This is an essay I was asked to write for the Berlin Future Forum (BFF) which I’ve been invited to participate and speak at, Octiober 25th – 30th, 2017. This year’s conference theme is “Healing the Self, Healing the World”.Read More...
Bernhard Guenther at Regeneration 2017:
The Matrix Control System & The Path Towards Awakening (1hr 27min)
As the the cosmic energies of our planet become increasingly-infused with the contrasting expression of light and dark frequencies during this Time of Transition, many of us (whether we are conscious or not of this elevation in contrasting vibrations) are experiencing breakdowns and breakthroughs at an accelerated pace. We are being pushed to awaken – to align with the divine force. This process is bringing up anything that is not of the same frequency that our spirit is currently “downloading” in order to be transmuted….
– The Hyperdimensional Matrix Control System (recap)
– The Process of Awakening
– What does it mean to be “Awake”?
– Traps on the Path towards Awakening
– Occult Hostile Forces Targeting The Seeker
– Sincerity and Radical Self-Honesty
– Life as a Catalyst and Teacher
My good Peruvian friend and talented sound healer Fred Clarke Alvarez asked me to a share a little bit about my life, experiences, and work on camera.
Hyperdimensional Realities, Matrix Control System, Challenges in the Process of Awakening, Shadow Work, Reality Creation, Medicine Plants, Personal Sovereignty, Individuality, Self-Love, Soul Fragmentation, Entity Attachments, Evil, Ascension, Embodiment, Intuition, Bodywork, Psychology, Limitations of 3D Thinking, and more…Read More...
This video sheds light into the nature of love, relationships, the “New Age” movement, reality-creation, quantum physics, objectivity vs. subjectivity and how it all relates to the topics of “conspiracy theories”, psychopathy, and the importance of self-work.
“Love, Reality, and the Time of Transition has been selected as the #1 film 2011-2012 of the ‘Top 100 Global Development Movies’ The best positive, inspirational, thought-provoking movie of our times.”
– RYB TV
Written, narrated and audio editing by Bernhard Guenther
Visuals and video editing by Humberto Braga
“All You Need Is Love” – The Beatles
“Symetric Lifes” – H.U.V.A. Network
“We Are Analog” – Hol Baumann
“Oleander (Phutureprimitive Symbiotic Remix)” – Bluetech
“Floating Retention” – Cell
“Terpene” – Carbon Based Lifeforms
“Rain Geometries” – H.U.V.A. Network
“The Garden” – Adham Shaikh
“Orientations, Pt. 2 (Ephemeride 15.43°)” – H.U.V.A. Network
“Longing for Silence” – Asura
“Silent Running” – Carbon Based Lifeforms
“20 minutes” – Carbon Based Lifeforms
“Polyrytmi” – Carbon Based Lifeforms
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“It is understatement in the extreme to say that spiritual deepening is not necessarily a benign, nice, neat, or comfortable process. Initially we may flirt with spiritual opening, doing some meditation practices, reading spiritual or metaphysical literature, trying out different teachers and teachings, perhaps hoping that our spiritual experiences will make us happier or more successful, but when we go — or are compelled to go — beyond spiritual dilettantism and cultism, reaching the point where we don’t give a damn about being spiritually correct and where spiritual deepening is not an option but a fundamental need, we find that it is much more of a sacrificial process than we bargained for, necessarily bringing us face to face with all that we have turned away from, risen above, or otherwise avoided in ourselves.
We have an astonishing ability to fool ourselves, and an equally astonishing ability to cut through what’s in the way of seeing more clearly. The first ability — which appears at every level of development — generates the very conditions that catalyze the second, conditions that feature enough suffering to really grab our attention. However unwittingly or unconsciously, we invite in circumstances that bring our dissatisfaction to such a peak — or through! — that something has to give, providing us with whatever rough grace is needed.”
– Robert Augustus Masters
By Bernhard Guenther, September 17th, 2013
Over the past 4 months I took a break from the external world and the internet for two months. I needed to go on a sabbatical to address some childhood wounds and issues that have come up for me. Life has shown me my shadow once again to be looked at and made conscious of.
I thought I had already worked through a lot, but now another layer has been opened up and raw wounds were painfully present, forcing me to feel a lot of emotions I had suppressed, mostly guilt, shame, and anger. I realized that I understood many things intellectually in the past, but didn’t fully break through the buffers and armor of my emotional self I thought I had already processed. Instead, I was projecting it outward towards others in my life. My Knowledge and Understanding was over-riding my Being, not fully embodying “the Work”, avoiding deeper issues that I couldn’t ignore anymore. As Carl Jung said “personal unconscious must always be dealt with first… otherwise the gateway to the cosmic unconscious cannot be opened.”
The universe and life draw people and situations into our lives at times to deal with the personal unconscious, the darkness we need to make conscious in ourselves, before we can attain any higher spiritual states. Relationships are very powerful and challenging in that regard as we engage in the dance of shadow projection, triggering unconscious childhood wounds in each other.
When we are in the midst of challenging situations and life takes a downward spiral and everything seems to fall apart it is hard to make sense of it all. The pain and suffering can be intense, resulting in depression, resentment, anger, guilt and shame. We feel resentment if we feel wronged by another person and we blame him/her for the pain they have caused us. Or we blame ourselves with guilt and shame of how bad of a person we are. So we judge others or ourselves, reacting mechanically and unconsciously.
There is nothing wrong with feeling resentment, anger, guilt or shame. It’s ok to acknowledge and say “Ouch, you hurt me!” or admit our wrong-doings to others and making amends because we feel guilty and have hurt another person because of our actions. There is a place and healthy expression of negative emotions. It helps us to shine light into things we had suppressed. It only starts to become toxic and self-defeating if we keep lingering on resentment/anger or beating ourselves up with guilt and shame to the point that we diminish our healthy self-worth.
When we can’t let go of resentment and keep feeding our anger by continually pointing out everything the other person is doing and has done wrong, blaming him/her for our pain, then this issue is deeper and relates to our childhood wounding which is coming to surface. It relates to our needs not being met by our parents or old wounds from past relationships we haven’t fully processed and let go of are being reactivated. The same goes if we keep diminishing ourselves with guilt and shame, making ourselves feel worthless. It relates to our inner child that is carrying wounds we haven’t made conscious yet.
In that sense, negative emotions about ourselves or others can lead us into a downward spiral where we suffer mechanically and unconsciously. However, if we can recognize the triggers and reflect how this relates to our childhood wounds, without projecting them into the present and taking things personal, then we can use these negative emotions to suffer consciously in order to dissolve them and not react mechanically but respond with compassion and empathy towards ourselves and others. It’s about addressing, processing and resolving without blame.
This, of course, is sometimes easier said than done because our unconscious behaviors are hard to spot first, for the simple reason because they are unconscious. It is important not suppress or avoid negative emotions. They are not really “negative” to begin with but we tend to judge them as “bad” or we identify so strongly with them that we think we are them. Non-reacting doesn’t mean suppressing, but feeling them consciously, being vulnerable and in order to do that we need to tune into our body.
Being a bodyworker and receiving massage on a regular basis as well as having a consistent yoga and qi gong practice has shown me many times the importance of the body-mind connection, how our traumas and childhood wounds are stored in our bodies. Our muscles, tissue, organs and bones are carriers of energy and memory, all of which is interrelated and connected. The body is a holistic organism where nothing is isolated. Everything affects us physically and energetically on some level. Any experience we ever had, even things that happened to us but we’ve forgotten about or were not aware of, it is still held in the body. Be it grief, a broken relationship, emotional pain, everyday stress, childhood issues, injuries and accidents, past life trauma, etc….the body stores the experience and does not “forget” until it is released in the body.
Throughout my life I have worked through many issues with the help of these body-mind techniques, but as more had come up for me recently, I needed a new approach. After a difficult break-up with my partner, we decided to see a professional psychotherapist (as a couple and individual sessions) trained in Gestalt Therapy, Jungian Psychology, Trauma Work, Somatic Release Therapy and various other body-mind techniques. At first I was reluctant to go. My ego came in, telling me “What? Me? I don’t need to go to therapy. I can work this out in my own!”. But I realized I had hit a wall and dead-end. My relationship with my partner was disintegrating as our individual childhood wounds were starring in each other’s faces crying for recognition. Too many triggers and mechanical reactions, not enough conscience and mindfulness.
Going to see a therapist was the best thing I could have done. When I was telling her about what I was going through, she stopped me sometimes in mid-sentence, making me aware of subtle body-movements or facial expressions I made and wasn’t aware of as I was talking, gently guiding me to feel the underlying emotions, asking me where I feel it and, encouraging me to talk to it, helping me to get out of my head and feel more. Her presence of radiant empathy but with clear energetic boundaries was very powerful, giving me the space and safety to process without being judged.
Many times during these sessions I started crying out of nowhere as my therapist guided me through my body. I had emotional releases at home during this time as well, crying and grieving with intense sadness, emotions that have been “stuck” for decades or even past lives got released. Narcissistic wounding from childhood (when one or both parents tried to meet their needs through us and didn’t fully respond to our needs) and codependency issues came up (one can cause the other), two things many of us are dealing with, being aware of it or not.
Interestingly I was aware of these issues for years but realized now that I never worked through it on that deep emotional level as I was able to do now to thanks to therapy. I couldn’t have done it on my own.
Four months later I feel an emotional depth and sensitivity with empathy and compassion I’ve never experienced before. Yet, the work never stops and it’s an ongoing process. The main thing I realized is how we all can easily engage in “spiritual bypassing” where we use spiritual and esoteric concepts to bypass basic psychological work, over-estimating ourselves and essentially lying to ourselves about our state of being, intellectualizing things and not embodying them. Especially nowadays with all the pop-psychology and new age material, we can easily buffer up issues and avoid deeper psychotherapeutic work, fooling ourselves all along.
“All who are into the spiritual have engaged in spiritual bypassing. We need to accept that we have or are using it to avoid our psychological issues and to feel better about ourselves. We must view this with genuine compassion and understanding, not judgment or denial. We must be aware of our capacity for spiritual bypassing. We need to stop impaling ourselves on various spiritual shoulds and practices and preoccupations of being nice, positive, and spiritual. We need to recognize and act on addressing our darker or less spiritual emotions, impulses and intentions and stop denying them as part of who we are. We must be aware of our need to be someone special, spiritual, advanced, and stop dividing everything positive and negative, higher and lower, spiritual and non-spiritual. We want to reach a state of immunity to suffering.
Signs of spiritual bypassing include:
- Minimizing, superficializing, or negotiation of our shadow side and negativity.
- Global statements such as “everything is perfect” unfolding as it must. It’s all an illusion including your suffering. Just your ego.
- Spiritually rationalized avoidance of feeling deeply especially our less pleasant emotions.
Efforts to eradicate the ego:
- The greater the pain of our unresolved wounds, the greater the odds we will involve ourselves in spiritual bypassing
- Wherein spiritual practice and attainment are used to avoid directly and unguardedly feeling the raw reality of suffering, keeping us safe.
- Feeling a need to go deeper into spiritual practices if progress isn’t good enough, self-blame, but keeps them distracted from having to face and deal with their core pain.
When in the grip of spiritual bypassing we view it as unnecessary and only for the neurotic and at best strengthened the very egoity that spirituality might eradicate. It is very easy to couch our fear of psychotherapy in spiritual language. It may even keep us stuck conceptually on a higher level.
Cutting through spiritual bypassing means turning towards the painful, unwanted, scary shadow elements of ourselves. To do this we must cut through our numbness and defenses, approaching it with as much care as we can. If doing so seems to heal our heart, we are on the right path. When heart heals, it opens and expands, not shatters. When we denumb and become more comfortable with our own comfort we see what drove us into spiritual bypassing. This is a challenging journey to say the least.”
– Robert Augustus Masters
But even with psychotherapy we need to be discerning and choosing the right therapist is key. When I refer to psychotherapy I talk about techniques mentioned before (Gestalt Therapy, Jungian Psychology, Trauma Work, Somatic Release Therapy and various other body-mind techniques), not simply Freudian “talk therapy” or getting pharmaceuticals from a psychologist. As we all know, psychology has also become much distorted, however at the same time, there are many new concepts and practices that have evolved, combining spiritual and psychological work with body-mind techniques in very efficient and practical ways.
During the work with the therapist I didn’t only let go of my stigma around psychotherapy and my judgment that only very “damaged” people go to therapy, but realized that everyone, without exception, can benefit from basic psychotherapeutic work, because we all have issues and childhood wounds lingering in us to be recognized and healed. We all are wounded in different ways.
Especially in this day and age where life has become more complex and uncertain as the world is changing faster and faster, it is important that we dive deep into our unconscious to heal what needs to be healed. It is part of being the change you want to see in the world, confronting the shadow within and without.
There’s a lot in you that’s neither being carried into this persona system nor into your ego, as part of what you perceive as “you.” Just opposite to the ego, buried in the unconscious, is what Jung calls the shadow.
Now, the society will give you a role to play, and this means that you’ve got to cut out of your life many of the things that you, as a person, might think or do. These potentials get shunted down into the unconscious. Your society tells you, “You should do this, you should do that”; but it also says, “You mustn’t do this, you mustn’t do the other thing.” Those things you’d like to do, which are really not very nice things to want to do, those get placed down in the unconscious, too. This is the center of the personal unconscious.
The shadow is, so to say, the blind spot in your nature. It’s that which you won’t look at about yourself. This is the counterpart exactly of the Freudian unconscious, the repressed recollections as well as the repressed potentialities in you.
The shadow is that which you might have been had you been born on the other side of the tracks: the other person, the other you. It is made up of the desires and ideas within you that you are repressing—all of the introjected id. The shadow is the landfill of the self. Yet it is also a sort of vault: it holds great, unrealized potentialities within you.
The nature of your shadow is a function of the nature of your ego. It is the backside of your light side. In the myths, the shadow is represented as the monster that has to be overcome, the dragon. It is the dark thing that comes up from the abyss and confronts you the minute you begin moving down into the unconscious. It is the thing that scares you so that you don’t want to go down there. It knocks from below. Who’s that down there? Who’s that up there? This is all very, very mysterious and frightening.
If your personal role is too thin, too narrow—if you’ve buried too much of yourself within your shadow—you’re going to dry up. Most of your energies are not available to you. A lot can get gathered there in the depths. And eventually, enantiodromia is going to hit, and that unrecognized, unheeded demon is going to come roaring up into the light.
The shadow is the part of you that you don’t know is there. Your friends see it, however, and it’s also why some people don’t like you. The shadow is you as you might have been; it is that aspect of you which might have been if you had allowed yourself to fulfill your unacceptable potential.
Society, of course, does not recognize these aspects of your potential self. You are not recognizing these aspects of yourself either; you don’t know that they’re there or that you have repressed them. The shadow is that part of you that you won’t allow to show through, that includes good—I mean potent—as well as dangerous and disastrous aspects of your potential.
“Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves.” – Carl G. Jung
You can recognize who it is by simply thinking of the people you don’t like. They correspond to that person whom you might have been—otherwise they wouldn’t mean very much to you. People who excite you either positively or negatively have caught something projected from yourself: “I do not love thee, Dr. Fell. The reason why I cannot tell, But this alone I know full well, I do not love thee, Dr. Fell?”
Why? Because he’s my shadow. I don’t know whether you’ve had similar experiences in your life, but there are people I despise the minute I see them. These people represent those aspects of myself, the existence of which I refuse to admit to myself. The ego tends to identify itself with the society, forgetting this shadow. It thinks it’s you. That’s the position society puts us in. Society does not give a darn whether you crack up when it’s through with you—that’s your problem.[…]
Jung calls the individual who identifies himself with his persona a mana personality; we would call him a stuffed shirt. That’s a person who is nothing but the role he or she plays. A person of this sort never lets his actual character develop. He remains simply a mask, and as his powers fail—as he makes mistakes and so forth—he becomes more and more frightened of himself, puts more and more of an effort into keeping up the mask. Then the separation between the persona and the self takes place, forcing the shadow to retreat further and further into the abyss.
You are to assimilate the shadow, embrace it. You don’t have to act on it, necessarily, but you must know it and accept it. You are not to assimilate the anima/animus—that’s a different challenge. You are to relate to it through the other.
The only way one can become a human being is through relationships to other human beings.”
– Joseph Campbell, Pathways to Bliss
In everyday life, intimate relationships or just friendships can trigger the shadow in each other. When issues arise in a relationship as they always do at a certain point and the shadow comes out in each, projecting it on the other and hurting each other unconsciously, there is a chance to heal deep-rooted childhood wounds that are coming to surface again, each partner playing out the parent (or both) we were wounded by (as we all have been in various degrees because no parents are perfect), because of their own wounds. If we can recognize this and take our projections back, understanding that there is no one to blame, neither the partner nor the parents, but only lessons, the relationship can be transformed to a higher level.
But this requires sincere work of both partners with humility, compassion and empathy, especially since the projections won’t stop overnight and we keep getting triggered and slip back into unconscious behaviors. Sometimes a third person, a mediator or therapist is needed. It’s about addressing, processing and resolving, making amends and help each other in the process. This is not easy work by far because those old wounds can hurt a lot and we all tend to avoid pain and buffer it up with a band-aid, projecting it on the other person instead of healing it. It’s the fire where lead is transformed into gold.
If this is not possible and we don’t stay aware of the triggers and projections and keep taking things personally and blaming, the relationship will disintegrate, either because both don’t own their projections or one person is so repressed and wounded (trauma/addiction), not engaging in sincere self-work, that the projections intensify, masked up with unconscious anger and resentment, constantly finding fault in the other to justify these feelings, making him/her walk around on eggshells. Then the only way is to separate otherwise we will follow a downward spiral. We need to take care of ourselves first and foremost and can’t “do” anything for the other in this instance. This is not being selfish but mature. “Peaceful resolution” where both people own their projections and make amends is not always possible.
“Many continue to be seduced by the hope that their partner will change for the better, getting so used to being relationally undernourished that when a few crumbs of a desired outcome show up (often just after a serious fuss has been made about needing a closer relationship), those crumbs get framed as a feast, a reason to hang in there, to keep waiting and waiting and waiting… And while we’re waiting thus, we are doing little more than postponing our life, impaling ourselves on our hope (our nostalgia for the future), as if this is all we deserve.”
– Robert Augustus Masters
“Mr. Gurdjieff said that it would be necessary to develop oneself to such an extent that it would be possible to know and understand enough to be able to aid someone else in doing something necessary for himself, even when that person was not conscious of the need, and might work against you, that only in this sense was love properly responsible and worthy of the name of real love…….He added that, even with the best of intentions, most people would be too afraid to love another person in an active sense, or even to attempt to do anything for them; and that one of the terrifying aspects of love was that while it was possible to help another person to a certain degree, it was not possible to actually “do” anything for them.
If you see another man fall down, when he must walk, you can pick him up. But, although to take one more step is more necessary for him even than air, he must take this step alone; impossible for another person to take it for him.”
– P.D. Ouspensky
Being the target of shadow projection in an intimate relationship (or friendships) is the hardest, especially while you are doing your best to own your own projections and acknowledging the hurt you have caused because of your own unconscious behaviors. It hurts because we love the other person. But even in this pain, I know that the one who hurts me is in even more pain and it is not about me, so I meet it with compassion and empathy. Sometimes this is harder said than done, but it is the only way if we don’t want to repeat those lessons in the next relationship with a different face and being confronted with the shadow again and again.
A strong indication of shadow projection is if we’re trying to “save” someone or try to be “saved” by someone, even if only unconsciously. The victim/savior relationship is one of the most common unconscious drives of what brings people together, mistaking that for love. It all relates to not getting certain needs met in childhood and trying to get them met through our partner or friends.
As long as we keep F.A.C.E. (Fear, Attachment, Control, Entitlement) we don’t learn the lessons, but keep projecting on the other. But the only person we’re really hurting is ourselves, even if we can’t see it in that moment.
The shadow dance, pushing and shoving, no one has more fault than the other, no one is better than the other. Sometimes one person’s actions seem to be way more hurtful than the other’s. But we will always have a very limited view on this. We don’t see the full picture. Karma and past life issues are at play as well. The universe always strives for balance in the bigger picture, even if we can’t see it (or don’t want to see it) in the situation we’re in. It’s the play of duality, the yin and yang, dark and light.
Intimate relationships can act like a fast-track in spiritual development, like a catalyst, because much of our unconscious shadow can easily hide as long as we avoid relationships or endlessly look for the “perfect partner” who will never appear. On the other hand, some of us go from relationship to relationship, afraid of being alone, not integrating the lessons from past relationships and constantly looking outside of ourselves for love and fulfilment.
In this day and age, relationships are very challenging, especially for the ones who seek truth sincerely within and without, stepping out of complacency and conformity, not playing by society’s rules, expectations and conditioned desires. We have to pay with ourselves, confronting the predator and shadow within first and foremost. So sometimes people and situations come into our lives that play out what we have been hiding all along, only for us to recognize without blame.
“The psychological rule says that when an inner situation is not made conscious, it happens outside as fate. That is to say, when the individual remains undivided and does not become conscious of his inner opposite, the world must perforce act out the conflict and be torn into opposing halves.”
– Carl G. Jung
One of the best tools that have helped me understand myself and others better is astrology, especially combined with psychotherapeutic work.
I’ve always liked astrology and learned a lot about myself ever since I got my first natal chart reading around 2001. Over the past four months I’ve gotten deeper into it and learned to appreciate the skill, knowledge and intuition of talented astrologers even more. Astrology has evolved over the years as well. I can highly recommend to get a professional natal chart reading at one point in your life. I have some basic astrology knowledge, but putting it all together with all the fine nuances and the bigger picture, a professional reading is absolutely essential, otherwise you will fool yourself and misinterpret many things in your chart. The only computer-generated chart interpretation I can recommend is Liz Green’s work at www.astro.com , especially her Psychological Horoscope, combining Jungian psychology with astrology as well as her Relationship Horoscope (the composite chart with another person showing the dynamics between the two).
However, it’s well worth to invest into a one-on-one reading with a professional astrologer, because no computer-generated chart can substitute the intuitive work of a competent astrologer looking at your chart as a whole. There are many talented astrologers out there. Understanding your natal chart and how the current transits affect you opens up a whole new world and awareness that is very helpful for self-work and understanding yourself and others, resulting in acceptance and compassion.
“While studying astrology I have applied it to concrete cases many times. The experiment is most suggestive to a versatile mind, unreliable in the hands of the unimaginative, and dangerous in the hands of a fool, as those intuitive methods always are. If intelligently used the experiment is useful in cases where it is a matter of an opaque structure. It often provides surprising insights. The most definite limit of the experiment is lack of intelligence and literal-mindedness of the observer. Undoubtedly astrology today is flourishing as never before in the past, but it is still most unsatisfactorily explored despite very frequent use. It is an apt tool only when used intelligently. It is not at all foolproof and when used by a rationalistic and narrow mind it is a definite nuisance.
– Carl G. Jung
“Whether we use psychological or esoteric terminology, the basic fact remains the same: human beings do not earn free will except through self-discovery, and they do not attempt self-discovery until things become so painful that they have no other choice. If the individual makes no effort to expand his consciousness so that he can understand the nature of his total unfoldment and can begin to cooperate with it, then it will seem that he his the pawn of fate and has no control over his life. He can only earn his freedom by learning about himself so that he can understand what value a particular experience has for the development of his whole self.”
– Liz Green
But like with any of those systems (Astrology, Human Design, Numerology, etc.), while giving insight, they are all limited in their own way and there are other factors to consider. Readers of my blog know that there are forces affecting our planet, the hyperdimensional realm. There is the issue of genetic Psychopathy, the question of the soul and that we are not all the same inside and not all of us have the ability to activate the higher centers. As mentioned before, these are very complex topics that need careful study and consideration. Then there are spirit attachments, which can alter personalities from subtle to very severe. There is also the possibility of higher density souls that have incarnated in this time and age with a certain mission profile, who have a very hard time adapting to this physical experience.
Modern psychotherapy doesn’t acknowledge the possibility of psychic attack and hyperdimensional forces working through us. Most people still have a very anthropocentric worldview. Anyone who tries to awaken from the hypnosis humanity is under will be met with resistance and attack, which can come through our own minds or working through people close to us, draining us, distracting us and sabotaging any attempt to “escape the matrix”. Luckily the therapist I’ve been working with is aware of the aforementioned topics and incorporates them in her work as well. But even without understanding the non-physical realm, doing basic psychotherapeutic work can heal a lot and lay the very necessary foundation before we can rise to a higher level of consciousness and awareness. In fact it is essential.
“There are a thousand things which prevent a man from awakening, which keep him in the power of his dreams. In order to act consciously with the intention of awakening, it is necessary to know the nature of the forces which keep man in a state of sleep. First of all it must be realized that the sleep in which man exists is not normal but hypnotic sleep. Man is hypnotized and this hypnotic state is continually maintained and strengthened in him. One would think that there are forces for whom it is useful and profitable to keep man in a hypnotic state and prevent him from seeing the truth and understanding his position.”
– G. I. Gurdjieff
“And as we have learned from Jesus, Gurdjieff and the Gnostic Sufis, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans, the rules of this World in which we live were set up and are controlled by this STS hierarchy and have been for a very long time. Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation….It is in “seeing the unseen” that we become aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we experience the “battles” between the forces of STS and STO!And it is most definitely this factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to conceal!… In other words, we are not just talking about a “petty dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.“
– Laura Knight Jadczyk, “The Wave” Volume 5&6 “Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown”
Considering all that, we can easily feel disempowered and overwhelmed and there is still so much we don’t know. We need to remember to take small steps one at a time, with patience and compassion for ourselves and others. We will always hurt others or self-sabotage our own development in the process of living life at times. We will look for blame and excuses, trying to make sense of challenging situations that can’t be understood in the moment, rationalizing our decisions and behaviors and lying to ourselves and others unconsciously. We will inflate our egos with self-importance and righteousness or diminish ourselves with pity, we can be over-emotional or emotionally closed off, we can be over-bearing with others or shy away from necessary confrontation to stand up for ourselves. We will overestimate our spiritual progress, engaging in spiritual bypassing or become too hard on ourselves. In short, we will always make mistakes and screw up sometimes. It’s life, but through the suffering and sincere self-work we learn and grow. That’s why we need compassion more than anything else.
Grieving is an essential and necessary stage in any form of self-work, which leads us to compassion and empathy. It can be painful and seemingly never-ending but the only way out is through and time heals all wounds if we keep working on ourselves and let grace guide us.
“Mindful Grief means mourning and letting go of the past without expectation, fear, censure, blame, shame, control, and so forth. Without such mindful grief, neither past nor person can be laid to rest. When we grieve mindfully, we mourn every one of the disappointments, insults, and betrayals of the now irrevocably lost past. We mourn any abuse—physical, sexual, emotional. We mourn for how our parents [or friends and romantic partners] just did not want us, did not love us, or could not get past their own needs long enough to see us as the lovable beings we were and allow our unique self-emergence. We mourn every way they said no to the gift we sought to give them: full visibility of our true self, not the self we had to manufacture to please or protect them. We mourn all the times they saw how scared, forlorn, and sad we were and yet did not respond, relent, or apologize. We mourn because even now, after all these years, they still have not admitted their abuse or lack of compassion.
Grief’s favorite position is piggyback. If I am abandoned in the present and allow myself to grieve the abandonment, all the old abandonments of the past, which have been waiting their turn, jump onto my grieving shoulders. Also included in the piggybacking are the griefs of the human collective, what Virgil calls “the tears in things.” These are the givens of relationship: the sense of something missing, the fugitive intimacies, the inevitable endings. We carry sensitivities to all those in our hearts, and our personal griefs evoke them. What a way to find out we are not alone! We carry the heritage of the archetypal past and enrich it continually with our personal experience.
Jung suggests that working on our childhood issues is a necessary first step toward spiritual consciousness. As he puts it, the “personal unconscious must always be dealt with first… otherwise the gateway to the cosmic unconscious cannot be opened.” We cannot make up for losses, but we can learn to tolerate them and contain them. This is what the soulful journey of mourning is about.
Mourning is an action not a transaction. It is our personal responsibility, so we do not do it with the perpetrators of our losses, including our parents [and partners]. We interrupt our own healing as long as we still have to tell [them] how bad we think they were.
Some of us are not yet ready to face what really happened to us; we suspect or even know that we do not have the strength to follow the process through to its painful conclusion. It is important to respect this hesitancy and honor our own timing. Some tears may be shed today, some next year, some in thirty years. The inner child of the past tells her story a little at a time, lest we have too much to handle all at once. “Hurry or delay is interference,” D. W. Winnicott says. The fact that grief takes so long to be resolved is not a sign of our inadequacy. Rather, it betokens our depth of soul.
A cognitive recounting of the past may only be a memory of a memory unless it is connected strongly to a bodily feeling, because every cell in our body recalls every event that impinged upon us in childhood. The body, more than the mind, is the real human unconscious, storing both the memory of pain and our attempts to avoid it. The work, then, is to find the accurate sense of what we felt and not necessarily a story line of exactly what happened. In fact, the content of the memories is less crucial than the conflicts they represent and the reenactments we are still caught in. These are the true targets of grief, not the memory of what happened.
Actually, we may never know what truly happened in our past, not because it is so lost in oblivion but because it is continually shifting in our memory. At each phase of life, it rearranges itself to fit our new sense of ourselves and the world. Memories are selections from the past. Thus, our goal is not so much to reconstruct memory but to restructure our overall sense of the past to fit our changing needs.”
– David Richo
Through my own process of grieving I have tapped into the suffering of the collective even more, almost feeling the pain of the world. It is very humbling, helping me to feel compassion for myself, friends and for humanity, a heart-opening on a level I haven’t experienced before, encouraging me to speak out more and be more compassionate at the same time, to be of service the best I can while taking care of myself and working on myself. Yet still, it’s a long way to go and I accept the challenges as they come. We are all in this together and that’s what we signed up for.
“We begin with “my” grief and may remain there, but sometimes we shift to “our” grief as our rawness of heart starts to radiate out to include the suffering of others close to us. And then we may shift even further to “the” grief as we feel our collective suffering and allow that feeling to pervade us — which doesn’t just bring on more sorrow, but also more love, love that remains itself even as it freely weeps. Here there is huge heartache, enormous hurt, and deep opening — together carrying us through the extremes of sorrow into a spaciousness as naturally compassionate as it is vast.”
– Robert Augustus Masters
Someone wise said once: “How often do you have to pick up the phone until you get the message? You don’t get to move on in life until the lessons are learned and all there is are lessons, every day, every moment.” Meditating on this can have a profound healing effect and acceptance, compassion for self and others.
Some of my closest friends have been going through some challenging times recently, myself included, and I know there are many people out there who do as well. The intense astrological transits confirm it as well. Keep in mind, all there is are lessons and we learn as we go, step by step, sometimes some steps back, sometimes in circles but always moving. The only constant is change and as long as you are in this body there are lessons to be learned. Have faith!
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
their bad advice-
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations, though their melancholy
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen branches and stones.
but little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do-
determined to save
the only life you could save.
– Mary Oliver, The Journey
We’re half way through 2012. Many prophecies have hinted at this time as The Shift of the Ages and The Time of Transition. If you take a look at the shelves of any spiritual/new age bookstore, you’ll see dozens of books with 2012 in the title. It certainly has become a good marketing bit. There are many theories of what 2012 is supposedly all about. From the end of the world to global mass enlightenment. If you type “2012” into Google, 25,270,000,000 results come up.
Much of it is based on the Mayan Calendar which is presumably ending on 12/21 2012. Many people seem to be fixated on this date. I don’t want to get into the technicality of the Mayan Calendar. Lies are mixed with truth and there are all kinds of theories from historians, experts, channeled material and authors who make various claims about this date and the Mayan Calendar, many of them contradicting each other. Instead, I’d like to look into some overlooked issues our world is facing , examining the possibility of a cataclysmic “end time” scenario or a “collective awakening” from a different perspective. But let’s backtrack first.
I first heard about the Mayan Calendar and the mystery of 2012 in 1998. The first book I read about it was “Solving the Greatest Mystery of Our time: The Mayan Calendar” by Carl Johan Calleman. I was intrigued to say the least. However, back then I wasn’t very discerning and much of my “research” was partly emotional driven with wishful thinking and assumptions, lacking critical thinking. The more I read and took in information, the more I was also confused because there was so much conflicting data. It was hard to discern what is true and what not. According to Calleman, the Mayan Calendar already ended on October 28th 2011. He also made predictions of ET disclosure and the mass awareness of the UFO phenomenon before that date. As we can see none of that has happened.
Other books I’ve read were “Maya Cosmogenesis 2012: The True Meaning of the Maya Calendar End-Date” by John Major Jenkins, “The Mayan Factor” by Jose Arguelles, and “2012: The Return of Quetzalcoatl” by Daniel Pinchbeck among countless articles on the internet and various books that touch on this subject, including Terence Mckenna’s concept of the “Timewave Zero”. While insightful and interesting to a point, none of these works really satisfied my thirst for deeper knowledge. It seemed something was missing.
At the same time I also got into more fringe topics, conspiracy theories, the UFO phenomenon as well as esoteric teachings and certain channeled material. What I’ve learned the most as I was digging deeper is that there is a lot of smoke, disinformation and noise surrounding the topic of 2012. I learned about COINTELPRO (Counter Intelligence Programs) and how much of the material about 2012 is infected with many lies, distracting the seeker on purpose. in fact, the “New Age Movement” and much of the distorted spiritual concepts we see these days seemed too have been created for that very purpose: to disinform, distract and vector anyone away from the truth. The reader is encouraged to check out my other articles which examine some of these New Age corruptions in more depth:
- Know Thyself
- All you need is Love!
- The Positivity of Objectivity and The Time of Transition
- Being the change you want to see in the world
Of course mainstream science and media also ridicules anything that doesn’t fit into the reality box of “official culture”. That is to be expected. But what was more disturbing for me was how many folks in the alternative media buy into so much disinformation, be it consciously or not. Everyone who started to question reality and embarked on the quest of truth has at one point in his/her life believed in lies and disinformation. We all deal with cultural conditioning and programming. As I’ve written before, I’m not exempt from it and there have been many times when I had to adjust my understanding of the world when new data came in and I had to admit that I was wrong about some things. I’m not interested in being right, but in truth, as it is, even if it doesn’t conform to my wishes and desires of how I’d like it to be.
I’ve said before that I didn’t “like” to find out the more disturbing aspects of our reality. My rose colored glasses were shattered in the face of a cold harsh reality where most people dream to be awake but are asleep. Waking up and seeking truth entails facing the lies we tell ourselves through sincere self-work and networking. For some time I was also blinded with wishful thinking, assuming that everyone who is seeking truth would do so sincerely without an agenda but willing to look into certain topics more critically, neither with “blind belief” or “cynical debunking”, even if these subjects contradict what they’ve found out so far.
A big wake-up call in that regard was my interaction with Daniel Pinchbeck, author of “2012: The Return of Quetzalcoatl” and co-fonder of the Evolver Social Movement. He gives talks around the world and festivals such as ‘Burning Man’ and ‘Lightning in a Bottle’. I thought he touched on some important subjects (although very superficially) in his 2012 book, such as the UFO phenomenon, alien abductions, crop circles and shamanism. It mostly dealt with his personal journey, infused by his psychedelic experiences. Pinchbeck’s claim is that we are in the final stages of a fundamental global shift from a society based on materiality to one based on spirituality.
In 2007 we connected on a 2012 forum at tribe.net, a social network. He initially liked what I had to say about the UFO phenomena and suggested that I should write an article about it for his online magazine “Reality Sandwich“. This was the birth of my first draft of “UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact” (which was the basis for the documentary of the same name I made with a friend). Pinchbeck rejected the article stating that “it’s unfortunate that you have such a negative view of this topic”. I purposely focused more on the overseen aspects of the UFO phenomena, especially the darker side of alien abductions and hyperdimensional realities. Some of it was not in line with what he wrote in his 2012 book, which only covered the alien topic in a very generalized and philosophical way. I wrote him a lengthy response, asking him to be more clear about his assessment. He just answered that he has no time to get into it and that he resonates more with the ideas of Steven Greer (founder of the “Disclosure Project”). Anyone who has researched the UFO topic in more depth knows that Greer spreads a lot of disinformation, so I was actually surprised to hear that Pinchbeck “resonated” with his work. It clearly showed that his research was off.
A couple years later we connected again on facebook when he came across an article I posted about Alex Jones being potentially COINTELPRO. Pinchbeck had a similar view and asked if I’d like to try to write an article again for Reality Sandwich. Before I even got to that he found another post of mine where I recommended the book “The Controversy of Zion” by Douglas Reed (since Alex Jones is known to avoid the topic of Zionism). He wrote to me, asking why I recommend this “conspiracy book” and if I’m holocaust revisionist (denier). I wrote him back stating I simply question everything, including the official story of the holocaust and how it has been used for social control and justifying the politics of the “victim” state Israel, considering we’ve been lied to about virtually everything regarding our history. I supported my claims with articles and documentaries made by Jews who also took a more critical look into what had happened, which also ties into the subject of Zionism. This opened up a can of worms. He didn’t look into any of it and just responded with a passive aggressive and emotionally driven insulting tone, telling me that I must have a “psychological disposition” because of my German heritage. He then stated that he lost family in the holocaust and didn’t want to work or communicate with me anymore in the future. While I had compassion for what happened to his family, I was still surprised that he wasn’t able to stay objective.
That was it and we never communicated again since then. Complete lack of critical thinking and objectivity on his part. He didn’t look into any of the information I sent him, but already had his mind made up, driven by his own conditioning/programming. Pinchbeck also advocates the use of psychedelic drugs and his work is very much influenced by it. It seems he trusts his psychedelic experiences more than he does research, study or empirical evidence, similar to the late Terence McKenna (his death because of a brain tumor may be the exact result/manifestation of forcing his consciousness to open up through a life-long use of these drugs), who also put way too much importance on these drugs, resulting in lack of critical thinking, and not fully grasping the dangers of these substances from an esoteric perspective.
Daniel Pinchbeck at “Burning Man”
The reason I mention this interaction I had with Pinchbeck is because I observed similar reactions in many self-proclaimed visionaries, and truth seekers. There are certain topics that are usually automatically dismissed, ridiculed and debunked without any of the debunkers looking into them and researching them sincerely and unbiased.
“Sometimes people hold a core belief that is very strong. When they are presented with evidence that works against that belief, the new evidence cannot be accepted. It would create a feeling that is extremely uncomfortable, called cognitive dissonance. And because it is so important to protect the core belief, they will rationalize, ignore and even deny anything that doesn’t fit in with the core belief.”
– Frantz Fanon
Most of these topics are also not mentioned by many 2012-ers or are highly distorted. Interestingly the few who actively research these subjects sincerely and speak out about them are attacked or ignored. You don’t get to be on mainstream TV or having articles about you in the NY Times or Rolling Stone Magazine if you’d speak the truth and talk about taboo topics that go against the status quo of a deeply conditioned/programmed culture.
In that sense Daniel Pinchbeck and others become like “useful idiots“, essentially supporting the system they claim to oppose through their denial and lack of critical thinking regarding certain topics despite their well-meaning intentions and visionary approach. It also became clear to me how psychedelic drugs can impair one’s critical thinking abilities and how these substances are romanticized and have a darker side to them, most “psychonauts” are not aware of or simply deny. I fell into this trap myself when I was experimenting with them, deluding myself about many things, despite some of the insights I had on medicine plants. I know people who use these entheogens on a regular basis, but still vote for Obama or believe the official 9/11 fairy tale and the phony war on terror. There is even a well-known healer who works with ayahuasca in my area, conducting medicine journeys throughout the country. He’s also an outspoken Democrat and constantly posts on facebook supporting Obama, buying into the the illusion of choice through voting in this two party set-up. A “shamanic healer” who not only believes in but supports the political circus side show that is clearly used for social/cultural control and he even identifies himself with a country and political party? What an oxymoron! It shows that these mind expanding drugs are no “magic pill” that automatically pierce through the cultural conditioning and the lies we believe in.
The Neo-Shamanism that is around today has distorted what Shamanism is truly about and rendered it into a hyped attraction where all you have to pay is some $ to have THE experience. While medicinal plants and herbs can undoubtedly be helpful as a physical/psychological/spiritual healing aid, their use for so-called ‘accessing of higher realities’ usually serves to distract people from what deeper spiritual and esoteric work is about, even giving one the illusion that one has “awoken”. There are many dangers – energetically, psychically (spirit attachments) and esoterically – when forcing oneself to enter a higher state of consciousness through these drugs. This is a touchy subject that requires a careful approach, certainly a much more careful approach than what I’ve seen from Pinchbeck, McKenna and others, especially when considering “the topic of all topics” (more on that later).
“The phenomenology of the trance underwent many changes and corruptions, due in large part to confusion as to the precise nature of ecstasy….Concerning the original shamanic experience … narcotics are only a vulgar substitute for “pure” trance. The use of intoxicants is a recent innovation and points to a decadence in shamanic technique. Narcotic intoxication is called on to provide an imitation of a state that the shaman is no longer capable of attaining otherwise. Decadence or vulgarization of a mystical technique – in ancient and modern India, and indeed all through the East, we constantly find this strange mixture of “difficult ways” and “easy ways” of realizing mystical ecstasy or some other decisive experience.”
– Mircea Eliade, Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy
The 2012 “movement” has become in many ways another distraction infiltrated with COINTELPRO which works in favor of the powers that be. It’s almost “hip” and “in” to talk about a shift and awakening these days. Festivals like Burning Man and Lightning in a Bottle, attended by many self-proclaimed aware people, supposedly representing the “counter culture”, are also part of this. It’s interesting to note how the “psychedelic movement” is also very much intertwined with this (with Pinchbeck being one of the main figure heads) and how carelessly mind expanding drugs are promoted for “spiritual growth” or just partying, where most often hedonism is mistaken for spiritual work/awareness. It seems evident that these drugs have been used for social control since the “creation” of the hippie/psychedelic movement in the 6os. Various researchers have uncovered certain CIA operations (such as MK Ultra) supplying the youth with LSD and other mind expanding drugs to vector people away from the truth for the purpose of creating a “controlled opposition”. Author Jan Irvin recently made compelling discoveries when researching about Gordon Wasson, revealing how the psychedelic revolution was launched by the CFR, CIA and the elite, and how R. Gordon Wasson, the so called discoverer of magic mushrooms, and the founder of the field of ethnomycology, was himself a government asset, a friend of Edward Bernays – the father of propaganda, and is one of the key figures for launching one of the largest mind control operations in history. Irvin writes in R. Gordon Wasson: The Man, the Legend, the Myth – Beginning a New History of Magic Mushrooms, Ethnomycology, and the Psychedelic Revolution:
“There are several reasons why the psychedelic movement may have been launched, including attempts to distract people from government policy failure; extracting information from people under the influence, such as with MK‐ULTRA; making money from the drugs through the pharmaceutical industry; and even pacifying people with a Huxleyan‐like soma or with positivist spirituality so that they could be more easily controlled.“
Here are some other eye-opening articles from researchers relating to COINTELPRO, the corruption of the “Human Potential Movement” and the creation/infiltration of the Hippie, Psychedelic and New Age Movement:
– “Aliens and Cosmic COINTELPRO” by Laura Knight-Jadczyk
“[…]Aldous Huxley also made an early connection between the effects experienced by those partaking of psychedelic drugs and the experiences of Eastern Mysticism and this set the consciousness-raising bomb off with a BANG! Along came Timothy Leary, Richard Alpert AKA Baba Ram Dass with their LSD and other modes of mind marvels, leading the parade of those who were “turned on, tuned in.” Abraham Maslow became a father figure to the new “wave” of those desiring to fill the gaping hole of their reality with “peak experiences.” Maslow cited psychedelic drugs as one of the means in which even ordinary people could have a little of what the Eastern Mystics worked many years to develop. Now, it could be had for a weekend seminar at Big Sur, or a study by mail course at only $29.95 per lesson! What a deal!
Peak Experiences…experience, experience, and experience…became the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow of the 1960’s. No one needed to live in Existential Despair any longer! Everyone could become a “spiritual voyager” and achieve extended periods in realms of consciousness they had only heard about in veiled, mysterious allusions down through the ages. Encounter groups, radical therapies, old and new combinations of theories and practice came rolling off the conveyor belt of techno-spirituality. The intangibles of spirit had been harnessed! Anyone could evoke some desirable experience by manipulating awareness at the basic physical and psychological levels. Never mind that all of this bypassed the vital processes of reason and conscious decision making. By its very nature, the whole techno-spiritual machine operated completely without critical thinking; it tapped the bottomless pit of feeling-emotion…primal being. Never mind that much of this emotion was negative, confusing, anxious and fearful! Let’s just get it all out here in the open and have a party with it!
Each of the many techniques developed during this time was fully capable of producing an emotional high of one sort or another. There were endless “peak experiences,” and dramatic “personal breakthroughs.” The mixtures of Zen, yoga, meditation, and drugs along with strict mechanical technology, were a veritable adventure in awareness! The only problem was: in the midst of all this peaking, mind-blowing, turning on and tuning in, ecstasy and encountering, many people encountered things that, perhaps, ought not have been awakened. Boundaries were breached into unseeable and terrifying realms of consciousness. William Chittick, translator of the works of the great Sufi Shaykh, Ibn al-’Arabi, wrote:
Nowadays most people interested in the spirituality of the East desire the “experience,” though they may call what they are after intimate communion with God. Those familiar with the standards and norms of spiritual experience set down by disciplined paths like Sufism are usually appalled at the way Westerners seize upon any apparition from the domain outside of normal consciousness as a manifestation of the “spiritual.” In fact, there are innumerable realms in the unseen world, some of them far more dangerous than the worst jungles of the visible world. [Al-Arabi himself said]:
So preserve yourselves, my brothers, from the calamities of this place, for distinguishing it is extremely difficult! Souls find it sweet, and then within it they are duped, since they become completely enamored of it.
By the end of the decade of the 60’s, the “human potential” movement had become a veritable potpourri of religion, science, mysticism, magick and “the occult.” The drug use got out of hand, the “techniques” began to show serious flaws with a number of tragedies resulting in crime or madness, and the whole idea of human beings becoming “psychic supermen” hit the skids. The promise of the 60’s decayed into an aimless lethargy…old hippies living in communes, braiding their gray locks and lusting after the sweet young teeny boppers while they fired up another bong and reminisced about the “good old days” at Esalen.
But wait! Something else happened here! Remember, this is America! The home of the Free…Market that is. Many people suggest that the subsequent proliferation of the “New Age” consciousness raising movement was the result of big business seeing a pile of money to be made in the development of slick, newly packaged psychoanalysis and psychodrama. There was, indeed, mass distribution and Madison Avenue marketing of things like Mind Dynamics, Arica, Silva Mind Control, Transcendental Meditation, and on and on. Individual entrepreneurs knew a good thing when they saw it. However, there is more to this than meets the eye. This is important to our subject, so bear with me. […]”
“Hippies came out of no where and sort of co opted it, I think it was quite deliberate…they wanted to give the anti-war movement a face that would be completely unacceptable to mainstream America…I mean everything about them was offensive to mainstream America, to middle America, the hairstyles, the clothing styles, the open drug use, the music, everything about them was designed to repel mainstream America and prevent the anti-war movement from gaining any additional speed by putting this face on it…I think the whole hippy flower child thing…..was a creation of the Intelligence community to take the steam out of the anti-war movements and various other movements….The battle cry of the hippy movement was turn on, tune in, drop out…telling people don’t worry about it, get high.“
We can see the same thread in many “conscious movements” these days and at the aforementioned festivals. It’s as if history is repeating itself with a different appearance, more tech, more potent drugs, new gadgets and clothes but the same attitude with even more pseudo New Age “spiritual techniques” to activate your “third eye”, DNA or speed up your “ascension process” and where sexual pathologies are often buffered up as “sexual healing” and “spirituality”. There is the usual “just focus on yourself”, focus on “we are all one” and our “oneness”. Don’t look at the “negative” things happening in the world, but “connect to earth”, meditate on the “Shift” to activate your light body, send love and light to the world and its leaders, etc.. As long as you “feel good” and focus on “love” everything will be ok. Everything is as it is supposed to be, etc. It is proclaimed that there is no objectivity, just your own subjective reality and you create your own reality by your thoughts and what you focus on. But as various ancient esoteric teachings and mystery schools have transmitted , even the “children of light” shall be deceived by false prophets and false teachings. And we see exactly that happening now:
“It is possible to obtain so-called esoteric results that are impure, but they are false and thus transitory. Here we refer to the vast realm of occultism, where the children of this century, more capable than the children of light, seek to apply their abilities beyond the visible world. This occurs in what we call ‘mysticism of phenomena‘.
It is curious to see how much these false prophets, magicians and ‘christs’ impressed themselves on the imagination of the men and even more of the women of the past. It is the same today.
For there is a type of human being who declines all moral responsibility for himself or for those to whom he is in duty bound. One comes across this type quite often, always trying to find someone else to shoulder his responsibilities as long as this someone else possesses some kind of authority, earned or otherwise. These people are open to any form of hypnotic suggestion and practically ask to be hypnotized. They are of good faith, but they search for the ‘marvelous’ because they are too weak or too lazy to undertake esoteric work successfully.
And the ‘wolves’ devour them finding justification in the fact that they are only the ‘scourings of humanity.’ But this is not true; for ‘scourings’ who are converted can become key figures on the esoteric chess-board. Mental apathy and emotional inertia are responsible for tipping man down the slope of least resistance even when armed with the best intentions, especially if he justifies himself for his human frailties by finding them normal, particularly on the sexual plane.”
– Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis
Of course it’s not black and white and I wouldn’t say that everyone who enjoys these festivals or is part of a “conscious movement” is co-opted or asleep to what is truly going in our world. However, one also needs to look only at the workshops and lectures at many of those events. Anything that sounds or “feels good” infused with pop-psychology/spirituality is being promoted and anything that is perceived as “negative” is being avoided and ignored. As I said before, important subjects that are actually part of becoming aware and conscious seem to be missing. They are neither negative nor positive, but simply ARE part of our reality and we’re all affected by them. I’ve posted this following video many times before. Marianne Williamson is really hitting the nail on the head. It’s from a talk she gave at “Lightning in Bottle” in 2011, a festival I attended to see it for myself. A rare voice of truth among the “Love & Light” crowd. I couldn’t agree with her more:
Instead of “countering culture”, many of these movements become another form of the same conditioned culture with similar manifestations of cliques, feeding dynamics, its own fashion, marketing, programming/conditioning, and (new age) religion. Many people say we need to stop pointing out what is wrong and what we don’t have in common (aka being”negative”) but present solutions and focus on what we have in common (aka being “positive”). Yes, but solutions and building community/tribe, reflecting our common “humanity”, without a deeper understanding of humanity and our world to begin with, including the “unpleasant” things, will disintegrate eventually as history has proven. What topics am I talking about which are virtually ignored in many “conscious movements” and in the alternative media? What follows are just VERY brief summaries of three topics. The reader is encouraged to read/study/watch the suggested resources under each point before rejecting these ideas or making hasty conclusions which only lead to distortions.
1. We are all one, but we are not all the same
The biggest illusion many people seem to have is the assumption that, since we’re all one, we all have the potential to awaken in this life time and have access to love, empathy, conscience and higher values. It is assumed that because we’re collectively connected and look like “humans”, we are all are “equal”and the same. Another assumption is that everyone who is not “aware” is just misguided and can be “fixed”. This illusion is based on projecting one’s own higher qualities onto others, especially people in power.
There exists a type of human who has no connection to the higher centers of universal love/awareness at birth. He/she is not genetically wired this way, not being able to access them this lifetime around but he/she can emulate and mimic these higher characteristics quite well and even distract you from evolving by sapping your energy and feeding off it. He/she can tell you exactly what you want to hear, appear compassionate, empathetic and understanding without meaning or feeling it. This type of “human” is the psychopath (making up about 6% of humanity) who is hiding behind a mask of sanity, creating misery and chaos which they feed off. They are not necessarily criminals in prisons, but can be successful CEO’s, politicians, spiritual leaders, a husband, wife, child or the neighbor next door. They’re also pathological liars who never feel any guilt or remorse. That is a topic which is very misunderstood and ignored. Becoming aware of it and educating oneself and others about it is the most crucial and important action we can undertake to make this world a better place. It’s the underlying cause of the reason why our world is in the state it’s in: It is run by psychopaths.
“”Likeable,” “Charming,” “Intelligent,” “Alert,” “Impressive,” “Confidence-inspiring,” and “A great success with the ladies”: These are the sorts of descriptions repeatedly used by Cleckley in his famous case-studies of psychopaths.
Psychopaths seem to have in abundance the very traits most desired by normal persons. The untroubled self-confidence of the psychopath seems almost like an impossible dream and is generally what “normal” people seek to acquire when they attend assertiveness training classes. In many instances, the magnetic attraction of the psychopath for members of the opposite sex seems almost supernatural.
This lack of “soul quality” makes them very efficient “machines.” They can be brilliant, write scholarly works, imitate the words of emotion, but over time, it becomes clear that their words do not match their actions. They are the type of person who can claim that they are devastated by grief who then attend a party “to forget.” The problem is: they really DO forget.
Being very efficient machines, like a computer, they are able to execute very complex routines designed to elicit from others support for what they want. In this way, many psychopaths are able to reach very high positions in life. It is only over time that their associates become aware of the fact that their climb up the ladder of success is predicated on violating the rights of others. Even when they are indifferent to the rights of their associates, they are often able to inspire feelings of trust and confidence. The psychopath recognizes no flaw in his psyche, no need for change.“
– from “The Psychopath – The Mask of Sanity”, Hervey Cleckley
It affects EVERYONE since our society has become ponerized, where normal people and society as a whole have taken on pathological traits that are seen as normal. It ties in with the atrophy of critical thinking and not recognizing pathological individuals as such. I’m not just talking about the average mainstream public, but especially spiritually inclined people who deny/ignore this topic (usually without having done any sincere research into it). It’s of no use to envision and create new money/barter systems, a resource based economy or focusing on environmental issues if this topic is not addressed and made conscious of for the virus of psychopathy will destroy any communities and utopian visions eventually. I’m not saying NOT to focus on such solutions, but the illusion that all humans are equal and the same needs to be shattered for true change to happen.
“One phenomenon all ponerogenic groups and associations have in common is the fact that their members lose (or have already lost) the capacity to perceive pathological individuals as such, interpreting their behavior in fascinated, heroic, or melodramatic ways….When the habits of subconscious selection and substitution of thought-data spread to the macrosocial level, a society tends to develop contempt for factual criticism and to humiliate anyone sounding an alarm.”
– Andrew M. Lobaczewski
Recommended reading and watching:
- Political Ponerology by Andrew M. Lobaczewski
- The Mask of Sanity by Hervey Cleckley
- The Sociopath Next Door by Martha Stout, Ph.D.
- Snakes in Suits by Paul Babiak & Robert D. Hare, Ph.D
- Without Conscience by Robert D. Hare, Ph.D.
- Women Who Love Psychopaths by Sandra L. Brown, M.A.
- I Am Fishead – Documentary
- Defense Against the Psychopath – Documentary
But beyond the reality of psychopaths among us, there is another topic that relates to the difference between humans on a mass scale. Certain sources that talk about a shift or transformation occurring in our age also mention a “splitting” of humanity and that not everyone is going to wake up. The main reason for this can be found in a very interesting issue this planet faces and has been written about in various esoteric teachings as well as transmitted through certain channeled material (more on that later). It relates to two different “humanities” coexisting on earth, alike from the outside, but unlike in the inside. All six billion people on the planet are not the same. There are fundamental differences that are genetic and esoteric. But these differences have nothing to do with those cited throughout history and used to justify the domination of one group over another: color, race, culture, language, wealth or social status.
According to “Gnosis” by Boris Mouravieff, there seems to exist two kind of humans that are equally divided (50/50): adamic man and pre-adamic man. One type with soul potential, the other has no individual soul, but is connected to a “soul pool”. Only the former has the inherent capacity to evolve esoterically, fusing the lower with the higher centers. The latter does not have the possibility in his current evolutionary cycle to bridge to the higher centers and no access to higher knowing/awareness/love, but is NOT a psychopath. They are like “cardboard” people who are “empty” inside, living mechanically under the rule of the General Law. Looking at the Indian chakra model, one could say that pre-adamic man only exists on the lower three chakras without any access to the higher ones, while adamic man also only exists on the lower centers, but has the ability to activate and bridge the higher centers through conscious esoteric work.
© Quantum Future Group
Suppression and distortion of esoteric knowledge is one of the means for control of the masses on planet earth. This has been going on for thousands of years. Even the material presented in “Gnosis” is covered around a biblical gloss that one needs to weed through. The topic of “soulless people” (also coined “Organic Portals (OP)”) is deep and far-reaching. It begs the question, what is a “soul” to begin with? Some people who appear “soulless” may actually be a “soul in struggle”, so we need to be careful not to judge too quickly, but get a better and deeper understanding of this topic. When exploring this idea more closely, with an objective, open and critical mind, it gives huge insight into the state of the world. OPs have their natural place in the grand scheme of things and they also serve a purpose in the evolutionary process. There is nothing evil or wrong with them, nor is it about “us vs. them”, but simply having a deeper understanding of humanity so we can actually live truly in more harmony, aligned with the universe, nature and evolution of Being and Knowledge.
EVERYONE is on the level of an OP until he/she engages in esoteric work activating the higher centers. We all are “Organic Portals” to one degree or another as the “predator” and matrix works through all of us (see next point) until we make the effort to gain self-knowledge and work on fusing our higher centers that connect us to our higher self in a conscious way, dislodging our programs and conditioned, mechanical behaviors so we’re able to use our will in a conscious and awake manner. That is the basis for true free will. A good introduction into this topic is “Organic Portals – Soulless Humans” (it also explains the difference between psychopaths and OPs).
2. Hyperdimensional Realities
There is more to our reality than our five senses can perceive. We are not God’s ultimate creation, nor on the peak on the evolutionary ladder in Darwinian terms (whichever creationist/evolutionary theory you believe in). Our reality is embedded in a complex system of unseen worlds and controlled by denizens of higher reality. The forces at work are not all good and we’re not on top of the food chain. “Food” doesn’t have to be physical and these beings feed off our negative emotions and energy, predominantly chaos, sexual pathologies and fear, which they create working through us. The ancient esoteric teachings talk about a “hyperdimensional matrix control system” (MCS) that has influenced and controlled humanity for millennia, each in their own way. Don Juan in Castaneda’s last book called it “the topic of all topics“, speaking of a cosmic predator that uses man as food: Man has a glowing coat of awareness which the predator eats, leaving just the bare minimum of “consciousness stuff” for man to remain physically alive. The predator “milks” man through arranging for constant trouble and crisis and senseless preoccupation, so as to generate flashes of awareness that it then proceeds to eat. Gurdjeff refers to it in the tale of “The Evil Magician” and the concept of “Food for the Moon” . The Gnostics maintained that the Earth and material creation in general were the product of an evil demiurge, chief of the “archons of darkness“. Boris Mouravieff writes about the “General Law” in his trilogy “Gnosis” which influences humanity and keeps it in its place. It takes tremendous effort, awareness and esoteric self-work to “escape” the General Law and influences of the MCS.
The UFO phenomenon relates to it in more ways than usually acknowledged by some contemporary UFO researchers who have a very “nuts and bolts” physical approach to the idea of UFOs, aliens and extraterrestrials. There is a paranormal characteristic that accompanies UFO sightings, alien abductions and other high strangeness occurrences that should encourage us to look at this phenomena in a different way instead of the popular assumptions that UFOs are physical “alien space ships coming from other planets”. When researching the topic of hyperdimensional realities it also puts into question the various Disclosure and Exopolitics scenarios promoted by some UFO researchers. There is a lot of disinformation surrounding that topic and it is interesting to note that attempts to reveal the hyperdimensional aspect are often ignored, attacked and ridiculed, even more so than the “nuts and bolts” scenario.
However, in light of the ancient esoteric teachings mentioned above it all makes sense, since the MCS is trying to conceal exactly that: Hyperdimensional realities and the beings inhabiting them. Humanity is not on top of the food chain, nor in control of itself. Some UFO, paranormal and history researchers such as Dr. Jacques Vallee, John Keel and Laura Knight Jadczyk have done groundbreaking research into this topic.
“If we look at the world from an informational point of view, and if we consider the many complex ways in which time and space my be structured, the old idea of space travel and interplanetary craft to which most technologists are still clinging appears not only obsolete, but ludicrous. Indeed, modern physics has already bypassed it, offering a very different interpretation of what an “extraterrestrial” system might look like. I believe there is a system around us that transcends time as it transcends space. The system may well be able to locate itself in outer space, but its manifestations are not spacecraft in the ordinary ‘nuts and bolts’ sense. The UFOs are physical manifestations that cannot be understood apart from their psychic and symbolic reality. What we see in effect here is a control system which acts on humans and uses humans.“
– Dr. Jacques Vallee
“The scope, frequency, and distribution of the sightings make the popular extraterrestrial (interplanetary) hypothesis completely untenable… Many flying saucers seem to be nothing more than a disguise for some hidden phenomenon. They are like Trojan horses descending into our forests and farm fields, promising salvation and offering us the splendor of some great super-civilization in the sky… Do the ultraterrestrials really care about us? There is much disturbing evidence that they don’t. They care only to the extent that we can fulfill our enigmatic use to them.
The real UFO story must encompass all of the many manifestations being observed. It is a story of ghosts and phantoms and strange mental abberations; of an invisible world which surrounds us and occasionally engulfs us; of prophets and prophecies, and gods and demons. It is a world of illusion and hallucination where the unreal seems very real, and where reality itself is distorted by strange forces which can seemingly manipulate space, time, and physical matter—forces which are almost entirely beyond our powers of comprehension.
Our skies have been filled with “Trojan horses” throughout history, and like the original Trojan Horse, they seem to conceal hostile intent. … This hostility theory is further supported by the fact that the objects choose, most often, to appear in forms which we can readily accept and explain to our own satisfaction—ranging from derigibles to meteors and conventional-appearing airplanes. … In other words, flying saucers are not at all what we have hoped they were. They are a part of something else. I call that something else Operation Trojan Horse.
The real truth is that the UFO cultists have been played for suckers for years, not by the government, but by the phenomenon.“
– John Keel
“In the case of the idea of man being “food” for hyperdimensional beings, there is an enormous amount of both vertical and lateral corroboration of all kinds. So much so that, in fact, it is almost impossible to understand why it is not generally known. Clearly, there have been deliberate efforts to “hide this fact”. And, the fact that it is hidden may itself tell us something.
The point is, when Don Juan and Gurdjieff and the Cassiopaeans (and others) tell us that our religions, our social structure, our values, our beliefs about our spiritual nature and condition have been deliberately created to perpetuate the illusion that we are free; that we are (or can be) “special and adored children of a loving God”; that we are or can be “co-creators” with God, that we can do anything at all of a positive and powerful nature, we need to carefully examine this issue!
But it is work to examine it objectively. It is hard work because it consists of long and difficult self-examination in order to be able to overcome the emotions that prevent us from discovering what illusions we are hanging onto, what illusions are preventing us from seeing and acting in such a way as to become free.
As we continue to think in these terms, it becomes more and more apparent that this Great Work of the alchemists was essentially the process of becoming “free of the Matrix”, described in alchemical and allegorical terms.
This hyperdimensional world is all around us, yet we are unable to see it because it is beyond the range of our senses. All the objects of our world are very likely just our limited perceptions of what is happening in this total reality.
Since those forces that create and maintain the Matrix have so much to lose, they exert a great deal of energy to keep the Matrix of lies and false beliefs in place. And doing it from a state of hyperdimensional reality enables them to work from a state of timelessness, so as to be able to produce all the perceived effects that support their agenda; the Evil Magician of Gurdjieff; the “Flyer“ of Castaneda; the Shaitans of the Sufis. And the reality has been manipulated for so long that it seems natural. It has become a comfortable prison in which Stockholm Syndrome reigns supreme, and the inmates love their captors.
Thus it is that we may find that our religious myths and rites are remnants of narratives – a message in a bottle – designed to explain these phenomena, and that the monotheistic versions, declaring a Final End, or a Judgment Day of a final end, are merely distortions of the myth designed to establish a Control System on our planet. These distortions are beneficial to those who seek power and wealth, who are under the control of archetypal forces of another realm of which our own reality is but a shadow or a reflection. Let me reiterate: I do not mean, here, to suggest that this other realm is “astral” or ephemeral or non-material. I am suggesting that it is an intermediate realm of para-physical, hyper-dimensional beings whose existence and nature has been carefully concealed from us for millennia – for a reason that is not to our benefit.
And as we have learned from Jesus, Gurdjieff and the Gnostic Sufis, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans, the rules of this World in which we live were set up and are controlled by this STS (Service to Self) hierarchy and have been for a very long time. Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation….It is in “seeing the unseen” that we become aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we experience the “battles” between the forces of STS (Service to Self) and STO (Service to Others)! And it is most definitely this factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to conceal!… In other words, we are not just talking about a “petty dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.“
– Laura Knight Jadczyk
Recommended reading and watching:
- High Strangeness by Laura Knight-Jadczyk
- The Secret History of the World by Laura Knight-Jadczyk
- Messengers of Deception by Dr. Jacques Vallee
- Operation Trojan Horse by John Keel
- Gnosis by Boris Mouravieff
- In Search of the Miraculous by P.D. Ouspensky
- The Active Side of Infinity by Carlos Castaneda
- Stalking or Precis on The Good and The Evil by Michael Topper
- UFOs, Alien, and the Question of Contact – documentary
3. Cyclic Cataclysms and Climate Change
Our climate and weather is surely acting strange these days. We’re being told that much of it is our fault since we contribute to global warming. The mainstream scientific consensus and other interest groups (political and business) push this idea into the public supported with very questionable science. Scientists who don’t conform to it and questing man-made global warning often don’t get funding for their research, lose their jobs and data/facts that contradict the consensus are being suppressed. It became a political issue with the old illusory fight between left and right, liberals and conservatives, all of which is distracting from what is truly going on. Climate change is happening, but it doesn’t have much to do with man-made global warming. In fact, the planet is cooling and we seem to enter a period of a new Ice Age. I want to point out that this doesn’t mean we shouldn’t be more environmental conscious since we obviously pollute the planet in many ways, however humanity is not all responsible for what is going on with our climate and weather. Our planet has survived worse conditions than what we’re dealing with now. Follow the money trail and you’ll see what Al Gore’s and other high profile global warming proponents true agenda is.
Andrés Perezalonso writes in Global Warming And The Corruption Of Science:
“[…]Since it is unlikely that all of the above are a simple series of honest mistakes, we must ask if there is an agenda other than a strictly scientific one driving the discourse of Global Warming as a whole. In searching for possible motives the $2.7 billion carbon emissions market overseen by the UN appears as a plausible candidate. This scheme effectively permits polluters to continue with their less than optimal practices as long as they pay money for it. The hype over reducing the ‘carbon foot print’ of industry is also set to make certain individuals very rich. Al Gore for example is a founder of Generation Investment Management a UK based company that has substantial interests in ‘green technology’. Gore is also heavily financially invested in Silver Spring Networks, a US company that has contracts with utilities that in October 2009 received a combined subsidy of $560m from the US energy department.
‘Global warming’ is also a major money-making opportunity for the financial establishment. JP Morgan Chase, Bank America Merrill Lynch, Barclay’s, Citi Bank, Nomura, Société Générale, Morgan Stanley and Goldman Sachs are actively involved in carbon trading. According to a Guardian report of late 2009 “the carbon market could become double the size of the vast oil market if the new breed of City players who trade greenhouse gas emissions through the EU’s emissions trading scheme have their way”.”
With all the focus on man-made global warming, environmentalists doing everything to “save the planet”, people buying hybrid cars, feeling good about themselves to do something for the planet and “green” business opportunities flourishing (there is always a buck to be made, even (or especially) if it is based on lies and corrupted science), something else is happening in our skies which is not given much attention.
Over the last couple of years fireballs and meteorite sightings have increased exponentially, some of which may be even responsible for the wild fires in Colorado and the crash of Air France Flight 447 from Rio de Janeiro to Paris in 2009 (it took three years for the official report to come out to tell us that is was caused my “mechanical and human failure”. Can we say “damage control” considering the auspicious timing of that report?)
There are obvious cosmic changes under way and other strange occurrences (like masses of birds falling dead from the sky around the world) in our atmosphere that are not even closely related to man-made global warming. These cosmic influences have an effect on our climate more than what is publicly acknowledged or recognized. The contrary, there seems to be a deliberate effort to hide this information from the public. Joe Quinn and Niall Bradley made an excellent analysis of what seems to be happening in Reign of Fire: Meteorites, Wildfires, Planetary Chaos and the Sixth Extinction , showing that the powers that be know what is going on but try their best to vector the public away from the truth:
“Compounding our suspicion that the US government is racing to put out more than just forest fires is this impeccably timed dispatch from the official ‘al Qaeda magazine’ Inspire, in which the CIA’s favourite ‘terrorists’ called for jihadists of the world to “torch forests as part of the Islamic war against the West.” The Department of Homeland Security apparently had their story planned in advance, claiming that for more than a decade “international terrorist groups and associated individuals have expressed interest in using fire as a tactic against the Homeland to cause economic loss, fear, resource depletion, and humanitarian hardship.” Pretty coincidental, eh? Those ‘al-qaeda’ terrorists really are very useful.
Meanwhile COINTELPRO has been set to work helping the US government deceive the alt.net community with the usual garbage about super-secret (sic) scalar weapons, plasma weapons and HAARP being tested on unwitting Coloradans.
In a report commissioned by the US Air Force, British astronomer Victor Clube, author of The Cosmic Serpent and The Cosmic Winter, succinctly summarized the fundamental tenet of geopolitics:
“We do not need the celestial threat to disguise Cold War intentions; rather we need the Cold War to disguise celestial intentions!”
No, Clube wasn’t referring to aliens or spacecraft; the ‘celestial threat’ he was referring to appears in Earth’s skies during times of turmoil and social upheaval that are linked to a serious imbalance in human evolution. They also induce all kinds of weird environmental effects, the least of which are those strange sky sounds and other electromagnetic phenomena that are also picking up in frequency and intensity. Flooding the Internet with disinformation about chemtrails has convinced some that governments can master Nature’s most powerful forces. For everyone else, there’s always the ‘terrorist’ bogeyman and man-made global warming to remind them why they need Big Brother.“
Global cyclic cataclysms have been recorded throughout history, yet the possibility of that happening in our time and age is suppressed, ignored or ridiculed. One thing most Mayan Calendar scholars have pointed out is that time is cyclic and the ancient civilizations have recorded this. However, with all the focus on “shift of consciousness” and the “galactic alignment” on 12/21/2012 many of them don’t seem to acknowledge the obvious: that cosmic bombardment has always been a part of our history during such shifts and it seems very likely that we’re just at the beginning of massive changes of a cosmic nature that also manifest in cataclysms.
Usually when I bring up the topic of cyclic cataclysms in conversations or on facebook and point out that we may enter such a period right now, I’m met with the usual “fear and doomsday mongerer” or “you’re so negative!” accusations. The information I provide is often denied off-hand without further investigation on their part. This has nothing to do with the “end of the world”, nor do I see ALL of the population being wiped out, nor do I want that to happen. However, facts are facts and fact is that there has been a significant increase of meteor and fireball sightings that are either downplayed or ignored. Most importantly, the powers that be know what’s coming, even if they delude themselves that they won’t be affected. So don’t expect an early warning anytime soon.
Recommended reading and watching:
- Reign of Fire: Meteorites, Wildfires, Planetary Chaos and the Sixth Extinction
- Reading Celestial Intentions Through the Wrong End of the Telescope: Missiles, UFOs and the Cold War
- The Golden Age, Psychopathy and the Sixth Extinction
- Global Warming And The Corruption Of Science
- Fire and Ice: The Day After Tomorrow
- Something Wicked This Way Comes
- Meteorites, Asteroids, and Comets: Damages, Disasters, Injuries, Deaths, and Very Close Calls
- Forget About Global Warming: We’re One Step From Extinction!
- Cosmic Winter by Victor Clube and Bill Napier
- Cosmic Serpent by Victor Clube and Bill Napier
- The Cycle of Cosmic Catastrophes by Richard Firestone, Allen West and Simon Warwick-Smith
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Joking aside, anyone who takes a sober look at the world can see that we’re far from any significant collective shift in consciousness. We live in a day and age where most people still believe the lies we’re being told. It’s a global Stockholm Syndrome, the perfect Matrix Control System, where the prisoners build their own walls and worship their captors, becoming tools of the matrix as the sheep police each other. No martial control needed.
“Till at last the child’s mind is these suggestions, and the sum of the suggestions is the child’s mind. And not the child’s mind only. The adult’s mind too-all his life long. The mind that judges and desire and decides-made up of these suggestions. But all these suggestions are our suggestions… Suggestions from the State.”
– Aldous Huxley, A Brave New World
Much of it has also do to with what Bob Altemeyer called “The Authoritarians“, who blindly believe government (left or right) and official authority.
“They [Authoritarians] are highly submissive to established authority, aggressive in the name of that authority, and conventional to the point of insisting everyone should behave as their authorities decide. They are fearful and self-righteous and have a lot of hostility in them that they readily direct toward various out-groups. They are easily incited, easily led, rather un-inclined to think for themselves, largely impervious to facts and reason, and rely instead on social support to maintain their beliefs. They bring strong loyalty to their in-groups, have thick-walled, highly compartmentalized minds, use lots of double standards in their judgments, are surprisingly unprincipled at times, and are often hypocrites. But they are also Teflon-coated when it comes to guilt. They are blind to themselves, ethnocentric and prejudiced, and as close-minded as they are narrow-minded.”
This is not only true for the obvious right-wing conservative (republicans) oriented folks, but also for many self-proclaimed liberal, progressive lefties and Democrats who support Obama, the man-made global warming scam, the official 9/11 story (fantasy), Israel’s genocide in Palestine, etc… without questioning. I’ve had many “discussions” with such individuals who pride themselves of being “aware” and “spiritual”, some of them even popular yoga teachers, life coaches, and “healers” (such as the aforementioned “ayahuascero”) here in Los Angeles, hiding behind a passive aggressive mask who are more close-minded and conditioned than they are aware of. Much of it is also about keeping a “politically correct” attitude because speaking out about such topics may not serve their career and public image. What I’ve experienced in my interactions with them mirrors exactly what Bob Altermayer said: “They bring strong loyalty to their in-groups, have thick-walled, highly compartmentalized minds, use lots of double standards in their judgments, are surprisingly unprincipled at times, and are often hypocrites. But they are also Teflon-coated when it comes to guilt. They are blind to themselves, ethnocentric and prejudiced, and as close-minded as they are narrow-minded.”
As I said in “Love, Reality, and the Time of Transition“:
There is always more to learn and find out that requires an adjustment and new understanding, expanding our view and understanding of reality. It is what raising consciousness implies. People who are stuck in one idea or teaching and try to explain everything through it are building their own limited reality box. This also relates to psychology, astrology, philosophy, the healing arts, spiritual practices or any religion (east and west) where many “experts” in any of these systems are looking through one lens (many of them distorted/false to begin with), not realizing that this approach can easily lead to distortion and a tunnel vision. It can also become an egotistical point of pride preventing that person to admit to him/herself that there is maybe more to the story which one hasn’t considered before, especially when they have written books about it, their career depends on it and they have an image to sell/live up to.
One can see these fallacies with many popular spiritual teachers, researchers, visionaries, therapists and self-help gurus, where career and image seem to take precedence over truth and reality. There are many topics that affect us more than many of them are aware of. But instead of being more open to such topics and looking into them sincerely and unbiased, these seemingly intelligent and aware individuals ignore or debunk them right off-hand exposing their own lack of critical thinking.
Anti-Authoritarians are are even diagnosed as mentally ill these days. People who question their government and learn about “the man behind the curtain” are often labeled as “paranoid conspiracy theorists” in a condemning ad hominem way, as though governments never act in secret.
What better way to maintain the status quo than to view inattention, anger, anxiety, and depression as biochemical problems of those who are mentally ill rather than normal reactions to an increasingly authoritarian society.… We are now in another dark age, only the institutions have changed. Americans desperately need anti-authoritarians to question, challenge, and resist new illegitimate authorities and regain confidence in their own common sense.… Authoritarians financially marginalize those who buck the system, they criminalize anti-authoritarianism, they psychopathologize anti-authoritarians, and they market drugs for their “cure.”
– Bruce Levine, Ph.D., Why Anti-Authoritarians are Diagnosed as Mentally Ill
I’ve been living in the Los Angeles area for 17 years now. What I’ve come to realize more and more is the vast difference between people “appearing” aware, spiritual and conscious as opposed to their true state of being and awareness, reflected in their beliefs and (non)-actions. California is known to be “progressive” and being a professional bodyworker I can attest that in light of the “healing arts”. I don’t know any other place in the world that has so much to offer in that regard. I’ve learned from amazing teachers and am able to make a living with something I love doing and which would not be very easy in other parts in the world that are not that open to alternative healing modalities. It’s a strange mixture of open mindedness, progressiveness, niceness and the same time close mindedness, denial, self-delusion and self-grandeur.
Humanity is not as special as we believe ourselves to be. The universe and our planet are part of a living system that has its own purpose. If we don’t align ourselves with the universe and its evolution, the system will do what it has always done in the past and adjust itself, even if it means “shaking off” a large part of the population. We’re talking about the evolution in knowledge and consciousness, which is tied on with seeing the world as it is without blinders on. As I wrote in Reflections on Love, Healing, and 9/11:
If you believe a lie, no matter how ‘positive’, ‘loving’ or ‘peaceful’ you are, you are feeding negativity and entropy. When you believe a lie, you have allowed your energy of awareness to be vectored and given away your power to the liars, allowing yourself to be manipulated, essentially losing free will.
Lies are aligned with the principle of entropy simply because the more lies the world contains, the less organized and fragmented it becomes and the more energy is expended in maintaining all this complexity. This ties up energy which otherwise could be expressed creatively. This is true within the individual as well as at the societal scale.
No matter how well-meaning our intention is, as long as we support lies by mistaking them for truth or by not speaking out against them, we’ll keep feeding entropy and the suffering in the world. During this “Time of Transition” we don’t get to move on until the lessons are learned. Essentially, there is no Love where there is no Truth.
On the positive note, are there any signs of a “raise in consciousness” and “awakening”? There is the Occupy movement where people finally stood up to the crimes of their governments, yet at the same time most “Occupiers” mistake the symptoms for the cause, not being aware of Psychopaths in positions of high power and how it affects society. Despite the issues I pointed out with certain “conscious” festivals, they are also a great outlet for self-expression, art and dance, connecting people from all walks of life, but they can also be easily an escape from reality, instead of being a sign of a true “collective awakening”.
Technological progress and the Internet is connecting millions of people across the globe. Social networks like facebook can help in the process of seeking truth and spreading awareness. However, they can also increase narcissistic tendencies and disconnect us from real-life interaction. They are tools, neither good or bad and it depends on the user how they are being applied. There is much nonsense and disinformation on the internet as well. Lies are mixed with truth, so discernment is imperative without falling into the traps of “cynical debunking” or “blind belief”, the two sides of the same coin.
There are many well-meaning people who also see that our world is going through big changes and that we need to make changes within and without. Many of them do their best to look for alternative ways of living, offering more sustainable solutions. However, each of the various Conscious Movements ( The Zeitgeist Movement, Evolver Social Movement, Thrive Movement, etc…. ) can easily be (and may have been already) co-opted (or even created) by COINTELPRO, spread disinformation and ignore/deny important topics even without the conscious intent/awareness of their founders and members/followers because of cognitive dissonance, denial, wishful thinking and ego related issues that are in the way of the pursuit of truth. Again, understanding how the Matrix Control System works through us is crucial and how easily we can buffer up the lies we’re telling ourselves, dreaming to be awake.
“Try for a moment to accept the idea that you are not what you believe yourself to be, that you overestimate yourself, in fact that you lie to yourself. That you always lie to yourself every moment, all day, all your life. That this lying rules you to such an extent that you cannot control it any more. You are the prey of lying. You lie, everywhere. Your relations with others—lies. The upbringing you give, the conventions—lies. Your teaching—lies. Your theories, your art—lies. Your social life, your family life—lies. And what you think of yourself—lies also.
But you never stop yourself in what you are doing or in what you are saying because you believe in yourself. You must stop inwardly and observe. Observe without preconceptions, accepting for a time this idea of lying. And if you observe in this way, paying with yourself, without self-pity, giving up all your supposed riches for a moment of reality, perhaps you will suddenly see something you have never before seen in yourself until this day. You will see that you are different from what you think you are. You will see that you are two. One who is not, but takes the place and plays the role of the other. And one who is, yet so weak, so insubstantial, that he no sooner appears than he immediately disappears. He cannot endure lies. The least lie makes him faint away. He does not struggle, he does not resist, he is defeated in advance. Learn to look until you have seen the difference between your two natures, until you have seen the lies, the deception in yourself. When you have seen your two natures, that day, in yourself, the truth will be born.”
– Jeanne de Salzmann, First Initiation
“The scientific discourse misses the fact that the ability to deny is an amazing human phenomenon, a product of sheer complexity of our emotional, linguistic, moral and intellectual lives. Denial is a complex unconscious defense mechanism for coping with guilt, anxiety and other disturbing emotions aroused by reality.”
– Stanley Cohen
“To awaken is difficult to do, as sapiens is submitted to a cosmic hypnotic influence which is the universal energy of creation; and if this were not enough, each individual, when he does not like the reality of life or is not satisfied with himself, dreams of himself and the world in a manner ideal for himself.”
– John Baines
The three subjects mentioned above hold the clues and keys to the Golden Age and world peace most of us yearn for. They need to be approached in a scientific and open minded way, questioning our own beliefs about the world and humanity, which entails working through our social, religious and cultural programming and adjusting our understanding even if it contradicts our long-held beliefs. From an esoteric perspective lies to the self are the most harming and as long as we believe the lies in the world we will keep going in circles until mother earth had enough and she sakes us off. There is always the danger of dogma and agendas, mistaking the false for the true, that are in the way of creating a new world if we don’t make the sincere pursuit of truth the foundation in every aspects of our lives.
Whatever your talent, profession or vocation may be, ask yourself, why you do what you do and what is your true intention? How much of it is socially conditioned and what is truly YOU? Don’t be afraid to speak out in fear of ridicule or what others may think. So much of what people do is driven by the need for acceptance, appearance, approval, money, status, and security. Our lives lose integrity if we’re not honest with ourselves. There is only Love where there is Knowledge and Truth.
I see 2012 as an opportunity, not in the literal sense of the date but in terms of the times we’re in. There is potential for an awakening on a mass scale, although I question that there will be anything close to a “collective awakening”. A splitting may happen as “The Wave” approaches. There is so much we don’t know. For that reason we must make the search for Knowledge and Truth a priority before we present solutions too quickly. The more we see the world as it is, with all “the faces of God”, the more we are aligned with the universe and the more creativity we can access, enabling us to act in tune with nature without fighting her. This has an effect on the outside and maybe the archetypal “reset button” doesn’t need to be pressed. That is the evolution of consciousness, which is the evolution of Knowledge and Being. It doesn’t happen by itself. Conscious work and effort are needed to counter the forces of entropy within and without.
I don’t see a fundamental rise in consciousness or awakening at or after 12/21/2012 if not the aforementioned topics are made conscious of, nor are there any short cuts to take until we learn our lessons personally and collectively. Whatever our living system’s purpose is, we need to align ourselves with that and get out of our anthropocentric view of the universe, so we can make the transition from a material-based view of our world to a spiritual one.
“The fact of the matter is that our planet and everything on it comprises an intelligent and living system that has designed into it a mechanism through which any imbalance in any aspect of the system can be dealt with. Consider the way in which animal populations are naturally kept in check via predators or disease. This mechanism is designed to protect the overall system and prevent any one aspect from compromising the evolutionary goals of the system itself. Humans have evolved to the point where they have no natural predators, and while disease still kills many human beings each year, modern medicine has succeeded (so far) in preventing a pandemic from wiping out the human race. But it would be foolhardy for anyone to think that the ‘living system’ has overlooked human beings when it comes to redressing any imbalance caused by human beings that threatens the aim of the overall living system. We trust that what we have written here provides ample evidence that it has not.
We also hope that it is fairly clear that human beings, as a species on planet earth, have reached a point of serious imbalance, both in terms of their effect on the planet and on other living beings on it, and in terms of humanity’s own proper evolution which can be defined as evolution in knowledge and consciousness. Clearly, humanity today has stalled in its evolution. Indeed it appears to be back-sliding at an alarming rate, due primarily to the influence of the deviant ideology spread by psychopaths in positions of power around the world. We need only consider the fact that billions of people today have bought into and support the lie that is the psychopathic ‘war on terror’, which has as its goal the murder and domination of as many innocent people as possible. What does that fact alone (among many other deceptions that people have bought in to) say about the level of knowledge and awareness of the human race as a whole?”
– Joe Quinn and Niall Bradley, Reign of Fire: Meteorites, Wildfires, Planetary Chaos and the Sixth Extinction
“Discomfort” and examining our fears can serve a purpose. There is a chance for healing from a shamanic and esoteric perspective. It is good to put oneself into a state of vulnerability when looking at the “darker” aspects of our reality or of oneself, truly looking at it, facing it and not giving the ego a chance to explain it all away, so we can go back to our comfort zone through self-calming and ultimately back to “sleep”. It is not about buying into fear and panic either, but about gaining knowledge and understanding. Sometimes things need to be confronted without automatically defending our beliefs and views, allowing us to look at the world and ourselves more objectively. That’s part of the awakening process and raising consciousness.
There is help out there, but no one is coming to save us. No Aliens, Jesus, or Galactic Federation of Light. There are accounts of information and help from “channeled sources”, stating that is it is up to us to discern truth from deception, that we are our own the rescue team. Everything is part of creation. Evolution is a process of learning, becoming aware and conscious, gaining knowledge and hence wisdom and love.
“Life experiences reflect how one interacts with God. Those who are asleep are those of little faith in terms of their interaction with the creation. Some people think that the world exists for them to overcome or ignore or shut out. For those individuals, the worlds will cease. They will become exactly what they give to life. They will become merely a dream in the “past.” People who pay strict attention to objective reality right and left, become the reality of the “Future.””
– from the Cassiopaean Transmissions
The topic of channeled information needs to be examined very carefully, neither in blind belief and also not rejected because of cynical debunking. We need to be careful not to throw out the baby with the bathwater. “Higher benevolent forces” (including our higher self or even “us in the future”) may be able to contact us that way, when asked for and when it doesn’t infringe free will or interferes with the learning process of the one asking. However, who is coming through and what is the source really saying is the question. Sometimes the messages can be subtle in our every day life and it is up to us to be able to “see” and “hear” them. There is much disinformation, where most often the devil appears as angels of light. Even synchronicities and “coincidences” are not always positive or beneficial but can be orchestrated by negative entities to distract or vector the seeker away from truth, be it through temptation or ego/emotional hooks. It’s the archetypal spiritual war of dark and light through us.
Channeled material can be approached as Superluminal Communication from a scientific perspective. It should never be taken as fact and proof alone, but one should cross-reference it with other material and combine it with scientific research, using it as inspiration for new ways of thinking. There are some sources that actually encourage that approach and tell us that it is up to us to learn, discern and gain knowledge, hence becoming more aware and conscious, consciously engaging in the process of evolution and awakening. This entails piercing through the corruption of science and open the pathways to scientifically study the paranormal and high strangeness aspects of our reality, the “topic of all topics”, which is so ridiculed or ignored in our “official culture” for reasons that are actually un-scientific. That alone should make us think.
However, no channeled material is perfect and corruption is inevitable.
“There exists no perfect channeled material since corruption is inevitable. Ego biases, mistranslations, quantum laws interfering with transmission of quantitative data, hacking by negative entities, programming of the channeler through abductions and implants, etc… can all cause degradation in the conduit over time. And of what material is published, perhaps just a few percent fall within the top three levels of standards. So as much as channeling can be a valuable source of inspiration and insight, I advise extreme discernment and a high set of standards when approaching it.
– Tom Montalk, Standards of Channeling
The path of seeking truth within and without is not an easy one. It goes literally against everything we’ve been told and taught by society and governments. The indoctrination of lies, the conditioning and programming is deep and far reaching. It has been going on for millennia. It takes tremendous effort to wake up from the hypnotic slumber, where most people dream to be awake. At this Time of Transition, as more and more knowledge is coming to the surface, there is the potential to create a new earth. However, this is also the age of deception for there are forces at work that do not want this to happen. They do their best to vector us away from truth and the most effective way to swallow a lie is to sandwich it between some truth with some emotional hooks. As mentioned many times before, lies are mixed with truth, hence discernment is essential. We need to engage our higher emotional center connecting us to divine intuition and also activate our higher intellect, engaging in sincere, open minded critical thinking, fusing the heart and the mind, mysticism and science.
That is the prerequisite to build the vessel inside of us that can receive Gnosis/Knowledge for the truth is hidden in plain sight, so we can “see the unseen” and not get distracted by the shadows on the wall. James Baldwin said “Precisely at the point when you begin to develop a conscience, you must find yourself at war with your society.” There has been much struggle, depression and suffering on my own path since I started to question reality. It has lead to alienation and ridicule from friends and family. However, “alienation” is actually a good thing and depression can be a stepping stone to seeing the world as it is and connecting with one’s real “I”. It’s part of the awakening process. The sincere truth seeker will inevitably feel alienated from society at one point, because he/she starts to “see” through appearances and the lies of “official culture”. As J. Krishnamurti said: “It is no sign of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” Essentially, the Matrix works through people as they defend the prison they are in.
Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation. It is in “seeing the unseen” that we become aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we experience the “battles” between the forces of STS (Service to Self) and STO (Service to Others)! And it is most definitely this factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to conceal! In other words, we are not just talking about a “petty dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.
“In general, the reaction of those around towards someone who begins to search for the Way is negative. This negative attitude is the result of the action of the General Law, which, as we know, tends to keep man in his place. Not being able to do this directly by the action of Illusion, the General Law, when it loses its dominion over the man who ‘moves’, acts indirectly by the mediation of those around him.
It is a classic situation. From his side, after having passed through moral bankruptcy, he who seeks the Way becomes different from men who continue to live within the limits permitted by the General Law, and thus take mirages for reality. Due to this, he will feel himself more and more isolated. The center of gravity of his interest will progressively turn to esoteric work, which will end by absorbing him completely. But it is entirely in his interest not to show the new attitude which he has taken towards exterior life. The ‘World’ will be hostile to him, because its own purposes are different; it is not in his interest to provoke this tendency, and even less to keep it alive. The day will come — if he remains in the same milieu — where, apart from rare exceptions he will be openly or secretly hated.
The Way is a one-way street. Meaning that whoever begins to walk it is forbidden to turn back. This is not because of some kind of external imperative, but due to the fact that each step forward on the Way irrevocably modifies the content of whoever has started walking it. It follows that he will become more and more of a stranger to his surroundings; that he will lose more and more interest in exterior life, in which only yesterday he participated fully. The appearance of things, and especially of beings, undergoes a deep change in his eyes. He will one day be surprised to constate that certain faces which only yesterday he found very beautiful now reveal to him marks of bestiality behind their features: not all, but many of them!
The more man progresses on the Way, the more his feeling of being a stranger is intensified. Soon he will become boring: later still he will become unbearable, and finally, odious. That is why ‘the prophet is despised in his country, among his close relations and in his own house.‘ That indication is precise and leaves no room for doubt. He who wants to start esoteric studies is invited to think it over twice, and weigh it all, before he rushes to cross the moat-threshold. We repeat that it will not be possible for him to return to exterior life and to find his place, his pleasures and his satisfaction there as in the past.
However, as well as the difficulties which are the first results of his evolution, such a man will receive comforting impressions, especially in his human relations. He will be surprised to perceive one day that certain faces which only yesterday appeared to him ordinary, today shine in his eyes with a bright beauty. It is because his sight, sharpened by esoteric work, has acquired the faculty of penetrating beyond the external crust. It is amongst these brighter beings that he will find his new friends. Their society will welcome him as one of their own. He will be understood among them, and their community of common aims and interests will be a stimulus and a help for all.“
– Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis
As tedious and hard as it is at times, the esoteric axiom remains: “The truth shall set you free!” The necessity of disillusionment is unavoidable before we truly can become free, fulfill our potential and create a New Earth. Despite the struggle within and without and the madness in our world, I can say that I find more and more true love, fulfillment, happiness, joy, authentic friendships and a deeper connection to nature and the universe. It’s an ongoing process. There is light at the end of the tunnel and the only way out is through. Don’t ever give up. Every sincere effort will be noticed by the universe, even if seemingly unnoticed in your immediate environment and it will contribute to a positive outcome of this Time of Transition and to the progress of your soul. All there is are lessons. Our task is to give the lies what they deserve: the truth. Many are called, but few choose to answer the call.
“Organic life on Earth serves as a “transmitter station”. As such a transmitter, during times of Transition, as it is in the case of a quantum wave collapse, what is being “transmitted/observed determines the “measurement . There are approximately 6 billion human beings on the planet at this moment of transition, most of them contributing to the quantitative transmission. But what is missing is the qualitative frequency resonance vibration that will create the template for the New World.
The quality of humanity has changed little in the past many millennia. Most human beings are still ruled by fear, hunger and sex in states of misery and chaos.
In short, although the global intensity of transmission has grown exponentially with the increase of the population of the planet, the spectrum of energies transmitted is incomplete. It lacks massive amounts of the finest energies of the psyche. Only human beings on the verge of true spiritual ascension are capable of ensuring the transmission of these energies in sufficient quality and quantity.
The energies needed are the Three Currents of Objective Love: Spiritual, Emotional/Mental, and physical love. And we emphasize that these currents must be pure.
Man alone has the ability to capture and live all three. But to grasp and fully experience the Soul Love, the giving love, the courteous Love demonstrated and taught by Chivalry and the Knights of the Grail stories, the Seeker must develop a magnetic center within himself.
Human beings are penetrated through and through by the two currents of mental/emotional and physical love, but these currents are not pure; without a fully developed magnetic center, the individual has no capacity to capture them. It is only by actualizing these three currents in his or her life, either in the mode of the Alchemist, or in the Model of the Grail Quest, both of which exemplify the Shamanic Ecstatic Ascent, that a person has the real possibility of Ascension, the return to the Golden Age. We have seen in our survey of the history and the evidence, what the potentials are: a Return to the Edenic State in the literal terms of Primitive Chiliasm – a New Heaven and a New Earth.
Again, this depends upon capturing and holding stable – possibly in the face of extraordinary events – massive quantities of what the tradition refers to as purified Objective Love.
It is clear to those who have been paying attention to what is going on in the world that there are forces that do not wish for this possibility to manifest! They do not want to lose their supply of negative energy food! And with this end in mind, they propagate endless lies and deceptions upon humanity – so as to deceive even the very elect!
How to achieve this anchoring of the frequency – the three currents of Objective Love? Let’s look first at what the tradition teaches utilizing the commentary of Mouravieff with editorial clarification.
The attitude a person takes toward Love reflects his level of being. The splendor of the Love of God/Creation is generally inconceivable to human beings; it would burn out all their circuits with a mere glimpse. However, a human being can glimpse and survive the spiritual Love of Objective Knowledge. But, in order to do this, the individual must pass to a higher level of BEing and become a true individuality. Only those beings who have achieved the level of Individuality, who obey the imperatives of the Divine within, the real “I” , have the possibility of holding this frequency and radiating it at the Time of Transition.
The “Elect” , the Children of Elias as Fulcanelli terms them, are human beings who have crossed the Second Threshold and who have achieved the Second Birth. They will be “gathered from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other, to pass through the Transition and form the seed of humanity in the New World.” This means that they will be humans of all colors and types – the only criteria being that they have crossed the Second Threshold. Each of them will be Fully Conscious through a direct and indissoluble union of the Personality with his Higher Emotional/Intellectual Center. This direct contact of the new humanity with the higher planes explains why the Second Coming will not require a “new incarnation of Christ. This is why we were warned: “If any man shall say unto you, Lo, here is Christ or there; believe it not. For there shall arise false Christs and false prophets and shall show great prodigies and miracles; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall seduce the very elect.”
The path that must be followed is that which is exemplified in the Quest for the Holy Grail. Human beings must travel from the residue of Celestial Love that we experience in our ordinary lives, to the Love of the Spirit. This is the general requirement for “Salvation”.
This path is the way to the Second Birth. But to be reborn, a human being must pass the test of True Love. Only he who has mastered his personality and burns with this True Love can cross the Second Threshold. And before he can even reach this point, the Seeker, will pass through intermediate stages. These stages include challenges that test Sincerity and Strength. These challenges cannot be met without discernment, and discernment can only be acquired by first attaining Knowledge.
Knowledge acquired through study and work is only a temporary – but essential – stage. Only Higher Love can reveal the Divine Nature. But if there is no vessel built by Knowledge to receive Gnosis, there is no possibility of anchoring the Forerunner Spirit – creating the magnetic center – which will open the gates to the Holy Spirit. The Gatekeeper is Knowledge.
But for this to occur, the sign of Knowledge, that is, the Sign of St. Matthew-Science as Fulcanelli describes it, must be correctly oriented. And this means that the Seeker must be liberated from lying [to oneself and others] and believing in lies. Without this, there is no possible access to the Era of the Holy Spirit. No matter how well-meaning the individual, if they are following practices or teachings that are based on lies, they will not achieve the Grail. And so, we see why knowledge and discernment is essential. Again, I refer the reader to the section of this book that discusses neurochemistry.
Access to knowledge requires courage, as it demands a special psychological effort from the Seeker: he has to accept the postulate that, “the truth is out there”, but it is very difficult to find , while at the same time disregarding his own ideas and personal beliefs to which he is emotionally attached.
With the approach of the era of the Holy Spirit, everything must be gradually brought to the light of day, not only the secrets of the laboratory, but the deepest meaning of esotericism. The same must happen with illusions, errors and lies, which must be revealed so that they can be rectified. This process, including the Revelation of the deepest esoteric Knowledge that has been promised and prophesied, will fully reveal the many deviations of man’s fundamentally inquiring spirit. Initiation, in the esoteric meaning of the word, is not simply a “ceremony . In fact, the “initiation ceremony does not occur on the human plane with human rituals. True initiation occurs on the super-sensory plane. It confirms the Initiate in a new dignity earned by his Work, and carries him towards the Divine Grace.
To solve the problem of anchoring the Three Currents of Objective Love, we must concentrate on a positive and practical solution to the problems of individual human beings. A practical application of esoteric knowledge should help those who are Seekers and who burn with the desire to reach the Second Birth.
The Seeker of the Holy Grail, burning for Truth, just as depicted in the stories, must first assimilate all he can learn exoterically and mesoterically. And he must then be ready to serve the Cause joyfully. To Burn and to Serve is the motto of the new Knight.”
– Laura Knight-Jadczyk, The Secret History of the World
By Bernhard Guenther, April 22nd, 2012
A topic that has been coming up recently in a conversation with some friends is the idea of “Wanderers” in relation to esoteric work, the awakening process and the Time of Transition we are in. It is something that has been on my mind for a while and wanted to explore a bit deeper, also reflecting on my own life.
I first came across this subject when I read the Ra material in the 90’s as well as Barbara Marciniak’s “Bringers of the Dawn“. According to Ra, Wanderers are individuals whose souls have incarnated from a higher density (4th or 6th density) into this 3rd density with a specific mission to accomplish in order to assist humanity, helping with the “graduation” to 4th Density during this Age of Transformation. However, due to the “veil of forgetting” when entering a lower density, the mission/task by the Wanderer is forgotten and he/she needs to awaken to what they came here to do. Ra tells us:
Questioner: You spoke of Wanderers. Who are Wanderers? Where do they come from?
Ra: Imagine, if you will, the sands of your shores. As countless as the grains of sand are the sources of intelligent infinity. When a social memory complex has achieved its complete understanding of its desire, it may conclude that its desire is service to others with the distortion towards reaching their hand, figuratively, to any entities who call for aid. These entities whom you may call the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow move toward this calling of sorrow. These entities are from all reaches of the infinite creation and are bound together by the desire to serve in this distortion. Entities are from all reaches of infinite creation, bound together by desire to serve in Earth’s 3D.
Questioner: How many of them are incarnate on Earth now?
Ra: The number is approximate due to an heavy influx of those birthed at this time due to an intensive need to lighten the planetary vibration and thus aid in harvest. The number approaches sixty-five million.
Questioner: Are most of these from the fourth density? Or what density do they come from?
Ra: Few there are of fourth density. The largest number of Wanderers, as you call them, are of the sixth density. The desire to serve must be distorted towards a great deal of purity of mind and what you may call foolhardiness or bravery, depending upon your distortion complex judgment. The challenge/danger of the Wanderer is that it will forget its mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the maelstrom of which it had incarnated to avert the destruction….
It was the aim of Wanderers to serve the entities of this planet in whatever way was requested. and it was also the aim of Wanderers that their vibratory patterns might lighten the planetary vibration as a whole, thus ameliorating the effects of planetary disharmony and palliating any results of this disharmony. Specific intentions such as aiding in a situation not yet manifest are not the aim of Wanderers. Light and love go where they are sought and needed, and their direction is not planned aforetimes.”
“In addition to those lessons which are learned in a manner native to those who work through the third density for the first time, those who are what you call Wanderers bring a certain task and a certain responsibility, which may be viewed as operating so as to put into an unique light, a particular slant or bias, those precise lessons which within third density all must learn. And so in a sense, the task is compounded proportionate to the unique gifts which have been brought from other densities, so that they may be laid down in service to the souls which seek, so hungrily, to reach beyond the limits which are those of third density, a density of choice.”
The Pleiadians in Barabra Marciniak’s “Bringers of the Dawn” refer to the same concept of Wanderers as “Renegades”, “System Busters” and “Family of Light”:
“You represent the renegade group of light, and you have agreed to come back on the planet. You are on assignment. You come into these physical bodies and take them over, and you intend, through the power of your spiritual identity, to change the physical body. You all selected with great care the genetic lines that would best give you head starts with all of this. Each of you chose a genetic history through which members of the Family of Light have threaded….
As members of the Family of Light, you have incarnated on this planet to prepare yourselves to do your work. What is your work? Your work is quite simple: you carry frequency into systems that have limited light frequency, because light is information. This is not cold, computer-data information; it is information that is transmitted biologically through an electromagnetic send-out of consciousness. This is what you are experts in. If you were to have a business card printed up for yourselves when you are in full memory of your identity, it would say something like: “Renegade Member of Family of Light. Systems Buster. Available for altering systems of consciousness within the free-will universe. On call.“….
You go for it! This is what you do. This is an aspect of your identity that you all have in common, and you are here in the millions at this time. You are here primarily to remember who you are, to operate multi- dimensionally within the system, and to teach humans-the natives in this place that have been under frequency control for a long time….
The task for you members of the Family of Light who have desired to take this information inside of yourselves is to anchor a new frequency on the planet by anchoring it impeccably inside yourselves. This is not easy. It was not meant to be easy. You did not come here to have an easy assignment. You are renegades, and you have been renegades…
Before you came into the body, all of you committed to designing events that would fire your codings, or blueprints that would activate your memories. Then you came into the body and you forgot. All of you have had your blueprints and codings fired to some extent because you understand that there is a divine purpose or Divine Plan that you are a part of…
Part of the friction you feel with others is that you are on this path of evolution and bursting forth. Others don’t like this because they are not coded at this time to respond the way you are. Some people are not coded at all for this…
As members of the Family of Light, you are renegades. You are systems busters, here to conquer your own fears and to show the rest of the planet that there is no reason to fear anything. You love to go in and cause trouble. You are famous, your branch of the Family of Light. You are famous for going into systems of reality and altering the frequency, thus bringing information. It is not your task as members of the Family of Light to proselytize. You simply go into systems and act as receptacles; you receive the creative cosmic rays into your bodies, the bodies that you occupy as humans. You are in disguise as humans, and you allow a process to take place…
You are coded, and as your memory begins to rise, you will respond to the plan with which you came here to participate to alter the frequencies. You will begin to hold, keep, and maintain a certain frequency and then to line it. Identity as frequency is the sum total of your physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies broadcast as electronic pulsations. As you live your frequency, you affect everyone, every place you go. That is what you are doing now. There are many who already understand their assignment, and there are those whose memories are just beginning to rise…
As members of the Family of Light, you have access to a tremendous amount of understanding that others do not have. You came in with it, you are being reminded of it, and you are now learning it and accepting it….Light is information, so the Family of Light is the family of information…
Believe us when we say that you, as members of the Family of Light, made a vast study of the historical manipulation that has been going on on this planet, just as anyone sent on assignment would be trained for a long period of time before they were sent out into the field. Each of you has been trained, and you have the knowledge inside you. Our part is to hit key chords and play your consciousness into activity so you can go ahead and make the tune or song or dance you are prepared for. Your knowledge is inside of you, and as you agree to discover it, it will awaken on deeper and deeper levels. You will become very self-sufficient, those of you who agree to this. You will also become incredibly knowledgeable, those of you who do not stop because you are frightened. Light is information; ignorance is darkness…
We speak to you as if you are not human because, to us, you are not. To us, you are members of the Family of Light, and we know your multidimensional selves. We speak to you about dealing with humans because it is your assignment to integrate with them, soothe them, and awaken a spark of light within them so that they are not all destroyed and so that this place can house a new species and a new realm of activity….
You have been hired and are on assignment from the future to catapult back into this cycle of existence to incarnate many times so that you can understand what has kept humans controlled. In this way, you can operate from the inside and change the system….
As each of you has been assigned to become informed and to bring about a frequency alteration on this planet, you must learn to become Keepers of Frequency. You must rise to a certain place of knowledge and consistently stay there. You must become in command of your body so that you can will it into stillness or into activity. You must be able to go inside yourself and heal what needs to be healed emotionally and physically. You must begin to part the jungle of self and find the clearing so that you can show others the way….”
The topic of Wanderers or higher dimensional-beings who haveincarnated for the purpose of assisting humanity is somewhat popular in the New Age movement. There are plenty of people these days who claim to be “Star Seeds”or “Light Workers” from planet this or that. However, some of them seem to use this identification to enhance their ego and self-importance, over-estimating their level of Being and Awareness, appearing “special” and “mysterious”, clouded in a very fluff talk of Love and Light. Especially nowadays, where it is hip to be “spiritual”, many self-proclaimed lightworkers dress accordingly and give themselves fancy spiritual names which are supposed to reflect their higher state of awareness, claiming to be awake. It’s easy to identify oneself with such an idea but does one’s life truly reflect that? Does one truly KNOW what it means to be a lightworker or Wanderer and the work it entails? Or is it just another label used for appearance’s sake and to make oneself feel better? There are many distortions and people tend to project their own filtered view into it. As with everything these days truth is mixed with lies.
Personally I don’t dismiss the idea of higher density souls coming back in time with a specific mission to fulfill. However, I also take it with a grain of salt at the same time. Reflecting on my life, I can see that I could fit the profile of a Wanderer and learning about it has given much clarity and understanding of myself and what I felt deep inside all along. However I don’t see myself as being special or better since I have to learn my lessons as everyone else in this 3D human experience.
Throughout my whole life I felt different and was very much a loner in high school, not being able to fit in, dealing with a high sensitive nature and a deep emotional life which was confusing to say the least. Obviously many children feel this way growing up in our pathological world and is by no means an indication that one is automatically a Wanderer. My parents did their best in raising me according to their knowledge. I didn’t have a bad childhood or was abused by any means. I just felt I wasn’t from here and even as a young kid in my pre-teens I used to look at the stars at night thinking and longing “Take me home…Why am I here?…Why am I so alone?”. However, I never truly made the connection that I was maybe a Wanderer, nor was I conscious of this idea. It was just natural for me for me to stare at the night sky asking these questions and it had a soothing affect on me.
Scott Mandelker who has published several books on the Ra material and Buddhism came up with a questionnaire (similar to determining personality types) which can help to find out if one is potentially a Wanderer. Obviously there is no true scientific way to prove one way or another. I think Mendelker’s quiz is over-simplified, short and vague and missing some important points which can also lead to misinterpretations. Deeper introspection and understanding of what being a Wanderer entails is certainly needed. I would not go by this questionnaire alone and proclaim “I’m a Wanderer” even if I can answer most questions with a yes. It’s easy to read into things and “bend the truth” in order to fit it for oneself. As Laura mentioned earlier, what is it you truly DO about it?
I started questioning the world as we know it more consciously when I went to the University of Munich studying business in 1991, a choice I made due to social pressure, being confused, not knowing myself and just doing what everyone else did: getting a degree, so I can have a secure job and make a living. I was depressed and felt just like I did in High School, doing things that I didn’t like to do but thought I had to do in order to “fit in”. I kept thinking there must be more to life than this! Well, as the saying goes, ask and you shall receive and I was asking sincerely from the depth of my being. The call was answered when a good friend I met around that time asked me to try out playing drums for his band. My life changed completely. Music has always been my ally in my life. Listening to it helped me to deal with my complex emotional life. But I was so conditioned and lost that I never thought to make music myself. I was in awe when I saw bands playing live and especially intrigued when watching the drummer. My low self-esteem didn’t even make that connection that I could be doing this myself since I thought I had to study and be a good student in order to get a degree in something more practical and secure to fit into society and also please my parents.
Playing drums connected me to something deeper within me and for the first time in my life I truly knew what I wanted to do. I was so infused with inspiration and sudden self-confidence that I dropped out of university, saved up money and moved to Los Angeles to study drums and percussion at the Musicians Institute. At that time I realized there must be even more to life and more to who I am, that there is purpose to my life, that there was something I’m here to do. A lot of things came up for me and it was not always a happy time. Dealing with depression, childhood programming, social conditioning and this seemingly never-ending feeling of loneliness, unable to connect with people on a deeper level, I started to look for answers, trying to figure myself out as I was going through the “dark night of the soul” with suicidal thoughts and even drug abuse (which didn’t last long, since it interfered with my passion for playing drums. Music literally saved my life).My search and asking fueled by intense internal suffering lead me to the works of Carl Gustav Jung, J. Krihshnamurti, Alan Watts, Joseph Campbell and other spiritual/psychology/philosophy literature as well as Astrology, which helped me in the process of seeking answers to deeper life questions and understanding myself better.
Another big shift in my life started when I first read “Bringers of the Dawn” (BOTD) by Barbara Marciniak in the late 90’s. No other book has had such a deep impact on me. It was almost like an instruction manual I’ve read before, awakening something within me that was always there. It was more a recognition than learning something new. It resonated with me deeply. Readers of my blogs know that I don’t take the idea of “resonating” lightly since I believe that there is such a thing as “false resonating”.
While there is validity to the idea of “resonating” with a certain teaching or source, it can easily be misapplied if the “reading instrument”, the Self, is not “tuned” correctly. Some fundamentalist Christians also “resonate” with the Bible in literal terms, believing the earth is only 5000 years old. “Feel good” messages are no proof of truth and can also be very emotional manipulative. Disinformation is always lies mixed with truth. Enough truth to use as a bait to get the seeker’s attention and then put him/her on a false lead so to speak, keeping him asleep while he believes to awaken. In order to find the true resonance one needs to separate the false self (with its assumptions, conditioning, expectations, wishful thinking, buffers, emotional hooks and ego desires) from the true self which is grounded in Knowledge, connected to the small voice inside that can always separate a lie from truth, using intuition and critical thinking alike, even if the truth is not very “pleasant” and challenging to one’s world view. In other words, honest self-work is needed in order to resonate with truth. Within and without.
Marciniak’s book started my quest for truth on a whole new level, confirming my feeling that there is something else happening on our planet besides what we have been taught and told by official culture. For many people the information in BOTD is too far out or laughable, however that also makes sense as I’ll explain later on. It was not only the idea of higher density souls coming “back in time” incarnating in human form (Renegades, Family of Light) with a mission profile to assist humanity during this time of transformation which I resonated with, but also the more disturbing topic of hyperdimensional control and that humans are not on top of the food chain, nor in control of themselves, but have been manipulated genetically and controlled by “Aliens” (hyperdimensional 4D STS forces).
Her work led me to the Ra material, as well as the Cassiopaean Experiment and the work of Laura Knight-Jadczyk who wrote in depth about the Theological Drama with hyperdimensional forces working through humanity, incorporating a vast array of esoteric teachings, channeled material (Ra, Marciniak’s Pleiadians) and research into ancient history, connecting the dots scientifically, esoterically, historically and mystically. Her personal story and discoveries are written about in “The Wave” and “The Secret History of the World”.
According to the Ra material and Cassiopaean transmissions humans have been of STO (Service to Others) orientation before the “Fall”. Both sources talk about the “Fall” from this state happening about 300,000 years ago when 4th density STS (Service to Self) entities (called the Orion group (Ra) or Lizzies/Reptilians (Cassiopaea, Pleiadians) ) “raided” this planet, took over control (from a hyperdimensional point of view as in frequency/consciousness control) and humans became STS (development of ego, false personality, worship of physicality, cut off from the higher centers). We’re now at the end of a big cycle where mind/body/spirit complexes (Ra) of 3rd density (humans) have the opportunity to “graduate” or “evolve” to 4th density STO orientation (The “harvest” according to Ra). However, this is a choice. According to both sources as well as various ancient esoteric teachings, conscious self-work and effort are required to move on to the next level so to speak, activating the higher centers by gaining knowledge, engaging in sincere self-work and being of service.
Planet earth as it is now is of STS orientation. We all are STS and cannot be otherwise, however one can become a STO candidate and polarize oneself to that vibration/frequency through esoteric work. 4th density STS entities try their best to manipulate our “free will” through frequency and genetic control which has been going on since “the fall”, keeping us in a lower form of consciousness as they feed off those lower vibrations. It’s simply food for them and sustains/nourishes them, like plant and animals (2nd density) serve us for food. 3rd density feeds off 2nd density and 4th density feeds off 3rd density. Humans are not at the end of the food chain. As above, so below. The UFO phenomenon relates to this and is for the most part a manifestation of the hyperdimensional matrix control system as examined in more depth in the documentary “UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact” I made with Humberto Braga.
Now is a window of opportunity to break free from this control and evolve to a higher level of existence. Not everyone will “graduate”. It’s everyone’s own choice/calling and doesn’t depend on anything or anyone “out there”. No one can do it for another, but one must do the self-work in order to activate the higher centers, raising one’s level of Being and Awareness above a certain minimum. This is also not something that happens over night or on a specific date (like the much popularized end of the Mayan Calendar 12/21/2012) but is related to the shift of ages spanning over a many years and we are already in the midst of it.
There is a choice to be made very shortly, and it would be preferable if all of the people of this planet understand the choice that is to be made. It will be difficult for many of the people of this planet to understand what this choice is, because it is a choice that they have not considered. They have been much too involved in their daily activities and their confusion and their desires of a very trivial nature to be concerned with an understanding of the choice that they are very shortly to make. Whether they wish to or not, whether they understand it or not, regardless of any influence, each and every one of the people who dwell upon planet Earth will shortly make a choice. There will be no middle area. There will be those who choose to follow the path of love and light (knowledge) and those who choose otherwise.
This choice will not be made by saying, “I choose the path of love and light,”or “l do not choose it.” The verbal choice will mean nothing. This choice will be measured by the individual’s demonstration of his choice. This choice is measured by what we term the vibratory rate of the individual. It is necessary, if an individual is to join those who make the choice of love and understanding, for his rate of vibration to be above a certain minimal level.
At the time at which each of you incarnated, my friends, each of you was aware that certain lessons, hitherto unlearned, were to be the goals for achievement in this incarnation. If it seems to you that your entire incarnation within this illusion has been a series of difficulties of one particular type, then you are almost certainly aware in some manner of one of your lessons. As you can see, these lessons are not to be avoided. They are to be learned.
Going back to the topic of Wanderers and renegades who have incarnated in this time and age with a specific mission relating to the shift we’re in, there is also this insightful writing by Marshall Vian Summers about the deeper meaning of purpose, our “ancient home” and how it is intrinsically connected to gaining Knowledge. Purpose is not a definition or an end in itself, but a journey to be discovered as we work on ourselves and separate truth from lies within and without. This process is different for each as everyone has different lessons to learn and talents to develop.
PURPOSE IS SOMETHING YOU WILL UNDERSTAND as you climb higher on the mountain of life. As you gain a greater vantage point, you will understand more of the journey itself, by looking behind and by being increasingly able to anticipate what is up ahead. Purpose is realized by taking the journey, not by establishing a favorable or fascinating explanation or a definition for oneself. Purpose is not a justification. It does not compensate for anything. Purpose is something that is waiting for you to discover. You can only discover it by taking the journey, by following the way, by learning as you go and by gaining the greater perspective and understanding that one acquires as one matures in The Way of Knowledge.
As we have said before, you have come from someplace and you will return to that place. You have come bearing gifts for the world. Your greater purpose is embodied in this idea. Because of your origin and your destiny, you have something greater to give to the world, something that the world cannot give to you. Your gift is hidden within you like a secret cargo, but you cannot gain access to it until you have advanced. Then it will begin to emerge, slowly and incrementally, all on its own.
Your calling in life is very specific. It involves engaging with certain people for specific reasons at certain junctures of your life. The greater purpose that you share with everyone is to keep Knowledge alive in the world and to bring something from your Ancient Home into the world. This is a definition that you can abide with because it will not limit you and it will not deceive you, but go no further in your definitions. Allow the manifestation of your purpose to take place naturally, as it will if you follow in The Way of Knowledge. Your purpose now is to prepare to gain a greater understanding of the world, the world’s evolution and the world’s destiny. Within this larger context you will gain a new vantage point for understanding your role in the world and your reason for coming here.
Your life must be fulfilled. It must be justified. The world is a difficult place to come to. It is not a vacation spot. It is not a place where you are sent for punishment. It is not a place where you are sent for pleasure. It is a place that needs your gifts from your Ancient Home, and for this reason you have come. […]
Your purpose is not to escape the world. Your purpose is not to run home to your Creator. Your purpose is to give what you came here to give, to reunite with those whom you are intended to reunite with and to contribute all that you have brought with you—that secret cargo that you carry even at this moment. […]
You are here in the world for very specific reasons. They are not your personal reasons. You are here to contribute to and participate in a greater order of reality that exists within the world and beyond the world and even beyond the physical manifestation of life.
With greater awareness comes a greater ability. This all comes from Knowledge. Here you are asked to follow, to respond and to learn the great lessons in discernment, discretion, communication and affinity. These lessons are inherent in the preparation itself. From the first step to the last, you will be learning these things, and life will be your laboratory.
As you come to realize that your purpose is not for you alone, then you will realize that you must not allow yourself to become self-possessed or self-absorbed. Indeed, the great liberation is a liberation from this self-absorption which returns you to life with an open mind and with all of your faculties fully activated. […]
The ones who will succeed are the ones who focus on their preparation and allow the course of their life to unfold without determining its result and without determining what it will look like, how it will be and so forth. Here you must develop a great and growing faith in yourself, in the beneficence of those people who assist you, in the Unseen Ones who guide you and help you and in the power and presence of Knowledge within you. […]
Purpose is a process; it is not a definition. It is not a validation. It is not a form of self- comfort. It is something that awaits you. It is a great journey. It is a door that is open to you now, a door that you can pass through. It is a journey where you do not lead yourself alone, but instead become a part of the greater education that exists throughout the universe. The Creator is at work everywhere, reclaiming the separated through Knowledge. This is the Creator’s purpose. Your purpose is to give what you are designed to give, according to your nature and your true abilities. In this, your life becomes fulfilled because everything you have done can now serve a greater purpose.
This journey requires phenomenal self-honesty. Humility, honesty, openness, discernment, restraint, discretion, tolerance and compassion—these are qualities that result from preparation and advancement in The Way of Knowledge. These things are what provide inspiration and true ability in life. […]
Your purpose is the same as everyone else’s. However, your calling is specific. It is a specific set of tasks with specific people and in specific relationships for certain purposes. That is a calling. But for a calling to be genuine, to be real and to really bear fruit in life, it must be fundamentally based within the greater purpose that you share with everyone. […]
It is not wandering around blindly, speculating and having big ideas. Instead, it is engaging in a process of development that has been provided for you by your Creator and by your Spiritual Family to initiate you in this life into the greater calling and purpose for which you have come. Only through this discovery will your life be fully justified and fully realized. Here you will enter a greater range of relationship and understanding which will make you a person of incredible value in the world.
The world is a hungry and lonely place. It is full of fantasy and folly. Its suffering is profound. Its confusion is deep. Its violence is sickening. Its possibilities are great. Who can see these things but those who realize that they have come from beyond the world to give something? They realize this because it is something they can feel. It is not an emotion; it is something they feel. They feel that they have come here for a reason. It is something that they cannot yet define, but they cannot make it go away either. Something greater is calling them. This is purpose. […]
Their awareness of the mystery of life will grow more and more profound, and their ability in life—in their relationships, in their career, in all their activities—will deepen. This is purpose. At some point, they will give themselves to something that involves other people in service to the world in one capacity or another according to their nature and their design. It will be natural for them to give themselves in this way, as it would be unnatural for them to decline it. This is purpose.
As we describe this process of preparation in a very general way, do not think that you are near the end. Do not claim that you are anywhere in the process, for how can you tell? You cannot pull yourself out of life and examine your life. You do not have that vantage point yet. Accept that the journey is great. It is marvelous. It is at times difficult. But in all ways it refines you. It washes away that which is nonessential in you and reveals that which is permanent and meaningful. Your real purpose and calling become apparent when all that hides and conceals them has fallen away, and what is left is what is real, and that becomes welcomed and embraced. […]
This is the time that you are here, and this is the condition of the world and the evolution of the world at this time. Though your specific calling may seem to have little to do with the Greater Community, you are serving the world in its emergence into the Greater Community. You are fostering goodness, Wisdom and the reality of Knowledge in the world through your own demonstration. This is your purpose.
Let’s summarize what we can see so far from these quoted sources.
Wandereres/Renegades are souls from a higher density (4th or 6th) that have incarnated in a human body in order to be of assistance during this Time of Transition. They are “system busters” challenging the status quo who don’t fit in with most of humanity. Due to entering the lower density of physical life they have forgotten that it was their conscious choice to do so in order to perform certain tasks according to a mission profile. Their memory from the “ancient home” is buried deep within them which needs to be awakened. This purpose is an ongoing discovery that depends on conscious self-development and gaining Knowledge. Love is Light is Knowledge. Ra says that the reason for this “forgetting” is also rooted in respecting the free will of 3D entities:
“Free will of 3D entities needs to be preserved. Thus Wanderers volunteer for 3D genetic or DNA connections to mind/body/spirit complex. Forgetting process can be penetrated to extent of Wanderer remembering what it is and why it is upon the planet. However, it would be an infringement if Wanderers penetrated forgetting so far as to activate more dense bodies and thus be able to live in a god-like manner. This would not be proper for those who have chosen to serve.”
The Ps (Pleiadians) tell us that wanderers/renegades are “committed to designing events that would fire [their] codings, or blueprints that would activate their memories.” In other words, the friction and struggle many people (who could be Wanderers) perceive can be used as catalysts to help them awaken and remember what they came here to do. The lessons are not to be avoided, but are to be learned. The obstacle that is in the way of a Wanderer to awaken is that he/she becomes karmically involved and conditioned/programmed through upbringing and society, steering him/her off the path. In order to activate the higher centers, connecting them to their higher selves and giving them access to their “blueprints”, sincere self work is necessary to cut through the lies and conditioning of the false personality, which everyone has to one degree or another.
This shows us that despite their hidden higher knowledge and awareness that Wanderers bring with them, they need to deal with the challenges of life like everyone else on the planet. It is of no use to proclaim proudly that one is a Wanderer without realizing and engaging in the work that is necessary to truly walk the talk. The verbal choice will mean nothing. This choice will be measured by the individual’s demonstration of his choice. However, due to being “foreign” to 3rd density, Wanderers do have more problems adjusting to the planetary vibration of physicality than humans whose home is 3D. Ra tells us:
“Due to the extreme variance between the vibratory distortions of third density and those of the more dense densities, if you will, Wanderers have as a general rule some form of handicap, difficulty, or feeling of alienation which is severe. The most common of these difficulties are alienation, the reaction against the planetary vibration by personality disorders, as you would call them, and body complex ailments indicating difficulty in adjustment to the planetary vibrations such as allergies, as you would call them”.
“Possibility of such problems due to 6D incarnating in 3D is rather large. Not necessarily a problem — it depends upon unique orientation of each m/b/s complex having this situation or placement of energies.”
“There are, in case of Wanderers, not only a congenital difficulty in dealing with 3D vibratory patterns but also a recollection, however dim, that these distortions are not necessary or usual in home vibration.”
Many people who resonate with being a Wanderer do so because of the most common of these difficulties, alienation, that is severe (and I can certainly relate to that), which is probably due to the difficulty of dealing with 3D vibratory patterns that are not necessary or usual in home vibration (6D).
These difficulties are crucial and can be approached in two ways for better or worse. One can use them as an excuse to not deal with 3D life because one feels “too spiritual” or “too good” to do so or claiming to have “transcended” anything that may require too much work to confront, be it within oneself or in the world. I have heard many times from people (Wanderers or not) that they are “too spiritual” for politics or speaking out against injustices in the world (and ultimately the 4D STS control system) because they have “transcended” it all and just want to live in the Light (misunderstanding that Light actually means Knowledge). But as Marianne Williamson said, addressing that at a talk at “Lightning in a Bottle”: “There is a difference between transcendence and denial“.
Others even use their “spiritual highness” as an excuse to not pay their bills, get a source of income or just managing ordinary daily affairs and reject anything that is part of life in our current 3D reality. They tend to manipulate, leech (and essentially feed) off others, which can keep them in 3D STS frequency with the potential of getting “stuck” there, not graduating (or not going back “home”) and having to repeat the 3rd density cycle.
“If Wanderer demonstrated through action a negative orientation towards others it would be caught into the planetary vibration and, when harvested, possibly repeat master cycle of 3D as a planetary entity”.
One needs to watch out that seeing oneself as a Wanderer doesn’t become an escape and is not used as a buffer/excuse, which will only be in the way of living up to one’s potential and purpose. Laura Knight-Jadczyk makes an important point in that regard:
“This is another area where there are some misunderstandings in the spiritual life. Many seekers believe that their inability to function in the real world is like a badge of merit — a proof of their great spirituality. Physical ailments, loss of function, inability to manage ordinary daily affairs, and so on and on are all excused because the person is so “spiritual” that they cannot be expected to be bothered with such things.
Well, that’s all fine and good but wouldn’t you think that a person who is supposed to have graduated to higher spiritual realms did so because they mastered the lower ones? And, if that is the case, what is so hard about remembering those lessons and activating them at a higher level of competence this time around? If you have graduated to sixth grade, surely you can ace all the tests of third grade?“
The healthier approach, which will actually help Wanderers to truly remember what they came here to do and act on it, is to confront these difficulties, learn the lessons and use the friction and shocks to create the fire within, transmuting lead into gold, building the magnetic center within, which connects them to their higher self, the real “I” and the hidden knowledge within them. This is where esoteric works come in. Wanderers actually have a better disposition to engage in this work but “this is not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding“ as Ra said (more on that later).
Instead of rejecting these experiences and lessons due to an unconscious feeling that this is not their natural habitat, Wanderers have actually all the “tools” and knowledge to deal with them, especially since they chose to incarnate due the “the call” and request. Hence, being “spiritual” and/or being a Wanderer implies taking absolute responsibility for one’s life regardless what the challenges and difficulties may be without blame, self-pity or self-importance. This also relates to the work of Carlos Castaneda and Don Juan’s teaching of the “warrior”:
“Only as a warrior can one withstand the path of knowledge. A warrior cannot complain or regret anything. His life is an endless challenge, and challenges cannot possibly be good or bad. Challenges are simple challenges.”
“What seems natural is to think that a warrior who can hold his own in the face of the unknown can certainly face petty tyrants with impunity. But that’s not necessarily so. What destroyed the superb warriors of ancient times was to rely on that assumption. Nothing can temper the spirit of a warrior as much as the challenge of dealing with impossible people in positions of power. Only under those conditions can warriors acquire the sobriety and serenity to withstand the pressure of the unknowable.”
So regardless of Wanderers being “higher evolved” or old souls, they’re on the same playing field as everyone else on 3D earth and must do the work to access their knowledge. The only “help” they have is that they may get triggered in some way and the right book appears at the right time for example or synchronicities and coincidences may lead them to the information or life situation they need to come across and experience in order to be awakened. But they need to do the work themselves with discernment, separating truth from lies within and without. The friction and limitations of 3rd density actually serve as a catalyst for faster learning, growth and polarization. What seems clear is that Wanderers didn’t just choose to be of assistance with their coded mission and potentially teach/heal but also to learn the lessons they need to learn for their own evolution and polarization.
“[The] Wanderer has potential of greatly accelerating density whence it comes in its progress in evolution. This is due to intensive life experiences and opportunities of 3D. Positively oriented Wanderers choose to hazard danger of forgetting to be of service to others by radiating love of others. If forgetting is penetrated, amount of catalyst in 3D will polarize Wanderer w/ much greater efficiency than shall be expected in higher, more harmonious densities.“
They may also be guided and awakened by higher density STO forces to be triggered through subconscious impulses but not to do the work FOR them. As the Ps said:
“All of you jumped at the chance to be here in such a challenging place at such a challenging time. You were certain you could do it. Also, you were told before you came here that there would be much assistance and that, at different junctures of your development, different entities would present themselves upon the planet in different capacities to trigger you, fire you up, and remind you-not to do it for you. We are one of those triggers, a catalyst. ….You yourself chose to be here. You are on assignment to bring memory forward and to bring the value of human existence back to the forefront of creation. You are needed…….”
Each of you has been trained, and you have the knowledge inside you. Our part is to hit key chords and play your consciousness into activity so you can go ahead and make the tune or song or dance you are prepared for. Your knowledge is inside of you, and as you agree to discover it, it will awaken on deeper and deeper levels. You will become very self-sufficient, those of you who agree to this. You will also become incredibly knowledgeable, those of you who do not stop because you are frightened. Light is information; ignorance is darkness…
Assistance comes to you in all avenues of life, yet others cannot do things for you because you designed life in such a way that the species must self-motivate and evolve in order to be empowered…
It is very important to observe how you deal with events. Different events are brought to you so that you can observe them. Learn to observe your behavior and to spend much more time alone even if sometimes it is difficult for you and you feel lonely. In the long run, you will thank us for directing you to have a more meaningful encounter with yourself…
Who’s going to bail you out when the going gets rough? Where is the rescue team? You are it. In order to have this transformation take place, you must use what you have to bring it about. There is incredible assistance from all kinds of realms; however, it all depends on you, not us. You are going to change the frequency simply by commitment, determination, and willpower…”
And from the Ra material:
“The methods used to awaken Wanderers are varied. The center of each approach is the entrance into the conscious and subconscious in such a way as to avoid causing fear and to maximize the potential for an understandable subjective experience that has meaning for the entity. Many such occur in sleep, others in the midst of many activities during the waking hours. The approach is flexible and does not necessarily include the “Close Encounter” syndrome.”
This is also where free will comes in. Wanderers incarnated because of the “request” and “answering the call”. Their mission is not to preach, impose or give without being asked. From an STO perspective one can only give when asked and many people choose not to wake up, they choose not to seek truth or do conscious self-work. They choose to stay asleep, dreaming to be awake. Many even choose to be STS on a soul level, just as many choose not to “graduate” to 4D. Free will needs to be respected, even if it is the free will to stay ignorant. Only STS violates free will through self-serving manipulation and non-asked interference. This also relates to the esoteric sayings “Being wise as serpents and gentle as doves“ and “Do not give what is holy to dogs, and do not throw your pearls before swine, or they will trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.“
Asking can come in different ways and it not necessarily verbal, however, not every asking is sincere, so knowledge, discernment and awareness are required to truly distinguish between STS and STO, especially within ourselves as we all have STS tendencies, mistaking them for STO (remember that STS is the default polarity for this current 3rd density we are ALL subjected to). Are we giving to another without expectation and to truly help the other person? What part in them are we supporting? Sometimes NOT giving is actually STO in order not to support the STS feeding dynamics. Are we being externally considerate? Or are we considering internally and are trying to make ourselves feel better by “being of service” or for the sake of image/appearance/status, inflating our self-importance? For example, if people donate money to various causes, what is their true underlying drive?
“How we admire you. We remember third density. It is the shortest of the densities, the density of choice. You are here to choose to serve the Creator by serving others or by serving the self and manipulating others. As you serve others, you may be asked to do outrageous things, to go beyond your limitations, to do what cannot be done yet which shall be done because it must. And in those situations we strongly advise that you release your personal personality and move to an impersonal portion of your deep self, that god-self of unmitigated and straightforward compassion. To determine what is pleasing as opposed to what is serving another entity is sometimes difficult, especially on the spur of the moment.“
People have to learn their own lessons even if we can see how much they’re lying to themselves and are in their own ways. Free will is essentially tied to learning the lessons and understanding that everyone has their own lessons but also that there are collective lessons for all of humanity to learn. From the Cassiopaea material:
Q: What creates this environment of limitation?
A: It is the grand illusion which is there for the purpose of learning.
Q: And who put the illusion into place?
A: The Creator who is also the Created. Which is also you and us and all. As we have told you, we are you and vice versa. And so is everything else.
Q: Is the key that it is all illusion?
A: Basically, yes. As we have told you before, if you will be patient just a moment, the universe is merely a school. And, a school is there for all to learn. That is why everything exists. There is no other reason. Now, if only you understood the true depth of that statement, you would begin to start to see, and experience for yourself, all the levels of density that it is possible to experience, all the dimensions that it is possible to experience, all awareness. When an individual understands that statement to its greatest possible depth, that individual becomes illumined. And, certainly you have heard of that. And, for one moment, which lasts for all eternity, that individual knows absolutely everything that there is to know.
As an STO candidate one cannot interfere with the learning process of another, but only assist with advice, mirrors and suggestions if it is asked for. One can also spread “seeds of awareness”, share information and show the “door” if appropriate but people will have to walk through it themselves. Each situation is different and specific. No one can do the work for another, nor can anyone “save” another. As Morpheus told Neo in “The Matrix”: “Unfortunately no one can be told what the matrix is, you have to see it for yourself.” .
“[The wanderer’s] desire is service to others with the distortion towards reaching their hand, figuratively, to any entities who call for aid….Specific intentions such as aiding in a situation not yet manifest are not the aim of Wanderers. Light and love go where they are sought and needed, and their direction is not planned aforetimes.”
“[Different attitude toward unharvestable Earth entities?] Not substantially. To those who wish to sleep we could only offer comforts designed for sleeping. Service is only possible to extent it is requested. We were ready to serve in whatever way we could. This still seems satisfactory as a means of dealing with others in 3D. To be each entity which one attempts to serve simplifies grasp of what service is necessary/possible””
“It is not your task as members of the Family of Light to proselytize. You simply go into systems and act as receptacles…. Assistance comes to you in all avenues of life, yet others cannot do things for you because you designed life in such a way that the species must self-motivate and evolve in order to be empowered…..Not everyone is going to make the shift. Not everyone is in the vibration that wants to work in harmony at this time.”
Laura Knight-Jadczyk writes:
“Ra tells us about “wanderers,” or higher dimensional-beings who have incarnated for the purpose of assisting humanity without violating free will. This “service to others” is described as a “dispassionate attempt to share information without concern for numbers or growth among others.” The attempt to make the information available is the service. There are no shortcuts to enlightenment. It cannot be taught. It cannot be achieved with rituals or formulas. The only thing that can be shared is information, stories of inspiration, love and mystery, and experiences that may spark another person to reach out and begin seeking on their own….
Ra warns that the challenge and danger of the wanderer is that he or she will forget the mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the maelstrom. The question here is, of course, how does one become karmically involved? Ra answers: By acting in a consciously unloving manner in action with other beings. As the readers have discovered, what is or is not “love” is a huge issue. And it is in this subject that the most intensive disinformation has been promulgated, or so it seems.“
All of this also relates to the topic of Organic Portals (OPs), the possibility that half of humanity does not have an individual soul and has no ability to access the higher centers, which would enable them to engage in esoteric work in order to graduate. There is nothing wrong with them, it is just part of the evolutionary process. However, one must be aware not to project one’s own soul potential into OPs who can serve as portals through which 4D STS forces can work through in order to keep souled individuals from advancing (esoterically speaking), just like agent Smith in “The Matrix” was able to insert himself into humans (programs) trying to keep Neo from awakening. The reader is encouraged to read “Organic Portals – Soulless Humans” to get a better understanding of that important topic.
Especially Wanderers need to be conscious and aware of the traps, deceptions and distractions in 3rd density which may interfere with their mission since most people are NOT like them, but have a different inner wiring so to speak. Ra mentions that “the Wanderer is less inclined to the deviousness of third density and therefore does not recognize as easily as a more negative individual would, the negative nature of thoughts or beings“.
“Ra tells us that wanderers are vulnerable because they become completely the creature of third density in mind and body, and are, by nature, less inclined to deviousness and manipulation. For this reason, they often do not recognize as easily the negative nature of other beings or thoughts before they become involved with them. Then, very often, because of this very lack of perception of negativity, they often persist in relationships that are negative because they repeatedly attribute to the other person their own benevolent motives and perceptions.
Additionally, there is just as much chance of negative hyperdimensional telepathic mind control influence being brought to bear on a wanderer as anyone else. The only difference occurs in what Ra calls the “spirit complex” which, if it wishes, has an armor of light which enables it to recognize more clearly that which is not appropriately desired. This is not more than a bias, and cannot be called an understanding. So, in other words, you just have an instinct about things that are not right. But then, with all our be-nice programming, we generally override the instinct and shove such signals under the rug, or search endlessly for reasons to excuse bad behavior…. Ra and the Cs both confirm that wanderers, however they are defined, are most definitely high-priority targets of the Matrix Controllers.”
– Laura Knight-Jadczyk
Wanderers are not only subject to hypedimensional manipulation in this Matrix Control System as everyone else, but are PRIMARY targets of the 4D STS forces (Orion STS according to Ra. The Lizzies/dark shirts according to the Ps) because their mission obviously interferes with the plans of the controllers of this world and they don’t want this to happen. They don’t want to loose their food source. Laura Knight-Jadczyk wrote about it in “Soul Hackers – The Hidden Hands Behind The New Age Movement” (The Wave Book 2), chapter “All There Is Is Lessons, or Wandering Around in Third Density Can Be Hazardous to Your Health.” Here’s an excerpt:
[…] The problem seems to be that of “waking up” [of the wanderer] to the nature of the mission and this presents special problems. Ra gives us several more clues:
“Wanderers become completely the creatures of third density in mind/body complex. There is just as much chance of [them being subjected to Orion STS mind programming attempts] as to a mind/body complex of [strictly third density]. The only difference occurs in the spirit complex which, if it wishes, has an armor of light, if you will, which enables it to recognize more clearly that which is not be desired by the mind/body/spirit complex. This is not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding.”
So we begin to understand that even the purest of the pure are subject to corruption and deception. They do seem to have a bit of help in separating the wheat from the chaff, but Ra describes it as “not more than a bias and cannot be called an understanding.”
The problem is, the “bias” often comes into direct conflict with the mind programming efforts of the Orion STS and a lot of suffering and torture can result. And there is also a special weakness of those who are configured to STO — since they don’t have meanness and deception in their own hearts, it can take almost forever for them to see it in others who are being used to keep them from awakening! Ra remarks on this as well:
“Furthermore, the Wanderer is less inclined to the deviousness of third density and therefore does not recognize as easily as a more negative individual would, the negative nature of thoughts or beings… [If the Wanderer is successfully co-opted by the Orion STS it would be] caught into the planetary vibration and, when harvested, possibly repeat again the master cycle of third density as a planetary entity.”
Ra also confirmed Don’s remark that those with missions, Wanderers, are “high priority targets” of the Orion STS faction. That’s a scary thought!
What it means is that if a person comes into incarnation from a higher density with a mission to serve, not only are they enveloped in the “veil of forgetting”, they become special targets for a bunch of Intergalactic rapists and murderers who are only restrained in their actions by some sort of vague Law of Free Will which still allows every imaginable trick and deception to be perpetrated on them so that they will engage in relationships, beliefs, actions or reactions designed to “bring them down a few densities,” so to speak!
And they only get a “bias” toward what is Truth, and not a clear understanding!
So with all of this information we are trying to put together about what is out there just waiting to trap and deceive us, how in the world are we supposed to have a clue as to what is going on? Just who are the Good Guys here?!
“[In terms of STO contacts from the higher densities] the infringement upon free will is greatly undesired. Therefore, those entities, which are Wanderers upon your plane of illusion, will be the only subjects for the thought projections that make up the so-called “Close Encounters” and meetings…”
Ra seems to be saying that only the “Wanderers” have any hope of being in contact with the higher level “Good Guys” because they are, ipso facto, already of STO configuration and therefore, contact is not an infringement upon their free will as it would be if the STO contact came to a third density being who has not yet graduated to the higher densities.
Of course, they all look alike here on the Big Blue Marble, and they are all mostly engaged in living relatively normal lives side by side with one another. And they do have to be “awakened”! Also, there is a special condition under which Wanderers may be contacted, it seems, that pretty much eliminates your “weekend seminar” in channeling. It seems that there is an almost mathematical law involved in being able to communicate with higher density beings:
The calling of a group of people whose square overcame the integrated resistance of those unwilling to search or learn…
If we just stop and think for a moment about the nature of most people on the planet who do not want to search or learn; they do not want to think or do the necessary work that prepares a “vessel” for the inflow of higher knowledge; they want to be “saved” with as little effort as possible, then you begin to understand the odds against contact with truly higher density STO beings. That is the operation of the Law of Free Will.
The majority of beings of third density are STS — they would not be in this density otherwise. By this choice, they have also chosen the illusions that are part of this “con job”. Yes, at a very deep level, it is a choice to experience in order to learn, but let’s not get ahead of ourselves here.
By the very fact that this is the choice of the majority, the few who might truly wish to perceive the truth are overruled by the mass choice according to the law of Free Will!
Even if the being is a fourth or sixth density “Wanderer”, by entering this density, they have chosen to “play by the rules” and cannot abridge them!
Thus, in order to penetrate this “veil of forgetting”, extreme effort is required in a mathematical ratio. A consistent “call” by a group, must go out. And the energy required to penetrate the veil must be built up over a period of time in order to meet this requirement. This principle is expressed in two of the purported sayings of Jesus: “Wherever two or more are gathered in my name…” and you must “ask and keep on asking, knock and keep on knocking, and it will be opened to you.”
So, just by thinking about this very simple Law of Free Will and its implications, we come to an understanding that the likelihood of the many “sources” of information that purport to have “serendipitously” contacted this or that channel who was just humming along one day and — ZAP! — along came Swami Whosits or Koot Hoot or Lord Sandyando or whoever, are very likely victims of the deception — possibly even Wanderers being “neutralized” by STS forces, or simply those who are “agents” of the STS forces, including those programmed a la Greenbaum.
Ra did give us a figure: 65 million Wanderers on the planet at the time he was speaking. That amounts to about one person out of every hundred on the planet. But how many of them survive the attacks? How many of them actually do, can, or will wake up? Particularly when we must expect them to be objects of special “attention” in terms of “attack”?
But, apparently all is not lost! Those Wanderers who have struggled and worked or survived the attack/lessons to the point that something inside them is ready can awaken via subtle “contacts” or inner urgings:
“The feeling of being awakened or activated is the goal of this type of contact… The methods used to awaken Wanderers are varied. The center of each approach is the entrance into the conscious and subconscious in such a way as to avoid causing fear and to maximize the potential for an understandable subjective experience that has meaning for the entity. Many such occur in sleep, others in the midst of many activities during the waking hours. The approach is flexible and does not necessarily include the “Close Encounter” syndrome.”
So we are given to understand that such “wake up” experiences can be varied. Considering the deceptions and manipulations of the Orion STS that have already been described, we also must consider that there will be many efforts to block, obfuscate, or mimic such awakenings. Again, only knowledge can give us the tools with which to discriminate. Again Ra brings up a special class of attack that can occur to those who are on a destined mission, as the Cassiopaeans call it:
“Wanderers do have “Close Encounters” with Orion STS, though it is rare. [Such] occurs either due to the Orion entities’ lack of perception of the depth of positivity to be encountered or due to the Orion entities’ desire to, shall we say, attempt to remove this positivity from this plane of existence. …A mistaken Orion STS contact with highly polarized positive entities can wreak havoc with Orion troops unless [they] are able to depolarize the entity mistakenly contacted.
This occurrence is almost unheard of. Therefore, the Orion group prefers to make physical contact only with the weaker-minded entity… The most typical approach of Orion entities is to choose what you might call the weaker minded entity that it might suggest a greater amount of Orion STS philosophy to be disseminated.”
So now we begin to understand the special traps set up for these Wanderers wherein human agents are used to manipulate and control them. If they cannot be corrupted directly, the strategy is to corrupt those around them — including family, friends, spouses and associates of all kinds. While I would never claim to be one of these “Wanderers”, even if the profile does fit (since I am not inclined to “true believership” in anything), there was a curious exchange with the Cassiopaeans at one session which included another individual who also fits this profile that gives some clues as to how this occurs:
May 3, 1997
Q: (L) Reading through the session of May 23, last year, when TK was also here, and the issue of his living in isolation from the rest of the world was addressed, you asked who had begged him to stay there even though he wanted to move to a place where he could have more contact with other people and more opportunities for growth and stimulation. The answer to this question was that it was his wife who insisted on remaining even though it was clear that he was unhappy in the environment. Then you made a remark about an EM [Electromagnetic] vector. The way I understood it is that you were saying that a person can be an EM vector. Is that possible?
A: Vector means focuser of direction.
Q: (L) So his wife is the one who controls the focus of his direction. But how? Could that mean that a human being can vector EM waves simply by their presence and that these EM waves are part of the control system that manipulates people? Can it be that such “agents” are used as EM vectors in the sense that they emanate a special frequency that literally affects the mind in terms of shutting down clarity, or even actually transmitting pre-coded thought loops?
Q: (L) I also noticed that several of us have been involved with persons and relationships that seem designed to confuse, defuse, and otherwise distort our learning, as well as drain our energy. Basically, keeping us so stressed that we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some significance to this observation?
A: That is elementary, my dear Knight! […]
Q: (L) Were the individuals in our lives selected for the extremely subtle nature of their abilities to evoke pity, or were we programmed to respond to pity so that we were blind to something that was obvious to other people?
A: Neither. You were selected to interact with those who would trigger a hypnotic response that would ultimately lead to a drain of energy.
Q: (T) Well, it is a fact, because my energy is sure drained. (L) What is the purpose of this draining of energy?
A: What do you think?
Q: (T) So you can’t concentrate or do anything. You can’t get anywhere with anything.
A: Or, at least not the important things.
Q: (T) Is that why my concentration is so low?
A: Yes. You are dealing with a no-win situation!! As you know.
Q: (T) So, if I don’t get out, I will just keep going down. Is it the area or the person?
A: Both. One is wrapped within the other. […]
Q: (L) Is it true that being in the presence of such people, that one is under the influence of an energy, an emanation from them physically, that befuddles the mind and makes it almost impossible to think one’s way out of the situation?
A: It is the draining of energy that befuddles the mind.
Q: (L) Where does this energy drain?
A: 4th density STS.
Q: (L) These people we are associated with drain our energy from us and fourth density STS harvests it from them?
A: “They” do nothing!!!! 4th density STS does it all through them! […]
Lesson number 1: Always expect attack.
Lesson number 2: Know the modes of same.
Lesson number 3: Know how to counteract same.
When you are under attack, expect the unexpected, if it is going to cause problems… But, if you expect it, you learn how to “head it off,” thus neutralizing it. This is called vigilance, which is rooted in knowledge. And, what does knowledge do?
Q: (L) Protects! I guess that a person just has to come to the full realization that virtually everything that happens on the planet — no exceptions — is a symbol of some interaction of STS vs. STO energy at higher levels.
A: Yes, and for most, that is not as of yet realized. It must be part of a natural learning process.
Q: (L) Well, I guess that all of us tend to keep one or another area sacrosanct and think that it is not subject to attack, or that we can use logic and third density thinking to explain it. Until a person realizes that attack can come through even one’s self, wives and husbands, children and parents, friends — virtually anybody — nobody is exempt.
A: The block is a lack of faith in the concept. Remember, when one has been indoctrinated by religion, culture and/or science, they are predisposed to view all things in the sense of the measurable physical reality exclusively. One must be cured of lack of faith in the reality of nonphysical attack.
One major thing we see from the above is that our associations can be crucial. Of course, if we are aware that anyone and everyone can be used as an “EM vector” to modulate our frequency or behavior or thinking, then we have some protection. But to be unaware of it, to be in close association with those who are unaware themselves, and therefore subject to this manipulation, is to be firmly “in the trap”.
But suppose one person in a relationship begins to “wake up”, and becomes aware (even if only vaguely), that all is not as it seems. They will have continual glimpses of the reality, mostly when not in the presence of the other individual. They may clearly see that something is not working, that it is not right, and may even make decisions to change it or to leave. But the instant the other person is physically present with their EM vectoring capabilities, the glimpses of truth are “damped” or even shut down and the waking person begins to feel schizophrenic or crazy in some way for having such conflicting and opposing thoughts. Add to this the social and religious enculturation to “turn the other cheek” or “suffer because it’s noble and holy,” and you have the recipe for cooking the Wanderer’s goose!
Another of the factors in the control system is the “self-destruct” program. Obviously the aliens have no problem abducting and killing and eating many people who are still lost in the initial choice for STS/third density. But there are the special cases of the Wanderers who, obviously, the STS invaders don’t want to tangle with at that level, as described above by Ra, so they have a rather clever way around this little stumbling block to their machinations: the suicide game.
This is a very cunning setup, I can tell you! It can follow a variety of lines in the lives of different people, and it seems that the STS Orions take some sort of fiendish delight in designing variations for their entertainment pleasure, but the gist of it is this: a Wanderer is born. Obviously they have to be born somewhere, to some family, with certain genetics. It is also equally obvious that the choices probably don’t include having Wanderers for parents or siblings, (though there are exceptions). There they are, innocent little babies, volunteers for a great mission, surrounded by potential EM vectors and Lizzie agents! And the game begins!
Abuse — physical, sexual, and psychological — comes into play to “set them up” for a later fall — if in fact they are not just simply killed by same right at the beginning. But the special characteristic of the Wanderer type is that they continue to “shine” with a sort of “inner purity” of the questing spirit even in the face of such treatment. As a result of this abuse, they can be attached by any number of “dead dudes” or elementals or even demonic-type entities that enter in through wounds in the psychological/psychic shield like cosmic bacteria.
The usual next stage in this drama is to cause the Wanderer to be attracted to a particular type of person who is a sort of “false image” of STO. This can be what researcher Eve Lorgen calls a Love Bite relationship where a great “cosmic love” is simulated, only to fall flat as soon as the EM vector is turned off. The intended result of this betrayal is to induce suicidal feelings or to set the Wanderer up for the next variation of the game.
What happens now is that the Wanderer is set up by the previous dramas to seek out marriage or love partners who are also abusive either overtly or covertly. And, of course, the Wanderer’s special characteristics of being unable to really understand negative thinking because it is not a part of their own make-up, prevents them from seeing exactly what is going on. They always seem to attribute the same high motives and ideals to others that are in themselves. They endlessly excuse abuse and hurt to themselves and others with the idea that if they just love the other long enough, hard enough, pure enough or stand by them through thick and thin, that the abuser will overcome their hurts/wounds which are the cause of their abusive behavior, and they will then be able to be whole, which, of course, the Wanderer believes to be a person similar to themselves!
Gee, sounds like the Way of the Monk, doesn’t it? Perhaps that “way” was created just to trap such positive individuals and to use them as energy food for STS.
Then there is the constant projection of the suicide program by the many EM vectors that the Wanderer finds in their environment. It takes careful observation to determine who these individuals may be, but it can be done! The natural feelings of being lost and alone and alienated from this environment are intensified and twisted so that the Wanderer begins to focus solely upon the idea of getting out from under this enormous psychic pressure. Spirit attachments can also be used in this respect, attacking the Wanderer from the “inside”, so to speak.
April 15, 1995
Q: (L) [You have mentioned attack.] Is this physical danger or just harassment danger?
A: Mind attack for purpose of self-destruction.
Q: (L) Is there anything that can be done to shield against this kind of attack?
A: Yes. Knowledge input on a continuous basis.
Q: (L) And what form should this knowledge take? Does this mean channeled information, books, videos, what?
A: All and other. Networking of information now, warning!!! All others will very soon experience great increase of same type of attack, two of you have had episodes in past from same source for similar reasons, but now your association puts you in different category!! Remember all channels and those of similar make-up are identified, tracked, and “dealt with”. Suicidal thoughts?
Q: (T) So, we have the knowledge and that’s all we need to do to prevent the attacks from being nasty?
A: You do not have all the awareness you need! Not by any means! Remember, all there is is lessons. Daily prayer helps.
Through it all, the Wanderer never whines or complains that others are “doing it to” them; they always tend, first of all, to seek in themselves the cause of the events or the treatment they receive. They react with the idea that somehow they are not giving enough or in the right way, though they are entirely naive about what “giving” really is because, as mentioned, they have been brainwashed by the erroneous ideals of the third density STS environment which are manipulations to induce service to an illusion.
With this enculturation, the most difficult thing that the Wanderer has to face and do is to learn to not give in some instances, because this not giving is actually a form of giving at the soul level. Ra exemplifies this in a curious series of comments:
For many of your centuries, both the [STO group] and the [STS group] busied themselves with each other upon planes above your own, shall we say, planes in time/space whereby machinations were conceived and the armor of light girded. Battles have been and are continuing to be fought upon these levels.
…Picture [your mind] in total unity with all other minds of your society. You are then single-minded and that which is a weak electrical charge in your physical illusion is now an enormously powerful machine whereby thoughts may be projected as things.
…In this endeavor the [STS group] charges or attacks the [STO group] armed with light. The result, a standoff, as you would call it, both energies being somewhat depleted by this and needing to regroup; the negative depleted through failure to manipulate, the positive depleted through failure to accept that which is given.
…[To explain “failure to accept that which is given”]: At the level of time/space which this takes place in the form of what you may call thought-war, the most accepting and loving energy would be to so love those who wished to manipulate that those entities were surrounded and engulfed, transformed by positive energies.
…This, however, being a battle of equals, the [STO group] is aware that it cannot, on equal footing, allow itself to be manipulated in order to remain purely positive, for then though pure it would not be of any consequence, having been placed by the so-called powers of darkness under the heel, as you may say. It is thus that those who deal with this thought war must be defensive rather than accepting in order to preserve their usefulness in service to others. Thusly, they cannot accept fully what the [STS group] wishes to give, that being enslavement.
…The only consequence which has been helpful is a balancing of the energies available to this planet so that these energies have less necessity to be balanced in this time/space, thus lessening the chances of planetary annihilation.
So we see here a guiding principle of balance. For those who believe that it is Love to “accept enslavement” — which is to respond to manipulation and thereby serve the STS faction, it becomes clear that to do so is to neutralize their effectiveness as an STO candidate because they are then no longer “purely positive”! By accepting the manipulations, they become part of the other side!
The bottom line here is this: if you are duped or sucked into the illusions of the machinations of STS, you are effectively “one of them”, no matter what your intentions, and you thus further contribute to the unbalanced energies. This neutralizes the true nature of Service to Others. […]
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We can see now that being a Wanderer is not a walk in the park, nor a “free ride” on this planetary experience. It doesn’t matter what knowledge they have brought with them. It takes tremendous work, vigilance and discernment to bring it forth and act on it, being aware of attacks from the “other team”. This entails much conscious struggle and suffering, especially at the beginning, as the Wanderer is activating his/her higher centers linking him/her to his/her higher self more consciously, so they start to remember and align themselves with their life’s purpose.
This purpose is not a definition and task one realizes over night. It’s a process and since the future is open with different potential outcomes, the tasks based on the wanderer’s inherent gifts will reveal themselves more specifically according to specific situations and the choices they make. Their direction is not planned aforetimes. This also depends on the Wanderer’s conscious self-work to learn the lessons he/she needs to learn in order to be truly of service. This implies not only remembering themselves but also gaining Knowledge on a continuous basis.
“Purpose is realized by taking the journey, not by establishing a favorable or fascinating explanation or a definition for oneself. Purpose is not a justification. It does not compensate for anything. Purpose is something that is waiting for you to discover. You can only discover it by taking the journey, by following the way, by learning as you go and by gaining the greater perspective and understanding that one acquires as one matures in The Way of Knowledge.
This journey requires phenomenal self-honesty. Humility, honesty, openness, discernment, restraint, discretion, tolerance and compassion— these are qualities that result from preparation and advancement in The Way of Knowledge. These things are what provide inspiration and true ability in life…..With greater awareness comes a greater ability. This all comes from Knowledge. Here you are asked to follow, to respond and to learn the great lessons in discernment, discretion, communication and affinity. These lessons are inherent in the preparation itself…..Accept that the journey is great. It is marvelous. It is at times difficult. But in all ways it refines you. It washes away that which is nonessential in you and reveals that which is permanent and meaningful. Your real purpose and calling become apparent when all that hides and conceals them has fallen away, and what is left is what is real, and that becomes welcomed and embraced.“
I can relate to this in my own life. As mentioned before, I came to the Los Angeles to study drums and percussion and play in bands. It was the beginning of my journey towards self-discovery. I was following my bliss, as Joseph Campbell would say. Back then I thought that was my purpose, what I really wanted to do. Nothing else mattered. I played drums 4-6 hours a day, rehearsed with my band and put my heart and soul into it. All I wanted to do was make music, tour and make a living as a musician. However, I was still suffering and struggling internally. A lot of things came up during that time for me which I was forced to look at, otherwise I would have not survived as my depression and despair put me on the edge of insanity.
At the same time new friends and and situations came into my life which introduced me to the healing arts, in particular yoga, qi gong, and bodywork as well as shamanism and medicine plants, which also helped me in my inner process. Interestingly I wasn’t seeking these things out fully conscious. It just happened in the flow of life as I was seeking answers and trying to heal and understand myself. Something else was guiding me. During that time I also discovered another talent: bodywork. My roommate back then, who was a yoga teacher and bodyworker, introduced me to it, worked on me and started to teach me some basic massage techniques. He became my mentor. Having had tremendous breakthroughs and healing moments physically and emotionally through receiving bodywork, I experienced first hand the healing power of it. I began to do bodywork on friends and seemed to have a healing touch for it based on the feedback I received. People came to me asking me to work on them on a regular basis, yet I didn’t think of doing it professionally back then. My focus was still on music and drumming.
I started to write during my time with my band Revolve in early 2000. We gave out writings at our shows to spread awareness, but eventually my drive to seek truth and knowledge overshadowed the musical aspect of my life and it seemed very natural when the band broke up. Writing helped me to learn and clarify the new information I was taking in. Many insights came along with it. I was inspired and wanted to share all this amazing hidden Knowledge about our reality and what was happening on our planet. Looking back I can see how this at times was not externally considerate and I was trying to give without being asked. I can also see how I was gullible and not discerning about some of the information I came across back then. I was drinking the New Age cool-aid at one point, driven by wishful thinking, emotional hooks and was not very discerning. However, it complicated my life even more. Thankfully the universe didn’t give me what I “wanted”, but what I “needed” at that time to snap me out it.
When my band Revolve broke up after inspiring years of musical creativity, recording and touring, I enrolled in Massage School to pursue bodywork, the new talent I had discovered. It seemed the universe literally pushed me to do it and I was answering the call. I have been working as a professional bodyworker ever since. It was a complete shift in my life path and it seemed that certain triggers lead me to it without my “conscious” choice. Looking back at my life, connecting the dots, I feel like what the late Apple founder Steve Jobs said. When discovering your bliss, sometimes you just gotta do things because you are drawn to them for reasons you canʼt fully understand in the moment and only in retrospect can you connect the dots in your life and see how it all works together. For example, I know now that without my years as a drummer, using music and drumming for healing and emotional exploration (even if I wasn’t fully aware of that back then), and without my suffering and crisis, I wouldn’t be the bodyworker and healer Iʼm today nor write about the things I’m writing now. However, I never “planned” to become a bodyworker or writer. I know now that I had to confront my dark side, programming and conditioning and heal myself, however painful it was, in order to become my real Self (and there is always more work to do). As Carl Jung said: “There is no coming to consciousness without pain.” It’s the mythological journey of Chiron, the Wounded Healer, who in his search for his own cure discovered how to heal others. The lesson of Chiron teaches us is that we can overcome pain and transcend into knowledge.
“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.”
– Steve Jobs
I also had many assisting forces, seen and unseen, spirit guides and non-physical STO forces that guided me along when I was able and willing to “listen”. There were many friends, mentors and teachers that came in and out of my life who helped me along the way, assisting me on my path or giving me just the right book to read. And of course, in light of the Knowledge I have now, I can also see how STS forces and the Matrix Control System have tried to steer me off my path (sometimes disguised as “angels”, “friends” or romantic relationships) working through people (and my own “predator-mind”) with temptations and distractions, getting at my weak spots. However, I felt very strongly throughout my life that I came here with a specific purpose that is beyond what I “think” I want to do at times and this purpose seems to crystallize itself and becomes clearer as I learn my lessons, “get myself out of the way” and remember more of who I truly am. There is still much more to learn and to remember.
“A hero is someone who has given his or her life to something bigger than oneself.”
– Joseph Campbell
My intent for sharing my personal story throughout this article is also for you to reflect back on your own life and see how you “got here”, so you can understand your past and your life choices better, when you have been truly acting in alignment with your higher self or self-sabotaging because of conditioned/programmed patterns and beliefs. That way we can understand our present better and create our future more consciously. What worked for me may not work for another. We all have our own story, individual lessons to learn, karma to work out and talents to develop.
“Each Wanderer has unique abilities, biases, specialties so that from each portion of each Density represented among Wanderers come array of pre-incarnative talents which may be expressed so that each Wanderer, in offering itself before incarnation, has some special service to offer in addition to the doubling effect of planetary love/light [vibrations adding to the planet just as electrical polarity or charging a battery] and basic function of serving as beacon or shepher….
The best way of service to others is the constant attempt to seek to share the love of the Creator as it is known to the inner self. This involves self knowledge and the ability to open the self to the other-self without hesitation. This involves, shall we say, radiating that which is the essence or the heart of the mind/body/ spirit complex…. The best way for each seeker in third density to be of service to others is unique to that mind/body/spirit complex. This means that the mind/body/ spirit complex must then seek within itself the intelligence of its own discernment as to the way it may best serve other-selves. This will be different for each.”
Let’s take the archetypal Hero’s Journey a bit deeper and look at the awakening process more closely, knowing now that there are other forces acting against us, trying to keep us from advancing esoterically. The initiatory process is the same in all true mystery teachings. It is not a sudden “enlightenment” where one feels One with everything. It is not a pleasant event at all, but is a decent into the underworld, fighting demons, coming to terms with the predator within and the lies one is telling oneself, dying and being reborn, crossing the threshold which enables one to engage in esoteric work consciously. Laura Knight Jadczyk writes in “The Wave” Volume 5&6 “Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown”:
“The moment of true initiation. It seems that, as the great masters teach us, it is not a moment of “great enlightenment.” It is not someone who comes to “show us reality.” It is not a “seeing all the world as a oneness.” It is seeing the self as a liar and a feeder on others. It is measuring the self with TRUTH. It is seeing that the predator has been feeding on the self, that the self has been feeding on others and propagating the infection on to all those who one claims to love and wish to help.
Initiation is not a glorious inpouring of life and love and tears for the beauty and oneness of the world.
It is sheer terror.
It is a descent into Hell. It is the Shamanic descent into the underworld to do battle with demons. It is the dismemberment of the body, the flaying of the flesh from the bones, and the subsequent rebuilding of the self on a different foundation – a foundation of spiritual verity.
And if I could convey to you that Hell, that sensation, that solitary test in which the soul is weighed, BY THE SELF, finally and completely and seen for what it has truly done, you would see how little truth there is because of all the beliefs of the Matrix that have been inculcated and promulgate and tended so carefully by our emotions and by the deceptions of the predator within who convinces us that we are “good” and “pure” and there is “oneness.”
Indeed, one sees that there is “oneness,” but one sees that the aspect of God that is experienced at this level is the black, sucking, feeding maw of STS (Service to Self). One sees how little true Love is actually manifested at this level of being. One sees that all of our illusions about “goodness” and truth and beauty are LIES. They are masks for more feeding. And that is so horrifying an initiation that few survive.
That is “paying everything.”
Now, re-read what Gurdjieff had to say about the matter; how he pointed out that a person has to “pay in advance,” that the key is to accept the idea that one is not what one thinks, that there is a different reality from which our own is projected, and that developing this idea in the realm of pure thought, and then using it as the platform by which one can observe and analyze, is the key to being able to see for a moment, and then again. One must be able to see the interactions of the Petty Tyrants in our lives, the Predators who prey on us in the Theological Reality. And then, one must be willing to act. It is only after action that the true nature of the Predator reveals itself just as the Vampire reacts with violence to being exposed by the presence of a mirror. Because, it must be kept always in mind that there ARE predators who are predators by choice – even if that choice is made at some level, in some part of themselves that is not available to even their own conscious awareness. They, too, are part of the Matrix, and they wouldn’t be able to play their roles if they were not consciously convinced that they are right, that they are “good,” that they are righteous and long-suffering.”
As I was diving deeper into Esoteric Science coming across Gurdjieff’s 4th Way Teachings as well as Boris Mouravieff’s “Gnosis”, it all seemed to confirm in many ways what I’ve encountered throughout my life in the process of awakening and in relation to my inner state and to outer circumstances, people and the world at large, from “moral bankruptcy”, the death of the “personality”, to struggle with forces trying to keep me from advancing/waking up, to seeing the light and forming the “magnetic center”. All of which is still a process and much work is still to be done. We are all works in progress in our own ways.
“The Way is the ensemble of practices which, carried out properly according to the principles of esoteric science, will allow man to evolve.”
– Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis I
As mentioned before, every once in a while a book or teaching presents itself, which acts like a “guide”, appearing sat just the right moment in time, helping and showing me that I’m “on track”, describing things I’ve been through and hinting at where it is all leading to and what one must do or not do in order to awaken.
What follows are some insights into Esoteric Science as transmitted by Boris Mouravieff in his trilogy “Gnosis”. Maybe some of you can recognize yourselves in these words as well. For some these writings may strike home, touching something deep within beyond the personality of the false “I”. For others it may sound very foreign and complex. This also relates to what Ra said about Wanderers having a disposition towards esoteric work or other souled individuals who have the seed that can sprout and grow, activating the higher centers. This work is not for everyone. As Mouravieff said in his introduction to “Gnosis”:
“Some people complain that the subject of the fundamentals of esotericism is not simple. Others have said that it leads to great clarity. This apparent contradiction is explained by the fact that esotericism is addressed to readers who are predisposed to esoteric culture by their nature, formation or personal experience.”
We also know that no steps can be skipped, the lessons need to be learned and that starting with the right foundation is imperative so one doesn’t over-estimate one’s level of Being at the start of the journey. I know out of personal experience that I was grasping certain esoteric ideas intellectually at first, but it wasn’t matched up with my Being and Understanding to truly apply the Knowledge I gained. In other words I didn’t embody it. It’s the fine balance between Knowledge, Being and Understanding A false foundation can also result if one gets hooked by a false teaching for example, mistaking lies for truth or having “sacred cows”, which are beliefs one is identified with, hence taking any challenge to ones beliefs as a personal attack (Identification with a nation/country is a good example for that). As the Cs said: “Gaining false Knowledge is more dangerous than gaining no Knowledge.” Gurdjieff makes this point in Ouspenky’s “In Search of the Miraculous”:
“In the history of humanity there are known many examples when entire civilizations have perished because knowledge outweighed being or being outweighed knowledge. “What are the results of the development of the line of knowledge without being, or the development of the line of being without knowledge?” someone asked during a talk upon this subject.
“The development of the line of knowledge without the line of being gives a weak yogi,” said G., “that is to say, a man who knows a great deal but can do nothing, a man who does not understand” (he emphasized these words) “what he knows, a man without appreciation, that is, a man for whom there is no difference between one kind of knowledge and another.
And the development of the line of being without knowledge gives a stupid saint, that is, a man who can do a great deal but who does not know what to do or with what object; and if he does anything he acts in obedience to his subjective feelings which may lead him greatly astray and cause him to commit grave mistakes, that is, actually to do the opposite of what he wants. In either case both the weak yogi and the stupid saint are brought to a standstill.
Neither the one nor the other can develop further.
In order to understand this and, in general, the nature of knowledge and the nature of being, as well as their interrelation, it is necessary to understand the relation of knowledge and being to ‘understanding.’
Knowledge is one thing, understanding is another thing.
People often confuse these concepts and do not clearly grasp what is the difference between them. Knowledge by itself does not give understanding. Nor is understanding increased by an increase of knowledge alone. Understanding depends upon the relation of knowledge to being. Understanding is the resultant of knowledge and being. And knowledge and being must not diverge too far, otherwise understanding will prove to be far removed from either. At the same time the relation of knowledge to being does not change with a mere growth of knowledge. It changes only when being grows simultaneously with knowledge. In other words, understanding grows only with the growth of being.
In ordinary thinking, people do not distinguish understanding from knowledge. They think that greater understanding depends on greater knowledge. Therefore they accumulate knowledge, or that which they call knowledge, but they do not know how to accumulate understanding and do not bother about it.”
“…..A man must first of all understand certain things. He has thousands of false ideas and false conceptions, chiefly about himself, and he must get rid of some of them before beginning to acquire anything new. Otherwise the new will be built on a wrong foundation and the result will be worse than before. To speak the truth is the most difficult thing in the world; one must study a great deal and for a long time in order to speak the truth. The wish alone is not enough. To speak the truth one must know what the truth is and what a lie is, and first of all in oneself. And this nobody wants to know.“
The path toward “Ascension”, to rise above this world (Being in this world but not of it), The Way of esoteric work is also told in stories in form of symbols. The clues are everywhere for the Initiated to see. It relates to seeing the unseen. There are ‘B’ influences, not of this world which are conscious in their origin and have been created consciously outside life by conscious people for a definite purpose. These influences are the “soul” of any culture and they are embodied in the form of religious systems and teachings, philosophical doctrines, art, etc., as opposed to ‘A’ influences ( such as race, nation, country, pop culture, family, profession, entertainment, current ideas, customs and so on) which relate to “The General Law” and “Law of Accident”, keeping man asleep at the mercy of the external world , lost in the wilderness of everyday life. Discernment between those two is vital for the wanderer, esoteric student and seeker, separating truth from lies.
A and B influences have been mixed throughout history. Many spiritual inclined people tend to mistake A for B influences. Much of the popular New Age material with its superficial and vague spirituality falls into that category. We can see millions of well intentioned people in our world wanting to change the world for “the better” through voting or pseudo new age spirituality a la “The Secret”, wanting to”create” a new reality. However, most of them don’t confront their interior but stay in the “wilderness” of ‘A’ influences, the lies that are the basis of the Illusion/Matrix. And so instead of breaking out of the prison, they re-enforce it through the distortion of their conditioned personality and wishful thinking, enhancing their false “I” instead of strengthening their essence. In many ways what we see in today’s popular spiritual concepts and self-help books is the opposite of what the ancient esoteric traditions have taught. People can be very successful within the matrix of A influences, make a lot of money, have a successful career, become famous, etc. but not have progressed esoterically/spiritually one bit. From Mouravieff’s Gnosis:
“If man spends his life without distinguishing between ‘A’ and ‘B’ influences, he will end it as he started, one could say mechanically, driven by the Law of Accident. However, according to the nature and the intensity of the resultant forces to which he is subjected, it can happen to him to make a brilliant career, in the meaning the world gives to this expression. Yet he will come to the end of his days without having either learned or understood anything of Reality.”
“Man can delude himself and, believing he is absorbing ‘B’ influences and making the necessary selection all the while, he in fact absorbs ‘A’ influences.This will put him into contact with people who possess magnetic centres of the same nature: who are themselves duped or who dupe others, and who have no direct or indirect link with the esoteric Centre. What guarantee can man have that he will not dupe himself and that he will not fall into the latter situation? The answer is simple. The purity of the magnetic centre must be scrupulously maintained from the start and all through his evolution.”
One can see now very clearly that much of the New Age and pop-spirituality is in actuality ‘A’ influences packaged in a ‘B’ wrapping. Truth mixed with lies, which can divert the seeker from his real “I” and true awakening. An example would be the whole abstract new age bits of “sending love and light into the world”, focusing just on “good” thoughts, visualizing the “light body” as a means of ascension, or just “being open”, avoiding anything “bad” or “negative”, ignoring the “unpleasant” and just focus on manifesting one’s desires, etc …
As long as one has not established the purity of the magnetic center through deep self-work and conscious suffering one just acts in STS, putting the false personality’s (ego’s) subjective will on to the world which only fuels entropy and feeding dynamics, strengthening the STS polarity while lying to oneself about one’s state of being and awareness.
In that sense much New Age material is just like fundamental Religion. It works on blind belief, wishful thinking, not Knowledge and Truth. And so many seekers are developing a false magnetic center, a false foundation, “who are themselves duped or who dupe others, and who have no direct or indirect link with the esoteric Centre.” That’s also how wanderers can be duped and being vectored away from the mission they came to accomplish.
Furthermore, the one’s promoting just to focus on “love and light” (without understanding the true meaning of these words) and ignoring the “bad/negative” the loudest are the ones most heavily duped, more duped than the average sleeping man, because the former actually thinks he has awakened and can “see” now…….little does he know that he’s going in circles vectored by ‘A’ influences and staying in the “wilderness”, dreaming to be awake.
On that note, there is nothing “wrong” with desires of the ego/personality and just creating reality based on unquestioned desires of the “I”, nothing “wrong” with shutting off anything “bad” and “unpleasant” and keep living in a subjective tunnel vision and wishful thinking based on Service to Self (STS). Enjoy! It’s a free will universe. Everyone can do as they want to, be it you, me, Bush, Obama or anyone else. However, what needs to be kept in mind is that this approach has nothing to do with conscious spiritual evolution or the “path of ascension”. It is the reason why the world and its people are on a course to self-destruction. It’s not a spiral upward but a spiral downward that grinds itself into an abyss. Humanity has evolved technologically, but not spiritually/consciously really at all and man is still mostly driven by his lower centers and mechanical personality.
“What strikes us from the very beginning is that man confuses moral progress with technical progress, so that the development of science continues in dangerous isolation. The brilliant progress that has come from technology has changed nothing essential in the human condition, and will change nothing, because it operates only in the field of everyday events. For this reason it touches the inner life of man only superficially.”
– Mouravieff, Gnosis
Life on Earth as we know it, this 3rd density experience is based on STS, Service to Self. STO, Service to Others, is something man can aspire to through conscious evolution. During this Time of Transformation the choice to be made is really between STO and STS and truly understanding what that means, differentiating between A and B influences, separating lies from truth, inside oneself and outside in the world. This is the age of awakening but also the age of deceit and deception, not only through the obvious political circus, but through corrupted spiritual teachings as well, be it dogmatic religion or New Age hype.
“The next is manipulation of spiritual values and tendencies.It is no accident that in the last four years that we’ve seen in new religious thought the religion of acquiescence and passivity: trusting in the process; whatever happens is what needs to happen; everyone is right where they need to be;… you don’t resist; you acquiesce; to resist is to be negative, is to be fearful, is to be unconscious. A great prescription for convincing the natives to give over the keys to the kingdom, a very good, clever form of manipulation.”
– M. V. Summers
It’s like taking the red or blue pill (as in the film “The Matrix”), truth or illusion, waking up or staying asleep. There is no “right” or “wrong” choice. There is only choice, as it is, respecting free will. However, most people do not even know that there is a choice to be made in this time of transition and are in the dark about what is happening on this planet, manipulated through hyperdimensional STS forces working through themselves, government, religion, official culture, corrupted new age teachings, channeled material, etc… .
Interestingly, one can also see how the mystery teachings were also describing a “Hyperdimensional Control System”, the “General Law” in esoteric terms, acting on man, keeping him in line with mechanical unconscious behavior to be “Food for the Moon”. In order to escape the Matrix/General Law man needs to align oneself with “The Law of Exception”, engaging in esoteric work with conscious effort. There is a threshold to be crossed, a void, which puts the seeker on The Way. The process and necessity of moral bankruptcy ,which initiates the seeker into “The Way” of esoteric work, is described in more detail in Boris Mouravieff’s “Gnosis”. This also relates to the idea of wanderers and their initiation/awakening process.
“This void, which can only be crossed at the cost of considerable effort or even of super-efforts, operates selectively. The character and the quantity of effort necessary differs for each person, depending upon the nature and degree of deformation of the mind of each exterior man; an individual factor…
Man was compared to a cell of organic life on Earth. Because he belongs to this organism, man is subject to the General Law, and it is only when he has escaped it that he is elevated to the Law of Exception. We are not aware of how much we are bound by the action of the General Law. Acting on us as it does on our cells, this law immobilizes us or constantly tends to bring us back to our place. Its strength leaves us little freedom of action outside the limits of its direction and scope. It acts in various ways. One can say that if man lives ‘like everyone else’, if he does not venture off the beaten track, he will never perceive the existence of this force, or rather this force will ignore him.“
We can see this very clearly in our world. Everyone who is just going along with the masses and the accepted reality of official culture has not much struggle in the world. Birth, school, choose a career, get a job, buy a TV, consume, reproduce, entertain, be nationalistic or religious, follow your desires and impulses unexamined, etc… Not knowing himself, but a slave to the outside world, fully asleep, dreaming to be awake under the control of the General Law/Matrix, the common man has no free will, although he thinks he does. However, whenever someone awakens, steps up and tries to “escape” the General Law/Matrix by speaking up and seeking truth, forces are put on to him to put him back in line, back to sleep. They will be ridiculed or even silenced (Gandhi, MLK, John Lennon and many other truth seekers most people haven’t even heard about), depending on their impact. Anything that is not a threat to the MCS (Matrix Control System) or General Law will be ignored or even promoted heavily, be it dogmatic religion, politics, entertainment or new age fluff which works in favor of the PTB (powers that be).
“But if his enterprises are out of the ordinary, no matter what field they are in, but especially in esotericism, this force begins to act, and stirs up all sorts of obstacles in order to bring him back to the point where — according to the General Law — he must reside. Even without knowing this force, we have an intuition of its existence and of the many forms which clothe it. The Holy Scripture s speak of it more than once, especially where esoteric work is concerned.
Thus, if this conservative force, which is the servant of the General Law, does not succeed in ‘calming’ man by acting directly upon him, it tries to reach him indirectly through the people of his household, either through the feelings they invoke or the coolness and contempt they openly show him. As long as it is not mastered, the force of illusion keeps each one of us in his place, obliging him most often to mistake the false for the true.
Submerged in unreality, instead of advancing, man marks time; one step forward and two steps backwards; two steps forward and one step backwards, and so on. We generally agree to recognize the existence of the danger of Illusion, but rather theoretically; most often, we see its action on those round about us, but not on ourselves. We continue to live day by day in the same old way, so that the power we know as the Devil still triumphs. Whatever name we give it, it remains ever-present.
We live in an artificial, illusory world. The power of illusion which chains us exerts its action individually on each one of us, as well as collectively. Each mind is falsified in a way peculiar to it. What can be the outcome of such a situation? If we keep quietly to our place, human careers open to us … just as long as we stay far away from t he void. We may have a happy or unhappy life; a family life; a life of loves; we may make discoveries, travel, write. Then comes the end. Our reasoning starts to become more realistic if our attention is concentrated on this end. Everything can happen to us in life; or nothing. Our aspirations can be fulfilled or unfulfilled, but there is a sure end, which is death.”
“The Threshold” to be crossed out of the wilderness which grants the access to the “The Way” and staircase to transcend the Matrix/General Law is described in esoteric parables:
Lost in a forest full of wild beasts, moved by confused but deep feelings, a bewildered man searches for the way. Exhausted after running the gauntlet of a thousand dangers, he emerges at the edge. Spread out before him is a view which fills him with admiration mixed with fear: a great castle of primitive beauty is on the other side of a large moat filled with clear and living water. Behind the castle a happy valley opens out, lit by the last rays of the sun. To the left, a dark reddish horizon warns of a coming storm. Marveling, and seized by a passionate desire to reach the castle, he forgets the dangers and fatigue to which he has been exposed.
– ‘How do I get there?’ He asks himself.
Suddenly he hears a Voice speaking to him from his inmost heart. ’The moat’, it says, ‘can only be crossed by swimming… the current is strong and the water icy.
‘ In spite of this, the man feels a surge of new strength mounting within him. Committed, he throws himself into the moat. The cold paralyses his breathing, but by an extreme effort of will he reaches the other side in a few strokes and jumps onto the first step of the stairs, where he gets a foothold. Three more immense granite steps tower above him. They lead to a large stage in the form of a semicircle, defended by two towers. Two closed doors give access to them. A roaring sound comes to his ears. The man turns. At the place where he stood only instants before, a pack of wolves paw at the ground. The day is coming to an end. In the dusk he can still distinguish the blazing eyes of the hungry beasts. Again he hears the Voice telling him:
– ‘All in all, the risk was not that great. If you had refused, you would have been torn to shreds by the wolves.’
Terrified by his escape from that danger, the man estimates the difficulties that will accompany his climb. He had hardly started to climb the second step when a deluge of rain falls, making the stones slippery and obstructing his movement — yet he ends by getting a foothold. The storm passes and the rain diminishes. His face and clothes drip heavily onto the stone.
– ‘Little does it matter,’ says the Voice, ‘you had already got wet crossing the moat’
The man regains his breath again and starts climbing. Night falls, and the crescent of the new moon appears pale and golden on his right, towards the setting sun.
– ‘A good sign,’ he hears within himself. The man smiles. Now he clings to a tiny ledge, reaching for the third step. He reaches it, hands and legs stained with blood. No sooner had he stood up than a gust of glacial wind almost throws him off again. Clinging to the ground, he climbs up to the wall forming the fourth step, and finds shelter there.
– ‘That is not all,’ says the Voice. Do not waste time taking shelter. The step can split, and then the earth will swallow you up.’
His resistance to the storm, instead of exhausting him, redoubles his strength. Now he climbs the fourth step with little difficulty, although it is as high as the preceding ones. Standing, he hears an alarm trumpet like thunder. Suddenly, a scorching wind strikes him in the face. He lifts his eyes. In the obscurity of the night, a shining figure stands to attention before him: It is the Guardian, clad in armor and shining helmet, arms outstretched, a blazing sword in his hand and pointed towards the man.
– ‘Who are you, pilgrim?’ he asks. ‘To what end and in whose name have you passed these obstacles and climbed the steps of paradise?’
Overcome by a surge of ineffable joy, the man repeats in a loud voice the words he has just heard in the depth of his heart. He feels as if they are now his, and answers the Guardian with courage.
– ‘I am the Soul in search of divine happiness; a particle aspiring to unite with the Creative Principle I’
– ‘Your answer is correct’, replies the Guardian.
The door to the tower on the right opens. The sword returns to its sheath. The Guardian takes the man by the hand and leads him across the threshold of the open door… Dawn gilds the eastern sky. Precursor of the Sun, the morning Star shines above the happy Valley.
Here is another one of these fragments, taken from classical literature: a passage from Turgenev:
I see a great building, one enormous mass. In the front wall is a narrow arch with open doors; behind them, dark mists. In front of the high threshold there is a young girl… a pretty Russian girl.
A breeze comes from the dark and icy mists, a current of freezing air, bringing with it from the depths of the building the sound of a slow and muffled voice.
– ‘You who aspire to cross this threshold, do you know what awaits you here?
– ‘I know,’ answers the young girl. – ‘Cold, hunger, hate, mockery, scorn, injustice, prison, illness and even death?’
– ‘I know it. ‘ - ‘Do you expect to be shunned by everyone? Do you expect to be totally alone?’
– ‘I am ready. I know it. I shall bear all the suffering and all the blows’. - ‘Even if they do not come from enemies, but from parents, from friends?’ – ‘Yes… even from those…’
– ‘Good. Do you accept the sacrifice?’ – ‘Yes’. - ‘An anonymous sacrifice? You will perish and nobody… but nobody will even know whose memory to honor?’
– ‘I have no use for recognition and pity. I have no use for a name.’ – ‘Are you ready for crime?’ The young girl bowed her head. – ‘Even for crime.’
The voice which was questioning her did not continue right away. At last it started again: — ‘Do you know that one day you will believe no more in what you believe in now, and come to think that you have been a dupe and that it was for nothing that you have lost your young life?’ — ‘That too I know. Well though I know it, I wish to enter.’ The young girl crossed the threshold.
A heavy curtain fell. Gritting his teeth, someone uttered behind her: – ‘A foolish girl!’
At which, from another place, a voice replied: – ‘A saint!’
Mouravieff explains the meaning of those parables:
“These two fragments, both of esoteric origin, give some idea of the access to the Way. The further our studies progress, the better we will decipher their meaning, as everything they say is significant. For now, we draw the attention of the reader particularly to the first clue, the most important for him: the way is a one-way street. Meaning that whoever begins to walk it is forbidden to turn back. This is not because of some kind of external imperative, but due to the fact that each step forward on the Way irrevocably modifies the content of whoever has started walking it. It follows that he will become more and more of a stranger to his surroundings; that he will lose more and more interest in exterior life, in which only yesterday he participated fully. The appearance of things, and especially of beings, undergoes a deep change in his eyes. He will one day be surprised to constate that certain faces which only yesterday he found very beautiful now reveal to him marks of bestiality behind their features: not all, but many of them!”
“The more man progresses on the Way, the more his feeling of being a stranger is intensified. Soon he will become boring: later still he will become unbearable, and finally, odious. That is why ‘the prophet is despised in his country, among his close relations and in his own house.‘ That indication is precise and leaves no room for doubt. He who wants to start esoteric studies is invited to think it over twice, and weigh it all, before he rushes to cross the moat-threshold. We repeat that it will not be possible for him to return to exterior life and to find his place, his pleasures and his satisfaction there as in the past. However, as well as the difficulties which are the first results of his evolution, such a man will receive comforting impressions, especially in his human relations. He will be surprised to perceive one day that certain faces which only yesterday appeared to him ordinary, today shine in his eyes with a bright beauty. It is because his sight, sharpened by esoteric work, has acquired the faculty of penetrating beyond the external crust. It is amongst these brighter beings that he will find his new friends. Their society will welcome him as one of their own. He will be understood among them, and their community of common aims and interests will be a stimulus and a help for all.“
Looking back at my life I can certainly relate to this and maybe others who are in the same process of seeking truth and starting esoteric self-work can see this in their lives and associations as well. Literally all the friends I thought I had showed dis-contempt toward the things I was getting into and was talking about, be it through ridicule or making fun of me or even attacking me for daring to question their beliefs.
As I was coming to terms with my own predator, programming and mechanical behaviors I saw it even more in others. I saw the feeding and the lies people were telling themselves. Not only that, but I realized that I have been feeding on others myself and they were feeding off me. It seemed something else was in control of humanity and working through us.
‘Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal. ‘…
In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver – stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now…. ”
Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as a buffer against their fear.”
– Don Juan Matus, The Active Side of Infinity (Carlos Castaneda)
“There are a thousand things which prevent a man from awakening, which keep him in the power of his dreams. In order to act consciously with the intention of awakening, it is necessary to know the nature of the forces which keep man in a state of sleep. First of all it must be realized that the sleep in which man exists is not normal but hypnotic sleep. Man is hypnotized and this hypnotic state is continually maintained and strengthened in him. One would think that there are forces for whom it is useful and profitable to keep man in a hypnotic state and prevent him from seeing the truth and understanding his position.”
– G. I. Gurdjieff
I was living a lie based on my false “I”, dreaming to be awake. I also realized that all the talk and notions about love and happiness were buffers and illusion people tell themselves for self-calming and had nothing to do with real love. I mistook many things for love myself. During my “dark night of the soul” and “moral bankruptcy” I had intense periods of deep despair and depression, sometimes not being able to get out of bed, but lying in fetal position and crying a lot. As I mentioned before I was even contemplating suicide a lot back then. It was emotionally and physically intense as if something within me was dying.
Later on as I gained more knowledge about the process I was going through esoterically and psychologically, I realized that my depression was actually a stepping stone towards becoming my true self.
Kazimierz Dabrowski is a Polish psychiatrist and psychologist who developed the Theory of Positive Disintegration (TPD). The Theory of Positive Disintegration is a novel approach to personality development and relates to “depression as a stepping stone”.
What is very interesting about this model is how it is similar in ways to certain esoteric teachings, such as Gurdjeff’s Fourth Way, Mouravieff’s Gnosis or Shamanism as transmitted through Don Juan Matus. It sees crisis such as depression or maladjustment to social norms as important stepping stones and potential for personality development.
Contrary to mainstream psychology, which tries to adjust the individual to society and its norms (sometimes through anti-depressants or any other mood-influencing pharmaceuticals), the Theory of Positive Disintegration sees it as a “good” sign if one is getting maladjusted to society, seeing it as potential for higher integration and values (non ego-centric). Certain generic New Age teachings also merely avoid the aspect of positive Disintegration through denial and a distorted understanding of negative emotions (such as just focus on the “positive”, avoid anything “negative”, meditate on “peace”, etc….).
The levels of development as defined by Dabrowski can be compared to the staircase of esoteric evolution and the moral bankruptcy man experiences when his old conditioned self conflicts with the emerging individuality.
Like Gurdjieff, Dabrowski saw the “average” man as mechanical robot-like beings (Level I) who simply exist on lower impulses as dictated by society and “official culture”, living in a reactionary state of external stimuli and influences. No true individuality can be formed on that level.
Certain people who experience so-called overexcitability (OE) (“Supersensitivities” in terms of Psychomotor, Sensual, Emotional, Intellectual, and Imaginational) have the potential to grow out of the lower levels and integrate their being into the higher ones. However, just as explained in the aforementioned esoteric teachings, Darbrowski also points out that this process requires conscious work and it doesn’t happen by itself. In other words, if one does not use the “shocks” to further one’s evolution and does “the work” to gain self-awareness, one will stay at the lower level where most of humanity exists, mechanically and reactionary, feeding one’s little “I’s” based on conditioning and programming. In light if what we’ve explored so far, one can see how OE (especially in children) could also be an indication that one may be a wanderer. I certainly can relate to Darbowski’s TPD and see how it applies to my upbringing and personality development.
Suffering, aloneness, self-doubt, sadness, inner conflict; these are our feelings that we have not learned to live with, that we have failed to appreciate, that we reject as destructive and completely negative, but in fact they are symptoms of an expanding consciousness. Dr. Kazimierz Dabrowski has spent 45 years piecing together the complete picture of the growth of the human psyche from primitive integration at birth; the person with potential for development will experience growth as a loosening of the stable psychic structure accompanied by symptoms of psychoneuroses. Reality becomes multileveled, the choices between higher and lower realms of behavior occupy our thought and mark us as human. Dabrowski called this process positive disintegration, he declares that psychoneurosis is not an illness and he insists that development does not come through psychotherapy but that psychotherapy is automatic when the person is conscious of his development...
Without intense and painful introspection and reflection, development is unlikely. Psychoneurotic symptoms should be embraced and transformed into anxieties about human problems of an ever higher order. If psychoneuroses continue to be classified as mental illness, then perhaps it is a sickness better than health.
To Dabrowski, real therapy is autopsychotherapy; it is the self being aware of the self through a long inner investigation; a mapping of the inner environment. There are no techniques to eliminate symptoms because the symptoms constitute the very psychic richness from which grow an increasing awareness of body, mind, humanity and cosmos. Dabrowski gives birth to that process if he can.
Initially, people who are acting on low impulses or who are simply robotically emulating society have little self conflict. Most conflicts are external. During development, the clash between one’s actual behavior and environment and one’s imagined ideals creates a great deal of internal conflict. This conflict literally motivates the individual to resolve the situation, ideally by inhibiting those aspects he or she considers lower and by accentuating those aspects he or she considers higher. At the highest levels, there is a new harmony of thought, emotion and action that eliminates internal conflict. The individual is behaving in accord with their own personality ideal and consciously derived value structure and therefore feels no internal conflict. Often a person’s external focus shifts to ‘making the world a better place.
“Without passing through very difficult experiences and even something like psychoneurosis and neurosis we cannot understand human beings and we cannot realize our multidimensional and multilevel development toward higher and higher levels.”
– K. Dabrowski.
It is part of a necessary process and even today there are times of depression (although not as intense anymore) as I keep working on myself and peel off the layers of my false “I”. The work never stops, it just becomes more refined and deeper. At the same time the moments of true love as a state of being and consciousness increase (not dependent on anything or anyone outside myself) as opposed to an chemical emotional experience. I feel more and more aligned with my real “I”, making the personality/ego a vessel/instrument for the higher self to work through and not letting the ego be in the driver’s seat. Just as noted in the quote above, there happens a shift at one point away from pre-occupation with oneself towards “making the world a better place.”, not acting on mechanical self-absorbed lower impulses but conscious actions based on the higher centers. This can also be related to a shift from STS towards STO activating the Wanderer’s mission profile to be of service and assistance. However, I still slip into the mechanicalness of my little “I’s” if I’m not watchful and make the effort to stay conscious.
Despite society’s view that there is something wrong with you if you are depressed and selling you anti-depressants, it is actually a GOOD thing. The soul and true self is screaming for attention. As J. Krishnamurti said: “It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” One shouldn’t avoid it or numb it with medication, drugs or “feel good” pop-psychology but go with it and trust that it is actually a natural process that can be used as a catalyst for growth and esoteric development.
Laura Knight-Jadczyk talks about this process in an exchange with the Cs:
Q: (L) My experience has been, over the past couple of years, that whenever there is a significant increase in knowledge, that it is sort of cyclical – I go through a depression before I can assimilate – and it is like an inner transformation from one level to another. Is there something we can do, and if so, is it desirable, to increase or facilitate this process in some way?
A: It is a natural process, let it be.
People support each others’ pathologies and neediness, mistaking that for love and their emotional and physical addictions for happiness. There are no conscious actions, just pre-recorded patterns playing themselves out. People are not in control of themselves, not realizing the prison they are in. I saw the “horror of the situation” and what Gurdjieff told Ouspensky in “In Search of the Miraculous”:
“‘What do you expect?” said G. “People are machines. Machines have to be blind and unconscious, they cannot be otherwise, and all their actions have to correspond to their nature. Everything happens. No one does anything. ‘Progress’ and ‘civilization,’ in the real meaning of these words, can appear only as the result of conscious efforts. They cannot appear as the result of unconscious mechanical actions. And what conscious effort can there be in machines? And if one machine is unconscious, then a hundred machines are unconscious, and so are a thousand machines, or a hundred thousand, or a million. And the unconscious activity of a million machines must necessarily result in destruction and extermination. It is precisely in unconscious involuntary manifestations that all evil lies. You do not yet understand and cannot imagine all the results of this evil. But the time will come when you will understand.…
…A considerable percentage of the people we meet on the street are people who are empty inside, that is, they are actually already dead. It is fortunate for us that we do not see and do not know it. If we knew what a number of people are actually dead and what a number of these dead people govern our lives, we should go mad with horror.”
These were trying times since I realized I had no authentic friends, because I hadn’t been authentic myself. I tried to wake up my friends and family, but this just created more conflict and attacks. I still hadn’t learned the basic lesson of esoteric work and what STO truly means: Don’t give without being asked and be externally considerate. Free will needs to be respected, even if it is people’s free will to stay ignorant and asleep. No one can be forced to wake up. However, as I started to wake up and engaged in the work, letting go of my associations and friends, new people and help came along, just as Mouravieff wrote, fellow seekers who saw what I saw and who were struggling with the same things. The importance of networking with like-minded and collinear people was imperative, because alone a man can do nothing. There were not many, but it is about quality over quantity. During that time I also spent much time alone, not engaging in relationships or drawn to exterior life at all. I didn’t enjoy the things I used to enjoy. Everything seemed so shallow, empty and fake. I knew I had to disengage from certain associations and be conscious about who and what I gave my energy to, so I didn’t slip back into the “wilderness” where the Matrix/General Law is trying to keep man to be food for our hyperdimensional overlords.
“When man goes in search of the Way, it generally signifies that something within him has collapsed. Apart from exceptional cases, this collapse is preceded by a re-assessment of moral values, which in the searcher’s eyes lose the value he had previously given to them.
“Interior collapse leads to certain consequences. Man starts to see things in a different light. Two diametrically opposed effects can result. If man is sufficiently strong and impartial, he will not lower his eyes before implacable reality. He will have the courage to face things directly, and to accept the constatations which are imposed on him, no matter how disagreeable they are. This signifies that he has firmly started on the track which leads to the path of Access to the Way.
On the other hand, if the man is weak, this experience will weaken him even more. The law is explicit: ‘To whosoever hath, to him shall be given. But whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken away even that which he hath.’ If man does not accept his situation and, in particular, his inner state as it appears to him, thanks to brief illuminations from the consciousness of the real ‘I’— if he is obstinate against all evidence, justifying his Personality by protecting himself behind logic, legitimacy and justice, he will then turn his back on the path of Access, and thrust himself further into the wilderness.
“Nobody can reach the path of Access to the Way, without first passing through an interior bankruptcy; a moral collapse.”
“Economy of energies too is a must, as the walk to and on the Way demands their total mobilization. Any unjustified expenditure can lead in the end to failure. We must always keep this in mind. In general, the reaction of those around towards someone who begins to search for the Way is negative. This negative attitude is the result of the action of the General Law, which, as we know, tends to keep man in his place. Not being able to do this directly by the action of Illusion, the General Law, when it loses its dominion over the man who ‘moves’, acts indirectly by the mediation of those around him.“
“It is a classic situation. From his side, after having passed through moral bankruptcy, he who seeks the Way becomes different from men who continue to live within the limits permitted by the General Law, and thus take mirages for reality. Due to this, he will feel himself more and more isolated. The centre of gravity of his interest will progressively turn to esoteric work, which will end by absorbing him completely. But it is entirely in his interest not to show the new attitude which he has taken towards exterior life. The ‘World’ will be hostile to him, because its own purposes are different; it is not in his interest to provoke this tendency, and even less to keep it alive. The day will come — if he remains in the same milieu — where, apart from rare exceptions he will be openly or secretly hated.”
“If we ponder this in depth, we shall understand that psychologically this hostile attitude of the ‘World’ towards someone who carries on esoteric work is not only a normal phenomenon but is so to speak, a necessary one. If he who lives in the wilderness — and is satisfied to be there, were to approve of the attitude of one who walks on the track, it would be equivalent to recognizing his own bankruptcy. That is why the ‘World’ considers the latter as a failure. The more he progresses with his work, the more he becomes an object of hate. That is why it is said that: ‘no prophet is acceptable in his own country’ and also: ‘A prophet is not without honour, save in his own country, among his own kin and in his own house.‘”
Let’s examine the part “If he who lives in the wilderness — and is satisfied to be there, were to approve of the attitude of one who walks on the track, it would be equivalent to recognizing his own bankruptcy“ a bit closer in relation to today’s’ world and events. One can easily refer this to people who keep denying that 9/11 was an inside Job or that UFO’s are and have been visiting this planet for ages and human beings are being farmed for “food”. The common man lives in the wilderness of the General Law/Matrix and has a very conditioned/limited view of reality. If he’d approve the truth of 9/11, the hyperdimensional manipulation of humanity or that Psychopaths with no conscience are ruling the world, it would produce an immense internal and psychological discomfort forcing him into moral bankruptcy as his long held beliefs would be shattered and he would have to face himself, confronting the illusionary existence he’s been living since birth based on lies. The common man has much invested in his illusion, psychologically and materialistically, his image, career, rank and status, and he will protect it against whoever threatens it, defending the prison he is in.
As Morpheus tells us in “The Matrix”:
The Matrix is a system, Neo. That system is our enemy.
But when you’re inside, you look around, what do you see? Businessmen, teachers, lawyers, carpenters.
The very minds of the people we are trying to save.
But until we do, these people are still a part of that system and that makes them our enemy.
You have to understand, most of these people are not ready to be unplugged.
And many of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent on the system, that they will fight to protect it.
The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us.
You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television.
You can feel it when you go to work… when you go to church… when you pay your taxes.
It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.
We can see now how esoteric work with all its struggle, suffering and attacks relate to the awakening process and initiation of the Wanderer. Super efforts are needed to truly wake up and accomplish one’s mission, whatever it turns out to be. There is also nothing “special” being a wanderer. The opposite, it takes great humility, awareness and responsibility combined with sincere self-work, gaining knowledge and learning the lessons to walk the talk and be truly of service.
“Disillusion” is a painful process and can be prolonged, depending on how much time the individual takes to realize he is living artificially and that this condition is a product of his internal dreams. Great courage is required to face reality and to destroy the mirage of a pleasant dream.”
– John Baines, The Stellar Man
“Every time a man sets himself to learn, he has to labor as hard as anyone can, and the limits of his learning are determined by his own nature. Therefore, there is no point in talking about knowledge. Fear of knowledge is natural; all of us experience it, and there is nothing we can do about it. But no matter how frightening learning is, it’s more terrible to think of a man without knowledge.”
– Don Juan Matus
We live in intense times. A lot of things are happening on our planet. Technology has advanced exponentially, yet human consciousness has not evolved at the same rate. We are in the midst of a major transformation, the shift of the ages, which many prophecies and mystery teachings have talked about. It won’t be over by 12/21/2012. Far from it.
This work is also open for any souled humans, not just Wanderers. Many are called, yet few choose to answer the call. Wanderers are not any better than “humans”. We all are multidimensional beings who have access to the deeper knowledge within us. We are them in the future. They may just have come back in “time” (since time doesn’t really exist but is a 3D concept, which doesn’t apply on higher densities) for assistance, but not to do the work for us. There is a spiritual war happening with forces at work most people are not even aware of. Understanding the Theological Drama behind STO/STS dynamics and the how the matrix control system works through ourselves is crucial for the awakening process of the wanderer and any sincere truth seeker.
“And as we have learned from Jesus, Gurdjieff and the Gnostic Sufis, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans, the rules of this World in which we live were set up and are controlled by this STS hierarchy and have been for a very long time. Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation….It is in “seeing the unseen” that we become aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we experience the “battles” between the forces of STS and STO! And it is most definitely this factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to conceal!… In other words, we are not just talking about a “petty dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.”
– Laura Knight Jadczyk, “The Wave” Volume 5&6 “Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown”
It takes much work and effort to anchor TRUE Love and Light, freeing ourselves from this current STS frequency. Just as individuals who have soul potential are called to engage in sincere self-work, making the darkness conscious and understanding what it truly means to BE the change we want to see, so the world needs to go through a collective “moral bankruptcy” and “dark night of the soul” before any true shift of consciousness can occur. We are in the muck and mire of the Kali Yuga.
“This is the hardest time to live, but it is also the greatest honor to be alive now, and to be allowed to see this time. There is no other time like now. We should be thankful, for creation did not make weak spirits to live during this time. The old ones say ‘this is the time when the strongest spirits will live through and those who are empty shells, those who have lost the connection will not survive.’ We have become masters of survival -we will survive- it is our prophecy to do so.”
– Tiokasin Ghosthorse
“I wish it need not have happened in my time,” said Frodo. “So do I,” said Gandalf, “and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”
– from ‘Lord of the Rings’
These are difficult times but also exciting times. There is love, help and support out there and good things are and can happen, but it all depends on us. The shift into 4D, the ascension and transformation into the STO vibration of Love in Light in the deepest meaning it these words is an opportunity, a choice – not a guarantee – for the ones answering the call. The struggle, for the most part, is with oneself.