3rd density experience here on planet earth. Sure, Gandhi and Hitler are one, but one of them doesn’t seem to have any conscience.

 The biggest illusion and projection regular folks seem to have is the assumption that the people in positions of power think and feel just like we all do and if they don’t it is assumed that they are just misguided and lack love in their lives. However, what if there exists a type of human who has no connection to the higher centers of universal love/awareness at all by birth? He/she is not even genetically wired this way, not being able to access it this lifetime around but he/she can emulate and fake these higher characteristics quite well and even distract you from evolving by sapping your energy and feeding off it. They can tell you exactly what you want to hear, appear compassionate, empathetic and understanding without meaning or feeling it one bit.

 And what if this type of human makes up half of the world’s population? He/she might be even a family member, a co-worker, neighbor, boss or even a close friend, a lover, husband or wife? Certainly not a pleasant thought and certainly a blow to the popular New Age paradigm of “we’re all one and humanity is becoming enlightened just by focusing on Love, Light” and so-called “positive thinking!”.

When exploring this idea more closely, with an objective, open and critical mind, it gives huge clues to the state of the world.

 Let’s look at some of these sources that talk about the two different “races” of humanity. One of it is Boris Mouravieff’s “Gnosis” Trilogy.

Suppression and distortion of esoteric knowledge is one of the means for control of the masses here on planet earth. This has been going on for thousands of years. Even the material presented in “Gnosis” is covered around a biblical gloss that one needs to weed through.

 As we enter the Time of Transition, deeper Knowledge about our reality and world is coming to the surface again, but only the ones able to SEE will truly recognize it. Truth vibrates on a certain frequency and it requires a certain state of “Being” to see, understand, and most importantly apply it. This is achieved through esoteric work. Mouravieff notes that all serious esoteric teaching, as in ordinary education, is almost uniform:

It is generally accepted that nobody can go on to secondary school without having completed an elementary education.  Nor can a person be admitted to a university without having a secondary education.  These graduations automatically “select” those able to become active members of the cultural elite of human society.

Exactly the same is true in the esoteric Tradition.

However, in our modern world, we encounter a curious phenomenon.  For example: we would not seek to discuss Newton’s binomial theorem without having studied algebra, for without this, every opinion we expressed on the subject would be worthless.

Yet, in the esoteric field, we find a host of “experts” who declare their opinions on esotericism without having ever learned even the rudiments of this knowledge.

At the same time, some of them demand “simplicity” from esoteric teachings on the generally accepted principle that Truth itself must be simple.  They conclude from this that access to Truth ought to likewise be simple.  Then they assert that the methods to access Truth must be easily assimilable.

This argument would be perfectly correct if human beings and the problems they face were simple and just.  However, that is not the case.  There is a long road to travel from our state of distorted inner disorder to any “original simplicity.”

In practice, the doctrine of “simplicity” – if regarded as an axiom – turns the student aside from the strait gate and the narrow way that leads to Life.  Impelled by this counter-truth, he believes he stands before this door, when he is in reality – although undoubtedly in perfectly good faith – walking the wide path that leads to perdition, ad majorem Diaboli gloriam, of course.

The Doctrine of Simplicity, correct in itself, but wrongly interpreted, becomes a snare for hearts and minds that are already too corrupt; a danger which should be recognized and avoided.

Some people complain that the subject of the fundamentals of esotericism is not simple.  Others have said that it leads to great clarity.  This apparent contradiction is explained by the fact that esotericism is addressed to readers who are predisposed to esoteric culture by their nature, formation or personal experience.

It is difficult, if not impossible, for an esoterically unevolved person to discern false prophets spontaneously. He will recognize them more easily by their “fruits,” by the observable results of their works, which serve as signs.  The Tradition knows and teaches a whole Science of signs.

The above excerpt is crucial in understanding what is presented these days as “Spirituality”. True esoteric Knowledge has not much to do with popular New Age/Self Help literature these days, as promoted by the mainstream, what is shown on Oprah (from E. Tolle to “The Secret”, etc…) or what is on the bestseller list and “in”. Too many people speak too quick as if they already “know” and repeat New Age Slogans, such as “we’re all one”, “all is illusion”, “all you need is love”, “just be yourself”, “be in the now”, etc.. without truly understanding the depth of these words and their true meaning beyond the fast-food spirituality these days.

Not all is false what these sources state, however, lies are mixed with truth and the devil is always in the details. The world is full of self-proclaimed gurus and spiritual leaders who promise to show seekers the “Way” as they cash in and feed off the credulity of their followers. Most popular New Age material (including channeled sources) merely serve as buffers and excuses, another form of illusion/escape, but not as a catalysts for true spiritual Growth. As Mouravieff writes:

Comfort, the prevailing word for Progress in its many different aspects and to varying degrees, forms a sufficient aim for the majority of civilized men of our era. Under these conditions of our times, man is only open to divine values in carefully measured doses, kept within limits so that they do not trouble his bourgeois or socio-communist conscience or threaten the material well-being he has acquired.

However, there is another issue and that is, true esoteric work and knowledge can only be grasped and applied by a certain type of human and that another type of man does not posses this ability in his/her current life cycle. One type has a soul, the other one is soul-less, so to speak. There is no difference on the outside and in terms of personality, but the inner life is vastly different. No one is better or worse than the other, but all are part of this evolutionary cycle. The idea of the soul is something that many religions, philosophers and spiritual teachings talk about. The question is, what is the soul and does everyone really has one?

According to “Gnosis”, as transmitted by Boris Mouravieff, there exist two kind of humans: adamic man and pre-adamic man. One type with soul potential, the other has no individual soul. Only the former has the inherent capacity to evolve esoterically and build the magnetic center by fusing the lower with the higher centers. The latter does not have the possibility in his current evolutionary cycle to bridge to the higher centers and no access to higher knowing/awareness/love. 
Looking at the Indian chakra model, one could say that pre-adamic man only exists on the lower three chakras without any access to the higher ones, while adamic man also mostly exists on the lower centers, but has the ability to activate and bridge the higher centers through conscious esoteric work. Mouravieff writes:

In the first volume of ‘Gnosis’, we already referred several times to the coexistence of two essentially different races: one of Men, and another of Anthropoids. We must emphasize the fact that from the esoteric point of view the latter term has no derogatory meaning.

The Scriptures contain more than one reference to the coexistence on our planet of these two humanities – which are now alike in form but unlike in essence. We can even say that the whole dramatic history of humanity, from the fall of Adam until today, not excluding the prospect of the new era, is overshadowed by the coexistence of these two human races whose separation will occur only at the Last Judgement.

…The human tares, the anthropoid race, are the descendants of pre-adamic humanity. The principal difference between contemporary pre-adamic man and adamic man – a difference which is not perceived by the senses – is that the former does not possess the developed higher centres that exist in the latter which, although they have been cut off from his waking consciousness since the Fall, offer him a real possibility of esoteric evolution. Apart from this, the two races are similar: they have the same lower centres, the same structure of the Personality and the same physical body, although more often than not this is stronger in the pre-adamic man than in the adamic; regarding beauty, we must not forget that pre-adamic man and woman were created by God on the sixth day, in His image and after His likeness, and that the daughters of this race were beautiful.

By identifying himself with the ‘I’ of his Personality, Adam lost consciousness of his real ‘I’ and fell from the Eden that was his original condition into the same condition as the pre-adamics… The two humanities, coming from two different creative processes, later mingled on the level of organic life on Earth… From then on, the coexistence of these two human types, and the competition which was the result of this, became the norm…we can see that throughout the centuries, even in our own day, adamics in their post-fall condition, have been are are generally in an inferior position to the pre-adamics.

… this situation, with its practical consequences and problems, will be the object of a deeper study. This is necessary because the Era of the Holy Spirit is approaching, at the end of which the question of the separation of the tares from the good seed will arise. For the moment we will restrict ourselves to repeating that contemporary adamic man, having lost contact with his higher centres and therefore with his real ‘I’, appears practically the same as his pre-adamic counterpart. However, unlike the latter, he still has his higher centres, which ensure that he has the possibility of following the way of esoteric evolution. At present, pre-adamic man is deprived of this possibility, but it will be given to him if adamic humanity develops as it should during the era of the Holy Spirit.

© Alex Grey
Not everyone has access to higher states of Being and Seeing

Mouravieff gives us examples of how the existence of the two “races” has been distorted and misused  by means of racism and social control. Adamic and pre-adamic men are mixed throughout all humans from all over the globe. There can be even both types in the same family. The difference has nothing to do with racial, cultural or national characteristics. The true meaning of the two “humanities” goes back to the idea of “blue blood” and the “pollution of the bloodline” when both “races” intermingled, after  “the fall” of adamic man from his original state and his identification with his false “I”, the “I” of the personality/ego.

First constated [realized] very long ago, this fact, although it has been distorted because it is generally seen in a false light, was part of the national, social and judicial consciousness of many ancient and modern peoples. One finds its influence in the Indian idea of the Untouchable, the Greek Helot, the Jewish Goy, the medieval European white Bones and black Bones, the German Nazi Untermensch, etc…

Incidentally, the legend of blue blood does not belong to the domain of pure fantasy. The error is not in the conception of blue blood as a ‘psychosomatic’ phenomenon, but in the naive medieval belief that this so called aristocratic blood passes automatically from father to son….

We must also note that the other extreme, the equalitarian conception of human nature, so dear to the theoreticians of democratic and socialist revolutions, is also erroneous: the only real equality of subjects by inner and international right is equality of possibilities, for men are born unequal.

What follows are excerpts from an essay called “Organic Portals – The “Other” Race” by the Quantum Future Group (QFG) based around the Cassiopaean transmissions , Mouravieff’s “Gnosis” and psychopathology. There is also an online forum discussion about it here. This Esoteric Glossary is helpful to look up concepts that are being used throughout this blog. For readers unfamiliar with channeled material it is recommended to read “Channeled material and the Age of Transformation“. The topic of Organic Portals is also addressed in more depth in “The Secret History of the World” by Laura Knight-Jadczyk. Organic Portals is a term coined by the C’s and relates to the pre-adamic man according to Mouravieff. [my comments in italic]

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Organic Portals – The “Other” Race

One of the more difficult concepts discussed on this site is the concept of the Organic Portal. We have received hate mail over the years, primarily from mainstream religious types and new age believers, but we get even MORE letters from people who nearly shout in relief at finally having something of an explanation for things they have observed all their lives. What seems to cause offense is the concept that there may be more than one type of human. Let us be clear on this point: we do not mean what is commonly or traditionally understood as race, and abhor any attempt at labeling and making checklists. What we mean exactly will be clarified further into the article.
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Mouravieff is telling us that there were originally TWO races that evolved on the earth, and that these two races while being physically almost identical, were very different from a soul point of view. It seems that one had the potential to develop a sovereign and integral soul in this lifetime, while the other were as empty cylinders in comparison and were destined to wait another “turn of the wheel” or cosmic cycle. The adamic race is the race that suffered the Fall, which meant the breaking of the connection between the higher centers (giving access to higher knowing/awareness) and the lower centers (which govern physical existence), and which left adamic man in the same “playground” as pre-adamic man, effectively rendering us all OP’s until we learn how to develop the soul.

Basically, until adamic man starts to develop himself consciously through esoteric work, he is on the same level as  pre-adamic man (Organic Portal), however he has the potential to develop a soul (activating the higher centers) through work and conscious efforts. Hence everyone is essentially an “Organic Portal” until the Awakening of the higher centers, which is only possible for adamic man.

As our research into psychopaths continued, and especially in reading the work The Mask of Sanity by H. Cleckley, we came to the conclusion that there exists what we call the “garden variety” psychopath. This is the psychopath who is “successful” in the sense that he doesn’t get caught. He operates invisibly in society. He looks and acts just like “we” do, going about the activities of daily life, and yet something is “missing.” As Cleckley describes it:

The observer is confronted with a convincing mask of sanity.  All the outward features of this mask are intact; it cannot be displaced or penetrated by questions directed toward deeper personality levels.

The examiner never hits upon the chaos sometimes found on searching beneath the outer surface of a paranoid schizophrenic.

The thought processes retain their normal aspect under psychiatric investigations and in technical tests designed to bring out obscure evidence of derangement.

Examination reveals not merely an ordinary two-dimensional mask but what seems to be a solid and substantial structural image of the sane and rational personality.

He might then be thought of, in the full literal sense, as an example of what Trélat meant to designate by his expressive term, la folie lucide.

Furthermore, this personality structure in all theoretical situations functions in a manner apparently identical with that of normal, sane functioning.

Logical thought processes may be seen in perfect operation no matter how they are stimulated or treated under experimental conditions.

Furthermore, the observer finds verbal and facial expressions, tones of voice, and all the other signs we have come to regard as implying conviction and emotion and the normal experiencing of life as we know it ourselves and as we assume it to be in others.

All judgments of value and emotional appraisals are sane and appropriate when the Psychopath is tested in verbal examinations.

Only very slowly and by a complex estimation or judgment based on multitudinous small impressions does the conviction come upon us that, despite these intact rational processes, these normal emotional affirmations, and their consistent application in all directions, we are dealing here not with a complete man at all but with something that suggests a subtly constructed reflex machine which can mimic the human personality perfectly.

This smoothly operating psychic apparatus reproduces consistently not only specimens of good human reasoning but also appropriate  simulations of normal human emotion in response to nearly all the varied stimuli of life.

So perfect is this reproduction of a whole and normal man that no one who examines him in a clinical setting can point out in scientific or objective terms why, or how, he is not real.

And yet we eventually come to know or feel we know that reality, in the sense of full, healthy experiencing of life, is not here.

Cleckley is describing a person who is able to mimic the human personality, but who leaves the impression that something is not there. They have a personality structure which “functions in a manner apparently identical with that of normal, sane functioning” and yet when all is said and done, “we are dealing here not with a complete man at all but with something that suggests a subtly constructed reflex machine which can mimic the human personality perfectly” to the point that “no one who examines him in a clinical setting can point out in scientific or objective terms why, or how, he is not real.”

Moreover, we must remember that Cleckley is dealing with clinical cases, the psychopath who has been caught, who has a program malfunction, otherwise they would not have been in his office. These people, even with minor glitches, can pass almost imperceptibly among us.

The type referred to here as “Organic Portals” (for reasons which will become clear), are people whose abilities of imitation are so developed, so much an integral part of who they are, that they can only be discovered after years of observation. The psychopath is the failed organic portal.

Most Organic Portals have no inclination to break laws, in fact the majority have no real inclinations at all other than to pursue the “A influences” (Mouravieff’s term) otherwise known as the social norms, such as money, career, sex, marriage, fame or any of a host of other “ideals” that we are all encouraged to strive for from an early age. The attainment of these goals is held up in global society as the culmination of the search for happiness, yet it is evident from the state of our world today that true happiness remains as illusory and elusive as ever…at least for those who have an inkling that there is “something more”.

So where do these “life goals” that serve us so badly come from? Is it possible that they are in fact someone else’s ideas and goals for us…is it in someone else’s interest that most of us expend our energies and efforts in a fruitless pursuit of chimerical happiness?

This concept is not new at cassiopaea.org and is therefore an idea that will not be strange to regular readers of the site, but what is new and indeed very strange is the idea that there could be billions of these Organic Portals who have been vectored toward keeping those unaware of this concept lost in the “wilderness and desert”, ensuring the continued production of “loosh” from all of humanity.  It should be noted here that we are not talking of some form of malignancy or evil on the part of Organic Portals, rather it would seem that they are simply doing and acting according to their natures, which it appears is to a large extent “soul-less”.

This is a very important point. There is nothing “wrong” with  Organic Portals or being an OP.  They serve a specific function in the grand scheme of existence. They can’t be anything else but that.

As the research, ideas and thoughts developed it was one revelation after another, and it soon became clear how possible this grand plan could have been implemented:

It seems there are possibly 3 billion organic portals sharing the planet, that is, one out of two people on the planet may be effectively soul-less.

Mouravieff’s description of the “Fall” of the Adamic race also follows the same lines as the description given to us from the C’s where we see that this is a symbolic version of the “Fall” of our consciousness unit.

The following excerpts by the C’s contains some words and concepts that may be new to some readers. STO = Service to Others and STS = Service to Self. The concepts of service to others (STO) and service to self (STS) are the central cornerstone of the teaching of first Ra and then Cassiopaea. These same fundamentals are expressed in different terms throughout esoteric culture. The concept of densities is also a cornerstone in the Cassiopaea and Ra materials. Density denotes a qualitatively distinct level of being. Each density has its own structure of life forms, perception and typical lessons for the consciousnesses residing in it. These are topics than need careful study and understanding and, as mentioned before, it is recommended to read the original sources for more insight. The term “Lizzies” is a short-hand notation for those theorized  denizens of hyperdimensional realities  whose “essence” is read as reptilian. [Q: the Questioner; A: The C's communicating]

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Q: Well, this is one of the problems I am dealing with in trying to write this history of mankind. As I understand it, or as I am trying to figure it out from the literature, prior to the ‘Fall in Eden,’ mankind lived in a 4th density state. Is that correct?
A: Semi/sort of.
Q: Please be more specific.
A: 4th density in another realm, such as time/space continuum, etc.
Q: Okay, so this realm changed, as a part of the cycle; various choices were made: the human race went through the door after the ‘gold,’ so to speak, and became aligned with the Lizzies after the ‘female energy’ consorted with the wrong side, so to speak. This is what you have said. This resulted in a number of effects: the breaking up of the DNA, the burning off of the first ten factors of DNA, the separation of the hemispheres of the brain…
A: Only reason for this: you play in the dirt, you’re gonna get dirty.
Q: (T) What were we before the “Fall?”
A: 3rd density STO.
Q: (T) We are STS at this point because of what happened then?
A: Yes.
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Q: (T) We were 3rd density STO at that time. Was this after the battle that had transpired? In other words, were we, as a 3rd density race, literally on our own at that point, as opposed to before?
A: Was battle.
Q: (L) The battle was in us?
A: Through you.
Q: (T) The battle was through us as to whether we would walk through this doorway… (L) The battle was fought through us, we were literally the battleground. (T) Was the battle over whether or not we walked through that door?
A: Close.
Q: (T) Okay, we were STO at that point. You have said before that on this density we have the choice of being STS or STO.
A: Oh Terry, the battle is always there, it’s “when” you choose that counts!
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Q: (T) This must tie into why the Lizards and other aliens keep telling people that they have given their consent for abduction and so forth. We were STO and now we are STS.
A: Yes, … “When” you went for the gold, you said “Hello” to the Lizards and all that that implies.
Q: (T) …By going for the gold, we became STS beings because going for the gold was STS.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And, in doing so, we ended up aligning ourselves with the 4th density Lizard Beings…
A: Yes.
Q: (T) Because they are 4th density beings and they have a lot more abilities than we at 3rd density…
A: You used to be aligned with 4th density STO.
Q: (T) And we were 3rd density STO. But, by going for the gold we aligned ourselves with 4th density STS.
A: Yes.
Q: (T) And by doing so we gave 4th density STS permission to do whatever they wish with us?
A: Close.
Q: (T) So, when they tell us that we gave them permission to abduct us, it is this they are referring to?
A: Close.
Q: (J) Go back to what they said before: “Free will could not be abridged if you had not obliged.” (T) We, as the human race, used our free will to switch from STO to STS. (L) So, at some level we have chosen the mess we are in and that is the Super Ancient Legend of the Fallen Angel, Lucifer. That is us. We fell by falling into that door, so to speak, going after the pot of gold, and when we fell through the door, the serpent bit us!
A: But this is a repeating syndrome.
Q: (L) Is it a repeating syndrome just for the human race or is it a repeating syndrome throughout all of creation?
A: It is the latter.

The adamic race with its full set of DNA, with its connection to the higher centres in place and functioning, is what the C’s describe here as 3D STO living in a “semi/sort of” 4D state aligned with 4D STO.

In making the choice to experience greater physicality, the consciousness unit fractures and “Falls” from the STO state, loses its connection with the higher centres, and finds itself at the same level as the pre-adamic race – those who have no possibility of reaching the higher centres because the DNA hardware isn’t in place. Because this new 3D STS existence was not the “natural habitat” for a body with the potential to reach the higher centres, the fallen race is at a disadvantage compared to the pre-adamics.

What is the Organic Portal?

Having seen the similarities between Mouravieff’s description of the two races and Cleckley’s description of the psychopath, Laura decided to pose a few questions to the C’s.

Q: In Book III of his Gnosis, Mouravieff discusses what he calls “pre-Adamic humanity” and “Adamic humanity.” As I read this I could see that the thing I was struggling to understand in terms of psychopathy as discussed in the Adventures Series, was exactly what Mouravieff was describing. However, he was using the Bible to explain it, and that just didn’t quite work. Nevertheless, the basic idea is that pre-Adamic human types basically have no “soul,” nor any possibility of growing one. This is certainly shocking, but there have been many recent scholarly discussions of this matter based on what seems to be clinical evidence that, indeed, there are human beings who are just “mechanical” and have no “inner” or “higher self” at all. Gurdjieff talked about this and so did Castaneda. So, I asked if his ideas about the two basic TYPES of humans were, as far as they went, accurate.

A: Indeed, though again, there is a “Biblical Gloss.” [The pre-Adamic types are] “organic” portals between levels of density.

This, of course, raised the issue of whether or not trying to “help” or “save” such individuals was a waste of time.

A: Pretty much. Most of them are very efficient machines. The ones that you have identified as psychopaths are “failures.” The best ones cannot be discerned except by long and careful observation.

One of the longtime members of the group then wanted to know if any of us had ever encountered one of these “organic portals” and if so, would the C’s identify one for the sake of instruction.

A: If you consider that the population is equally distributed, then you will understand that in an ordinary “souled” person’s life, that person will encounter half as many organic portals as souled individuals. BUT, when someone is in the process of “growing” and strengthening the soul, the Control System will seek to insert even more “units” into that person’s life. Now, think of all the people you have ever met and particularly those with whom you have been, or are, intimate. Which half of this number would YOU designate as being organic portals? Hard to tell, eh?
Q: (V) Is this the original meaning of the “pollution of the bloodline?”
A: Yes.
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Now this is a highly significant point by the C’s which we can find in Mouravieff’s “Gnosis” as well. The “Control System” relates to the “General Law” and forces acting upon the seeker who tries to “escape” or transcend it by entering “The Way” of esoteric work:

“Economy of energies too is a must, as the walk to and on the Way demands their total mobilization. Any unjustified expenditure can lead in the end to failure. We must always keep this in mind. In general, the reaction of those around towards someone who begins to search for the Way is negative. This negative attitude is the result of the action of the General Law, which, as we know, tends to keep man in his place. Not being able to do this directly by the action of Illusion, the General Law, when it loses its dominion over the man who ‘moves’, acts indirectly by the mediation of those around him.”

On the other hand, if man just lives along without any efforts of waking up or is no threat to the “General Law” or Matrix Control System, he will be left alone and he can even make a brilliant career, be successful, have family, kids, be “happy” in his illusion, yet he will not have progressed esoterically as he feeds the General Law by following “A” influences.

“We are not aware of how much we are bound by the action of the General Law. Acting on us as it does on our cells, this law immobilizes us or constantly tends to bring us back to our place. Its strength leaves us little freedom of action outside the limits of its direction and scope. It acts in various ways. One can say that if man lives ‘like everyone else’, if he does not venture off the beaten track, he will never perceive the existence of this force, or rather this force will ignore him.

If man spends his life without distinguishing between ‘A’ and ‘B’ influences, he will end it as he started, one could say mechanically, driven by the Law of Accident. However, according to the nature and the intensity of the resultant forces to which he is subjected, it can happen to him to make a brilliant career, in the meaning the world gives to this expression. Yet he will come to the end of his days without having either learned or understood anything of Reality. And earth returns to Earth.”

That can be seen very clearly in our world. Everyone who just goes along with the masses and “accepted” reality has not much struggle in the world. Birth, school, choose a career, get a job, watch TV, consume, reproduce, entertain, be nationalistic or religious, follow your desires and impulses unexamined, etc…

Not knowing himself, but a slave to the outside world, full on under the control of the General Law/Matrix, the common man has no free will, although he thinks he does.

However, whenever someone awakens, steps up and tries to “escape” The General Law/Matrix by speaking and seeing truth, forces are put on to him to put him back in line, back to sleep. He will be ridiculed or even silenced. His only chance of protection is to apply esoteric Knowledge and fuse the centers, so he doesn’t fall back to sleep. Anything that is not a threat to the MCS (Matrix Control System) or General Law will be ignored or even promoted heavily, be it through religion, politics, entertainment or popular new age ideas.

“But if his enterprises are out of the ordinary, no matter what field they are in, but especially in esotericism, this force begins to act, and stirs up all sorts of obstacles in order to bring him back to the point where — according to the General Law — he must reside. Even without knowing this force, we have an intuition of its existence and of the many forms which clothe it. The Holy Scriptures speak of it more than once, especially where esoteric work is concerned.

Thus, if this conservative force, which is the servant of the General Law, does not succeed in ‘calming’ man by acting directly upon him, it tries to reach him indirectly through the people of his household, either through the feelings they invoke or the coolness and contempt they openly show him.”

“This conservative force, the Servant of the General Law” acts through pred-adamic man, the Organic Portals. It’s not that the person him/herself is the cause. Pre-adamic man is being used literally as a portal through which the Matrix works and tries to keep man in his place through hyperdimenstional forces (4D STS).  Think of Agent Smith being able to inject himself into any charakter in “The Matrix” trying to stop Neo from awakening. Hence, blind people, people who are asleep, plugged into the Matrix, the grand illusion, become “tools” of the Matrix to make sure no one jumps out of line. It’s how the sheep control the sheep.

“You have to understand, most of these people are not ready to be unplugged. And many of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent on the system, that they will fight to protect it. “

- Morpheus in “The Matrix”

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It also became clear that the work of discerning these “organic portals” from souled human beings is CRUCIAL to the so-called “ascension” process. Without the basic understanding of transformation of, and conservation of energies, there is no possibility of fusing a magnetic center. And thus, it seems that the experiences described in the Adventures Series were not only necessary to further refine the energies, but also to develop the discernment process to a very high level. At this point, the group member stated that there was a member of her family who she was certain was one of these “organic portals.” The C’s jumped to respond:

A: Now, do not start labeling without due consideration. Remember that very often the individual who displays contradictory behavior may be a souled being in struggle.
Q: (L) I would say that the chief thing they are saying is that the really good ones – you could never tell except by long observation. The one key we discovered from studying psychopaths was that their actions do not match their words. But what if that is a symptom of just being weak and having no will? (A) How can I know if I have a soul?
A: Do you ever hurt for another?
Q: (V) I think they are talking about empathy. These soulless humans simply don’t care what happens to another person. If another person is in pain or misery, they don’t know how to care.
A: The only pain they experience is “withdrawal” of “food” or comfort, or what they want. They are also masters of twisting perception of others so as to seem to be empathetic. But, in general, such actions are simply to retain control.
Q: (A) What does having a soul or not having a soul have to do with bloodline?
A: Genetics marry with soul if present.
Q: Do “organic portals” go to fifth density when they die?
A: Only temporarily until the “second death.”
Q: (V) What is the “origin” of these organic portal human types? In the scheme of creation, where did they come from?
A: They were originally part of the bridge between 2nd density and 3rd density. Review transcripts on the subject of short wave cycles and long wave cycles.

The questions then moved onto issues about sleep. Ark had been reading the transcripts and noted that the C’s had said that sleep was necessary for human beings because it was a period of “rest and recharging.” They had also said that the SOUL rests while the body is sleeping. So, the question was what source of energy was tapped to recharge both the body and the soul.

A: The question needs to be separated. What happens to a souled individual is different from an organic portal unit.

At this point, we stopped and talked about the possibility that the life force energy that is embodied in Organic Portals must be something like the soul pool that is theorized for flora and fauna. This would, of course, explain the striking and inexplicable similarity of psychopaths, that is so well defined, that they differ from one another only in the way that different species of trees are different in the overall class of “Tree-ness” So, we divided the question and asked first:

Q: … where does the energy come from that recharges Organic Portals.
A: The pool you have described.
Q: Does the recharging of the souled being come from a similar pool, only maybe the “human” pool?
A: No - it recharges from the so-called sexual center which is a higher center of creative energy. During sleep, the emotional center, not being blocked by the lower intellectual center and the moving center, transduces the energy from the sexual center. It is also the time during which the higher emotional and intellectual centers can rest from the “drain” of the lower centers’ interaction with those pesky organic portals so much loved by the lower centers. This respite alone is sufficient to make a difference. But, more than that, the energy of the sexual center is also more available to the other higher centers.
Q: From where does the so-called “sexual center” get ITS energy?
A: The sexual center is in direct contact with 7th density in its “feminine” creative thought of “Thou, I Love.” The “outbreath” of “God” in the relief of constriction. Pulsation. Unstable Gravity Waves.
Q: Do the “centers” as described by Mouravieff relate at all to the idea of “chakras.”
A: Quite closely. In an individual of the organic variety, the so-called higher chakras are “produced in effect” by stealing that energy from souled beings. This is what gives them the ability to emulate souled beings. The souled being is, in effect, perceiving a mirror of their own soul when they ascribe “soul qualities” to such beings.
Q: Is this a correspondence that starts at the basal chakra which relates to the sexual center as described by Mouravieff?
A: No. The “sexual center” corresponds to the solar plexus. Lower moving center – basal chakra. Lower emotional – sexual chakra. Lower intellectual – throat chakra. Higher emotional – heart chakra. Higher intellectual – crown chakra
Q: (V) What about the so-called seventh, or “third eye” chakra?
A: Seer. The union of the heart and intellectual higher centers. This would “close the circuit” in the “shepherd’s crook” configuration.
Q: (V) What about the many ideas about 12 chakras, and so forth, that are currently being taught by many new age sources?
A: There are no such. This is a corrupted conceptualization based on the false belief that the activation of the physical endocrine system is the same as the creation and fusion of the magnetic center. The higher centers are only “seated” by being “magnetized.” And this more or less “External” [unseated] condition of the Higher Centers has been perceived by some individuals and later joined to the perceived “seating” locations, in potential. This has led to “cross conceptualization” based on assumption!
Q: Are the levels of initiation and levels of the staircase as presented by Mouravieff fairly accurate?
A: Yes, but different levels accessed in other so-called lives can relieve the intensity of some levels in “another” life.

Summing Up

Using clues the Cassiopaeans provided, a clearer picture emerged that two races may exist, and that, once the Biblical gloss was removed, Mouravieff’s description was accurate. They were able to deepen our understanding by situating the pre-adamic race within hyperdimensional reality and the Matrix control system. Let’s look at four points they raised:

  • The pre-adamic race serve as portals between levels of density.
  • They are “very efficient machines” and “The best ones cannot be discerned except by long and careful observation.”
  • They steal energy from souled beings so as to emulate them.
  • They make-up one-half of humanity.

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There is another very important point to understand before we can go any further: the two races have been interbreeding for a very, very long time.



Intermixing of the Races



It is extremely important to understand that the two races have been interbreeding for thousands, if not tens of thousands of years. It is impossible to look at the races on the earth today, the red, the white, the black, or the yellow, and argue that one or the other is this “pre-adamic” and soulless race. We cannot speak of groups, nations, tribes, nor peoples who are members of the “soulless” race as a group. The DNA of the two races is completely mixed, and this is the real meaning of the pollution of the bloodline. Only those with the appropriate genetic makeup are actually able to accommodate a soul and therefore pursue esoteric work, which means that no color or ethnic group is either excluded or has an advantage.

Consider this further. The DNA of these two races is so mixed that both can be found within the same families.



We wish to insist on this point so that the hard of thinking will not accuse us of racism. The two races are so intermingled that it is a question of the individual genetics of each person on the planet.

You will notice that the C’s are pointing us in the direction of individuals and away from groups. It is not “groupings or classifications”, it is the “individual aura profile.” And this coincides with Mouravieff’s statements on the issue as he remarks here:

…But the mixing of chromosomes was already an accomplished fact, so that the hormonal symmetry of the adamics has naturally diminished through the generations until it has become stabilized at the point it has now reached. … certain indications in the Gospel lead us to believe that the two human races that coexist on the earth are numerically equal… (p. 130)

We repeat: The DNA of these two races is so mixed that both can be found within the same families. Your brother, sister, mother, father, daughter or son. Not somebody “other” across the world or across the street worshipping a different god or with a different skin colour. It may be somebody you live with every day of your life, and if so, they have but one reason to be here, to drain, distract and deflect souled beings from evolving.

The way back to the activation of the DNA necessary to attain the contact with the higher centres is not through genetic manipulation, which is seeing the question through the “A” influences. The way back is through the ancient spiritual science, the real work of the alchemists, … which through the heating of the crucible, the neo-cortex, rewires the brain so that the ancient and broken connection with the higher centres can be reestablished. It is the fusing of the “magnetic center” the establishing of the insoluble, the real “I”. This is “genetic modification” seen as a “B” influence. Big difference.
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OPs and the Big Picture



That there exists a soulless race, now numbering close to 3 billion inhabitants of this planet, certainly helps explain why the planet is in its current state. That this soulless race are portals used by the 4D STS to maintain their control over us further explains the depth of the manipulations.
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It seems entirely possible that the function of an OP has been coopted by 4d STS as a feeding tube for them.  By this, I mean that the original purpose or function for an OP may have had nothing at all to do with feeding on the “adamic race”.
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It was also said by the Cs that OPs recharge their life force energy from a “pool”, as if they are part of a group soul much in the same way that trees are suggested to be…

But the question is, what is the nature of this bridge between 2nd and 3rd density function that OPs were originally intended for?..and in what way was it usurped…Is it that they are in fact 2nd density souls or parts of a 2D group soul that are inhabiting 3D bodies?

Again here we see that Organic portals are not “bad” or “evil” in the sense that we might ascribe to them without understanding their nature. We can see from the above that their original function was to serve as vehicles for newly evolved 2nd density souls, which, by definition do not, as yet, have integrated souls themselves. However, the key word in the above is “originally” – they were originally part of the bridge between 2nd and 3rd density. This suggests that their function or purpose has been corrupted or usurped and they are now being diverted for some other use…a few words come to mind..energy drain, distraction, confusion, manipulation … (of souled beings)…

[…]My impression is that OPs are the means for beings in 2D to manifest in 3D as a natural part of their growth, the next stage. It would be the first step. But because they were portals, they could be used by 4D, too. Especially as they would have no knowledge with which they could protect themselves.

There is this from that session:

Q: Do the “centers” as described by Mouravieff relate at all to the idea of “chakras.”
A: Quite closely. In an individual of the organic variety, the so-called higher chakras are “produced in effect” by stealing that energy from souled beings. This is what gives them the ability to emulate souled beings. The souled being is, in effect, perceiving a mirror of their own soul when they ascribe “soul qualities” to such beings.

It occurred to me that this might be the way that an OP comes into contact with soul energy and is thus able to grow. This “mirroring” of the soul which they do might be similar to the process Gurdjieff discusses when he talks about individuals saying to themselves “I AM”. They are not yet, but by saying this, they are able to begin to act “as if.” Souled individuals who are attempting to contact this higher part of themselves “pretend” they already “AM” – please excuse the grammar. They can do this because they are aware that this higher level exists. They have this knowledge. The OP, not having any experiential clue that a soul exists, learns about it through “stealing that energy from souled beings.”

This would make this process of “stealing energy” a natural part of the plan of growth, while at the same time creating the existence of the “door” which can be used by 4D STS to feed off of this soul energy.

I think we are all beginning to see just how pervasive this OP scenario is and how it has been affecting us all down the ages.  If “knowledge protects” is true, perhaps this is one of the biggest examples yet. It’s also possibly the most important thing we will ever master – in terms of seeing the unseen. We certainly have our work cut out for us.

[The] discussion brought out and developed some interesting ideas:

1. The function of the OP as a bridge.
2. Their relationships to soul pools of flora and fauna.
3. The idea that there is nothing here to “fix”. The Organic Portal is performing a function in the universe. It has its place.

But the discussion was leaving out one very important function of the Organic Portal which is mentioned above: their aforementioned coopting by 4 D STS as a means of draining energy from those who have chosen to work their way out of the Matrix. This was brought home by a post from M*** which is worth reading in its entirety. One of his arguments is presented this way:

They are generic vehicles or portals, in human form, open for use by a variety of forces, which is why they make excellent matrix puppets. It just so happens that they’re being used now by 4D STS to control 3D STS / 4D STO candidates through “clapper” and “vampire” functions — keeping us locked into a behavioral pattern matching the orchestrated norm, and being physically close to us to sap our energies and keep us from having enough “escape velocity” to remove ourselves from the Matrix Control System’s tug, via development of our magnetic centers.”Thus we see that the “natural” function of the OP of imitation of the soul energy, the process by which they were able to progress and evolve, assumes a specific character with the STS development stream of collecting the soul energy of souled individuals in order to pass it along the feeding chain to 4D STS. The principal role of the OP is now to prevent the genuine seeker from advancing along the Way.

This is clear when we look at the following:

  • OPs collect soul energy from souled individuals.
  • This energy is transmitted to 4D STS.
  • OPs are intermixed in families with souled individuals.
  • When a souled individual makes the commitment to the “work,” he or she needs to learn to conserve the soul energy for without it the work cannot be done.
  • When one makes a commitment to the “work,” one comes under attack.
  • This “attack” comes from those closest to you: family and friends.
  • “BUT, when someone is in the process of ‘growing’ and strengthening the soul, the Control System will seek to insert even more ‘units’ into that person’s life.”

So in many ways, the actual work of learning to discern the “A” influences from the “B” influences involves learning to discern the true nature of your relationships in order to conserve your energy from the OPs around you so that you have that energy to grow and strengthen your soul. This is made clear by Mouravieff when he makes the following comments about understanding the “film” of your life:

In theory, the film in which a man is born and in which he lives can go on until the end of the world, on condition that he is happy, satisfied with himself, attributing his virtues to himself, and blaming others for his mistakes and misfortunes. Properly speaking, this kind of existence cannot be considered as human; it could be described as anthropoid. This term is justified in the sense that exterior man, immersed in self-satisfaction, represents the crowning achievement of millions of years of evolution of the species from its animal ancestors, yet, from the point of view of esoteric evolution, he is a possibility which has not yet been realized.

If we envisage the problem of esoteric evolution from the point of view of the film and the different parts man can play in it, it is clear that this kind of evolution is impossible as long as the film can always be considered as running in the same circle. People who perform in such a film are those we have called anthropoids, puppets, the dead who, in the words of Jesus, ‘believe themselves to be alive’. Esoteric evolution starts when man, by his conscious efforts, proves capable of breaking the circle and transforming it into an ascending spiral.
[Gnosis, Book I, pp 234-5]

For those who aspire to be conscious and to learn how to “do” in the esoteric sense, must step out of their personal film peopled with Organic Portals. It takes two to tango, and generally neither party will find fulfillment.

As we have just said, man most often comes to this idea of evolution after he has already complicated the film to which he belongs. But true evolution, the journey toward the purity of the centres, especially the emotional centre which – at last at the start – is the sole receptacle of ‘B’ influences, and seat of the magnetic centre, cannot occur while mired in the original film. Purification of the heart is the sine qua non condition of success. [Gnosis I, p. 238]

The heart cannot grow toward purity while engaged in a dance with Organic Portals.

How An Organic Portal Views the Organic World



Fortunately, because the OP can be intelligent, observant, and analytical, and because they appear to include some of our most famous scientists, they are able to describe for us how they see the world and their interior “life” very accurately and in great detail.

At the bottom of this is perhaps the answer as to the source of one of the most enduring debates of human history i.e. good versus evil.

Why is it that there is so much strife in the world, why are so many divided over the promotion of war or peace, respect or disrespect, environmental protection or destruction, in short, a purely material self-serving outlook or a spiritual serving of others outlook?

Perhaps we are getting close to the answer, for the truth would seem to be that there is not and never has been a homogenous  “we” (the human race) on the planet, “we” are not all alike, “we” do not see the world in the same way, “we” are not just a divided race, we are two different races.



It becomes clearer then why most “top scientists”, in their theories, do not consider the spiritual dimension, or quickly write off any “unconventional” theories. The OP scientist (and just how many OP scientists there are is discussed further below) has no notion whatsoever of “spirit” or of the existence of higher centres. They are incapable of experiencing these higher centres, and therefore their descriptions of the world are lacking them. And because they cannot experience them, they deny their existence for everyone, including for those who are capable of “seeing” what the OP is incapable of seeing. In a materialistic world, where Organic Portals are in their Natural Element, and Souled Beings are NOT, with Organic Portal science drawing the boundary between  what is true and what is false, there is no place for the Higher realms. It is “false” compared with the self-evident “truth” of materialism as experienced at all levels by the OP.

The Organic Portal in his role of scientists is bound to come to a materialistic explanation for the workings of the universe because that is all they know and are able to see.



This is very clear when we look at the question of consciousness itself. The answers are very revealing.

The apparent ability of humans to be “self-aware” and the question of consciousness is one that has troubled the minds of philosophers, psychologists, scientists and the odd layperson, too, since time immemorial. Today more than ever consciousness is one of the most perplexing problems outstanding in science, and one that reflects on our very nature and relation to reality.

Western culture has seen various theories put forward as to the nature of human consciousness. Most of these can be included in one of two main schools of thought, i.e. the materialistic, Darwinist, evolutionary/”survival of the fittest” approach which proposes that mind/consciousness is an epiphenomenon which arises on top of material existence. From this scientific viewpoint the brain is a computer, with neurons and synapses acting as basic switches and “bits”, and consciousness is thought to “emerge” as a novel property of complex computation.



On the other hand, we have the more “spiritually” inclined school of thought, which holds the above to be wholly inadequate in explaining the phenomenon (undoubtedly fuelled by various religious teachings and creeds), and which holds to the concept of an ethereal spirit inhabiting the body/mind and expressing itself in the form of consciousness and that this is the fundamental aspect of life. Other schools mixing and matching from the two also exist.

To this point, it is interesting to look at just who are the various exponents on opposing sides of the argument. In one camp we have the many scientists and MDs of various disciplines such as the “neural Darwinism” of Edelman and the “memes” of Dennet and Dawkins. In the other camp we find “new age” gurus and authors and the odd respectable scientist such as David Chalmers, as well, of course, as the Church and the many twisted turns of Christianity.



We find there that many OP concepts have been utilized to coopt spiritual truth. We find many OPs, imitating souled beings in their “spiritual searching,” promoting ideas and theories that are fundamentally flawed because they are “imitations” of the real thing which the OP can never, by his very nature, perceive accurately.



Again and again, I can only point to the New Age Movement and popular easy-to swallow pseudo-spiritual half-truths. In light of the information we just examined, could it be possible that certain popular New Age Gurus, many of them who are millionaires and feed off attention in multiple ways, are in fact OP’s, imitating something they are not and do not posses?  Be it the successful yoga teacher who has his/her following, marketing him/herself shamelessly or the typical self-help guru on Oprah selling millions of books based on re-washed spiritual half-truths. The idea of Organic Portals opens up a whole can of worms and questions if someone really is who he/she claims to be or just pretends to be.

Startling figures recently released show that 50% of all medical and scientific papers are published by the same small group of academics, who account for just 6% of the total number. If we take it as real that our reality is manipulated to a large extent, then the logical step to keeping the scientific world under control would be to ensure that it is populated with people that will reflect the views and opinions that suit a specific agenda.



The same is true for the spiritual and esoteric world. 4th Density STS makes sure that the religions, spiritual concepts, and nearly the entire metaphysical “world” is dominated by OPs to keep the “cattle in the fence.”

As I mentioned above about the New Age Movement and the popular “Gurus”, this also relates to questionable channeled material, which may be transmitted by 4D STS sources. For example, claiming to be “The Galactic Federation of Light” and coming here to “save” humanity is in fact disinformation (for more about why higher evolved beings and ET’s would not “save” us, check out this video)  in order to keep the “cattle in the fence”, so to speak, targeting the credulity and wishful thinking of the channel and audience (with the usual emotional hooks). In other words, they are “negative” forces posing as “positive” ones. Of course not all channeled material is bogus, so discernment is key. There is much deception coming through the ether and not all channeled material is to be trusted. This article goes more into that.



Indeed, a perfect strategy might be to ensure that top posts are held by organic portals allowing the controllers to rest safely in the knowledge that all mainstream theories and research will have a definite materialistic and non-spiritual slant, thus perpetuating the Darwinist evolved “monkey clinging to a godless lump of rock spinning in space” shtick and keeping those pesky souled beings under their spell.

One “top man” with a relatively new axe to grind is Richard Dawkins.

Richard Dawkins, while developing the singular theory that humans were the method developed by genes to perpetuate themselves, coined the term “meme” in 1976 as a way to describe and validate the idea outlined above, i.e. that consciousness is merely a function of groups of ideas or concepts in our minds. What differs, however, in his interpretation is that it is not the “machine” that collects and organises data and then takes some predetermined action based on it, rather these “memes” take on a more hostile attitude and in a “virus”-like way, they invade the human mind (individual and mass) and compete with each other for dominance and, therefore, survival in the fertile ground that is the human neurological network.

In the words of Dr Susan Blackmore (another chief “meme head”):

Memes are ideas, skills, habits, stories or inventions, that are passed from person to person by imitation. Like genes they compete to get copied, but unlike genes their competition is for space in our memories, and for the chance to get into books, magazines and television programmes. The survivors in this game are the ones we see all around us. Just as genes have created our bodies, so memes have created our minds and our cultures.

This explains, so the theory goes, our incurably religious nature, our unusual forms of cooperation and altruism, our use of language, and our ability to defy our genes with birth control and genetic engineering. We humans, alone on this planet, are meme machines. The term ‘meme’ (to rhyme with cream or dream) was coined in 1976 by Richard Dawkins, in The Selfish Gene. The purpose of his book was to explain the power and generality of Darwin’s great insight. What Darwin had realised was that a simple mindless process can account for evolution — without a designer. If you have creatures that vary, and if only some of them can survive, and if the survivors pass on to their offspring whatever it was that helped them survive, then the next generation must be better adapted than the first—and so the process goes on. In more modern terms, if you have variation, heredity and selection, then you must get, as philosopher Dan Dennett puts it “Design out of Chaos without the aid of Mind”.And this inevitable process works on anything that is copied—not just genes.

Dan Dennett had this to say about memes and viruses:

Dawkins points out that we can think of cultural items, memes, as parasites, too. Actually, they are more like a simple virus than a worm. Memes are supposed to be analogous to genes, the replicating entities of the cultural media, but they also have vehicles, or phenotypes; they are like not-so-naked genes. They are like viruses (Dawkins, 1993). As with viruses, there is a phenotype/genotype distinction, but just barely. Basically, a virus is just a string of DNA (or RNA) with attitude. And similarly, a meme is an information-packet (the information, not the vehicle) with attitude–with some phenotypic clothing that has differential effects in the world that thereby influence its chances of getting replicated.

Dan Dennett is one of the most ardent defenders of the theory “mind as program”, although in Dennett’s theory, the mind is not one program, it is a collection of very simple programs which each do one thing very well. This is detailed in his book Consciousness Explained.

Dennett proposes that this collection of programs gives the impression of a unity that is the “self,” but that this self as unity does not exist. Dennett is giving a very accurate description of the way the mind works in an Organic Portal. It is also the way of the mind for an External Man, that is, the “souled” man who has not yet begun the work of building his magnetic centre which will permit the balancing and fusion of his three lower centres and the establishment of a permanent link with the higher centres.

Mouravieff writes:

When we ask someone who lives under this constant pressure of contemporary life to turn his mental vision towards himself, he generally answers that he has not enough time left to undertake such practices. … If he acquiesces, he will in most cases say that he sees nothing: Fog; Obscurity. In less common cases, the observer reports that he perceives something which he cannot define because it changes all the time.

This last observation is correct. Everything is in fact continually changing within us. A minor external shock, agreeable or disagreeable, happy or unhappy, is sufficient to give our inner content a quite different appearance.

If we follow up this interior observation, this introspection, without prejudice, we will soon note that our “I” of which we are so consistently proud, is not always the same self: the “I” changes.

As this impression becomes more defined we begin to become more aware that it is not a single being who lives within us but several, each having his own tastes, his own aspirations, and each trying to attain his own ends.

If we proceed with this experience, we will soon be able to distinguish three currents with that perpetually moving life: that of the vegetative life of the instincts, so to speak; that of the animal life of the feelings; and lastly that of human life in the proper sense of the term, characterized by thought and speech.

It is as though there were three beings within us, all entangled together in an extraordinary way.

So we come to appreciate the value of introspection as a method of practical work which permits us to know ourselves and enter into ourselves.

The inner content of man is analogous to a vase full of iron filings in a state of mixture as a result of mechanical action. Every shock received by the vase causes displacement of the particles of iron filings. Thus real life remains hidden from the human being due to the constant changes occurring in his inner life.


Even so, as we shall see later, this senseless and dangerous situation can be modified in a beneficial way. But this requires work; conscientious and sustained effort. Introspection carried out relentlessly results in enhanced internal sensibility. This improved sensibility in its turn intensifies the amplitude and frequency of movement whenever the iron filings are disturbed. As a result, shocks that previously were not noticed will now provoke vivid reactions. These movements, because of their continuous amplification, can create friction between particles of iron so intense that we may one day feel the interior fire igniting within us.


The fire must not remain a harmless flare-up. Nor is it enough that the fire smolders dormant under the ashes. A live and ardent fire once lit must be carefully kept alight by the will to refine and cultivate sensitiveness. If it continues in this way, our state can change: the heat of the flame will start a process of fusion within us.


From this point on the inner content will no longer behave like a heap of iron filings: it will form a block. Then further shocks will no longer provoke interior change in man as they did previously. Having reached this point he will have acquired a firmness; he will remain himself in the midst of the tempests to which life may expose him.

Thus we see that the idea that there is no unitary self is correct from the esoteric point-of-view. Only, we go further than Dennett. We hold that the possibility to create this “self” exists and that approximately 50% of the population of the earth at this time actually possess the latent resources with which to do this. This work involves being aware of our actions and responses and bringing our “programs” to light so that we can reach what lies behind, what is obscured by the many little “I”s, the real, unified “I”.



To further demonstrate the working of the organic portal scientific mind, we have the following from Francis Heylighen, a research professor at Free University of Brussels and editor of the Principia Cybernetica Project, “an international organization for the collaborative development of an evolutionary-systemic philosophy“. In attempting to convince us of the mind as machine theory, he defines this very situation and gives us an insight into and description of the mind and nature of an organic portal.

In “Is there a Hard Problem of Consciousness” he writes:

First person experiences or qualia are the essentially subjective, personal feelings or experiences that each of us have (e.g. the feeling of “redness” or “cold”), and that cannot be described by words, formulas, programs or any other objective representation. According to some consciousness theorists, such as David Chalmers, an agent without such qualia would merely be a “zombie”, a creature that may behave, sense and communicate just like a human being, but that would lack the most crucial aspect of consciousness. The “hard problem” of consciousness research then consists in elucidating the nature of first-person experiences.

We believe that this approach is essentially misguided. If the hypothetical zombie behaves in all respects indistinguishable from a person with consciousness, then the principle of the identity of the indistinguishable would force us to conclude that the “zombie” has consciousness. How else would we know that the people around us aren’t zombies? We assume they have conscious experience similar to ourselves because they behave in all other respects similar to us. But if you would take this reasoning seriously, then you might start to get nightmarish fantasies in which you are the only real, conscious person in the world, and all the others are merely sophisticated automatons that pretend to be like you.

Conscious human or sophisticated automaton?

Have you ever had this “nightmarish fantasy” that the world is populated by zombies ? Well, guess what, it isn’t a fantasy. Half the people out there are exactly that: “sophisticated automatons that pretend to be like you”.



It is entirely fitting that he uses the term “agent” (the Matrix movie anyone?) for the type of programmed being, “be they made from flesh and blood or silicon chips”.

He goes on to say:

Agents do not sense the world as if they were impersonal, objective bystanders, that try to internally represent the world as it is, independently of themselves. For an agent a sensation is meaningful only to the degree that it relates to the agent’s goals, which, in practice, means that it is relevant to the agent’s individual survival.

Heylighen is describing the predator’s mind. This is startlingly close to the actual real life scenarios of psychopath’s behavior and thinking that are presented in Cleckely’s book “The Mask of Sanity”.

The author concludes:

Consciousness is not some mysterious substance, fluid, or property of matter, but a level of organization emerging from abstract processes and relations. People who search for consciousness in elementary particles (a form of panpsychism that has been suggested as a way to tackle the “hard problem”), because they cannot otherwise explain where the consciousness in our brain comes from, are misguided. Their intuition may be correct insofar that particles, just like any other system, should be seen as relations rather than just as clumps of matter. But to attribute consciousness to these extremely simple types of relations is merely a way to evade the really hard, but solvable, problem of reconstructing the complex cybernetic organization of the human mind in all its details and subtleties.

Here we have seen the Organic Portal view of themselves. Whether or not the individuals named are Organic Portals is not the issue. They may be souled individuals who have not yet been able to see behind the lie of the Personality. As long as that has not happened, souled individuals will function and see the world and themselves as if they were Organic Portals. But it is clear that this manner of “explaining” consciousness is limited, explaining only that particular form of consciousness manifested by the Personality – the exterior man. It can describe the functioning of the OP or the exterior man; it can not do justice to the consciousness of the Seeker engaged in the work of fusion to seat the soul.



We next look at the question of creativity.



We have seen that the OP learns through imitation. Meme theory posits that memes spread through imitation. And works of art, books, music, scientific ideas, all of these forms of “creation”, are merely the spreading of memes. A “creator” is someone who takes memes and finds new ways of putting them together, of arranging and rearranging. But nothing is ever really “created.”



This is because the moving centre of the Organic Portal, unable to draw energy from the higher emotional and intellectual centres which do not exist for him. His creativity in the form of “love” is limited in its functioning to carnal love.

Mouravieff writes:

It is important to remember that – except of course for adamic man – every creature taking part in organic Life on Earth, whether it has one centre to its psyche, two, or three as in the man of the VIth day [the organic portal], has only one higher centre. Indeed, on the hylic plane, the sexual centre is analogous to the higher emotional and higher intellectual centres, since it is by nature and structure whole, that is, indivisible.

Except when its energy is usurped by the three centres of the Personality, the sexual centre in its direct function, which is carnal love, has a goal that is well defined by the words: Be fruitful, and multiply. In other words, in a healthy organism, this centre, like the higher emotional and intellectual centres, knows neither doubt, nor hesitation, nor sadness, which is quite the opposite with what is too often the case with the three lower centres. [Gnosis, Book III, p. 143.]

The special function of the sexual centre in souled beings is explained further by the C’s:

Q: Does the recharging of the souled being come from a similar pool, only maybe the “human” pool?
A: No – it recharges from the so-called sexual center which is a higher center of creative energy. During sleep, the emotional center, not being blocked by the lower intellectual center and the moving center, transduces the energy from the sexual center. It is also the time during which the higher emotional and intellectual centers can rest from the “drain” of the lower centers’ interaction with those pesky organic portals so much loved by the lower centers. This respite alone is sufficient to make a difference. But, more than that, the energy of the sexual center is also more available to the other higher centers.
Q: From where does the so-called “sexual center” get ITS energy?
A: The sexual center is in direct contact with 7th density in its “feminine” creative thought of “Thou, I Love.” The “outbreath” of “God” in the relief of constriction. Pulsation. Unstable Gravity Waves.

True creativity comes from this connection with “7th density in its ‘feminine’ creative thought of  ‘Thou, I Love’” in its conjugation with the higher emotional and intellectual centers. Thus the souled individual is able to “create” in the sense of manifesting something new through his or her thought and the connection to 7th Density. This is a profound process for it ties us directly to the “Creator”, to the One.


The organic portal, when seeking to define this genuine creative impulse, is obliged to fall back upon the idea of the meme, of imitation. Look at Dennett describe the creative act:

This is a new way of thinking about ideas. It is also, I hope to show, a good way, but at the outset the perspective it provides is distinctly unsettling, even appalling. We can sum it up with a slogan:
A scholar is just a library’s way of making another library.

I don’t know about you, but I am not initially attracted by the idea of my brain as a sort of dungheap in which the larvae of other people’s ideas renew themselves, before sending out copies of themselves in an informational Diaspora. It does seem to rob my mind of its importance as both author and critic. Who is in charge, according to this vision–we or our memes?

There is, of course, no simple answer. We would like to think of ourselves as godlike creators of ideas, manipulating and controlling them as our whim dictates, and judging them from an independent, Olympian standpoint. But even if this is our ideal, we know that it is seldom if ever the reality, even with the most masterful and creative minds. As Mozart famously observed of his own brainchildren:

“When I feel well and in a good humor, or when I am taking a drive or walking after a good meal, or in the night when I cannot sleep, thoughts crowd into my mind as easily as you would wish. Whence and how do they come? I do not know and I have nothing to do with it. Those which please me I keep in my head and hum them; at least others have told me that I do so.”

Mozart is in good company. Rare is the novelist who doesn’t claim characters who “take on a life of their own”; artists are rather fond of confessing that their paintings take over and paint themselves, and poets humbly submit that they are the servants or even slaves to the ideas that teem in their heads, not the bosses. And we all can cite cases of memes that persist unbidden and unappreciated in our own minds.

Let us look at this notion of “where do creative ideas come from?” In the External Man, that is, the souled individual who has yet to begin the work of forming the magnetic centre, there is a connection, albeit veiled, with the higher centres. Because it is veiled, “ideas” which are able to pierce the veil will have the appearance of “appearing from nowhere.” They may well be genuinely creative acts, however, the Personality is unaware of this.



The arrival of a meme in the mind of the organic portal will also have the appearance of “appearing from nowhere”, but in this case, there is no veil that has been pierced, no higher centre from which it has received nourishment. Because the OP and the souled individual who has yet to begin esoteric work are describing the same surface features of an event – the “creative” act — they may well confound the genuine creative act with the mere propagation of the meme.

Thus, “creation”, our connection with “7th density in its ‘feminine’ creative thought of  ‘Thou, I Love’”, is reduced to mere imitation and emptied of its expression of Love. If every creative act is an expression of Love, and every act of imitation is not, we can see clearly that we live in a world without Love.




Identifying OPs

Having come to the realization that there are 3 billion Organic Portals in the world, discussion at the Quantum Future School turned to “How do we identify them?” This is not easy, as their primary talent is that of imitation, of mimicry. As we saw in the section on where they fit in the Organic world, it is through imitation that they are able to begin the process of developing their own souls. This ability to mimic must therefore be an integral part of their character. To progress, they must be good at it.

 This implies that the “best” OPs will be the best mimics, the ones best able to mimic being “souled.”

However, the internal structure of the OP is missing the higher centres, having only the three lower centres which form the Personality, the “I” of the small “I”s, and the “I” of the body, and a sexual centre cut off from the other higher centres. A study of the following passage by Mouravieff gives indications on how a careful study of the inner dynamic of people can separate the “good seed” from the “tares”.

The adamic man who has even a vague consciousness of his real ‘I’ finds that this is a source of internal conflict that he cannot solve on a purely human plane. This conflict becomes more acute from the moment he actively enters esoteric work. It is then that he becomes weak and falls a prey to uncertainty, doubt, and mistrust towards himself, for the road that leads to Truth always passes through doubts. Throughout this work, we have seen several times the considerable sum of efforts and superefforts that are demanded of the adamic man, who, after having recognized his position in life, resolutely crosses the First Threshold and climbs the staircase to attain and pass the Second Threshold with its promised Redemption. [Gnosis, Book III, pp. 131-132]

So the first indication of an Organic Portal is a lack of “internal conflict and resulting doubt.” There are people who never doubt their thoughts or what they are told or what they have chosen to believe. No matter the circumstances, the failures or set-backs, these people are unassailed by self-questioning or questioning of the system.

How many of you reading this site were prompted to do so because of a feeling of conflict or doubt about what was “out there” and what some intuition or inner knowing was suggesting? The character Morpheus sums it up pretty well in The Matrix:

“You are here because you know something.”

An OP does not have this inner conflict, they do not react to evidence of “more to life” than material existence. But even if the OP is not beset with this type of doubt, they can and do have a form of “inner conflict” that is Personality based.

 Mouravieff explains:

Pre-adamics are not subject to these fits of anguish and these permanent inner conflicts; not that they live in perfect peace, or are never troubled by conflicts – far from it – but in most cases their conflicts take place in the interior of the Personality, between different groups of the little ‘I’s which produce these conflicts. As a result, the character of the conflicts is purely psychic, and they are generally resolved by some kind of compromise.

The more acute conflicts that take place in pre-adamic man occur between the ‘I’ of the Personality and the ‘I’ of the body. We have dwelt at length on this subject in volume II of Gnosis, emphasizing the fact that the ‘I’ of the body usually wins over the weak, changing Personality, which capitulates without much of a struggle whenever it is a question of satisfying the stomach or the sexual appetites.

Justification is then sought in slogans such as those which allow us to think that it is normal to ‘act like everyone else,’ or in a maze of paradoxical reasons that are simply lies to oneself.
[Gnosis, Book III, p. 132]

The inner conflicts of the Organic Portal are not about his relationship to the world in the sense of his fundamental “Being” in this world. He cannot become preoccupied by such questions, because they arise from the influence of the real ‘I’. There can be no contradiction between the Organic Portal and his Being in this world because he is fully OF this world, he is the expression of it as a material realm.

The souled individual, however, is different, having “fallen” into this world, retaining a memory of the higher worlds which come to him through the real “I”. The tension between this “re-mind-er” of his true nature from the real “I” and the fallen nature of his Personality is what creates the potential for esoteric work, is what creates the grounds for the heating of the crucible as the two enter into conflict. [The conflict described in alchemical texts, the tests of the Knight on the Quest for the Grail.]

But the inner conflicts of adamic man, who often enters esoteric work because he has reached the last extremity of moral bankruptcy, cannot be resolved by compromise, as there is no place for this kind of solution in the consciousness of the real ‘I’ from which he receives his calls. In him, it is the ensemble formed by the entire Personality, with the ‘I’ of the body, an ensemble which, directly or indirectly, is often made to act by the sexual centre, which flees from the voice of conscience, i.e. of the real ‘I’. He then has a choice, either to obey his real ‘I’ and triumph over himself, or to flee from this invisible Combat into self-calming and powerful illusions offered by a life of lying to himself.

In every case, if he triumphs over himself, which is what will enable the adamic man to resolve the inner conflict of the moment, this will inevitably involve a modification of his attitude towards outer life. Generally, the result will be conflict with those closest to him, unless the latter follow him step by step in his esoteric evolution, which is rare.

This does not mean that those who are near and dear to him wish him any ill; on the contrary, it is nearly always his good that they have in view: the conflict arises simply from their different conceptions of what is real. If those who surround the individual in question are pre-adamic, they could never agree with him, being incapable of understanding the reasons for his change of attitude and unable to grasp the nature of the end he pursues. They will automatically become the instruments of the General Law, which makes sure that those who step out of line are brought back into the fold. This is how ‘a man’s foes shall be of his household.’ [Ibid.]

Mouravieff describes the situation for the Seeker, but only hints at the activity of the Control System when he mentions the “General Law” or “A” influences. The C’s have said, in the session quoted above, “the Control System will seek to insert even more ‘units’ into that person’s life.” We have also seen how the Organic Portal’s natural role has been coopted by 4D STS. This would imply that the problems arising from different conceptions of what is real will be used, magnified, and stoked to the wildest proportions imaginable by the conscious activities of the Controllers as they seek to feed themselves and prevent the Seeker from walking the Way.

Pre-adamic man cannot be subject to inner or domestic conflicts of this kind. He rarely receives ‘B’ influences. If he vaguely senses their existence, they only appear as a curiosity to his eyes and do not have the power to trouble him right down to the depths of his psyche. In him, the sexual centre reigns supreme, whether by its direct action that takes the form of carnal love [i.e. for the sake of reproduction], or by an indirect, ‘psychological’, action of the psyche to which his Personality submits. Like adamic man’s, his Personality contains three lower centres, but that is all. Equally underdeveloped and unbalanced, but sheltered from the troubles provoked by the ‘B’ influences, this Personality lives and acts obedient to the commands of the sexual centre. Nothing within him withstands the latter, which is known in contemporary language as temperament.

In the arena of the ‘exterior’ life of human society, dominated by the ‘A’ influences, the adamic man who has crossed the First Threshold proves to be weaker than his pre-adamic counterpart; and the greater the strength he acquires during his progress on the Staircase, the greater is his weakness when faced with life. [Gnosis, Book III pp. 132-133]

This last comment gives another clue. The pre-adamic being is IN his or her environment in a way that an adamic being is not. The world with its “A” influences holds great attraction. The activity of the sexual center seeks gratification in a world more and more sexually charged through media and open displays of sexual imagery. The “I” of the body can exist happily on the level of a basic animal existence governed by the lower centers, but the developing real “I” in the process of activating the higher centers cannot. And throughout it all, the soulless being doesn’t feel uncomfortable, unless they have been caught up in the brainwashing of Church, etc., intended to control the souled. We see also that the organic portal will not react to “B influences” (which are evidence of a greater or spiritual reality) when they intrude upon his daily life but will rather quickly seek to dismiss them.



[…]
After a certain period of time, we realized that there was something much deeper than just simply bald-faced lying, theft and general spiritual corruption going on out there in New Age land.
[…]
So, we moved to another area of study: Cleckley.  And he does, indeed, talk about some psychopaths who have never gone “over the line” in social terms.  They are successful doctors, lawyers, even psychiatrists… [not to forget politicians and world leaders]

What we now suspect is that there is an even more covert “layer of the onion” on this subject: the effective and efficient Organic Portal.  The PERFECT Mask of Sanity.  But more than that: the perfect Mask of Consciousness.



If we accept, as Mouravieff describes, that the Organic Portal has the possibility of moving forward in his own evolution during the next cycle, moving from pre-adamic to adamic, and if we also admit that the current cycle is approaching its end, there is the following possibility. We are living in the period when a certain number of OPs have achieved an imitation of the souled being which is so realistic, so developed, that they can only come back as adamic beings. They can not evolve any further within these bodies.

This forces the Seeker to develop his or her discernment, to refine it continually in order to “see” finer and finer degrees of manipulation happening around and to us. It will heat the crucible to higher and higher temperatures, creating in turn the conditions of liberation.



[In this current time of transition, the end of the Grand Cycle, it becomes  important for adamic man to wake up and consciously engage in esoteric work through conscious efforts, in order  to align with the Divine Plan and rectify the "error". At the same, if adamic man develops as he should ( fusing the magnetic center to establish the permanent real "I"), pre-adamic man will take the place of adamic man, granting him the possibility of  esoteric evolution. If adamic man fails to do so, "the Deluge of Fire awaits us" , as Mouravieff pointed out, the way down into Entropy,  the dark side of Creator, Non-Being, as mentioned in the beginning of this blog. The choice to be made is in each single one of us. No one can do the work for another, nor can any "saviors".]




Summing Up



Let’s pull together the various threads and weave a tapestry which illustrates our current situation.

By “going for the gold,” that is, desiring to experiment with physicality, our consciousness unit fell from its state of “grace,” that is, a 3D STO existence in a “semi/sort of” 4D state aligned with 4D STO into a 3D STS world already populated with an anthropoid race who served as organic portals, the bridge linking 2nd Density to 3rd Density. Having fallen, and thereby losing awareness of its connection to the higher centers, the souled race was in no way different from the anthropoid race when seen from the exterior. He differed only in having the potential to reconnect with the higher centers by developing the magnetic center. The DNA which seated these higher centers was burned away – disconnected and dispersed in the cell structure. However, the ability to get it back remains.

This 3rd Density STS world in which Adamic man “awoke” was not his natural habitat. It is the world of the anthropoids, the meat puppets, the dead. It is a farm run and controlled by 4D STS to provide their nourishment. It is the world of the three lower centers and a sexual center limited to a role of procreation through carnal love. It is a world organized on the basis of hunger, sex, and fear.



The souled race came into this world and became part of it, interbreeding with the native race until the genetic pool became thoroughly mixed. Now, the two races are so mixed that they can both be found within the same family.



More than that, the models we are taught and forced to internalize are based upon the “natural” inhabitant of this realm, the Organic Portal. Thus, material explanations are the norm. The inner life of the Organic Portal, cut off from the higher centres, is the “norm.”



Should we then be surprised that we live in a world which is more and more “mechanical,” which treats individuals as “units,” where “creativity” is the replication of existing ideas as in a production line, where “franchising” and “branding” are so important in the economic world, where democracy is a multiple choice test every few years rather than the creative input of individuals into the organization of their lives, where people who “see” other beings, other worlds, are shipped off into prison camps for the “mentally disturbed”, where culture consists of endless copies of the same product with slight modifications to fool the consumer that it is something “new” and “revolutionary”. And on and on it goes.

And it is all organized to prevent YOU from advancing, to distract YOU, to keep YOU concerned with a husband, wife, mother, father, daughter or son who is beyond your ability to “save” because he or she cannot be “saved” — they are fundamentally different from you, they do not have the DNA which would allow a soul to “seat” so as to enable an understanding of the possibility of a higher life. Worse, they are draining you of vital energy and thus denying you any chance of developing your magnetic centre, with the final destination of this energy being 4D STS. It feeds and maintains the Matrix. In these interactions, you are nothing but a battery and the organic portals in your life are the “feeding tubes.”

You need that energy to advance. It is yours, and it is your right to claim and retain it. But to do so, you must stop this “dance of death” with the Organic Portals in your life.

In a very real and important sense, determining the nature of our relationships IS the very process of discerning “A” influence and “B” influences. It is the most important work we can do. We can accomplish NOTHING else without doing this first. You cannot be “unequally yoked.” You cannot serve two masters.



Instead of labeling definitively the more subtle cases of OPs, maybe it is better to focus on identifying within ourselves how much energy is being drained in any interaction.  This can be done I think.  And this is the crucial distinction that needs to be made.



When we discern that our energy is being drained in an interaction… we are then faced with a very difficult situation especially if the OP in our lives is of the type that is not overtly “defective,” so to say. It may be a “doggie” type that is very nice to have around most of the time, though demanding and draining.

For example: if we are in a relationship where we feel we “need to get away now and then to recharge” or something, but in most other respects, the relations are satisfactory, we may be involved with an OP that is very subtle and good in terms of draining our energy off.

It may take years to realize that we are really getting nowhere in terms of spiritual growth, even if we do sort of manage to “hold the line” with our regular “getaways” or other coping mechanisms we develop in our relations.



We are very happy to be working to leave the 3rd Density STS Planet Earth to its original inhabitants. It must be as difficult for them as it is for us to continue to cohabit the same world with such diametrically opposed points of view on how the universe works and in which direction we should be working.

We wish them well in the next Cycle.

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The Splitting is already happening for The Wave is approaching.  As the cycle closes there is the opportunity for adamic man, souled humans with access to the higher centers, to “graduate” or ascend into a higher state of Being, activating the full DNA. However it doesn’t happen by itself, nor by bathing in the Photon belt, meditating on Love and Peace, focusing on “positive” thoughts or creating one’s reality by following the desires of the false “I”, the personality, the “A” influences and world of the Organic portal.

Conscious efforts are needed, gaining knowledge and applying it, separating truth from lies in oneself and in the world, activating the higher centers through esoteric work, so the fire can ignite the transmutation of Lead into Gold, fusing the Magnetic Center, the Holy Grail, the Path of Ascension, which leads from carnal love to courtly Love of the Absolute. This is the work to be done for the ones who are called to awaken and there are forces that do not wish that to happen, using Organic Portals to work through as well as many other traps and temptations the “General Law” (or “Hyperdimensional Matrix Control System”) puts into the path of the seeker to divert him/her in order not to lose its food source. It’s a spiritual war and we need to be discerning in our relationships, who we engage with, the “spiritual” and “new age” teachings we come across and so on. Without discernment and mastering our “I”, no spiritual progress and ultimately no ascension.

The topic of Organic Portals is deep and far-reaching. One must not to come to hasty conclusions, assumptions or judgments. We all are Organic Portals to one degree or another as the “predator” and matrix works through all of us until we make the effort to gain self-knowledge and work on fusing our higher centers that connect us to our higher self in a conscious way, dislodging our programs and conditioned, mechanical behaviors so we’re able to use our will in a conscious and awake manner. That is the basis for true free will.

‘Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal. ‘

- Don Juan Matus

In the words of Laura Knight-Jadczyk from “The Secret History of the World”:

[...] a major part of our esoteric work is to learn to extricate ourselves from the energy feeding dynamic inherent in relationships with Organic Portals. Moreover, because those who have the higher centers in potential are subject to the same programming and are mechanical, reaction units until they undertake the work to develop their higher centers, the same thing holds true in our interactions and dynamics with them. We are all feeders until we learn to stop our feeding off of others and how to stop others from feeding off of us. Esoteric work demands enormous amounts of energy, and this energy is the energy off of which others feed.

In order to progress in esoteric work, it is fundamental to understand this underlying dynamic of feeding; it is pointless and dangerous to attempt to identify and to classify individuals as organic portals because we are all OPs until we choose to be otherwise. To turn a tool for understanding the true terror of our situation in this world of the fallen into a weapon against individuals is to empty it of its spiritual importance and render it a tool of our enslavement in the material world, the same process that has occurred to all of the world’s religions during the course of our unhappy history.

A true understanding of the organic portal and the world in which we live gives us the knowledge necessary for getting out “alive”, whether that is literally or whether it is just being alive to our true nature as souls locked in material bodies in order to learn important lessons that only this world can teach. We can no more hate those who have no access to the higher truths because of who they are than we can hate the cat who plays with the mouse prior to killing and eating it.

For more information please check the sources mentioned throughout this blog.


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